Nothing hurts like love


I have tried to always be there.
I have tried to help you with your stupid hair!
I have tried to care…
But I don’t.


I have tried to see our future, to see through.
I have tried to share with you all my truths.
I have tried to love you too…
But I don’t.


Down every river there flows a course.
I think I want a divorce.
We are not married, but we are us.
I think it’s time I took a better shot at love.


I just don’t see my life being with yours.
I just don’t think about the two of us.
I just don’t think I can carry on.
You have broken my heart and stolen my trust.


I no longer believe.
I can no longer be,
A part of your stupid story!
I should say sorry…

But I won’t.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Nothing is all I have become


I am resigned, to having no design, because I am not high right now,
So I cannot remember how I used to float inside a cloud.
But back in the day, sometimes I was up there, sometimes down;
But I could never find my way out,
Because I only ever seemed to drown.


I wallowed in a sea of my own self-induced misery;
Life just carried me along, because I allowed it to take me.
I was trapped,
By a constant lack,
Of money or activity.


I just sat there alone, toking on the ****,
But now I have cleared my head of those times I forget.
I will not remember, because that’s just a page in my story
And the chapter about regret, I have already read.


So I will paint it black, like they said in that song;
How can I be smiling, when everything is wrong?
I am a miserable ***, who couldn’t give a ****!
About a thing I could not change,
Because it will still remain the same.


So why waste my time inside a head of self-doubt?
When I could be dreaming of escaping…
One day I will find a way out.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Nothing left


I got nothing.  Nothing I wanna say to you.  
Nothing that says what I'm going through.  
All the pain is unreal because I can't be this sad.
Just one day of happiness, is that too much to ask?  


Think what you like.  I like what I think.
I like when I sink deep into the pink.  
Feeling better than ever on my final day,
Is the only way I can say what I have to say.


Goodbye to you all.  Goodbye to this world.
Goodbye to the bad times and forget me for sure.


(C)2020 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Nothing like you


I would have liked to have been somewhere better with you,
But I just couldn’t care about anything that you do.
I would have liked to have seen something good inside of you,
But there is nothing there to find, so I will be nothing like you.


You know I hate to be the one to tell you,
Just how much I really hate you and everything that you do.
You make war, not love; with every fight our love is dying.
The two of us together should never have happened,
So why is it only me who seems to always be crying?


You are nothing like me in the love that I feel;
You feel nothing of the love that I have to give.
Your eyes are so wide open, searching for a way to be free;
Well there is an easy way to make you happy; go ahead and leave.


In this misshapen body, I am nothing like you;
In this beautiful mind, I am nothing like you.
In this relationship of lies, I am screaming the truth!
You are nothing like me and I am nothing like you!


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Now I am nothing.


Why can’t you see that I am love?
Look into my eyes and you will see the two of us,
Locked in each other, earning each other’s trust.
Lost in love and feeling loved up.


All those times you said that I could never be the one,
For you to be happy with for all time, left me broken.
I am now nothing without you my love;
Each promise we made to each other, should never have been spoken.


Now I am nothing.  I am the boy condemned.
I am everything you never wanted, so this is our end.
Lost is our love upon the seas of despair.
We were never really together, just close.  You were always there.


Condemned to live in Hell eternally,
Because without your love, I am lost and gone.
Without your love I am lost endlessly;
Come back to me, because without you I am none.


A non-entity, living a non-existence;
A nothing, a no-one, a waste of a life.
Now we are no more, we are not even a pretense;
Now I shall leave here, but not one tear will I cry.


(C)2015 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Oceans have been born from the tears I have cried.


Life is an endless suicide.
Every day is a razor blade.
Oceans have been born from the tears I have cried.
I have nothing worth saying.


Nobody is worthy of my worthless love.
All things are above me;
I am your bug.
Squash me underfoot without a second to thought.
A liar is sought to take me to the sword.


