Line out the field
With chalk on the ground,
Number the squares
Where your step will be found.

Aim very hard
And throw in your stone.
Go to your goal.
You can do it, I know.

Life isn’t fair -
You will stumble and fall.
But then you’ll get up
And you will go on.

Let the other kids laugh,
The adults shake their heads.
Shut the cruel voices out -
You will find your way ahead.

From learning hues that painted their joy to cradling their vulnerabilities, I hesitate to unfold my chapters to anyone new.
Nevermind knowing someone else, how do l open up to another person
To know me exactly how you did, without me sayin' a word
"Move on," they say, yet moving on means exposing the very part of me that being with you taught me l should shield from the rest of the world
So, where do I begin
I don't want another hi that will lead to a goodbye

So today someone made me smile, even laughed
Today l set for coffee, lunch and dinner
And never for a moment did l look for you in anyone
Today l did everything l wished to do with you, even more
And no thought of you crossed my mind
Today everything that once reminded me of you
Didn't bring any memory
Today for the first time in a long while l didn't look forward to your text
Today your absence felt normal
And it didn't make me cry
Today l don't miss you as much as l used to
So Today l realise maybe l am slowly forgetting you
It's what I wanted but why does it still make me sad

No matter how I said to everyone that 'I'm okay' and 'I'm fine'. But everytime I'm alone in my room.
The emptiness would reflect my feelings and the darkness envelop my whole being.
The tears that I hide for a thousand smiles was shed one by one until it's countless.

I really want to share it with somebody but they don't understand.
All I could see in their eyes is sympathy which is I don't need it.
Losing someone you loved the most is something that you lose half of your life.

Indeed, I am miserable right now.
I am in between of staying or letting go the sorrow.
But despite of it, I'm still hopeful that someday the pain will gone.
© Unatnat03