If all else should fail.


Let the light be gone and all darkness embraced;
Let me leave this world behind me in ruins
And let me be gone from this place.
Let the sun fall from the sky and wipe out all who stood before me;
Let all who dream of better futures,
See the ashes of a burnt out planet, buried under their misery.  


If all else should fail and my extinction stopped,
Then let the bodies drop
And fall from the pedestals we have placed upon this world.
Let the hatred unfurl;
Let the pain and misery rule.
Let all who came before me be brought back to this world,
To face their day of judgment…
Let them face their punishment.


Black out the sky with angel wings,
Hanging beneath the Devil’s claws and his puppet strings.
If all else should fail and I cannot be gone from this shell,
Then let Hell reign eternal upon this land that we dwell.


Then maybe they could feel how I feel;
Let them feel the agony of a dying heart,
That lives inside without a cure; let everyone depart
And leave this planet a wreck of a rock,
With nothing left to feed upon.


If all else should fail and I am not allowed to depart,
Then let the demons descend upon the ground before us
And burn the buildings down to give death to art.


If all else should fail and the pain cannot be removed;
Then let the pillars turn to ash and no broken heart ever soothed.
No person left with a heart to use;
No sanity left to claim to rule.


If all else should fail...


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All I had to give.


I will break apart,
I will break apart;
I will break apart if I let you into my heart.


I have nothing left inside,
I have nothing left inside;
I have nothing left inside but hatred
And it is purified.


All I had to give away,
I gave it to you every day.
All I have to give away,
I let it go; I let it get away.


All I have to give to you;
I have nothing left to give to you.
All I had to give to you;
I wasted it all away on you.


Stains on the heart so deep, they can't be removed;
All I have to give to you.
All I ever do is lose;
All I had I gave to you.


Now I am lost and these feelings are not new;
All I had to give to you.
Same old day to fade away;
All I had I gave away.  


Ripped apart you rescued me,
Then you turned around and walked out on me.
Torn in two, I rot away;
All I have is empty in loves grave.


Sun is dead inside my heart;
All you do is tear apart.
Life is dead, covered in scars;
All I had has now turned dark.


Bitterness disguised as bliss;
All I had, I had to give.
Something lost inside, no longer a memory;
Bitten hard by nothingness.


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Grey


This place is my wasteland of fear.
There is nothing for me here.
Out there, there is a whole new world to discover.
A whole new land which is at the moment undercover.
Remove the covering, begin discovering,
A whole new home in a place where I believed there was none.
Am I not too far gone?


In here I am polluted by the gaseous air.
Here is where the nothingness grows.
Day by day and night by night I want to be out there,
Instead I am trapped in-between, in limbo.


There is nothing to see when I close my eyes.
I have nothing to say, because all is grey skies.
No artist could make this a place of beauty.
I broke my crown and now I await,
The day of my destiny.


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A place for poets.


We are flying through eternity.
Endlessly we stay beneath all those things,
They tell us we should have been.
Aimless we choke upon our own words.
Seeking guidance in an empty place; we have never been heard.


Our voices have never truly shouted out loud.
We are the poets in need, lost faces in the crowd.
A million strangers never meet to discuss,
What could be done to give a voice to us.


All travelling alone, along similar tracks.
We are united by words, but we never tell each other what we have.
With all the knowledge in our world of poetry,
We are all left confused by the possibilities.


No map to view; no set in stone.
No directions to a place we can communicate;
A poet’s home,
Is a place we need,
To speak at ease…
A place we can all feel safe.


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Love is a *****


Lovers are doomed from the start.
Unrequited love has destroyed my heart.
If you are one of the lucky ones,
You may get to fall in love until they cheat and you are done.
They get to continue being happy while you die;
They start again straight after with another guy.
Yes your heart will completely shatter,
But let’s face it, you never even mattered.


People fall in and out of love depending on who they are with.
Married people are an embarrassment;
Especially those who are raising kids.
The mother doesn’t know who the real father is;
Oh you make me feel so sick!


I want to get married;
Ha, it’s a tragedy in the making,
Because while wedding bells are ringing,
People are texting and later faking.
Another fool who believes in love.
Love ***** because nobody is good enough,
For anybody, anymore.
Everybody is somebodies *****.


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The end of this beautiful life.