Life is an egg-timer-paper-canvas.
Paint my reality.
Use only black ink to capture the essence of me.
No colours of light to be seen in this dystopia.
Futureless backdrop of eternity.


I coulda, I woulda, I shudder told ya,
That reality *****,
Like an endless vacuum cleaner of the space in-between,
Dreams and meanings.
When speaking of dreaming,
Never forget to tell all,
For the elapses we leave sheathed are the truth.
Let it be seen.
Do not hide beneath leaves,
Awaiting the spring of hopeful youth,
To wake you from your disparity.
Positively never, nothing but negativity.


Daylight is past,
We are tomorrow.
A day to mourn the loss of sorrow.
A day so hollow it cannot be followed,
For it is not worth discussing;
Things do not need sussing,
Or to be succinct;
I am out of ink.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Off to battle again.


Another day, another battle, another day to amuse one’s self.
Looking out into the shadowy forest, in search of an acquaintance.
Wolf howls signal the return of the Princes and all is well.
The war has been won and the undead soldiers have been demolished.


Moonlight hovers over the home of the Elves
And inside the forest I find myself,
Hunting the hunter; under darkened skies.
A wolf dives at me and I open fire.


The arrow strikes its head and it falls down dead in the snow.
Its companions will be here somewhere, so I will be ready to fire again.
An elf appears from the mist, so I lower my bow;
It’s good to see you again, old friend.


He tells me of a quest to the undead hordes lair
And after shopping for provisions,
We head off with our band of merry friends.
The healer is annoying, but he will be needed when we get there;
So we allow him his flaws and his errors are not mentioned.


Once more into the darkness; we head into war
And all around us, the skeletons fall.
We grow stronger with age, before, during and after.
At the end of the day, we are new to this no more.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

(...), Oh (...)


(...), oh (...),
You are everything to me.
(...), oh (...),
You have my love eternally.
(...), oh (...),
You gave me my security
And you made my heart complete.


Your every kiss is the sweetest thing,
Your face is an ocean of serenity.
Your eyes are seas, in which I'd love to swim.
My love I adore you,
You are my woman, my Queen.


You amaze me my love, for you are so beautiful.
Some people light up a room, whilst you light up the world.
It's hard to comprehend, that you are my girlfriend;
My first, my last, my best confidant.


Your electric blue eyes, lit up my life,
As I put my head, between your thighs.
I kissed your lips, you held me tight,
You promised you’d love me for the rest of time.


But I guess one of us was lying,
I guess our time was up,
Now I crawl back into bed…
Still I miss your cuddles.



(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Oh to be so bold.


My lady in your eyes, I can see the fire light.
I can see fireflies fly, around your mind sometimes.
You’re mine to love and to hold and to be so bold,
As to tell you how I feel, before we each grow old.


You’re the heroine of love and I kneel before you;
You’re my one and only drug and I need you to love me.
You’re my maiden of lust and my summer tune;
You are my roses in the garden and my love in bloom.


There’s a beautiful horizon and I’m heading for the stars.
I’m in Heaven with my angel as she dances on the table;
We’re together like Cain and Abel but there’s no trouble
And this is no fable.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Once upon a mind.


A lonely soul sleeps inside my heart.
It has given up on trying to be my star.
The light has dimmed; the finish has begun to become duller.
I have never been anything other than sullen
And now my soul is no watercolour.


Scatter no seeds, for nothing will grow,
Inside this black hole that I call my soul.
I cannot take hold of a direction in which to go,
Because I am unable to see ahead, when I am without hope.


No more, no less;
The same phrase repeats again.
What more can I say when all is gone so far away?
Out of reach, but never out of mind;
Still it lingers at the fore front of a head without design.
Clutter, splutter, mix me with resent;
No chance to repent,
No choice to have left.


Just left behind, by a love life that has moved on to be happy
And found itself a new home, as I lie inside my cemetery.
Gone from this diseased soul, formed from insecurities.
It has escaped and taken my heart with it and from me.
Now I am soulless and never free to dream without regret.
Continuously delirious,
So easy to detest.
Once upon a mind, love has exploded
And now there is no trace left.


