Electric


Electric dreams of better feelings,
Running through my veins.
Electric feelings you cause in me
And these feelings will drive me insane.
I’m crazy in love with you
And love is driving me crazy for true.


Electric lady blew my mind,
When she didn’t kiss me goodbye.
She kicked my backside out of the door
And our love was no more.


She broke me, so I can no longer find love.
She broke me; I am in need of a hug.
I loved her like I loved my drug,
But she broke me and left me for dead in the mud.


I loved her more than life itself
And she hurt me more than anyone else.
I wanted her love more than I feared going to Hell,
But she broke me and I am in need of some medical help.


Alone with my misery,
Alone with my thoughts.
Feeling fragility,
There is a fight to be fought.
I must beat this anger out of my mind,
Because a loss of direction is all I am able to find.


I need to fix myself or get some help,
Or fail to crave love and lose a piece of myself.
Here is my heart; it is pointless to me,
When all it does is pump blood through my body
And allow me to be.


Love is dead on this cold hard floor,
So I am heading through a different door.
Electric love was amazing, but she was never pure,
So love is no more and living life is now just a chore.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Empty being


I only exist inside a hole of depression.
There is no light here, so there is no will or feelings to mention.
I am not getting enough sun to make me smile.
Love is invisible; I have no number on speed dial.
No-one to call on, to hold me close,
No partner in life, no hope for my soul,
Only endless nights.
No love in sight, nothing is right,
Keep your polite encouragement and positive words,
I am no longer listening…


I cannot speak to her.
The grand-father clock melts into a puddle of oil.
The plans of adventure continually foiled.
All hope has disappeared, gone with the wind.
I am clock not-working, no key,
No turning, only ever heading down,
Into my self-portrait image;
The tears of a clown.


Some would say it is misfortune;
I would say let’s give it a miss.
Some would say it will get better soon;
I quietly reply, not without her kiss.


This life is a journey into the unknown,
But I already know how my story goes.
If happiness appears, it is immediately gone.
I see a white swan…
The love bug bites me and breaks my arm.
I see a beautiful flower so I reach out to hold it,
The prickles of roses only leave my heart to bleed,
So I quit.
Keep your love, it will never want me.
I will remain the empty being.


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Empty inside.


Pick at the words; pick at the holes.
Pick me apart; you are cruel and cold.
I know your kind, you have no soul;
Let go, let go!  Be gone and leave me alone!


The darkness you hide under is merely the sound of thunder;
My words will become like lightning and rip you apart.
Accuse me, abuse me, but do not try to dilute me;
I am here to feed the need of those, who you have left starved.


You offer no remedy, to any thought ailment they may have.
Give back what you have taken,
You are unworthy of love;
You are unworthy as you attack.


Blissfully unaware of the light you cannot hold.
Inside your mind, nothing shines; there is no love
And every second you decay as you are now growing old.


Soon they will leave you to rot inside your hole.
Behold!  All the love is gone!
And so is your soul.


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Encore


Come hold me tight, never let me go;
It’s not my time to end the show.
Surely one encore, do I have left?
Surely one dream do I have, with you to share?
Surely there’s time, for me and you,
To conquer the world and fly to the moon.


Let’s wish away, our last hopes and dreams,
To help us erase our bad memories.
To start a new life, with joy and pain,
To feel the sunshine, once again.
To once more splash, in puddles of acid rain;
To find a new faith and our memories of love regain.


Do not give up; your heart is still beating.
The time has not yet come, for you to be leaving.
You are still alive, you can keep on dreaming;
You can find the power, to breathe again.


So pick yourself up, it’s only a flesh wound.
Fight for your life, before you become consumed;
By guilt and fear and a lack of hope.
I wish for another wish, to still be here tomorrow.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Enemy of being great


The Gods are clearly angry at the way we live our lives;
They have warned us, they have threatened us
And still we pay them no mind.


Alcohol is the Devil’s gift to the world;
It stops my brain from being able to think.
I shouldn’t complain about alcohol,
Because I have decided to no longer drink.


You are handed a book telling you how to lead your life,
But there is no time left to complete the story.
I have my independence, my own thoughts and I cannot fall in line;
Enemy of being great…my old friend apathy.


The bigger you are the harder you will fall;
I will rise so far above the norm
And still I shall remain nothing at all.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

England Made Me Proud


Black Box Recorder bring my world into order.
Such sorrowful tales of a brain melting disorder.
Girls crying tears of pure love broken;
Pure love snatched from beneath the truth that was spoken.


Promises of death upon exit from this;
This relationship, this world naturally exists.
A natural instinct for survival,
Disposed of like a clam of lust, lead to suicidal.


Cover songs sing of stardom,
Taken from the foolish, naïve generation.
Pop star T.V. is pure pop trite to me,
So give me death inside of my misery.


Hang our souls out to dry on the line,
There is nothing to risk, in this little light of mine.
This life of mine shall shine upon her,
Heavenly words of pain, death, love and being reborn.


