Today I thought about you
You're down one knee
Ring in hand but I'm not there
You looked happy, more happy than I could ever make you
It hurt even though it wasn't real
There's a future I see
One with the both of us together
But that's the problem; I see it
Your feelings aren't there anymore
And we've drifted apart
Strangers passing by on the street
With nothing worth sharing
Because nothing can change our past
I thought I could fix what was wrong,
I felt alone in it all
Even if the way I showed it didn't seem like it, I am and always will be in love with you

~Shawn -vs- Rd~
~
I AM just
an ancient lover Rd
I AM just an infinity loop
dreaming childlike
of you and me mature and free.
Anyones Gold key who can
turn and open my heart's golden lock
to rock my world, pierce my entrails
with his Angels's longest speer,
as the Angel messanger of God
did for Teresa, igniting into her
ecstasy and bliss across time
and space a saint lover
in disguise,
owns my heart, my bridal
chambers my good fortune spin
and two gold infinity loops.
~~~~~
By: Karijinbba
71-74-95-21.

They easily left in a remorseless goodbye
I tried to forget and seemed to get by

The hardest part of moving on
Is always remembering that they’re gone

Even if they’ve forgotten about me
Feelings can’t be erased nor the memories

Friends stick together and lovers depart
I’ll say I’m better but always feel the spark

With a promising brandish it died on your end
My heart sunk and drowned, trying to pretend

That I felt okay, that I was going through some phase  
Everyone assumed, but it never felt that way

What does it matter, you have a wife and kids
To be trusted and lusted by you  
I’d sacrifice anything to give  
But dreams like that never come true

Happy ever after seems a faraway thing
Effervescent laughter inside two rings

That sparkle on both of your intertwined  hands
How left behind I feel you’ll never understand

Do you remember that night we spent together?
Laid there on the bed holding hands and cuddling so close together?
We were looking up at the fairy lights strung up above us, twinkling in the dark like a thousand stars shining down on us.


We looked at each other with adoring eyes, felt the taste of your lips full of lies on mine.
We held each other as if we could never let go. Felt your heart beating so fast along with mine.


But I wish I knew back then that the magic wouldn't last, I held on longer than I knew I should have.


I touched your face as I looked in your eyes and you whispered I love you and I believed your sweet lie, you then took my hand by surprise and slipped a ring on my finger.


A promise you said of our future together, a future we tried to build not once or twice but three times. I took your ring and believed every word you said, how was I to know back then that every word was never meant.


I tortured myself believing that this love was true, only to realise in the end that I lost myself giving all my love to you.


Now I look at that ring and wear it around my neck in a chain, not as a reminder of you but as a sign of hope that one day I'll finally be okay and that the love I gave you was never meant for you, it was meant for me all along that one person who mattered the most and became forgotten just to love you.

I should have never answered the phone when you called
The fact that you did had me feeling appalled
I never have the resolve to stand by my word
Worked to stay strong but my emotions were stirred
You never got the rejection you should have faced
Instead met with forgiveness you barely chased
I gave in too easily as I always do
Lose all control when it comes to you
Wanted you to experience similar suffering
I should have made you try harder
Should have let the phone ring

rain bends leafs to their depths
they ring out colour that fills the earths chest
a coat of white on a heap of life
unto death