Mysterious person in my dream
your appearance is quite extreme
You feel like a dark, wretched theme
its enough to make me wanna scream
Sometimes both keeping my eyes closed and opening them up are terrifying
The mirror has a habit of reminding me the pieces of myself that ive lost and kept on losing. What i have left is not much.
"Moving is like dying"
Empty pasts haunt
the reborn body.
Minds collapse and form
new beautiful butterflies.
The more moving,
the more broken wings.
The butterflies stop flying
and start crying.
The hottest tears
for all the years.
The future becomes terrifying.
this little beast inside of me
is too afraid to face the monsters
that this terrifying world
has given birth to
it screams inside my chest,
pulling me away from the fire
I so desperately need
I’ll shout you down,
Laughing in my way:
A joy filled sound,
To shake you
To your core.
A sound to amuse me,
To shatter the farce.
Sweet and pleasant,
Loud and musical,
Never have I heard
Such terrifying Joy.
Perhaps the closest I'll get to explaining why I use SilverLaughter as a name for almost everything.
Ever since childhood I hated uncertainty
and I was scared of every little change that has happend
Even if it was something minor I sudenly felt different
But even though changes are terrifying they are necessary for us to grow
We have to step out of our comfortable bubble
In the end it teaches us that we are unbreakable
So I am walking through the paths of life
terrified but feeling alive
Such a human emotion
Something all humans carve to have
Something all humans can't resist
There are some
Who can't stand the thought
It terrifies us
To our very core
Such a repulsive word
We don't crave it
We resist it the best we can
The human need for love
The human craving for love
The human wanting of love
Fights with this fear
And every day they clash
Together in a fight over control
Neither side is willing to back down
Such a terrible, scary word
Such a deep, uninviting word
Such a tear-working word
I can't have it
It needs to stay away
I don't need it
It scares me anyway
Such a terrifying word
Philophobia is real; it lives in me
sounds pleasing and
I wouldn't want to die
not just yet
sleeping forever underneath
mermaids all around
Death began at my first cry//
You will never see the world
the way I do
I can try to convey
The world I see
But the reality is
You will never be inside my mind
Just like I will never be able to never enter yours
We like to think we understand eachother
But there is no real way to
Because no matter how much we share with another
Interest, goals, fears,
There is no way to know for certain
That we feel the same they do
There is something beautiful in that
Contributing to the statement that everyone is unique, and different
But it's also terrifying
Knowing that you cannot be anything but alone
When you're in your own head
But there is real power in this
Knowing what you have is truly your own
And no one can take that from you
And anyone can their power
To create something truly special
To feel joy and fear mingle together -
two alpine rivers flowing into one.
11:20 - 25/06/17
State of mind: excitement; curious; thoughtful.
Thoughts: from thinking - about paradoxes and emotions. The combination of joy and fear is awe, I believe. It is one of the most sensational feelings.
You don't need to be on top of a mountain to feel awe.
Questions: When will you pluck up the courage to talk to the stranger you admire? It might feel... awesome. It might be... awe-inspiring.