Someone out there spoke of love;
Black Box Recorder speak of death.
I shall only tell her, I love you like I love my drugs
And Heaven can be heard in your dying words…your last breath.


You spit out your soul and give it your all,
In such serenely spoken words for the condemned.
With a soul like hers, I could build a star with these *****,
For she is just like me, destroyed, by everything.


Life is unfair!  **** yourself or get over it.
You have blonde hair, but I still love you.
Life is unfair!  **** yourself or get over it.
You have the look of love too.


So I killed myself, oh ****…
Or did I just get over it?
I think I shall **** us all,
Because I just don’t give a ****!


You don’t mean a thing to a Prince like me,
For my vocabulary shall give me the freedom I seek.
Bring me death, buried deep in a time capsule.
Let me be buried later in life, for I am no fool.


I must stay alive to discover my lover,
My destiny chosen singer of death, my other;
Half of this star is a bright flash of brilliance.
My half is as black as your soul, it is simply magnificent.


Love will **** you again and again,
But resurrection will save the day.
Suffer more pain, again and again,
Just so we can once more meet and find our way.


Let us journey together forever, but separately,
Let me show you how much this angel means to me.
Let Black Box Recorder remember everything I speak,
For my soul belongs to you, for you set my words free.



(C)2011 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

English Weather


The rain drizzles down on another bare winter’s landscape;

Whatever happened to all the snow?

Our winter nights are the same as any other day;

No white Christmas, since before I know.

The seasons they are a changing,

But the English weather rarely does.

Constant rain throughout the year, no room for snow or sun.



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Enlightenment


You must find what cannot be shown.
(Find your own way.)
You must open up and ignore your inner turmoil.
(Lose your doubts.)
Loosen up your hidden heart.
(Have faith in love.)
Close your eyes and see through the dark.
(Believe!)


Listen to silence and hear the answer.
(Find peace.)
Come with me to a higher plateau.
(Find Enlightenment.)
Stand as giants and fly as bees.
(Feel like God.)
Dare to imagine and ignore reality.
(Have a dream.)


Open up your inner-self.
(Be yourself.)
Have faith and go to spiritualist church.
(Find what you need.)
Open up you unconscious mind.
(Nirvana.)
Banish the demons that hide inside.
(Let go of bad memories.)


Confess your sins without speaking.
(Show your true self.)
Replace bad thoughts with good intentions.
(Change your ways.)
Dream a daydream see a shrink.
(Think about change.)
Learn to think and set your mind free.
(Knowledge is power.)


Make a fist then open your hand,
(Trust Me.)
And you will find your nirvana.
(Your future is in your hands.)
You must learn what cannot be taught.
(Experience life.)
Become free of feeling or emotion.
(Have no regrets.)


Meditate. *******.
Let go and cleanse your soul.
(Find inner peace and make yourself happy.)
Demons cannot cause harm.
(Have no fear.)
My love gives you the strength of ten thousand armies,
(I am here for you.)
Stand up and fight for what you believe.
(Show you’re with me.)
I am just a human being.
(I am all I could be…I am simply me.)


Welcome to my world, your heart is hiding,
(Hello Soul.)
Too scared of getting hurt.
(We all have bad/painful memories.)
Be honest with yourself.
(Go and get what you want.)
Unlock the door to a different kind of wealth.
(Find love is the greatest of all things.)
Sacrifice a slice of life.
(Give time to someone.)
Destroy your pride before you die.
(Vanity is worthless.)


Everything you have, is worthless to you,
When seen from afar.
(Don’t let other people tell you what to think.)
Realize you can’t be satisfied,
(You can never have enough.)
A guiding star lead you into my heart.
(Find love.)


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Epitaph


How do you grieve the loss of a loved one?
How can you possibly be expected to carry on?
How do you cope when a loved one is hurting?
How do you cope with the loss of your Mom?


You remember the good times you spent together;
You remember the times you laughed and cried.
You remember your loved one always, forever;
You forget the fact your loved one has died.


They wouldn’t want to see you sad;
They would want to see you laugh.
They wouldn’t want you to suffer in silence;
Remember their love, for it is the best you will ever have.


So goodbye Nan,
Goodbye Mom,
Goodbye Friend,
Goodbye my loved one.


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****** Vampire


You hide behind the darkened skies;
In pale moonlight, I see your eyes.
You hypnotize me with just one glance;
Then I am forever more, your man.


My Dark Angel of Death has come,
To give me immortality.
My Beauty of the Dark has come,
To truly love and save me.


My Queen of All and Everlasting Love,
I kneel before you and beg for your touch.
One stroke of pleasure, in one finger tip,
Before my death from your vampire kiss.


I give you my life, My Gothic Wife,
For you gave me our child and made me cry with a smile;
But still, we love the blackened skies.
The memories of giving life to our child.


That one night of love, that lasted forever.
The Child, our pride, shall never be severed,
From the umbilical cord which binds our family.
You give me life after death.  I give you my love eternally.


