It's as if the whole of the earth's sighs, the nudging of the painted skies, the tremblings of valleys and peaks, the singing of oceans and creeks, the gentle tug of the moon, the torrent of the monsoon, the impact of a tear-stained face, the heat of a lover's embrace,
and the fierce shouts of the stars came together in a harmonious uproar.
All to proclaim Your majesty and a single thought that soars, "Try".
Too much effort, I’m giving in my all. I’m helping me out, To get up from the fall. Such a disgrace, I can’t stand even tall. Walking away, a task, I can’t even crawl. You look at me, Rolling your eyeball. I feel like a mess, Need alcohol. Being happy, a norm But **** protocol! I can’t fake a smile, I’m not a doll. Any well wishers? The number’s sure small. Will they stand by me? Help me build my wall?
Slander me, expose me; tell them who I really am. No one can handle me, or control me; I know who I really am. Disregard all of my endless efforts, To keep our bond from being severed. Fighting off the wild dogs, While you were sleeping in the fog. Struggling to keep our sails afloat, You sat pretty and watched me choke. When I decided it was time to let go, You didn't take the ropes, you just let the wind blow. Held on so tight for so long; my hands are bleeding. The saltwater stings but it's also healing. Still, I'll take another sip; it keeps me alive, Even though it slowly kills me at the same time. Slowly but surely; my favourite way to die. I savour the taste of every single tear that I cry. Can't you see these reactions, or hear the words that I've said? Due to your actions and the words I've been fed. I loved you so much, I would die for you. You loved it so much, you'd let me die for you too. Some people give, and some people take, And when it's love, it's both hearts that break.
Honestly... I honestly do not know what i am doing anymore...
[feeling lost within myself]
Is it worth it? Will the effort be appreciated?
[why am i here?]
Everything seems, seems to be slipping, slipping thru my fingers like the desert sands which just becomes dust in the wind, burning my eyes & skewing my view
[it really ***** being on the wrong side of this wall...]
Sitting at work and it just dawned on me...what am i doing and why am i doing it, even at all...i got a wiff of happiness and just as that wiff came...it faded away like most things in life that were never meant to last...too good to be true...not that i want to actually buy into that...why do good thinsg NEVER last?