No Jessica Rabbit to find,
No saving emo.
No happy me;
Just where ego, I go.


My body moves of its own accord.
I am too bored to give it orders,
When I am busy crawling up the wall,
In search of just one thing that even matters!
Life is no adventure and I am the mad hatter.


Lost in a wonderland of my own mind’s creations.
I fall down (a rabbit hole) and break an ankle.
I am no longer in contention,
To be a contender for the title of most loved.
Just stuck in the mud with no tears left to wash it all off;
Gone is my chosen destiny…I have given up.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

One


I’m just a poet in need; just another man.
Another one who wants to be;
Just another love wannabe.


We are united by words;
We have a need to let our soul’s speak
And as they do the two of us make a connection.
I am bound to be here for you and you are bound to me.


So keep on writing your love letters to Dear John’s;
I’m going to bury my head beneath the sand
And build myself a castle for a home.
So understated, this place that I live.
Some would say that it is just like all the others,
But I personally think it shows how I would like things to be
And it has a style of its own that makes it look like no other.


So let me tell you, if I may,
Because I know too soon I will be taken
And I won’t have the chance to speak these words to you,
If I am gone and my heart is left behind, broken.


I only wanted to be loved;
I guess it’s just a search in which we all partake.
The most addictive drug is love
And if I had it, I would be able to survive the loss.
I am so lost alone without a lover,
Because this journey seems so sad and so hard to take.
So hard to face,
So tough to take;
Too hard to find the one.


But one is all I ever wanted to find.
I don’t need many, just a single.
I am running out of chances at love, to take,
So won’t you come and save me tonight?  
I am so tired of falling and failing
And I have no desire to go and mingle.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

One by One


One by one! (boom, boom, boom)
One by one! (boom, boom, boom)
One by one! (boom, boom, boom)
One by one! (boom, boom, boom)
One by one! (boom, boom, boom)
One by one! (boom, boom, boom)



We’ll **** them!    (boom, boom, boom)  
One by one! (boom, boom, boom)
We’ll **** them!    (boom, boom, boom)  
One by one! (boom, boom, boom)
We’ll **** them!    (boom, boom, boom)  
One by one! (boom, boom, boom)
We’ll **** them!    (boom, boom, boom)  
One by one! (boom, boom, boom)



Murderer! (boom, boom, boom)    
We **** them. (boom, boom, boom)
Murderer! (boom, boom, boom)    
We **** them. (boom, boom, boom)
One by one! (boom, boom, boom)
We’ll **** them!    (boom, boom, boom)  


The innocent! We’ll **** them.
One by one! We’ll **** them.
The innocent! We’ll **** them.
One by one!


You killed them! So we’ll **** you!
One by one! We’ll **** you!
One by one!


I killed you! So they executed me.
I killed you! So they killed me.
All I ever wanted. Was to be set free.
But I killed them! So they killed me.


Freedom from death was my reason to live.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

One For The Road


A mother cries, at her babies smile,
Because everything is alright.
A father lies dying in his car,
He’s not coming home tonight.


If only he had changed his ways,
If only he had used his head today.
If he hadn’t gone out to celebrate,
Maybe he would be coming home again.


There’s been another crash on Route 66,
That left a single mother with a newborn kid.
It’s just another headline news story,
It’s just another drink-drive tragedy.


So drink!  And drive!  And party all night,
It feels so good to turn out the lights.
It feels so good to step on the gas,
It feels so good, until you crash!


So drink!  And drive!  And party all night,
It feels so good to turn out the lights.
It feels so good to step on the gas,
It feels so good, until you crash!


A man lies dying in his car,
He dreams of holding his baby in his arms.
But we all know that will never happen;
Never again will he know happiness.
We all know how the story ends;
A single mother with a newborn kid.