For never again, will I meet such a vision of beauty.
Forever more, I shall see you with piety.
Devoted to you, my Goddess of Love.
I offer you my soul and beg for your endless hug.


Entrapped together, I wish us to become.
I see in your eyes, you too, are in search of love.
So I swear to you, my Dark Angel of the Night,
I shall always love you, in the afterlife.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Escape Death


Love, death, save yourself,
Sell your soul, burn your wealth.
Take it in, spit it out,
Inhale, exhale, scream and shout.


Live forever, **** yourself,
Take a trip, find someone else.
The person inside, you are trying to hide,
It bursts out your heart,
Like a shining light.


Freedom for sale, just inhale,
Make it through; prevail.
All I have is nothing at all,
Something corrupt, taught us to feel.
Taught us to hear, taught us to fear.


Death, death, death, I’m alive.
My head is full of suicide.
Nothing is all you are,
Hide away you shooting star.


Demon seeds grow in your mind,
Light is no more, my eyes are blind,
To all happiness, I do confess,
I love you, I love you, for it is you I do detest.


My last breath is wasted on you,
My face, my heart, you do not deserve.
****, ****, ****, your shame and pride,
All your feelings keep inside.
For they are yours and yours alone.
Burn away your mobile phone.


God is here, the devil sits at his side,
He made the devil to make you think he is nice
And pure and loving and good and forgiving;
But the truth is dead, God killed it with sin.
Heaven or Hell it’s all just a myth,
The truth is - death is the end of your existence.


Mother Nature hates human beings,
They hurt her, they don’t deserve her,
They broke her heart, so she has deserted us…
And taken our feelings.


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Even after


You will always be cool in my eyes.
Even after you have broken my heart into a thousand shards.
Even when you leave me behind to die.
You will still be cool to me and my heart.


People find a way to survive the lies.
Lust comes and lust it goes.
Your love for me was that of a ghost,
It floated out with you when you were creeping
And I closed the windows.


I could never love another even if I tried to.
When you are wishing upon stars calling another name,
I will still be thinking of you.
The pain it still remains.


If I have to spend each day crawling through Hell,
I will remember I met you for a split second.
I hope you remember you met me as well,
But you won’t even recall my name, I reckon.


In this sacrificial life of mine,
I made your acquaintance and created a magic inside.
I became a spell
And sparks did fly!


When the candle is blown out by the wind,
Through the opening, you remain with me.
You will claim my body with scratches down my back
And I will still dream of you, I know that,
But even after all this time,
I still love you and you still lie.


You broke me apart with liar’s words,
But you lost someone who was always yours…you never heard.
No longer mortal, when we were immortal.
You are just a doused old flame and now you’re just ****** awful!


(C)2019 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Evermore


I am yours forever more, I am yours my evermore.
I am yours to use as a *****, I am yours my evermore.
I am here to offer you my love, I am yours my evermore.
I am here to tell you a story of us, I am yours my evermore.


I am yours, please give me your love, I am yours my evermore.
I am yours.  Who do you love?  I am yours my evermore.
I am yours for as long as you wish, I am yours my evermore.
I am yours to hurt or to please, I am yours my evermore.


I am yours, your one true love; I am yours my evermore.
I am the one you will be able to trust, I am yours my evermore.
I am the one you should stand beside, I am yours my evermore.
I will love you even after I die, I am yours my evermore.


I am yours until the end of time, I am yours my evermore.
I am yours unless you want another guy, I am yours my evermore.
I am anything you ask me to be, I am yours my evermore.
I will do anything you ask of me, I am yours my evermore.


I am here to make you happy, I am yours my evermore.
I am here to help you raise our family, I am yours my evermore.
I am yours for as long as you want me, I am yours my evermore.
I want you to welcome me into your family,
I am yours my evermore.


I want you to see my real love, I am yours my evermore.
I want to show you, nobody will ever love this much,
I am yours my evermore.


I am yours forever more, I am yours my evermore.
I am yours if you want me, give me a call…
I am yours my evermore.


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Every Colour of the Rainbow.


Yellow is your hair, like the sun that shines upon me,
Orange is the taste, of your juicy lips.


Red is the radiance, of your lipstick,
Green are the fields, in which we sit.


Blue is how I feel, when I am without you.
Purple was the colour, of the dress you wore the day…


You walked out of my world, now the Navy I must run to,
To make me try, to forget about my pain.


The Rainbow Girl, in my head will always be with me,
Whenever this Son and the dark rain shall meet.



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Everyone is happy.


People only want the truth if it is sounding positive.
People do not want to hear that the apathy has kicked in.
This depression is my cross to carry;
Good luck to you all, I wish for you all to be happy.
I only wish I knew how.
I need a love umbrella to stop the rain clouds,
That endlessly follow me around,
Like a lost little puppy,
Shouting to be found,
But all my screams are on the inside.
Fool the world with a smile;
I hide my true feelings because, you would not understand!
I exist, therefore I am.


