I "NEED" To Write, For My Time is Tight, I Reckon Im Losing this Fight But as I Sit Here Through this Night I'm Seriously Trying to Muster some "!MIGHT!" Ok Am Telling You I Can Get this Right! For My Wife is Sleeping Beside Me And Guess What SHE LOOKS SO BRIGHT
I said it it before just whatever fine *insomnia I'll just go with it u win but I* *survive*
When i'm not okay I hate myself When i am down I hate myself When i have failed I hate myself When i can't be what i want to be I hate myself When i have so much problems stuck in mind I hate myself When i can't shine like everyone I hate myself When i hate myself I hate myself
Nothing's special in me I can't be like those girls I can't be like another people I can't struggle with creative mind I can't survive the hardest time I can't solve problems with smartest way I can't reach the top I just can see everyone's standing on top I can't be like this I can't be like that And i can't be myself
Stars on a terrace Loving in dark, broken in light Teetering too far Sacred places left in my heart I’m caught with the monster in my head Nostalgic for the love I never kept The veins rebelled behind my bones My mind going to a place When love was a word Not a fight that grew cold
“Define me in one word”, I said Hope gleaming in my eyes and an anxiety of the unknown twisting, gripping, turning my gut. You laughed lightly; beautifully flashing your perfect, perfect teeth You ****** in a sharp breath, Rolled your eyes back as if the word was glued to the inner of your skull Fidgeted. A dry, humourless laugh croaked past through my lips "Hot!" You said through your slightly smirking lips And I bit back the floods that welled my eyes the bile that rose up my throat as I realised the humiliation that I had reduced myself to. And The silence punctuated all the words unspoken.