Another crash on Route 66,
Another victim of the Devils drink.
Another headline news story,
Another drink-drive tragedy.


So drink!  And drive!  And party all night,
It feels so good to turn out the lights.
It feels so good to step on the gas,
It feels so good, until you crash!


So drink!  And drive!  And party all night,
It feels so good to turn out the lights.
It feels so good to step on the gas,
It feels so good, until you crash!


So if you’re drunk and sat in a bar,
Just hand over the keys to your car.
Go and call yourself a cab,
Because it's not too late for you to be a good Dad.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

One Impossible Dream.


Paint me a picture
And I’ll write you a story.
Follow this rock star
And I’ll lead you to glory.


Find the heroine and I’ll make you a hero.
Find me a time bomb and I’ll send it to zero.
Fetch me an atom and I’ll split it in three;
Find me a dreamer and I’ll buy them a dream.
Yeah!


Because the end is nigh!
Your time has come.
Because the end is nigh!
Your time has come.


Because the end is nigh!
Your time has come
Because the end is nigh!
Carpe Diem.


Come be my groupie, my lover, a quick ****;
Pick up two pom-poms and come dance with us.
Make me happy and I’ll break no promise to you.
Pick up the guitar and come play me a tune.


**** shallowness and let vanity die;
Kiss me quick, time is not on your side.
Do what you want to don’t let them bring you down;
There’s no time left to worry, about looking a clown.


Because the end is nigh!
Your time has come.
Because the end is nigh!
Your time has come.


Because the end is nigh!
Your time has come
Because the end is nigh!
Carpe Diem.


Live for today, for tomorrow you may die;
Experiment with life and learn how to fly.
High up above all the blind human beings;
The unprepared, pessimists, who are unwilling to believe.


Take a risk, fulfill a fantasy;
Try something new, truly become free;
From consequences and people’s looks.
We’re all about to die, so just don’t give a ****!


Because the end is nigh!
Your time has come.
Because the end is nigh!
Your time has come.


Because the end is nigh!
Your time has come
Because the end is nigh!
Carpe Diem.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

One last chance


Stay with me, I’m still in love with you.
Don’t leave my heart lying here with nobody left to lose.
You know those things we never had the chance to do.
Be with me now and forever my boo.


So scared of living without your love.
Come back to me, because you still need my touch.
With you love could never become too much.
Beautiful memories are not and will never be enough.


Love is the end of a lifelong search.
Mistakes are made by everybody on this Earth.
We have a chance at a second chance;
Give this love the roll of the dice it deserves.


If we just walk away and do not have a little hope,
Then all we will be left with are tears and sorrow.
Nothing compares to the love we made;
So please give this heart of mine just one more go.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

One last time.


Stop the world from spinning; I want to get off.
This life of mine is moving way too fast and I have had enough.
I’ve done all I could and what have I got?
A broken heart, a broken mind and I never did finish writing that book.


Love is a stain on an otherwise ordinary life;
My life is a stain on an extraordinary planet.
Greatness falls and shame and pity will not apologise;
I could have done it all, but now I have been left damaged.


I'm sat here in my favourite chair, smoking my life away;
I’m stood here looking out a window, wondering where it all went.
I’m torn asunder; it rains, it thunders,
But still I cannot find a reason to stay.
Out into the blue, I drown in sorrow and there is nothing left.


One last time, I write one last line;
I write one last line, one more time.
One last line, just once again in time;
Just one more time I will write my last line.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

One love


Only had one love that mattered.
The rest were just for fun.
My heart was completely splattered,
By her true love gun.


She blew me away and I never returned.
Spent a lifetime of hurt wishing for another her,
But no-one matched up to the idea of an ideal love,
So I'm stuck in this rut for twenty years plus.


(C)2020 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

One of a kind.


In a silent room, a heart beats.
In a room without walls, the mind is free.
Through a never locked door, I see a key.
Who knows where this key will lead?


