so much mystery surrounding me so much inner journey I am bound to be taking on in the future, so insecure about my future but truck along fiending for gas, I take it day by day with a little sass still don’t drink coffee and you can hold the flask so trying to outrun the trauma from my Dad it's a tough pill to swallow and that’s usually no issue for me thank god I traded all that for ****, I always was attracted to green aquamarine baby, no march aries pisces like the koi fish coasting on the crystal blue water evolving, healing stuck in the past no longer moment by moment, touch by touch, hands entwined friendship showed me love
its been 2 years, I grew so much but I still carry the same fears the fears that you kissed, your hand I still miss I always have the memories but even those start to slip it's all the ****, it's all the daydreams my days start to bleed, I need a trip I need to escape, I need a bridge to get across these violent waters my emotions are stronger the longer they harbour I return to that day in your car where the rain fell so hard could barely hear rain on me on the radio I think of you no matter where I go I see you with your boo in Turks and Caicos I see you living it up and not day goes by where you don't cross my mind, got myself in so much trouble in the pursuit to find someone that shares your light, someone that takes their time, someone who is actually worth my time you just wished me a happy birthday and I wish the convo never ended I feel without you I am suspended not able to move, not able to do anything but cry as I watch the only good man I’ve ever met thrive I wish I could say you were ****, I wish you hurt me harder maybe then I wouldn’t be stuck like this, loved me better than my father maybe I was just a pitstop til you found your forever maybe I was destined to find better but on these cold march nights, it's hard to keep that in mind but on these cold march nights, I just want you in my sight drown in your light, love you as you deserve maybe that's what it boils down to never met someone who was worthy of my love, worthy of my touch
I'm 20 now, my logic still unsound I still linger around and use **** to drown it out I try to be perfect, be an adult, and keep working but I am not perfect, it hurts knowing that it hurts showing that but vulnerability is a virtue, I continue to work to to shine my light to shed light on what might be brewing under the surface, for a random observer I'm 20 now, I hate the way it sounds almost like the tik tok of a clock, I’m an adult now my prime is coming to an end retail therapy to pretend I'm not where I want to be, I'm not happy where I am do I keep put on the track I'm on or do I switch lanes instead too many tabs open in my head, too little time spent out of bed I need to get on my own feet, I need to plant these seeds, I need to not burst at the seams because I'm 20 now, cant wait to see it out wondering where ill be, who’s beside me, and if I’ll still doubt
March has marched in Half way through the month It is hot and has brought summer along The grapes and melons have turned sweetest ripe The mangoes have arrived too Raw and green, they are best pickled Come May King Alphonso, will be here From the wild coastal lands To conquer every heart For a golden reign
i have never understood when someone tells me that snow is beautiful the shimmer of white dust settling like a veil on the now dying grass the grey clouds they’ve descended upon the yellow of dog **** giving it its only color.
how is that gorgeous? don’t you want to make a snow angel? let’s go sledding!
i want the summer i want the springtime i want to open my sunroof feel the cool breeze on my skin take of this ******* hoodie go outside go on a walk look at the trees remember that people exist.
i’ve never liked flowers i don’t have a good sense of smell but I would take the pain of a beesting over the tears of a snowman any day.