Sometimes I'm in the dark
And the night closes in
I live with this mark
Sadness upon my skin
Ask if I'm okay and I want to lie
Because I never want to see you cry

It can get hard to move
My feelings are howling
But your care it does soothe
No longer it feels like drowning
I feel happy and begin to fly
Because I never want to see you cry

The world keeps spinning
And life goes on
Yet just beginning
A new day's begun
I want to go on, ask why
Because I never want to see you cry

All I want is to be happy
For everyone to feel okay
But that's not the reality
The outlook looking grey

What does it mean
If life is so worthless
To escape the machine
We start to lose purpose

If people are willing
To just throw it all away
Because it's not fulfilling
Then why should I stay?

I am answered quickly
They come running
Knocking on my door already
Making sure the sun is shining

It's dark outside
The sky a work of art
I can no longer hide
As people warm my heart

It takes three things to be happy
This life decides to torture us though
Two at a time it says, a thing of cruelty
For we only get to give life one go
Because of this impossible is serenity
Time, money, and energy

We begin life with an open mind
All the time we need to run free
Fast as we have energy combined
But to go at all we must pay a fee
With money we don’t have you see
Time, money, and energy

Now we are older and working
All this money to spend on us
Still have our youth to keep running
But no time, back to work we must
Caged by responsibility no longer free
Time, money, and energy

Life coming to a close, show ending
We have our fortune earned and ready
No more work, time to be spending
Alas no more energy to keep steady
Our bones ache, our youth lost at sea
Time, money, and energy

Is happiness made to be impossible?
Well that’s the funny thing really
Happiness is easily the most affordable
With 2 colours we can paint life artfully
Creating our happiness, a thing of beauty
Time, money, and energy

Every moment is so small and brief
Yet is worth more than one can fathom
Sometimes joy, other times grief
A lot of the time it can be random

I wonder if the bad and good balances
And everyone is meant to live equally
Thinking like that has consequences
And I don’t have time for that really

So I choose to be selfish, make life mine
To make myself more important than others
If it all leads to happiness, isn't that fine?
Can I float along, not a leaf but as a feather?

A reckless nature, the seed of disaster
Impulsive at heart, chaos flowing
In a world of mayhem I am master
My first instinct always showing
Who cares it's not my bullet bit
All because I feel like it

The universe even knows the truth
That to stay alive we need chaos
To create disorder and keep our youth
Destroy harmony, the fool's oasis
I hate this world, every piece meant to fit
All because I feel like it

Entropy a euphemism for discord
Actions meant to dictated by instinct
A message so loud it brings down the Lord
From his seat he creates order so distinct
I feel compelled to make even his will submit
All because I feel like it

It’s madness that’s come over me
To want to break the perfect machinery
That moves like a mind in harmony
It’s a want for a change in scenery
For a need is too easy to permit
All because I feel like it

Is it a sin to live and act on a whim?
To forgo all thought and just do
Thinking leads to an outcome grim
Even if logic says I’ll come through
I’d rather blank and go for the hit
All because I feel like it

Impulsiveness is known to be for fools
But for me it’s an escape from reality
For I become different than the tools
That move the machine so carefree
I continue to act my way, never quit
All because I feel like it

An easy breeze on a hot day
A free apple off of a tree
These are the little things in life
We don't ask nor do we give,
They just happen and we go on
The little things aren't given second thought
But they give us a little smile everyday,
Enjoy things in life that just happen
Because one day we won't see them

Following friends and family one moment
Next alone in a crowd,
Where have they gone, what have I done?
What can I do, where can I go?
Spin in circles hoping for a glimpse
Lost and alone I wander,
As I walk people laugh and have fun
I can do that no longer, not here
For I am lost and can't find my way

I feel my heart beating again
The world is collapsing
There's no way out but drown
Until I realized there is an up to this down

I feel something changing,
Something writhing
It's my soul black and dead
Ignited anew by a flame instead

Changing as I change
Feeling as I feel
I am no longer the leaf
Destined to fall

There is purpose to my growth
Reason to my being
I am one of many sisters, brothers
Surrounded by others

Not held down
But kept up
They are not the similar current
So I accept something different

I am the sun
Ready to shine
Upon the leaves
That kept me so safe

Life is a cycle we follow, a dream
We fall asleep and wake as dust
Living lucidly, flowing down a stream
Our love for life revealed as lust
Life’s dream is nothing and painful
Why do we continue this circle?

Anything that goes up must come down
Like a bird we fly and relish freedom
But eventually we fall, our pain without sound
Like that we’re gone, a predicted outcome
If we all must wake up, life mortal
Why do we continue this circle?

Like a dream we have no control
We are dictated in body and mind
Falling down into an infinite hole
Here we live as if deaf and blind
Helpless like a flipped turtle
Why do we continue this circle?

