If someone asked me,
What's the best part
About falling in love?

I'd say to them
It's the part when
Someone catches you

Cracked and broken,
Pieces scattered,
From a dream awoken,
To being shattered,
Broken from what I lack,
I can feel every crack.

Each piece has a story,
Of life, in of itself,
Some times of glory,
Others of poor health,
All these memories on my back,
It's no wonder I crack.

So instead I pull together,
And fill in what's missing,
With gold and put pressure,
Until all the cracks glisten,
Now I stand up, broken,
But within gold is woven.

It's easy to forget
That there's good in the world
When all we're shown is the problems

It's easy to realize
There's evil in the world
When we're taught only to fight it

It's easy to ignore
That enemies are people too
When we paint them as monsters

It's easy to pretend
Like what we're doing is good
When we think we're always right

It's hard to remember
That to bring people together
You need to learn to love them

It's easy to ask
What's wrong with people
When I'm not asking myself that

It's easy to bully
And put them down
When I am afraid of getting hurt

It's easy to blame home
And say it's my family's fault
When I'm not there to be loved

It's easy to punch
And say they deserved it
When I'm the one that deserves it

It's easy to not listen
And say they don't know
When really I'm the one lost

It's hard to stop
Lashing out at people
When people look at me

*like I'm a monster

I begin to write in a diary
My life in of itself
My day to day series
Of what I think of myself

One day the page is bleak
I write of no light
Of pain it reeks
A day of complete blight

I look at it after I'm done
My sorrow in black
It makes me want to run
And never look back

But then I go to bed
Before I make an emotional cage
The next day I awake
And turn the page

Gray sky above
Rain hitting the stones
Lost is the love
That warmed my bones

Wind swirling around
Leaves go up in flight
In this storm I found
My reason to fight

Snow is now falling
The cold wakes me
To a life worth living
One where I'm free

The sun is shining
The clouds up higher
Dreams are brimming
Passion on fire

It's easy to say
No one understands me
When I don't even explain

It's easy to feel
The world breaking around me
When I don't even try to fix it

It's easy to see
What's wrong
When I close my eyes to what's right

It's easy to hear
You can't do it
When I tell myself that

It's hard to believe
Someone can love me
When I can't love them back

Dust to dust
We rise then fall

Hour to hour
We live then die

Mountain to mountain
We move then stop

Feeling to feeling
We smile then frown

The end is not what's sad
Life is not what's happy
How each happens
Is what matters

It's the to
The journey
That moves us

It's the then
The in between
That defines us

If we're angels in life
We get to live with them
In heaven with no strife
To life eternal, we come

In life what I did sadly
Wasn't what made an angel
I did what made me happy
In the end fate was cruel

Continue what I'm doing
And I'd be sent to hell
My sins began accruing
But my soul I won't sell

Those I love, act the same
So we are not perfect
To win heaven's game
Our beliefs we must forfeit

How can heaven be so great
If my friends can't follow
I'd rather have hell as my fate
Than go to heaven hollow

I'm here counting
seconds, minutes, hours...

So much I forget to make the days count

It's easy to say
That I would die for you
When I'm far from death

It's easy to say
I'll do anything for you
When there's nothing to do

It's easy to say
"I promise"
When there's nothing to break

It's hard to say
I'll live for you
When there's nothing left

Can I move the way I used to?
Can I love the way I want to?
Can I live the way I love to?

Yes I can

But will I?

I see nothing beyond
No turning around
All life is withdrawn
The bottom not found
My stomache will sink
As I am pushed to the brink

Despite being so close
I still want to fight
The end nobody knows
I move with death in sight
Out comes survival instinct
As I am pushed to the brink

Suddenly I begin to fall
The air is rushing me
Life is beginning to stall
The end is here finally
Yet I can't help but think
As I am pushed to the brink

I grasp for anything
Because I'm not done yet
Can't just let death win
Still too much regret
I refuse death's drink
As I climb from the brink

I am no one

There is nothing special
About those before me
Their lives not crucial
To life's grand scheme

I will not inherit money
That is of notable size
Humble was my family
Nothing left for surprise

There is no fate or destiny
That makes me important
To help nurture society
My life had no intent

I am just an average person
No secrets waiting in store
What I know to be certain
I am me and nothing more

This means no path is set
Whatever I choose to do
All the challenges I've met
Is truly mine through and through

All I may accomplish alone
Whatever I may become
I can truly call my own
And really go from no one

To someone

Life always somehow hurted
But I have lost all feeling
My emotions I find deserted
So much my mind is reeling
I feel my soul begin to wane
As I realize, I feel no pain

There are times when my soul
Should be black and twisted
But I look and I find a hole
As if the agony never existed
Maybe I've become insane
Because I feel no pain

In my confusion I cut deep
To see if I am truly human
I look and blood begins to seep
Feel the cut where the knife ran
Yet no emotion I gain
Why do I feel no pain?