In a pitch black thought, a light shines;
The only thing we all have; is time.
In reality we are all blind.
You and I are not so different…
We are both one of a kind.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

One, two, three.


It takes two people to find love.
One can’t find love alone and three is too many.
Two girlfriends would be nice, if they knew about and loved,
Me and each other;
But I can’t even find one lover,
So I cannot think about another
And as Bob Marley said,
There is only one love.
That is all I want.
I’m only looking for one.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

One vision


One vision, writers block.
All I can see is love.
Tick-tock, tick-tock.
Glass half full.


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Only she knows


Love; it’s all the silly things.
You know what I mean?  It’s everything.
The slight lift at the edge of her mouth when she smiles,
The hidden eyes that look away so quickly;
The things she cannot hide behind lies.
Her image is imprinted in me.
I am never left to doubt the things I cannot believe,
Because only she knows how to tell me what I need.


The two second stare and then the silence;
The endless thoughts flying by like pilots,
In planes that will soon crash and burn.
Still she is here and still I yearn.


She is so much stress, but the dress it calls me endlessly.
She could release me; she could reach out and fix me.
She pulled me from my crucifix,
I had waited there so long.
I had forgotten what the Earth felt like,
Until she up-righted my wrongs.


Way up in the sky I was weightless and sightless,
But she feels right and now I am blessed.
She feels right where no other does.
What the Hell is this feeling called love?
Please explain to my brain, so that I can sustain,
Because I stupidly threw my crutches away,
When she walked into my life and all the black clouds became grey.
Now they are white and soon they will be gone,
Because she raises me up and sings the right songs,
To my instrumental heart, she pulls at my strings,
And leaves me believing in everything.
All the heart ache, it ain’t going away;
It still remains, but I am happy again.


Then she disappears, so I try to forget her,
But my God!  Without her it’s all once more a blur.
She is the only definitive object.
All else is cloudy, no more to collect.
I am floating on nothing when she is not around.
One love is in the distance and I am back on solid ground.


She loves me not, but I am trapped in suspense.
Suspended animation, two hearts of an alien nation,
Separated until she comes back again.
I am broken and vacant without her love;
Love in loves wilderness and all because,
I know she is the best I can get;
I also know without her I have nothing left.


What is there left when only she can be right?
Out of sight, out of mind?  Believe me I try,
But out of my mind leaves me crying inside.
Only she can make me happy, only she can find,
The things I need to find happiness.
Without her I am lost and all is a mess.


I could go there another time, simply to avoid her,
But then what would I do if I never again managed to find her?
All I want is splendid but she has that piece of me.
I keep myself hidden from temptation, while she misjudges me.


So much attraction, but she is leaving.
No more to say, she can see me grieving.
Today has become a bad day now.
This morning it shone, but now all is clouds,
And I am left standing staring like a stalker.
That is not what I wanted, but she is not my caller.
I cannot call her and she does not call me;
Is this the way things have to be?


I just want love, but she does not,
So why can I not just walk on?
What to do, what to think.
Forward no more…love is killing me.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

On this heart a scar is formed


If you have love, why are you asking for more?
Some people do not have what you have.
In these days of every possibility, you should be grateful;
But still you want, so go and break, take and be glad.


Happy inside your fictional love;
Make me up a memory of feeling, because I am so empty.
You treat love like it is just another drug,
But you treat it with such disdain, because you have so many.


Take me out of the food chain; I can no longer be loves play thing.
I have given all I can to this cause.
Just leave me to rot, I will no longer be making.
I have seen this love beast too many times, so no more.


I am alone and happy, so why do I need your love?
You are with someone again, so I will not complain.
Cupid is a fool; he stuck me with you through only lust
And all you ever gave to me in exchange for my love was pain.


The ghost of me is all there is…
And on this heart a scar is formed.
The wish I had when I was a kid, has shown me that I can take no more.