Who gives thanks for something they never asked for?
Close the door,
Take the paintings off the wall,
Remove the carpets from my floor
And roll them all away.
Leave me in a room with nothing to view,
Not even one piece of divine beauty,
To keep me company.
Just leave me be,
Just leave.
Everybody does eventually.


This cactus does not need your gift of water.
This stain glass window does not need a fresh paint.
This soul does not need to receive a blessing,
Because it is not listening anyway.


There is no way I can be happy.
There is nothing…for me.
There is no peace, love and empathy,
When that is all I have to give.
Love is all I ever wanted;
All I want is somebody to love me,
But you have all, already got it.
Everyone is happy…


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Evolution


It’s a beautiful world…

It’s a beautiful world for us to behold.
Open your eyes; you are not yet cold.
You have only just begun.
You are yet to fall in love,
With the trees and the mountains and rivers so deep.
Evolution is calling;
Step back from the steep.


The mud is Lego, the leaves my roof.
Belief without proof.
The future,
Culture,
Soon…


Expand and multiply.
One day fly up into the sky.
Industrial sounds,
Seek to rise.


Now we stand a thousand feet tall,
We have become too lazy to walk.
We cease to go forward in an analogue world,
So digital becomes essential.
Zuckerberg stands on the shoulders of Gates,
The wealth is monumental.
Now money makes the world go around,
True love is a by-product; it is only rarely found.


We are self-aware, with pride, not care.
Kasparov moves his King into place;
We are still so unaware.
Three moves ahead, unseen as yet,
Will this be the end of all?
Time takes one thing, we can never just forget,
We live in a beautiful world.


We will rise against the machine;
We are all the rage, against the pain,
Rush humanity past a cybertronic defence.
It’s a beautiful world…today.


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Evolve to control.


When I have written my thousandth poem,
My work will be done.
Things will change after that
And I will make every poem I write after that, better than this one.


I will strive for perfection
And dedicate more time to each poem I write,
Because I cannot accept being just good enough;
I want to be the best I can be.
I want my poetry to become the meaning of my life.


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Existence.


As the darkness falls, I feel the walls are closing in.
There is no chance of escape.
My mind, it calls.
A universe of all my thoughts are keeping me awake.


The fear is here, the dreaded time.
Half past midnight, no light,
Just frightened of the future ahead.
Lying in bed alone, in the altogether, thinking about the here and now.


Tomorrow is just another ordinary day, they say.
I think not; give it all you have got, or fail again,
To find my feet, my spot, my place, in this empty world.
I am an empty glass; I need a place to exist.
Money earned means nothing to me,
Because love is free if you give it your all.
Cash is only paper, metal works too.
I want for nothing, so nothing soothes.


My mind a mathematician, counting sheep.
I am currently at two thousand and seventeen
And I am bored of everything,
Because I have no one to count on, or entertain,
My vain brain that only thinks about me;
All I truly care about right now is sleep.


I took an early night to book an earlier flight,
But my dreams are all delayed…
I am sure they will arrive in due time,
But I have to wait with nothing on my mind,
Because there is nothing that interests me.


My hopes and wishes are all so boring,
That you do not need to see.
I will not mention, guess what;
I will simply carry on with this pointless tale I tell.
I reach into the well and find a day so sunny;
Wouldn’t it be funny if animals could talk…


Time to get up, stand up and take a walk.
I drag myself out of bed this morn
And spend all day yawning, when nothing is boring,
So people see a distorted truth, an illusion,
Hence the confusion that follows my soul.
They all watch me as I go; true heart remains unknown.


Then I leave them all behind, close my eyes
And climb into my bed alone.
I wrap the quilt around my heart to keep me warm,
Because my love…life is…so cold.


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Exit light


This river runs deep;
I write in my sleep.
If you could see the things I see,
You too would have to speak.


I have been frozen,
Never truly chosen,
Many times broken,
But now I feel the heat, burning inside of me.


Pressure builds so I pick up the quill
And I will never be still, until…
But now I am here,
So I hope you can hear,
The words I cannot help but write,
In the middle of this pitch black night;
The phone my only light.


Predictive text, has only left, me to forget, a train of thought.
A lack of wed, no peace in bed, I write my best whilst wearing nought.
Insomnia it comes and goes, so even when my eyes are closed,
I may be watching all of those that creep along my wall.
The insect beings and spider queens have all joined teams,
To watch over me…and I can hear them talk.
Inside my dreams I am minute when I am mute.
If only you could hear my voice, maybe I could reach out for you.


As I fall down into oblivion’s din,
No saving grace is listening.


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Expectations


Struggling to be myself,
When they expect me to be something else.
I don’t want to change, find a new story to tell.
I could love you if you would just let me be myself.


Cannabis has killed my mind and my dreams;
I smoked it so that I could see,
But because I smoked it I have lost my every hope
And any memory of any of my dreams.