My mind should be suffering
And my soul should be broken
But all I hear are the leaves rustling
As I look for emotions unspoken
My mind begins to feel the strain
As I cannot fathom why I feel no pain

Life continue its cycle
And more times I should be hurt
But the pain becomes spiteful
Running then hiding in covert
I decide to not wrack my brain
And let it hide as I feel no pain

We always feel entitled in life
That the world revolves around us
To have everything with no strife
The world bends to us, it must

Except that is not our right
We deserve is what we earn
After we work and we fight
This is what some don't learn

They think life is their's to bend
That they deserve strength and pride
But without work it will be their end
Fueled only by entitlement, they died

Our only God given privilege
Is the right to be happy
To pursue that ambiguous image
All else is earned ultimately

The good life is ours to pursue
No one allowed to stand in our way
Earning our keep is hard, it's true
But our right to life will never go away

A tiger never has fear
Its roar is one of power
Its path you must clear
Or else you, it shall devour
My own fear, I want to control
I want to have a tiger's soul

A tiger always has courage
To take on any challenge
No matter the disadvantage
It will find a way to manage
With this, I could achieve any goal
I want to have a tiger's soul

A tiger is always known
It's a predator respected
Reputation fully grown
In it's roar, pride reflected
Never again hiding as a mole
I want to have a tiger's soul

A tiger is what I want to be
Someone I can be proud of
But really I need to be free
Who I am, I need to love
I will to become the tiger
Passion burning, soul on fire

Love is something unique
A feeling we long for
It makes it hard to speak
Sometimes leaves us sore
We can never deny though
It is beautiful as winter's snow

When the snow finally falls
We can only stare in awe
Our hearts, the snowflakes call
Amazing is nature's law
Never need to be spoken of
Is the beauty that is akin to love

Love enraptures the soul
It drives us to be the best
Our happiness, we take control
So our love has no contest
Like the winter's glow
Our love is beautiful as snow

Snow can melt very quickly
It's beauty already regressing
So you must act swiftly
To make the most of this blessing
Yet similar to love, there is a chance
Snow will stay like a perfect romance

If I'm not proud of who I am
If I lost all my self worth
If I am a part of the program
If I ever curse my own birth

Then I change who I am
Then I make my own worth
Then I write the program
Then I cherish life given by birth

I will become someone
Who makes others proud
So when the day is done
I will say my name loud

And acknowledge my existence
As a part of this world
Even if I live only for an instance
*It was a life worth being told

I felt all of this pain
Tired of all these bothers
So to douse the flame
I asked help from others
But I just heard the sound
Of me being turned down

I didn't understand
Why did they not believe
That I needed a hand
I wasn't trying to deceive
So why do they frown
And turn me down?

My life may be great
Friends and family here
Yet myself I hate
And the future I fear
Lost and need to be found
Yet you turn me down

I trusted all of them
To help me up when I fell
But now I'm just a problem
An issue to expel
So it doesn't matter I drown
You would rather turn me down

The only people you trust
Must be chosen like fine art
Never feeling like they must
Their help always from heart
So they will never let me down
They make me feel safe and sound

I lived at home so long
And then one move away
Makes home feel wrong
My new place I want to stay

Away from my old problems
I don't want to go back
A new experience blossoms
I finally feel on track

This new life feels better
Home isn't home anymore
The sun shines brighter
Allowing me to explore

Despite forgetting my roots
I am someone I want to be
Eating from life's fruits
To experience life fully

New Mazdas flying overhead
The air is clean and clear
Worries of pollution dead
This world is full of cheer
A world for us to thrive
What a time to be alive

On the ground we bled
Around us is only fear
Nuclear waste where we tread
Death in our atmosphere
Why did the missiles arrive?
What a time to be alive

The sidewalk moves me along
To my new job downtown
Birds chirping their song
To the cities bustling sound
Around only clean cars drive
What a time to be alive

All our decisions were wrong
Our wars ruptured the ground
Left are only the strong
Even so life is barely found
It's been this way since I was five
What a time to be alive

The day ends as I go to dinner
The people around me joyful
And all we have to consider
Is how we to make our bellies full
Into our meal we dive
What a time to be alive

Every day we grow thinner
The dirt I have to eat is awful
Punishments for us as sinners
Humans, the environment culls
For the earth that died
What a time to be alive

I leave the table, answer my phone
My wife asks when I'll be back
Broken is the cleaning drone
I tell her, "After dinner with Jack"
Thankful for my beautiful bride
What a time to be alive

At first I believed I was alone
But in the darkness I hear a crack
All I imagine is my tombstone
As my death waits in the black
No where for me to hide
What a time to be alive

The night ends, and I pay
I walk home and think
About how it got this way
No more is hate's stink
All that's left is love's order
A world of hope and wonder

The night ends, and I pray
No more living at the brink
Why does it have to stay
A place of darkness' ink
Where all that's left are monsters
A world of misery and terror

I don't know where to go

Trapped in this thread
My entire life is here
My soul fills with dread
And all I feel is fear

