You
make it easy
Cos you love me
x

The mind commits suicide long before the body does

Fill me up from head to toe
Make me melt; Body and soul
Not just once but ever more
Kiss me hard; And watch me soar

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­I'm not with it tonight
I can feel the electricity
Sparking hairs on my wrists
Knowing it's gonna get lonely
On a high for days; it doesn't matter to you
That there will be a fall, a major drop, that will consume
It's one thing to give a ****
It's another to respect
That maybe there's more to the feelings of the one you love
Than one might ever expect.
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Make me or break me
You can know that once you're through with me
I will make every straight girl question her sexuality
And only taste one for the rest of my life
Because I am a loyal *****
And you are a town ****

Burning money on the streets
I wanna start a riot
The cops like robots beneath our feet
I wanna start a riot
We'll sing our songs and break the beat
I wanna start a riot
Kiss my lips and tickle my teeth
We all oughta start a riot

Moth mouth never liked to fly
She was afraid of the light;
Darkness empowered her
A cloak to hide in,
Was all she knew.
On a closed door she whispered
To the dust
And suede,
That the light would restore her;
Despite her greatest fears
And it was then
She knew
**The greatest things are accomplished
When you face your fears

I'm strong I'm hormonal and I'm gonna cut a *****

Slow agony but still I cut binds
Blood filling every crevace as I go
If life was meant to be easy God would've made me pretty
I down my medication
And bind myself again

I'm sorry
I wasn't truly yours
I'm sorry
You couldn't accept that
I'm sorry
I ever looked up to you
I'm sorry
You re-married, and
I'm sorry
You had no time for me.

**I wanted a real father.

She is a smooth surface with rough edges
A doll with a face of milk and butter
But a heart with an iron gate
The slightest nick in her tattered dress
Could cause the gate to shut
And no more will she open her arms
To the beating of the doll-maker's heart

It's one thing to break someones heart
It's another to sever their leg and beat them with it

I changed your name in my phone
It's sadistic in its own way
To think the boy I truly love
Can be known as ****-head or bae

Watch me walk
Right outta this hell
And into something meaner
They say I'm all talk
But I wish em well
And the grass is always greener
Their words like pitchforks
They can speak but can't tell
The gods are waiting, Zeus and Athena
So watch me walk
And cast that spell
To whisk me away to a world so much sweeter

I don't expect you to understand
Is possibly the biggest lie anyone could conjure
Do not belittle me
Or what I feel
And never breathe those wretched words
Be wary what they can do
Don't spit them at me
I'm trying to help
And that's more than I should do for you

Oh Jesus loves you?
Bet he can't make you scream

I give you flowers and tears
You give me sarcasm
I wish you would show a little more sympathy
You'd rather I get a backbone
I whisper unspoken love on your shoulder
You say it with a mothering tone
I have a panic attack whenever something doesn't fit
You dismiss it all with an iron fist
I dream of a place full of love and passion
You're just thankful you even exist
Money, ***, miscommunication and occasional road trips
It's not necessarily a bad thing just
Our own sort of a
**Dysfunctional relationship

My head is full of helium my body's drowned in lead

Of all the people you could curl up to at night
You chose me

Spiders,
I love how they fester inside her
When blood boils
And her anger gets higher
Sweet Lyra,
Hold me close
Don't call me a liar
Come,
Smile a little wider
And sing me to
sleep

For a moment
Climb out of that noose and come with me
Cast the razor blade away
And come
You'll see
That the eyes of youth can only imagine
A future in a week
Or two
But not a millennium
For with the gun in your teeth you cannot believe
That you are meant
For more
Than what you can already breathe
Every thud in your chest
Was made for life
A life
Well lived
Be a husband or a wife
Be an author
An artist
A creature of your own invention
A lover
A fighter
For you are needed for higher intentions
Than the tears you shed
Every night
And song
That reminds you of a time long gone
That will come again
If you just put down those meds
And come with me
Because like I said
The fumes from the car
Which you learnt to drive
For so much more you are meant to be alive

I never liked a happy ending, it just isn't real

I'm scared to death that my wings are being clipped
While I tend to the weak
Plucking a feather for each of the fallen
A sad attempt of trying to save someone else
Forgetting myself
Being torn apart

It's ******* terrifying
Like one half of your brain is tearing away from the other
Nothing is in your control anymore
Scream, cry, ******* kick a wall
It's always the same
Not knowing which way you're gonna fall
When you can't make up your mind
And its one or the other but you can't pick
YOU WONT
Because it's not something you can do
The most BASIC decisions you will make in a day
Are the hardest decisions you'll ever overthink
Everything.... Is too much
We're all psychos
We are all beyond help
Because we are an anxiety, depression trodden society
And it all comes down to the unknown
And that's ******* terrifying

The girl who's birthday has always been forgotten
Finally has friends
She watches them all jumping with glee
As they invite everyone around them
To Rainbows End
Everyone,
But me
...

I'm inspired
Interrupt my reveries and I will slash you
With my keys
And stab my heel into the soft spot of your throat
Until you bleed enough for me
To write my ideas
In blood

Hello darkness my old friend
I've come to talk with you again
I watch you come and go like rain
From feeling empty to knowing pain
Take my hand I'm glad you came
For it takes patience
to love my name

If you knew me entirely, you wouldn't love me anymore

I tried so hard to let go.
Yet the past still sneaks up on me just as I'm moving on.

It's a gem to find peace in your own
company
Usually I'm at war
With my own thoughts
An introvert
battling an extrovert
Scrubbing so hard at the many masks I wear
Only to breakdown in tears
Or blood
Whichever
However*
Right now I find balance
Between my right side
and the left
So I may suffer in silence
Or just take a moment
to rest
Whichever it is that is going on
I'm simply
at peace