Holding on to the edge of the world
And we are all about to lose our grip!  
Wishing I could have been anywhere else!
When all they told us never cured my fear!


I've been told that this is the beginning of life,
But everything is just not what it seems…
All I wanted was a love to be strong,
But I can never learn how to forgive!


Summer dies and the sun no longer shines,
In this little town I don't call my home.
I've been told that the good will out,
But I can't even stand up, to stand alone!


Feelings change but the day is the same
And I guess that's why nothing will ever change!
All along I knew that they were all wrong,
But I could never find a beautiful way!


Bitter lies are all I have ever heard
And now I never know who I can trust!
In this life we are given just one chance,
But I could never raise a smile to the sun!


Blind my eyes, give me cancerous bones,
It's just another Devil's cunning trick.
They keep on saying that things will get better,
But I have seen so much that I can no longer believe!  


Where is the hope, of which they spoke?
Another promise broken and another disease.  
All that they did never affected me,
It just left a black hole in place of my soul!
In these days of having everything we crave,
Why can I not just get a little hope?


At the end can we stop pretending,
That the better times are up ahead?
I’ve seen you all and I will watch your planet crumble
And I will leave this place to burn and have no regrets!
If all we are is just a dying breed
And we are underneath a dying star!
Why can’t we do what we know we must do?
I guess our greed will leave us all dead in the end!


Humanity, where is the humanity?
We have no reason to carry on.
Our times has come, under a dying sun
And soon we will all just be gone!


Beautiful horizon I see you fading away
And all that’s left is a stump they used to call an oak.
If we can’t stop then what will become of this place?
The pollution mask will not protect you from their smoke.


It’s the end of a beautiful world
And it’s a place I do not even recognize!
It’s evolution and the beginning of a species reborn,
Because in the end all we have left to do is die!


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The continuous culture


As none would be, yet still exists,
One who creates a perfect bliss.
So sensational as to be unbelieved;
Yet tales are told as first was seen.


The image there for all to see,
Gave birth to words and epiphanies.
A mind of light and stars and streams.
Connections made and ways believed.


And all upon a head of clouds,
Were seen a million times and how,
All understood the thought as one,
As all never needed a mirage in the sun.


Electric bolts from mind to mind,
Shared all the knowledge of all mankind
And as man all stood on land to view the sky,
Beneath the moon and sun all was clear to the eyes.


At last a chance to see the next footstep in humanity.
A language born a long time ago,
Was able to be used to translate,
And now all into a brighter future can go.

The mind of a hive, a continuous culture.
A change of life; breaking the spell we were under.


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The Broken Heart Club.


I came to see you yesterday;
There were drunken degenerates outside your place.
I got nervous, I'm afraid to say;
I'll come back tomorrow and try again.


I had an epiphany, a realisation;
Why must I struggle to come see you?
Why can't we change the situation?
What do you say, shall we live together?
Stay together as one person, forever and ever?


I love you completely, I'm infatuated,
Please tell me you feel the same way,
I don't want to feel deflated.
Let down by you, the one person that shouldn't;
Because our love is eternal, I'd still want you even if I couldn't.


I want to hold you in my arms, knowing you truly love me;
Because I'm obsessed by your beauty and personality.
Head over heels, wearing rose tinted glasses.
We could teach lessons to students, 'The How to Love' classes.


Wedded in white, the ****** bride;
Not in today’s society, they lose it as a child.
Make a promise to each other to stay together;
Until death does us part; or you’re bored of each other.


I'd like you to meet my Wife; oh you met her last week?
Yeah, she was stripping in that club,
She's got a nice pair of (Bleep).
Sorry didn't you know, that your girl is a **?
The boys down the pub have all had a go.


Walk away and I stumble, I need your belief;
You take away my breath, I need an Iron Lung to breathe.
Everyone comes and goes, but no-one really knows.
When you found me, I looked deep inside, at a picture of my soul.
There was a picture of me smiling, I felt good inside;
But the truth will out and now my heart has just died.


You’re getting too close, get out of my bubble,
What is this love thing?  Why does it cause so much trouble?
Your love is a hemorrhage; it's bad to the taste.
I gave you my heart and my soul.  Oh my dear, what a waste.
You threw it in the bin, like it was yesterday’s news;
As you met the man you loved, who would have knew?