I find it hard to comprehend, all the stupid things I have ever said.
I try to cover up the dirt stains I have left, but they can still be seen.
Still they expect me to get up and out of bed;
Why should I try, when trying never did anything for me?


Old memories still linger in my eyes;
I can see them now, I can see that life.
I can see it all just floating away in a puff of smoke;
Ah the good old days sure were good, but I had to let them go.


I still have the same indifference, but something shifted.
Reality drifted and I was falling, when I should have been lifted.
Great expectations and hopes for a future,
Left to go to pieces; apathy left me laying in a stupor.


Now real life kicks in, the ash in tossed into the bin;
It’s the same old me on a different day,
But I don’t know where to begin.
I could tell you of now or of when I was a kid,
But they never expected anything from me then,
So why should I care about something that I never did?


No expectations, just instructions;
Self-destruction was my only way to function.
Brain malfunction, funny to me now;
I lost my way without direction,
But in my future I want to take a bow.


So I fall in line, I have done my time;
I have followed their rules and still this home is not mine.
Everybody expects me to try my best,
But I expect nothing more, than the least I have to give, my friends.


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Eye Heart Ewe


I am in love with love.
The idea of love.
The romance,
The faithfulness,
The complicatedness of it all.
How the other half live.
The joy, the laughter;
The pain and the misery.


Faithful to me is no longer a myth.
All that I want, I have thanks to this.
This love thing, this drug thing,
This life, lust and us thing.


People speak when it is unnecessary…
But these words I am unable to not say.


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Eyes


Dark and dreary, leave me here bleeding;
Living in the dirt was never meant to be easy.
Broken in three, I was never allowed to be free,
From the shackles of your society.


Down and out and I couldn’t care less;
I will never try to pass your test.
I need no acceptance; it is of no consequence.
All that matters are my ideals and finding the next sentence.


Leave me howling at a full moon surrounded by women in black;
There are whispers in the air
And they speak of dancing naked under moonlight.
No owl to be found to ask a word of wisdom, I catch my breath;
Surrounded in the darkness with a flash of flesh,
I am carried away to a place of pleasure in the middle of the night.


Wearing black to not fit in and not caring if we stand out.
Pop is trash; all they ever do is whisper so they can shout.
In the night we are lost, never to be found inside your thoughts.
Cook your food in your no picture apron and say oh my, somebody calls.


Society is made from gravity, but a poet cannot be kept down.
We must fly, so give us immunity; I cannot be, fall in line here and now.
Can’t be late, we must pay, we cannot say, we cannot be;
All we want is to be allowed to speak,
But the laws of life keep us from revealing our poetry.


Still the sound in the night, a revolution in the air.
Politics, it’s all tricks; it is here and it is there.
Corruption is everywhere; they are all wrong, but do they even care?
Welfare state, what a state, this is what leaves me falling down
And all they can do is stare.


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Fade to grey


Take my hand and let me set fire to your mind.
I want to see, what you are hiding inside.
I’m blinded by the light of your eyes
And I just called to say, I never lied.


Wishing upon a shooting star.
I would shoot it down to give it to you;
If that is your wish,
Then let me, become your Prince.
For I am the one who has travelled far,
To prove I deserve a chance at a kiss.


I followed a rainbow and it led me to you.
You are sun, I am rain;
We are evenly matched and love is in bloom.


The world is our theatre;
Our script is unwritten.
With you I have become totally smitten;
You are a kitten.


Beauty pours out of you;
You are my poetry soup.
I drink you in to taste you.
You give meaning to my view.


This is what I see;
A Queen, I must kneel.
My love I shall worship you,
For I am humble and you are unbelievable!


Give me your hand in marriage
And you shall soothe the damaged,
Voice inside my heart,
That only knows of the lies I hear, in yet another adage.


Embrace me once again;
Be the moth to my flame
And I shall be grateful,
To be no longer hateful…
Goodbye to yesterday.


Cure my disease with a simple kiss.
You are my nurse,
You are my anesthetic;
My medicine and my A and E.


Sound the alarm!
Ring the chapel bells,
Before all Hell breaks loose;
Let us wed so I can heal myself.


Paranoia over cheating;
Banish this memory,
Let me be who I used to be…

Fade to grey with me.


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Fading away


Mourn me when I am gone;
Remember me as someone who lived his life, the only way he knew how.
Think of me when you sing a song;
Remember me, when I am gone with the clouds.


The sun is setting on another lifetime;
It’s time to die, it is my dying time.
Time is fading away and I welcome death;
For in my final breath I will discover what comes next.


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Faithful or hateful


Faithful or hateful, the choice is yours.
I can only ever be grateful for your company ‘The one I adore’.
You’re so funny; you make me laugh like no other does.
I guess you love me.  Is this what you call love?
I am still asking the questions, never getting satisfaction.
Still searching for clarification, so here I am asking.


