Only she knows


Love; it’s all the silly things.
You know what I mean?  It’s everything.
The slight lift at the edge of her mouth when she smiles,
The hidden eyes that look away so quickly;
The things she cannot hide behind lies.
Her image is imprinted in me.
I am never left to doubt the things I cannot believe,
Because only she knows how to tell me what I need.


The two second stare and then the silence;
The endless thoughts flying by like pilots,
In planes that will soon crash and burn.
Still she is here and still I yearn.


She is so much stress, but the dress it calls me endlessly.
She could release me; she could reach out and fix me.
She pulled me from my crucifix,
I had waited there so long.
I had forgotten what the Earth felt like,
Until she up-righted my wrongs.


Way up in the sky I was weightless and sightless,
But she feels right and now I am blessed.
She feels right where no other does.
What the Hell is this feeling called love?
Please explain to my brain, so that I can sustain,
Because I stupidly threw my crutches away,
When she walked into my life and all the black clouds became grey.
Now they are white and soon they will be gone,
Because she raises me up and sings the right songs,
To my instrumental heart, she pulls at my strings,
And leaves me believing in everything.
All the heart ache, it ain’t going away;
It still remains, but I am happy again.


Then she disappears, so I try to forget her,
But my God!  Without her it’s all once more a blur.
She is the only definitive object.
All else is cloudy, no more to collect.
I am floating on nothing when she is not around.
One love is in the distance and I am back on solid ground.


She loves me not, but I am trapped in suspense.
Suspended animation, two hearts of an alien nation,
Separated until she comes back again.
I am broken and vacant without her love;
Love in loves wilderness and all because,
I know she is the best I can get;
I also know without her I have nothing left.


What is there left when only she can be right?
Out of sight, out of mind?  Believe me I try,
But out of my mind leaves me crying inside.
Only she can make me happy, only she can find,
The things I need to find happiness.
Without her I am lost and all is a mess.


I could go there another time, simply to avoid her,
But then what would I do if I never again managed to find her?
All I want is splendid but she has that piece of me.
I keep myself hidden from temptation, while she misjudges me.


So much attraction, but she is leaving.
No more to say, she can see me grieving.
Today has become a bad day now.
This morning it shone, but now all is clouds,
And I am left standing staring like a stalker.
That is not what I wanted, but she is not my caller.
I cannot call her and she does not call me;
Is this the way things have to be?


I just want love, but she does not,
So why can I not just walk on?
What to do, what to think.
Forward no more…love is killing me.


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