Phoenix


The phoenix flies throughout my life;
Fire wings send it flying so high.
As it rises up into the sky,
It disappears and reappears, back at my side.


From my hands it goes out to search the land;
The ashes of love are the only traces I have.
Once it was here, but now my phoenix has gone;
I know one day it will return and I will be reborn.


Letting go of holding it tight;
I let my phoenix fly off into the night.
In summer it died, burnt to a crisp by the golden sun,
But the phoenix’s life returns with another one.


Immortality is just a fantasy,
But the phoenix flies eternally.
The flames of love burn endlessly.
My phoenix exists inside of me.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

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My mouth has stopped speaking,
My eyes have stopped seeing.
My words are no longer written…
I have no imagination for dreaming.


No feeling for screaming,
No passion to believe in,
No happiness for me;
Only misery.


I have nothing left beneath my rib cage.
Forever trapped in all ways,
In a million mile maze;
No way to relate to the lives people play.


Lost in all ways to your nation of islands;
All stand united, I make no demand.
Ask for no place to barter, life is a non-starter;
Never seen a wedding garter in these days of haze.


Left dazed and confused, with nothing to soothe,
The constant blues, who knew?
Not me, I never did. Did you?
My empathy?  You can keep it!
My apathy lacks all my cares.
Don’t ask me where they are; I am stood at the bottom of stairs
And the first step is too far; I stare into stars,
Looking for a future, but no luck so far.


Let my coffin be gift wrapped, I will not cause a fuss.
Just lay down to rest;
Robot ready to rust and dust is all that will remain;
Because even when I go I will still hold on,
To every searing scar of my pain.


The pain is all I am left with and all I know.
No encore to this show, please, I cannot repeat myself anymore.
I have said enough.
Close the door.


Remove the good vibrations, silence the dawn chorus.
People were sent here only to test us!
Act 1 – I lived.
Forget Act 2.  
Think only of you, like all others do
And when I am run through in this queue,
Where we are all waiting to die,
When ****!  My!  Life!  
Is in the hands of a non-believer;
The fingers no nearer to touching a soul.  
Why am I growing so old?
Why am I always so cold,
To everything they think and say,
For they cannot think, without saying it.



Pins and needles, my nerves are talking,
The timer is ticking and it does not bring anything.
All will soon be gone from this basket-case of mine.
Life is a swine, soak it in wine,
Right on time for the next nasty surprise.
I sigh, I sign my name, my life and oh the days I will never forget.
I have tried…
To forget;
But no luck yet.
No thought for regret.
Contemplate…
Wait…


I have never seen a happy day, 24-seven-straight.
A constant pain, happiness never even looked my way.
Always broken like biscuits at the bottom of the barrel.
Quickly kissed, forgotten even quicker; I hate Christmas Carols
And New Year celebrations because they are all the same.
Each and every year is another year of pain.


I am a faded picture on a damaged milk carton,
Never going to get a heart won,
Because a loser only loses love
And I am lost in a life that is a cartoon.
Drop an anvil on my head so I can see the stars…
And the end.
Love is the pin to my balloon.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Plant a thought


Mixed up Human, chemical imbalance.
Build a tree or plant a Zen romance.
Tip the scales and put it back in your hands.
Roll a paper, then just sit back and relax.


Something bubbles in the undergrowth.
Pledge alliance, swear an oath.
Light a wish and watch it burn in a flash.
Imagine something along the lines of abracadabra!


Make a thought and bury your head in the sand.
Give future generations a cryptic master plan.
Plant a bomb of inspiration in their mind.
Find your way past, all their conscience mines.
Let it simmer, until the time is right.
Then play a muse, locked in a pantomime.


Cause the room to be engulfed in flames,
Of your true passion for a better way.
Burn the ambitions, of the jealous babes in wolves clothing;
For they will turn each pure thought, into acid rain.
They offer salvation and bring an early grave.
The Femme Fatale; The Idol,
Is the only one who can bring peace to our world today.


Memories, memorial.
They still cause us so much trouble.
But with a dose of electric love,
These ***** of nerves could turn out to be good.


But no, I’m wrong.
Because my destiny is in the hands of a rebel punk!
Of drink and drugs!
Who has no hope of ever finding love.


But Vlad’s Dragon Tooth,
Has been released from my spine.
I can walk out of the darkness
And give thanks to the sun shine.