Are you faithful or hateful?  The choice is always yours.
You are still ‘The one which I adore’.
You showed me your light
And I was blinded by such a beautiful sight.
Your beauty thrills me;
You make my heart skip a beat.
You make me rise, to my feet,
Just to kneel down before you unworthy.
If only you could, I would ask you to love me.


I don’t know if you’re faithful or hateful.
All I know in my heart is that I will always be grateful,
For once you loved me and I too loved you
And between us two, we had something unnamed
And it could never be tamed,
Because once we were real…
Now we are only in old flames.


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Fake it


You can’t fake it, to make it;
You can’t fake it, if you want to make it.
If you have got talent, then you will make it;
But whatever you do, when you reach the top, don’t fake it.


Be real kid, just like your heroes did;
You’ve got to feel it and mean what you say.
No you were not too mean, because you said it with meaning;
You were real, you made me believe, so have a nice day.


Fail to live your life the way they want you to;
You have done all you can to be like them,
But they never embraced you.
Say what you mean, you know we can take it;
Do what you can do and make sure you stay true.


You meant what you said and that is what matters;
Say I love you whenever you get the chance
And never look backwards.
Write it with meaning, but don’t be too mean;
Do what you want to do and you will find meaning.


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Fake news


A man was seen walking down the street,
Greeting people;
No souls on his feet.


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Fallen angel.


I am the man who fell to Earth;
My space suit failed and I found it hard to breathe.
As I landed amongst the roses that grew from the dirt,
I knew I had found my new home and I would never want to leave.


We find ourselves inside our own sanctuary,
Surrounded by our own insecurities;
But in humane hands I feel safe at last.
Safe enough to swear a pact.


All those people living down there, I never used to understand;
I used to think they were below me, before their land became mine.
Beautiful angels surround me; we are locked together on this land.
Suicide romance is a forgotten memory;
I have removed it from my mind.


The sun is shining on my beautiful wife;
I love it when she holds me so tight.
I hold her close to me and remind her of a former loves light;
His face has changed to my face now and our future is so bright.


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Falling


For a little bit of happiness,
I get a whole lot of depression.
Maybe if I accepted the sadness,
I could live a normal life, no question;
But the little bit of joy I get when I see her smile,
Leaves me to believe that life is, worthwhile.


It’s the tiniest bit of good,
And in return 3 days of bad;
But for just a little bit of time,
I truly am not sad.
For just a portion of a day,
I can smile again.
Just for a little bit of happiness…
The pain is just a shame.


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Falling away


The same day again, I wish it away;
I found a new way to live with the pain.
Leave me alone I’m happy here,
Inside this maze of life and fear.


I found a new way to please myself;
Without your love, I can be something else.


I don’t want to stop myself from falling away from you.


Falling away,
Falling away,
Falling away,
Is my only way to be saved.


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Falling in love


In love with you was never easy;
I fell for you and landed flat on my face.


We fall and became undone, lacking in trust;
Love echoes inside each and every one of us.
We try to believe, but life takes it out of us,
Because love is killed, once you have broken that trust.


I’ve got high hopes of leaving you forever;
High hopes of moving on without you.
High hopes I had, when we first got together.
No hope is all I have now thanks to you.


Take a pill to numb the pain;
Every day is never/always the same.
Teach me how to feel again;
So I can hear you when you call my name.


My love and I want to die;
We used to believe, until we cried.
Now all we believe is too many times,
We have had to say goodbye.


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Family of friends


So love, what’s the drug?
Smoke it, poke it, **** on da blunt?
Inhale, breath out, inhale, party-party.
That’s how all this ****** started!


Inhale, breath out, inhale.  Stop it!
Inhale, breath out, inhale, party-party!
Hi I’m high, what?  You’re my wife?
And we’re in an ambulance doing 95,
Because your waters broke, when I was having a ****?
Yo stop the van!  We all need to just chill out.


Yo little baby, I hope you can hear me!
Because this world is scary, stay there inside Mummy.
You don’t want to come out here in the big bad world,
They will make you eat sandwiches and go to school.


Stay there for a while, until we get to hospital,
Then me and your Mom
Are going to have our greatest moment of love.
A second in time to remember for the rest of our lives.
I can’t repeat what she said,
But it translates into I’m your loving wife.


Don’t hold her hand!  No, don’t do it!..
Too late, she’s got him now; listen out for when she breaks him.
Crushed my hand she did and blamed me for all of it.
How was I meant to know she was going to end up pregnant?


Nah, not me, I could never do that…
9 months later…Hi  Dad.


So the little dude was born and he came out shining,
Then his sister was born and we kept rolling up and on.
Then another sister for the little dude and his sister;
Then a dude, then a sister, then another son.


I lost count after the first three; how many was it?
Somewhere between 1 and a hundred kids?
No woman could possibly be capable of such a feat.
I didn’t marry just any woman;
I married the woman of my dreams.


In your dreams anything is possible,
So why can the two of us not just live up here in our castle?
With a tribe of people we call our family,
Our friends, our associates, our family; our loved ones.
So drink with them, your family of friends,
For they will love you until the bitter end.