This dream is a nightmare, I fear
But it doesn’t have to be if we choose
What happens is yours to commandeer
Take life by the reigns, there is nothing to lose
Death is but a stage to life eternal
So take your life and forge it’s cycle

I can feel my heart beating
I am ready for it to stop
But there's a feeling inside
Telling me just wait, I'm not done

This feeling is life, in of itself
Why do I live? For who?
If a dew drop were to fall
The other droplets would droop
But only for a moment
Then go back to normal, as if none the less

If a leaf is meant to eventually fall
It's journey meaningless
Why should I grow

Blue was the sky above
The wind, warm and gentle
Clouds white in flight like a dove
A day to feel sentimental
There is a sudden, shocked outcry
Black rainbow across the sky

After the rain there should be colour
From the sun’s awakening light
But the sky turns red, beginning to suffer
An arch of darkness caused this blight
Clouds fade away, no longer to fly
Black rainbow across the sky

The onlookers can't look away
Raptured by the darkness that has spread
Despite their fear and dismay
They continue to look at the rainbow, dead
A grim scene plays out above on high
Black rainbow across the sky

The day they all wanted and waited for
Has disappeared before their eyes
The arch above them, out like a sore
Reaches end to end, it no longer tries
To spread out more and continue to dye
Black rainbow across the sky

Now stands two pillars of black
And a red sky for all to see
But nothing else came from the attack
The day was normal, over was the spree
But people were still mad, wanting to cry
Black rainbow across the sky

Really nothing was wrong at all
It was a simple change of scenery
But people can't handle change, big or small
They hated the idea of a kink in their machinery
It's hard to be yourself, to think, and to defy
To be the black rainbow across the sky

Burrowing, digging, feasting on us
A parasite using humanity as a host
Eating at the necessities and essentials
Stealing away your pride and credentials

What it is, is the all knowing dictator, the “man”
The one who points at everyone but himself
A false prophet propped up by influence and money
Got where he is through manipulation so ugly

A hard worker unrecognized
A leader tunneled on wealth
A family poor and despised
A nation swimming in its own filth

People’s portraits painted a certain colour
For other’s to see and blame without reason
Under a veil of justice there is corruption
Down below is the pain of separation

A world dictated by status and privilege
Equality is but a myth, a dystopian notion
The head is corrupt, parasite in control
A body in pain, paying the ultimate toll

A baby crying, now starving
A politician crying, now corrupt
A soul crying, now departing
A flower crying, now plucked

I can’t help but drown on land
Weighed down by the little things
The negativity that’s insignificant as sand
Its voices pulling on my mind with strings
I continue to fall deeper under the water
No chance of coming back
One small comment and I fall further
The inky darkness of pain almost black
All the support and praise washed away
By one perspective as naive as mine
To dwell on this makes life grey
It hurts and pains, but I say I’m fine
When really I can barely stand up
Yet I refuse to say no, to give up

A great divide between us
A bridge broken and battered
A love stronger than lust
A hope cracked and shattered

We look across the gap wide and deep
A gap so wide we can't see each other
The other person across scared, waiting
But a feeling of belonging, translating

How did this gap even get here?
Who made it so we can't feel one another
So that we can't love and hold
Each other's lives we want to mold

A bridge we must cross together
A meeting in the middle, two souls
A fear of falling into the ether
A connection to fill in the holes

We begin our walk to the other side
The bridge swaying, creaking as we walk
People follow so we don't go alone
All of us looking for our own home

Then the bridge breaks and we all fall
Going down we scream and cry
As we fall we grasp at what we can
Hoping our lives are more than sand

A gasp of fear and pain
A hand in mine holding tight
A darkness my soul it will stain
A light made by love, creates flight

A leaf needing to the found
Is picked up by the breeze
The leaf now safe and sound
The wind continues, moving with ease
Dancing with the leaves
Like a current, my body weaves

Through the sky it flows
Not caring about who sees
Twirls and spins as she goes
Free of pain and disease
Ready to fly, an idea it conceives
Like a current, my body moves

It starts down to the ocean
To help move ships
Its moves creating a commotion
The onlookers awed by the tricks
Elegant and graceful, it perceives
Like a current, my body moves

It flows, stepping around gracefully
Each movement made with passion
A dancer at heart we see truly
No second thought in action
In each gesture she believes
Like a current, my body moves

Hundreds of battles until now
A broken and cracked sword
Fought, protected with all its might
Slaying enemies left and right

Is it time for a new one?
It’s just a tool, used to ****
Why would it matter, replaced?
Broken is a word sided with distaste

A blade now dull, sharpness gone
A hilt now scrap and crack
A warrior needing to move on
A need for a weapon on his back

He goes in search of new
What he finds is not his
Only the sword now broken
Is of his character, his token

Desperate he goes back
To the sword that broke
He knows it can be repaired
Their journey, not done being shared

A new blade sharp, steady
A hilt new but familiar
A duo back in the fight already
A sky lining now silver

Lights on well past midnight
Yet the library continues its work
Odd yet normal of a sight
To see the girl reading with a smirk
She acts like she knows life’s records
A meaning hidden in the words

More time passes, she keeps skimming
Soaking in all the mysteries to be had
Lives and knowledge all brimming
No matter if it was happy or sad
The higher meaning she heads towards
A meaning hidden in the words

