I opened my eyes in darkness,
In the ravine where I met myself.
I heard my voice
in the deep silence.
In the unending crack
I began to tread again.
I tried to climb
out of dread and despair.
Nearing the death of light.
The moon has left.

The Earth trembled
As the rabbits marched down
With strange twisted muskets
and fangs in their Cowles.
You can hear the cry’s of crows lost crowds
who have obviously sent them around
to hop one by one
to lead you into the cold lonely ground
Where you can only watch
As the works of man
Are razed to the ground

deathly whispers
cloud ones' head
biosterous chatter
malign things said
Insecurity & her
friend, Dread
can't keep shut
till passion bled..
from every vein,
that's flooding red.
& in a slump
you crawl in bed
to wake to another
dawn, with
the voices tethered
inside your head.

Not unlike lights turning off abruptly
the rumble of the earth underneath
the waves of the sea rushing
unfamiliar faces passing
dark grey clouds gathering
blood tinting the river
and a lifeless corpse falling

Dread clutches my throat
and drags me into the abyss

my room looks like an old beaten up storm victim
with walls made up of mended old pieces of wood
and a light coming outside my room
with my headphones on

i fantasize a bright future filled with hope and freedom
one where i can create intricate pieces of my soul
but i don’t want to be stuck in this same place of desolate dreams

is the reason for this numbness to life and disconnection to my past and who i am
is because i dream of being eaten up by the worldly pleasures of glitz and glamour

am i not starving enough
to be called a starving artist fueled with this brimming passion and discontentment and art
am i not starved of love and happiness and zest that i became this unfeeling cold robot disconnected from everything

but i am poor, i am starving
why don’t i feel anything
am i just like my room
an old beaten up victim
made up of mended broken pieces without any light from within?

It’s too early in the night
for an existential crisis-
yet here we are.