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Fantastical


We need magic in our lives.
Imagine a world without it.
I still dream of dragon’s fire.
I have since I was a kid.
There are many worlds, somewhere out there,
And they all need the stars to shine.
Every kingdom needs an heir.
I wish I had a fantastical mind,
Which could easily speak of fantasy more readily,
But I am all I am.
It is not enough, as it should be,
For fantasies do not happen every day…
But stories must be told,
So I had to say.


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Fantasy reality


Strange times call for stranger people.
Magic exists and it’s mostly not evil.
Fantasy worlds are there if you believe.
Use your imagination and you will once more see.


When I was weak I noticed you through stained glass.
Now I am strong enough to take a chance.
I reach into your world and find my spirit.
You drag me into being with you, where the Queen’s are not all wicked.


Where next to go on this magical road trip?
Into your heart is a place I want to visit,
And maybe you would let me stay.
Let’s create a movie and fly away.


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Far too late.


I'm far too late
And too far away,
To be telling you those words,
I never had the chance to say.  


It's all too much,
This thing they call love.
This thing that always had its grip on us.  


But we broke free, or did we?  
I guess we just lost our grip on the perfect reality.  
So far gone, this thing they call love.
So heart bruised and too love broken to fix.
Now we can no longer trust.  


But for a moment in time,
I was yours and you were mine.
We were stars together, flying so high!  
Until we crashed and burned,
As we each learned,
That even in the greatest love stories, the hero dies.  


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Fatal By Design


Humans are as fatal as a motorcar,


Born only to die in a head on collision with death.


It’s just waiting to happen; there is no escape.


Your future’s bleak; revel in it.


Fatal by design, born only to die.


Fatal by design, born only to die.




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Fearless


Long hair waving in the new wind.
Time changes and it’s a **** beginning.
Bowie, I only worship one king.
All that is left are the songs we are still singing.


Heroes fall under the thunder sounds.
Waterfalls endlessly come crashing down.
Inside my own existence I continually drown.
I can never find the right way out.


Primal heart; bitten Devil man.
Longing for a new wave to send me to a better land,
Where people are free from eternal suffering.
I hold aloft the heart of endless dreaming.


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Fear of commitment


It seems you want to see me laughing.
I think I could try, but where is the fun?
It seems you want to see me happy,
But the scratches down my back have long since gone.


Maybe I could find a way to begin chatting up,
But the silence I hold. What is love?
No more for the meter,
I have a wheel clamp on the tongue.
It seems I should by now be with my love,
But this continuous car crash that is my love life…
It just ain’t letting up.


I crash and burn at each and every turn.
If only I could take control of this life that I live,
But I am only ever destined to be hurt
And to lose my hope in everything.


The smile I raise will never grow up;
The lies I tell keep me grounded.
My ego has a life of its own, so it’s tough,
To keep my mind on the level.
No safety net, I fall alone…unbounded.


I see a light, I follow it,
It only leads me to where I once was.
I ignore the light and wander blind,
I walk in the dark; I end up lost
And then I see another reflection in a mirror;
Another time when I was myself
And there I see I am no nearer to leaving this maze,
This endless place I dwell.


The walls I put up are a hundred feet tall;
No horizon to be seen or to chase after.
The map to this life is never written, just walked;
One mistake at a time,
So gone is my laughter.


I see the end, the gate is locked;
I climb over the top and down I drop.
When I get to the other side,
I find myself back at the beginning.
Woe is my revolving life.


Around and around in circles I go,
Into love I fall so deep it hurts.
I pick myself up and wait until it is long ago,
Then I fall again, repeating those empty words I hear from her.


Now they mean nothing,
Hoping for something to change,
But it all remains the same.
Love is just a revolving door with a queue.
Waiting on someone.  Waiting on you.
Serving you drinks, while you kiss and hug him.
Waiting to leave all of this!
But love is my cage and I am locked in.


So I waited…until I broke;
Never to be repaired.
Never again!
Never again will I wait,
To once more go away to allow me to breathe air.


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Feeling


Feelings.  Ain’t they a funny thing?
Wondering, feeling, thinking, sinking.


Why?  Oh why?  Oh, I see you are wrong.
Oh yes that’s right, like the words of a song,
Of hope and joy; what a wonderful world.
Reality ***** when a boy meets a girl.


Who will be first to give up on love?
Who will be first to unlearn how to trust?
God only knows!  Good heavens above!
Humans know Earth; we know it’s no good.


Death and despair, we have it by the truckload.
Come get it for free; everything must go!
We’ve already sold love, trust, deception and honesty;
Everything is just a word.
There is no such thing, as a true honest feeling.


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Feelings change


Brittle heart and feet for wheels.
Never had a happy meal.
Living like I am at the end;
Never gonna try again.


Given up on giving up;
Craving more of a lovers touch.
I love the sun that shines on me.
Everywhere I speak I find empathy.