I really didn't, I stupidly thought you loved me;
I must really be a loser, for I lost all I need.
You my love, you were the one for me.
But true love?  Now I'm not so sure; I no longer believe.


We were happy once, before all this happened.
You loved me once, before you loved him.
But why did you marry me and then do something like this?
I will always love you dearly;
Yet at the same time know you’re a *****.


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Gone to the grave


How easy it is now for me to see,
How beautiful you and I could be.
If only you could truly trust in me.


I love you.
I swear it from my beaten, broken heart.
I love you.
If you want me I am yours.


My love I give to you and no-one,
Until you give your body to someone.


I love you my love,
Come back and lay with me in bed.
Close your eyes and forget any pain,
You have felt.  I will wash it away.


I wish I could hold your hand until my dying days.
When you can no longer be saved,
As I have gone to my grave.


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You have my pity


You are not very nice, but I don’t mind,
Because you are not very talented,
So I will give you some of mine.
I have it in abundance, whilst you lack any kind of meaning.
Your words are so redundant;
So keep on dreaming,
That one day you will become important.


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Give me a reason.


One poem a day; that is my goal.
I must write something each night or day and show you my soul.
My collection of written words will never be whole,
For it is constantly expanding, as I continue to grow old.


I hope I am worthy of doing this well,
For my poetry is my love and I have many stories to tell.
I will speak of fantasy worlds I dream up inside my mind
And speak the truth whenever necessary, to make the words rhyme.


If you like what I write, then give me some encouragement;
If you have apathy to my poetry,
Then seek another to give your mind its nourishment.
If you take offence at something I have written,
Then I apologise.  That is not what I meant,
To do; all I wanted was to show you how I feel,
About that particular subject and now my vessel is spent.


Each poem is unique and should be judged by its own content,
Not compared to another and held up in judgment.
I shall forever write poetry,
For I shall forever seek and gain enlightenment.


I am love, I am fallen,
I am many faces of many men.
I am man, I am woman,
I am myself and many others.
I am right, I am wrong,
I am the son of my mother.
I could end up becoming your lover,
But I shall never proclaim to be anything more than I am; my reader.


You are a part of my life now; you have peered into my mind
And I do hope you have had a nice time reading my lines.
I must find a way of getting my mind and body to conspire;
So I set myself goals to strive for, to keep me inspired.


I motivate myself to continue to write,
By wishing to improve all the time and searching for that next line.
It’s hidden in my mind somewhere,
I just have to find it.
My next goal is to write my thousandth poem
And I have my eye on it.


This will feed me the fuel I need to write another poem
And to each of you I shall continue showing,
How I feel at the moment the poem is created.
My thoughts shall forever evolve,
But my lust for writing shall never be sated.
Only seventy five to go now to reach my next goal.
One poem at a time, I am getting closer to satisfying my ego.


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Ang-el


Your eyes have become a mirror for me,
I look into your eyes and you allow me to be;
The man I thought I would always become.
The happy, loving, man who can be loved.


The blue of your eyes; stays still like the lake,
We stare at each other with nothing to hide.
Yet somehow we both know there is more to be discovered,
About our new lover; about our new life.


You see my beauty, you have my heart,
I always think of you, whenever we are apart.
For I adore the kindness of your soul,
You open your love to me, so I can let myself go.


You let me have no fear of being hurt,
I can think of a future with you at my side.
Some of the words I say will be lost if not heard
But my love for you will never be hidden from your eyes.


To hug you and to hold you; is Heavenly to me,
To kiss your soft lips allows me to be free.
From any pain or hurt causing feeling,
You make my mind wander as I begin to daydream.


My eyes awaken and there you stand before me,
A vision of lust who lets me be,
Open to show you my true desires,
Who allows my passion to burn like a raging fire.


Nothing must come between us,
All I need is us to be in lust,
In love and hand in hand together,
My love you have my love from now until never.


Simply put, you drive me nuts,
All I think is: all that really matters is us.
If we are happy and madly in love,
Then nothing but nothing can do damage to us.


Other people we are able to aid,
Our love for each other does not need to be saved.
When I am alone I feel the severed limb syndrome,
Part of me is missing, until you come home.


And home has now been shifted,
My heart has now been lifted.
My mood has changed from despair to here,
In love with you, needing you near.
Holding you, kissing you,
Loving you, missing you.
Doing nothing by your side,
I thank you for pleasure and changing my life.