I never saw this coming
Flying high with no care
In my way I saw nothing
Invisible was this snare

A silk so smooth
A soul that can't move
A strung up person
A life that can't worsen

Then I see those eyes
Eyes of a predator below
I look to the skies
Looking for God's glow

But he is not there
And I have nothing
Below fangs bare
I prepare for my ending

A life frozen in time
A beast that can't climb
A cage is life's sling
A web the only thing

That keeps us from the monsters below

Acting to please others
Yet why even try?
Most end up bothers
Rest quickly say goodbye
It's always a lot of stress
To try and always impress

There are too many people
To care about every person
But in my back like a needle
Is a need for acception
I end up becoming a mess
Trying to always impress

I can feel their eyes
Judging my every move
As if they're more wise
Myself I have to prove
I am their slave, I confess
Always trying to impress

Except this is all in my head
I need to stop creating strife
So I matter when I'm dead
To those who care about my life
But to truly end this distress
I must be the first one I impress

Throughout my life
I've tried to be the best
No matter the strife
I was to be above rest
Now it's gotten tough
Good enough isn't good enough

I forgot how I felt
The grade was all I saw
To see my name spelt
For others to yell "Hurrah!"
But really I'm in a handcuff
Good enough isn't good enough

Trapped by expectations
I was under infinite stress
Recently I've had a revelation
I'd rather be happy, not the best
To be happy is good enough
Because life is short, gone in a puff

The future awaits me
I can't wait for it
Success for all to see
But then I trip
Looking at a mountain
The peaks I was counting

On the ground I lay
The dirt I breath in
In a state of decay
Pondering my sin
Molehills I didn't inspect
At my feet I neglect

Living in the future
Causes death in the present
Our intentions pure
Still we have our descent
For the roots we forget
For dreams we don't have yet

Death is the end
And it scares us
But it's also our friend
Something we can trust

Life is so wild and bold
Potential everywhere
But it's the same old same old
It begins to lose its flare

But it never lasts
A set amount of time
It goes by so fast
This end a crime

We fear when life concludes
And we can't feel anymore
Negative are our attitudes
About death's door

So we fight back
And live life to the fullest
Our happiness an attack
The love we feel our bullet

Against death we fight
But that's what he desires
For us to be bright
Before he puts out our fires

Sometimes when I think
About people struggling
Pushed to the brink
I feel nothing
This isn't anything old
All I feel is cold

Emotion is fleeting
Happiness absent
Despair receding
My mind stagnant
Soul has been sold
All I feel is cold

Nothing is what's left
Gone are life's sparks
But I am not dead yet
A walking corpse
Emptiness uncontrolled
All I feel is cold

In this fight
Insides twisting
World black and white
Battle of existing
World keeps bringing
But I'm still here swinging

Blow after blow
I'm on the ground
Get up, I don't know
My mind unsound
The crowd cringing
Cuz I'm still here swinging

They tell me to stop
To lay down and die
I can't be on top
So why even try
Wounds stinging
I don't know why I'm swinging

Yet I get up again
It's never easy
Moving past this pain
So much I'm dizzy
But that fat lady ain't singing
So I'm still here swinging

My self worth is not mine
It is defined by those around
If they're happy it's fine
Even if I'm drowned
Sinking in this cement
Never can I be content

I adore each friend
Because I see a soul
Pain it will amend
Again make me whole
Stave away my torment
As never can I be content

I cannot always rely
On those around me
To help me get by
And set me free
Self love must be my intent
Or else never can I be content

A student wanting to learn
To love who I am
So I never have to yearn
For help when I stand
I can then invent
My own life of content

When I look back
My life is in two
Joy, I never lack
Despair never new

Times I'd rather keep
Moments I want to last
Yet I can't sleep
Over pains of the past

So I choose to forget
The times that were misery
Ones I always regret
Better left to a mystery

And all that's left
Is what defines me
The parts that are best
Are what I choose to be

We were so close
A friend in life
Who could take my woes
And cut them with a knife
Yet I was a flake
I want to mend this mistake

I chased others
Who said they'd stay
Then flew like feathers
The very next day
My heart they take
I want to mend this mistake

I missed your presence
The way we smiled
We were a menace
Living life wild
For our own sake
I want to mend this mistake

Then one day you spoke
And still cared for me
You fixed what I broke
And I felt so happy
Now I lie awake
Mended is my mistake

The skin I have is dark
And that's all most see
I walk around with a mark
That says I can never just be
I feel like a different breed
My freedom never guaranteed

People are born different
Their love may be unique
Sadly some aren't considerate
And treat them like a freak
They think they're some ****
My freedom never guaranteed

I started with nothing
Poverty knocking at my door
If I were to wish for something
It wouldn't be to have more
But to never have to need
My freedom never guarenteed

All of this makes me different
Yet it makes me who I am
I'd rather a societal aberrant
Than part of a program
To be free is to concede
So I'd rather be me than be freed