(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Ostrich


Born to be a fighter; I chose to pacify.
Loved the only women I could have; love is a lie.
Same old story, repeated a thousand times.
Pretty please, no longer tease; I need a love that will never die.


They say yesterday’s music is just the same old songs;
Write me a tune and I will still sing along.
Use my lyrics; they are the ones I understand clearest.
I have loved your music since my youth,
So I hope you love my words too…if you read this.


If nothing else matters, I will still believe.
The day dream is eternal in this land of sleep.
I have had enough of counting sheep;
So I will sleep with one eye open,
Looking out for any kind of new opening.


Opportunities come and go, so anything goes!
Some would say it has all been said before,
But what do they know?


Imagine a bizarre world where we all get along;
Just sit and play your guitar, so we can sing that song.
I need to believe that my ghosts are real.
The singer teaches us how to really feel.


Touched with sadness, everybody drops.
Nobody ever reaches the top of the pops.
Music is dying?  Forever it will last.
It has been here a lot longer than you and I have.


So judge me for the mistakes you make;
The words you speak are fuel to my fire…
Every time I try to hide away,
You somehow find me with my head buried deep…

…Oh my beautiful liar.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Our gun.


Something bad, trying to be good;
Inside of us lies our own gun.


Seeking peace within my dreams,
But there is no sleeping for me.


Looking to love; to have love we must love.
Inside of us lies our own gun.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Our lives


Our lives are simply stories that are waiting to be told.
Our minds are endless wells with all kinds of knowledge to behold.
Our souls are the invisible guide leading us to where we need to go.
Our hearts are only ever a half until we find our Juliet or Romeo.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Our love is fading


Once upon a time we were so in love,
But then we discovered the true person before us.
We have realized the person in whom we had put our trust,
Was not the person we thought they were
And now we have had enough.


We can no longer put up with their bad habits;
We have decided the time has come to say, that’s it; I’ve had it!
No more of your selfish, annoying actions and other things.
I can no longer be with you,
Because of the way you always leave me feeling.


At the beginning of love, the sun shines daily,
But sooner or later the sun starts to fade.
The happiness we felt is not all that it could be,
Now our love is dying before our eyes; these are our dying days.


We both decided to stick it out and try to see if it worked,
But it never does, time and time again; it just becomes worse.
We desperately clung on hoping things would improve,
But inside, unfortunately for us, we both knew the truth.
We just can’t put up with them anymore,
So we decide to leave and love is no more, as we walk out of the door.


Our love is fading away and there is nothing we can do;
But still in our hearts we both know,
I love you.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Our time together.


I want to be the one who makes your toes curl;
By making you feel ‘Oh!’ Girl.
By making you feel whole inside;
By asking you to bless my night,
With a touch of your delight.
Before you leave me again in the morning light.


I want my heart to speak for a while;
I want my love to make you smile.
I want my touch to drive you wild!
So I can confess my wanton lust for your arousal.


My excuse to miss the party.
I can’t make it; I’m stuck in the bed with my lady.
You know I’d love to be there, but my lady is here.
So I’ll see you another time, but this is my time,
So get out of here!


Leave me be, let me rest in peace;
With my woman beside me, the rest comes easily.
Let me give you a hand with that;
Let me give you your release.


Such ecstasy, apparently.
I play along, wondering why she will have to leave,
This time.  
I’ll see you another time.
Goodbye, thanks for that;
Yeah, thank you too, for this end of this lie.


The following day should be completely different;
Oh it’s not; I see.  
Did you really expect anything other than what you normally get?
Yay more ***.  But no love.
This *** is so good!  This *** blah, blah, blah.


*** is nothing without feeling;
*** is only amazing when it means something.
*** is not all I need for satisfaction,
But there is no love made here,
Just something, something,
Nothing.


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Out of darkness, cometh light.


