Sadness fills my chest when I see kids laugh and play with friends. Friends that I never got to have. Happiness that was sadness when all I got was myself and a note pad Seeing happiness filling their hearts m with a sound of a symphony remarking my best words. My heart fill with joyous, jealous, anger because I wish I could of had the love they had. Now you see, watching the present reflects your past in a negative or positive way. Bullies smashing my face with a ball, or rubbing it against a rubber band, making me ****** dis confident. Coming home to a world of emptiness, and pain.
I periodically Perpetuate hurricanes all around me manifesting my illusions filled with anomalies commonly I’m far from Common as these evil forces completely surround me crashing down to rock-bottom longing to no longer be lonesome but my loneliness is caused by my compulsions such impulsive behavior needs to get out of me, expulsion creatively i creep to seem casual and sane To a world that’s corrupt and crippled needing a cane ****** and staring into the eyes of the truth but with all this proof we can’t find who is to blame to some mentally my mind it is unglued broken into bits from so much abuse daily I’m terrified of torture I feel like I’ve got nothing to lose I’m black and blue Just one giant bruise Beaten and brought down to my knees Reluctant to beg. I scream out please No more In my tears I’m drowning A moment of silence as You Playfully tease But the kid with the magnifier Doesn’t hear the ants screams Only burns and burns Until their is nothing left But the shell of a man Who’s life is a mess
You never make anyone smile, you laugh if they cry. You bring out my anger, and all of my sighs. You’re nothing I admire, and everything I despise. You’re all stupid and simple, but think you’re so wise. You mock the gentle, then brag about being cruel. Act like you’re so clever, but you’re the biggest fools. I really can’t stand tools like all of you. You’re all basic ugly rocks, who think they're jewels.