Dead inside, but still alive.
I am a mess that is feeling alright.
Hating every word you say,
So gonna look the other way.


Happy days are back again,
New open eyes see past the pain.
Fond memories of being loved.
I have never felt this good!


Still so sad under the skin.
I have an empty bed in which to sink.
Misery is all I can think;
It’s all I have left to believe in.


Up and down my feelings go.
Like her, I have never felt so alone.
Waiting on a new romance.
It’s time I gave true love a chance.


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Fi Fine, Fo Fun


Let me show you another way.
Let me breathe empathy towards your pain…


Hi Fi.  
Remember me?
I’m the guy I think you need.


I want you to know, you are on my mind
And I hope you like me too.
Maybe we could go out together sometime?
Or just chill at mine; it is all up to you.


I want to look deep into your eyes,
Because there’s something there,
I don’t want to miss.
Maybe it’s the promise of a forthcoming kiss?
Or maybe that is just what I wish.


Your body wants to hide,
But your words are so open.
I have nothing to hide,
My soul is written down for you in poems.


So here I stand; yours if you want me.
Come chill with me some time
And criticize my bad poetry.


I should have told you.
How beautiful you are to me.
I should have hugged you,
To be more compassionate somehow.
I should have done more,
When you were so honest and free.
I should never have met you…Life would be much easier;
But you are in my head now.


So goodbye for now,
What I meant to say,
Was I’d really like to see you somehow;
If there is a way.


I want you to be with me sometime,
If you have the time;
To fit me into your hectic life.


I should have told you,
You’re pretty…hot!
I should have told you,
I’m not good enough.


I offer Peace, Love and Empathy
And I hope you accept it too,
For you are more than welcome.


But my heart is yours to see;
Maybe yours to keep…
Or maybe just yours to use,
If you just want the same old story.


Would you like us to share our bodies, minds and souls sometime?
If you show me yours…
I’ll show you mine.


I think I would like it very much indeed,
If you were to spend some time with me.
I could show you I am an Angel
And confess all my sins…
I could put my hands around your heart and love you…
If you would only let me in…


But if you just want fun
And you don’t want my love…
Then I accept, let’s have fun….


Let’s chill and
Be good buds.


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Fight Injustice Against You


Fight all those who stand in your way,
Fight all those who stop us being free.
Charge at them with a clenched fist raised
And watch them cower beneath our feet.


We have the power to let them hurt us,
But we will not let you stop us now.
We shall fight you tooth and nail,
We shall rebel, to show how much we care.


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Fight love


Love is like Fight Club.
Love is a war.
There can be no love, when love is so very bored.


The first rule of Fight Club is “You do not talk about Fight Club.”
The second rule of Fight Club is
“YOU DO NOT TALK ABOUT FIGHT CLUB!”
The first rule of love is “You do not cheat.”
The second rule of love is “YOU DO NOT CHEAT!”


Have I made myself clear, or do you need my sacrifice,
To show you I mean every word that I say?
If you need an example, then that is ok.
Hand me my razorblade.
I am willing to die for love;
Are you?
Are you good enough?
I am willing to die for love;
Are you good?
Are you speaking the truth?
Are you serious about love?


I am not talking about passion, ***, or even compassion.
I am stating a fact; I would stand in front of a bullet for love.
True love or nothing, keep your temporary satisfaction.
If only your love could be true.  
Is your love true?


The third rule of love is:
“Don’t say I love you unless you mean it.”
Don’t call me Babe, unless you are down to the grave.
Don’t make me a promise and later easily break it the same day.
Do not speak the words, unless you mean what you say.
If you say you want to marry me; then convince me.
Prove you need me to love you endlessly.
We have to be through to the bitter end,
Or let’s not even begin to be friends.


When all is dead and done, I will not be your shining sun.
I will not speak ill of the dead because you will be alive.
When we reach our end, because of your other men,
Remember you said “Yeah.”  Remember what you said,
And I will never forget those things that you did.
The fourth rule of love is not I am with stupid.


Turn the page and look at what I wrote.
Learn what you said; pick a quote.
I have already said my love is 4real before.
Do you think you are worthy, or are you truly a chore?
Who is that a-rapping and a tapping upon your door?
If it is not me, but another him,
Then pity me please, for I have become your victim.
Stab the lie through me from the front,
And leave me to bleed on the floor after being dumped.


‘til death do us part sounds like Heaven to me.
**** me if you want to be mean.
Are you ready to **** with your sympathy,
And claims of understanding,
When you clearly DO NOT UNDERSTAND A ******* THING!


Chop off my thieves hand and remove this ring.
Set fire to it and burn me with lies.
You are so despised, because you accepted this thing.
Next, listen carefully and leave me blatantly rejected.
For true love I am ready to die.


Only one is worthy;
It is not you.
I am living proof.
You have destroyed my last chance of happiness.
Why are you waiting for me to say anymore?...
Too-da-loo.


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