Given up for ghost, the tears became premature;
Until I ran out of the darkness to greet you my saviour.
As I embrace you, I crumble to dust;
One night after one bite,
My life’s breath has breathed its last.


(C)2011 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Poem number 1000 – Part One. – It has no name.


Wings of purest silver, halo of gold;
Stand and I will deliver, for a soul I require a soul.
Forever rolling fields of the green, green grass of home;
A clone never feels alone, in a world full of clones.


Follow the star in your brand new car;
All that we are is loved in the dark.
Sanctity exists, if we believe in it;
Without a God to blame or praise, we would remain gifted.


Youth has come and gone too fast for us all;
In the end we find a way, to walk through walls.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Poem number 1000 – Part Three : Deeper and deeper


Forever onward, into a future of possibilities;
Another line, from inside a mind, without sense, but with sensibility.
Throughout time I have learned to garner my abilities,
To become the man you hear; I have earned my dependability.


In partnership, I have discovered my heart
And I doomed it from the start, to starve inside a life of scars.
****** for eternity, to tear myself apart;
Without a guiding hand to guide me, I fell beneath the stars.


Blessed mornings are all slept right through
And aspirations are lost alongside the dripping dew.
The sunshine awakens my eyes, as I see through the blind;
But I shall still not arise, from this cocoon.


Into slumber I drift, indifference I change;
I have become a slave of my own disdain.
The words echo out of my mouth and around the room;
In tunes we marvel, in love we are eternally doomed.


Our hope is curtailed, so we have set sail;
The voyage of the ******, Poseidon at our tail.
A war of world’s, inside a shattered soul;
Our thoughts come and go, but we are deep inside this hole.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Poem number 1000 : Part Two – Could do better.


This is the thousandth poem I have written;
I have been looking forward to this day for a very long time.
Poetry took over my life and gave me a reason for my existence;
Now I have a reason to do what I must do.  I must write.


Many years have come and gone since I began to write.
I’ve spoken about my life and death; I’ve spoken about my future wife.
I’ve spoken about anything and everything; I have been honest and lied.
I have told you everything I feel inside
And I am left with nothing to hide.


If you want to know me completely,
Then you will have to read all of my poetry.
If you want a glimpse of the real me,
Then find one of my poems and you will find peace, love and empathy.


Sometimes you will find what you did not want to hear;
But I must show you every part of my soul, including the fear.
The dark side, the happiness, the love and the hate;
Everything has now been talked about,
But there is always more I will have to say…


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Poison


My pain is contagious, so don’t come any closer;
I don’t want you to suffer, as I must suffer.
I won’t let this pain, eat away at you too.
This is my cross to carry;
Don’t let it be a burden to you.


For one must hurt and two can’t suffer in silence.
For you to be free, I alone must go through this.


Keep your distance and I’ll keep my promises,
To keep you away from all this sadness.
Even though you and I, I wish could be;
I have to hurt you sooner, rather than later,
To allow you to be free.


Please accept this as fact and please accept my apologies.
Accept this is the way, things have to be.
Accept you’re better off without me.
Please accept my best wishes
And deny any feelings you may feel.


For you can do better, have had better and are better.
You can avoid this sad sorrow, forever and ever.
You can find happiness, with someone who can be happy;
But I shall always get depressed.  There is no cure for me.


Imagine a dark mist, seeping into your skin,
Then you will understand what it is like to be loved by me.
You can try all you like, to make me happy;
But I’m a cancer of the heart,
So I won’t drag you down with this sinking ship.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Push on through


The world is a scary place and there is nowhere left to hide;
The nightmares are hunting us down and they are crawling inside.
Run from your life, they are coming to get you;
Keep on going, push on through.


Do not allow yourself to become boxed in;
Caged inside a nightmare of a life, with no sight of a key.
Set yourself free from their bonds of security,
That keeps you trapped in debt without any hope of release.


Push on through to the other side of the night
And in dawns breaking light, you will save a life.
Save yourself from your home made evil;
Fight away the beast and search for all the beautiful people.


Go forth and multiply; this is the spell we are under.
Instincts so old, they are humanities goal
And they drive us into the arms of our lover.
Without a love to hold, this world would only **** those who do;
But with love we can make a change and push on through.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Queen of Goth’s

She will be sitting in a graveyard,
Waiting for her love.
She will be the Queen of Hearts;
She will be the Queen of Goths.