Using one life to live multiple others
She can’t stop flipping the pages
All the feelings and stories hers
Seeing life’s multiple stages
Not as simple as three thirds
A meaning hidden in the words

The book is closed and put back
A smile of satisfaction on her face
As much as she knows she lacks
But that’s ok for she has grace
Knowing all the she wants undeterred
The meaning hidden in the words

Down the river the canoe floats
Under a clear sun and cool breeze
All the details the girl notes
Drawing the scene before her with ease
The fish swim under below
Let our journey follow the flow

Down the river approaches
A fork, a decision, a choice
The fear of it encroaches
But the driver hears a voice
“It doesn’t matter left or right we go”
Let our journey follow the flow

The fork comes faster and closer
Driver scared, can’t continue calm
A decision made now or never
Yet the artist continued to draw a palm
Don’t be filled with fear and woe
Let our journey follow the flow

And so they went left
The current pushing them this way
Poor driver still feeling stressed
The artist stood up, admired the day
For her art was done, quite the show
Let our journey follow the flow

A young girl falls and trips
Wounded but alive she continues
Couldn’t care less about life’s flips
Choosing a path, she follows
Animals hurrying to scatter
She says “Life does matter”

Up the mountain she goes
Strong and clear headed in every step
Smiling as the beauty around grows
She looks at the dew on the cob web
Everything connected, organized in manner
She says “Life does matter”

Close to the top she looks and sees
A world of beauty and hope untainted
Nature with its life and its trees
All together in one big portrait painted
The last couple steps like a ladder
She says “Life does matter”

Up above the clouds on high
Stands a girl victorious and complete
But already saying her goodbye
To the world up above the concrete
There was still more to do after
She says “Life does matter”

Heard was the “Iceberg dead ahead!”
The titanic continued to keep its course
The captain feeling heavy as lead
Already feeling the weight of remorse
The impact reflecting their woe
The iceberg has so much more below

They began to sink to the bottom
The ship filling and breaking
Falling like the leaves of autumn
Those trapped start peeking
Under the iceberg lies a show
The iceberg has so much more below

Light begins to dance in the ice
Moon shining through the night
Little stars dancing like mice
More to be seen than at first sight
Entirely different view down low
The iceberg has so much more below

If only they could stay forever
Watching the beauty that lies there
As they fell down even deeper
Their lives complete, void of care
Because of the true sight and glow
Of an iceberg that has so much more below

I hear something’s wrong
Whispered into my ears
Like a malevolent song
My heart caught by its lures
All around I see trees
Down go falling leaves

I hop from the ground
Wind whistling through
But I am caught by the sound
Of the darkness’ coup
Pain and disease
Down go falling leaves

Where does this lead?
A path not taken by most
But one I must heed
If I want to run from this ghost
The voice cuts and cleaves
Down go falling leaves

I arrive to see light
A clearing so clean
It can cleanse this blight
The darkness not seen
It's time for new beliefs
Down go falling leaves

A new song begins
One of clarity and calm
I hope for the sins
To be healed and gone
Music that weaves
Down go falling leaves

The notes start play
No longer sad and corrupt
I see a new day
A song saying Wake Up
My broken soul it relieves
Down go the falling leaves

Together they march
Towards a battle of theirs
Some ready and strong
Others feeling like it's wrong

Here comes the enemy
Swords out, bows drawn
The clash begins, metal rings
Now death the angel sings

What started the fighting?
Is it our fault or theirs?
Why spill brother’s blood
And then lay sisters in the mud

A sword in the ground
A mother’s love now sorrow
An arrow through the head
A father’s pride let go

We fight and **** without cause
Playing as God’s executioner
****** not justified
Life and love denied

We’re all the same
Born to live and prosper
It’s all a fight for survival
A **** deadman’s carnival

It’s for the entertainment
For ourselves and each other
To spill the blood of humans
And all for one’s amusement

A leader lamenting his defeat
A catastrophe begins to commence
A ruler grinning and laughing
A body unknown, life worthless

Sky clean as glass
Night draws near
Here comes the ball of gas
Shining bright and clear
Yet above it feels so confining
Dying star keep shining

There is no meaning
To stay alive and lit
Why do I keep seeking
When there is no real fit
I feel the need to begin dying
Dying star keep shining

I can’t give light
As my strength goes
I give into sadness’ blight
And discover all my woes
The glow starts falling
Dying star keep shining

My body is all that’s left
Those around me scream
But I can’t help but be deaf
To those who dream
My life is ending
Dying star keep shining

This is meant to be
For all those who grow
To run and to flee
From their own show
Yet here I can’t stop smiling
Dying star keep shining

I continue this descent
Into darkness and pain
Am I ready for this torment?
I have nothing left to gain
But I can’t stop dreaming
Dying star keep shining

I see the stars around
They fall as one together
Here they come to surround
They are warm and soft as feather
I am almost done falling
Dying star keep shining

We begin the last couple miles
Till the surface and us collides
Those around me continue their smiles
Ready to be my guides
I die but keep believing
Dying star keep living