The screen begins to twirl and darkness descends;
Out of the corner of my mind I feel flames.
A fireball flies over my shoulder as the screen explodes;
Smashing into a thousand sharp ends and nothing remains.
The world erupts in front of me and nothing will ever be the same.


Everything disappears in the blink of an eye,
Inside a dream I had, within the fire.
Everything was completely black; then I saw a white light.
As the colours began to once more flow into my eyes,
I saw the ruins of a life.


Time was left broken in pieces on the floor
And through a crimson door I began to crawl;
But when I get through the door, I find no love at all.


It’s empty here in this ocean I have cried,
But I will never drown;
Because my life jacket, my morning jacket,
Pulls me out of the fire and I land on solid ground.


Free at last to love again;
I am a possibility.
I keep finding her on my mind and I find myself inside those eyes;
She I watching me, whilst I am waiting for her love.
I have opened up my heart to the possibility of falling in love
And hopefully I shall find myself placed inside her good books.


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Out of love


I am all out of love; I’ve nothing more to give.
I am out of love; there’s nothing more in me.
I am out of love.


I am out of love and there is nothing left of me.
I’m a perfect example of everything I never wanted to be.


I lost myself in you
And you lost yourself in me.
Now I am out of love,
I am exactly where I never wanted to be.


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Oxygen


I’m breathing oxygen into my bones.
How can I help myself, when I cannot love alone?
Bubbles flow through every wire;
Microbubbles flow through every vein.
I need to breathe your love into my heart,
So I can feel alive once again.


Broken thoughts wait to be repaired
And understood,
Until they appear in your view.
Waiting on a memory to come into focus;
Do I whisper or shout a prayer?
I would make my destiny appear to be in my hands,
If I only knew…


All I see are random images.
Random pictures, random memories,
Written down like a crossword clue;
I breathe out my thoughts, as I breathe in you.
A wish to improve us in this moment in time;
I’m breathing in oxygen.  I’m breathing out life.


I’m just breathing oxygen;
I’m breathing oxygen…
Still searching for new memories, I hope I am still alive in your eyes.
Chasing my future, when I am so weak; I have never seen my optimum.
I’m breathing life into my day; I’m floating into the light.
Up through the water currents, I am rising with the sea;
My heads bursts through the barrier and I can, at last, breathe.


If breathing is all that I can do,
Then I will breathe for you too, if you need me to.
If love is all that I can give,
Then I hope my love helps you to once more breathe.
Let me breathe into you the oxygen you need,
To love this life that we live.


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Painful death


My heart, my heart, my burning soul;
I want to die in pain.
The end must come, I have no sun
And no phoenix shall rise from these flames.


Heaven ain’t here, Hell is all around.
The pain and hurt is raining down.
On everyone, everywhere I look;
I see the fear, I see the mistrust.


Love is a lie, it’s dead, it died;
In the middle of the night, it was sacrificed.
Love kept us alive, but now loves blinding light,
Has become a dwindling flame in the dead of the night.


So put me out of my misery,
I have no wish to live like this.
For love is dead inside my head.
So all I pray for is you that you please give me death.


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Paradise Gone


Sun is shining, weather’s cold;
My broken soul will not let go.

I am dead whilst you still live;
How could they just let this be?

Save me please from everything,
That they have sent to hurt me.

I do not deserve this, please;
I only want to live.

Atheist, didn’t believe, is now heading for Hell.
Aargh this place is scary and what the Hell’s that smell?

Is that a corpse? My God, my God;
I’m buried with the dead.

My God, my God, my head, my leg;
They shot me in the chest.

I see myself, my broken shell,
Just lying in the dirt.

In limbo is where you will find me;
Before I find out what I deserve.


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Parenthood.


My intimate incubator, for the forthcoming foetus;
Are you too, truly feeling this dream?
I’ll become a father and you a mom.
It’s really going to happen soon.


So let’s both cut down on the drinking and stop the drugs.
Find a new way of life and overcome,
Our addictions to the illusions.
This could be a whole new beginning.