The Queen of the tormented being,
Will come to me like a darkened dream
And show me everything she can see,
In our future underneath the moonlit scene.


The Queen of despair;
The Queen of tomorrow.
The Queen of forever.
My Queen of Goths...
I am in love with your sorrow.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Quickly


Life goes too quickly
And death can come in an instant,
So say what you must,
Before you miss the chance to say what was meant.


A flash of bright light
And everything changes.
So choose to make a choice;
Do not let ok become a maybe.


Regret nothing that could not have been changed;
If you would do all you could,
Then how could you have stopped things from ever being this way?


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Rainbow in a hurricane.


Living life like a, hurricane and I,
Can’t explain why I chase loves holy grail and I;
I’ve got to try harder, to get myself higher,
Because I could love you, the way I used to love her.


There’s a rainbow in my hurricane;
A million colours, between my sun and rain.
Love is here and love is all around;
It’s so easy to lose and so hard to be found.


But I don’t know how to cross through a rainbow,
I can’t tell you how to swim through snow.
I can’t understand how to make my karma flow;
All I know is; you make my heart glow.


Seasons come and seasons pass on by,
But I’m still here with you wanting to get high.
Clouds above still paint, pictures in the sky;
I want you to help me pass the time.


Love is real and sometimes broken in two;
It’s too hard to find and so easy to lose.
Promise me your love and you can have my heart;
Love me forever and I will never depart.


But I don’t know how to cross through a rainbow,
I can’t tell you how to swim through snow.
I can’t understand how to make my karma flow;
All I know is; you make my heart glow.


Kiss my lips and I will hold you close;
Say you love me and I’ll tell you all I know,
About love and how to feel so good;
Promise your heart to me and you can have my love.


Living life like a hurricane and I,
Can’t explain why I chase loves holy grail.
There’s a rainbow in my hurricane;
A million colours in the sun and rain.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Raindrop


From the sky I fall forever;
Warp speed, light years, I can fly!
Further down I plummet towards you,
Through the wings of a butterfly.
Forever falling, sweat is pouring;
Silence is golden to the eagle at my side.


Faster, faster I travel along;
The new born sun shows rainbow blood.
It’s cold up here; I am going for a free falling song!
But the words do not mention what I have become
And what I will become.


Inside a sunbeam I disappeared.  
They dropped me off a cloud
And now my destiny is beckoning me to come down here.
And then with a crash, I splish! I splash!
I change into a vast ocean mass.


Now I am surrounded by H2O;
I have a place I can feel at home.
Through endless currents, I float along.


I cannot swim, but I can adapt.
I am a raindrop no more; I have become an ocean.
I told you I would be back.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Raindrop


From the sky I fall forever;
Warp speed, light years, I can fly!
Further down I plummet towards you,
Through the wings of a butterfly.
Forever falling, sweat is pouring;
Silence is golden to the eagle at my side.


Faster, faster I travel along;
The new born sun shows rainbow blood.
It’s cold up here; I am going for a free falling song!
But the words do not mention what I have become
And what I will become.


Inside a sunbeam I disappeared.  
They dropped me off a cloud
And now my destiny is beckoning me to come down here.
And then with a crash, I splish! I splash!
I change into a vast ocean mass.


Now I am surrounded by H2O;
I have a place I can feel at home.
Through endless currents, I float along.


I cannot swim, but I can adapt.
I am a raindrop no more; I have become an ocean.
I told you I would be back.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Realization.


In broken pictures you are stored inside my mind;
In jagged edge stories you are remembered from time to time.
In thoughtless actions I believed in your lies.
Now all memories have been damaged and lost
And the truth is hard to find.


In an unknown future, I know nothing of what is to come;
We no longer come together to face our fears head on.
We used to believe in this game we play called love;
Now we have nothing left, so we become undone.


With tears we wash away all the pain that we feel;
I used to wish I could still hold you and have you near,
But no longer do I need you, because I have begun to heal.
Passion soon dies and as I stand alone, you will soon disappear.


In love again, I find my happiness;
Now I have someone beautiful I can undress.
Now I realize that this new love is the best;
Broken hearts heal, so you will no longer be missed.


A new lover brings a new love into creation;
No longer a life of strife with a love that became vacant.
Now a real love is found;
This love is a revelation!
I can be happy in love.  
I am happy!  

Realization.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.