Girls just want to have fun, but I have found a woman.
I have someone who wants the commitment
And feels truly safe in,
The knowledge I’m here for her, ‘til death do us part.
This woman is the only one, allowed to get near my heart.


Once upon a time, we were so young and carefree;
She loved to feel the breeze, between her knees.
The passionate rush she got, from ******* a stranger,
Has now passed thankfully; she has no need for another,
Because I am her only lover
And she’s my baby’s mother.


But I can still remember when we first met.
I asked how far are you willing to take this?
What can I not do and is the list only short?
What’s the magic word that says you’ve had too much?
What is the cutoff point?
And do you like to take risks?


We made passionate love, morning, noon and night;
Now we still make passionate love,
But have more than adolescent desire.
We have an understanding, of each other’s bodies;
We have the knowledge, to leave each other satisfied.


For we’ve both been there, for each other,
When we were suffering insufferable pain.
We had both reached the stage in our lives,
When we believed, we would never love again.
We both believed, we couldn’t be happy.
We both had the same desire; to one day have a family.


It was hard for us, to be truly open
And to truly love again after our hearts had been broken.
But we shall overcome, the hurt and the pain;
To rise up each morning, ready to face a new day.
For now we are parents, our world has changed;
Now our love can be shared, with our offspring,
Until the end of our days.


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Parents – They mess you up


Choices – let me make them.
All your voices I can only condemn.
Knowledge is wasted on your youth,
When all you tell me is what to do.


Choices – I choose to ignore,
All your advice because I listened before.
All I now own are things I hate;
All those choices I wanted to make,
But you corrupted my every independent thought
And all those things I bought for me were yours.


Choices – do parents ever let up?
All those opinions masked as love
And yeah it may all be from a good place,
But now every single miserable day I have to see my miserable face,
In the cheapest looking mirror known to man
And stockpiles of soap for one face and two hands.


Oh my God!  They know not what they do!
These people I love have not got a clue!
Give me a choice and hear my voice,
My will a tortoise unwilling to move in case of upset,
But please, oh please, get out of my head
And replace the terrible bed you advised me to buy.
I hate it so much I just want to cry!
I have to sleep on the sofa now,
Because on that stone I can no longer lie.


So hear my truth, I do love you,
But if hate your choices for what I should do
And all the extra bits of food which I do not need!
Please!  Stop giving it all to me!
It all just goes straight in the bin,
Because I never asked for this!
Why the Hell do you think I have a shopping list?


I hate the way you are so bothered about money.
Let me enjoy it, it could be funny,
To do something fun and waste cash on that.
How the Hell would I know?  You never gave me a chance.


I’m sick of working hard to make my money,
Just to have you spend it for me.
I’m sure there are other things I hate,
But it’s getting late, so I will sleep in the bed I made…

Not the one you made me buy.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Passion.


Do the things you love; they are the things that matter.
The things you feel passionate about,
Will bring you true happiness and all else will fade.


If you have to fake it,
Then it will not last forever.
If it’s real you will know and you will need it
And you will never find anything better.
Be passionate about something,
Because you only get one life;
So seize the day.


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Patent No.1


Give me directions to find my car.
Arrows on the key fob, point near or far.
North by North West; is this the right way?  Yes.
There is my car, under the star.
This invention is the best.
Trackar, twenty yards away, easy to find.
All you need to do is follow the line.


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Pathetic Acts


Stop all the traffic; a million ants are passing by.
Red light, Amber light, waiting on a Green light.
All the windows have their curtains closed inside,
And nobody knows how to feel secure beneath the night sky.  


Do a hand-stand, against the man,
So he can hear from the bottom of your soul,
As it refuses to accept his master plan.  
Tell him it is time for you to go.


Become a light inside the storm.
Become guidance to those who are torn,
Between loving life and complete apathy.
Falling from the top of a tree.
I am not the leaper that I used to be,
But still here I stand speaking in symmetry.


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