All I have is all I need,
Well maybe another jay or two of ****.
But you make my heart complete,
You make my nightmare life a dream.


I love you, I love you,
I love you, I do.
I only wish for you to truly love me,
As much as I love you.


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Reject.


Love is a job.
Dating is the interview.
Rejection stops me applying to be with you.


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I see


I see pictures on a blank canvas.
I see images inside your image.
I see the tranquility within the madness.
I see a beautiful world only I can envisage.


I see words where none are written.
I see winter gardens on a mid-summers afternoon.
I see Macintosh before it was ever bitten.
I see colours of sunlight when all illumination is from a moon.


I see history designing your future.
I see the past repeating here and now.
I see technology; forever advancing roots of a router.
I see an empty space, with floating ice mountains in the background.


I see Fuji rising over Emoji.
I see all in jigsaw pieces.
I see connections where no attachment should be.
I see the perpetual wave;
Beauty never ceases.


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I’m coming home


Been gone so long now, I don’t remember the day I set off.
This flying visit became a journey and I’m sorry that it took so long.
Our only conversations have been by phone and video.
I hope your love for me is still burning bright when I do arrive home.


If you became lonely, like I did while I was away,
I hope you stayed true like I did;
Ignoring all the interest that came your way.
I believe in you; I hope you kept the faith in me too.
My belief in us is the only thing that helped me to get through,
To the other side of what seemed like forever.
It seems so long since we last kissed.
You give me a place to long to come back to,
When you tell me I am missed.


You have always been there for me, even when I had to leave.
I would have liked to have stayed there with you,
But we don’t always get what we need.
Life is not always in our hands;
Sometimes we have to go so we can return.
The light of our love has never gone out;
My passion for you still burns.


I’m coming home to be with you soon.
Look out for me in the red light of dusk.
I’m letting you know that your love is a harpoon;
You shoot your love into my heart and pull me back to you.
I will be there soon…
I’m coming home to you.


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How to say goodbye.


Days pass by with no love in sight,
But throughout the sighs, I see a Wife.
My Wife, not yours;
You are safe from my charisma.
I believe in a true love;
You can keep your amoeba.


Through the spirits of time,
I have had conversations with past lives,
And all day long, I write the same lines.
Every page contains love or death,
Truth or lie, but still I cannot hide.


In days of yore, I spared a thought,
To what she would think, if she read my ink,
But now I hold no remorse; no love; no more,
For she has disappeared away from my world.


This day is at an ending;
I am through with all pretending.
Sarah speaks through her verses…never lending.


I ask nothing of you,
For I am no longer your true.
There is only time for one last sigh;
No time for a final line to say goodbye.


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Nicotime


I just wanna ******* cigarette,
I just wanna ******* smoke.
I just wanna ******* cigarette,
Before I have to quit my job.


I just wanna ******* cigarette,
I just wanna ******* smoke.
I just wanna ******* cigarette,
Because this place is a ******* joke.


I just wanna ******* cigarette,
I just wanna ******* smoke.
I just wanna ******* cigarette,
So I think I’m gonna go home.


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Death is just the beginning.


A mother’s natural instinct, a sixth sense and premonitions.
Surely this can’t all just be a coincidence?
Surely this proves, there’s more than meets the eye?
Surely this proves, we had a past life?
Maybe nobody actually dies and floats away into the sky.


Maybe we’re all reincarnated, again and again;
Just as Buddha, would have us believe.
So if we did become, enlightened like him,
Surely then, that would mean,
We are cheating death, by knowing of reincarnation
And surely we shouldn’t fear our final destination.


For when we die, we shall come back alive;
But no-one is willing to believe this, in case it is a lie.
But we should have no fear of the afterlife;
For if it is final, then that shall just be the end of the line.


If Buddha was right and he did walk into the light,
Then death should not be feared, maybe it should be embraced.
For when we die, it’s only the end of this life.
Another chance, to try to become enlightened
And when we have learned, what we are meant to know;
Maybe then, we shall reach our Heaven.


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The Duality of Man


Black and blue.
False or true.
Heaven or Hell?
Me or you?
Life or death?
Loud or mute.
Do we keep our eyes closed?
Or do we see a way through?


Hot or cold?
Tea or chocolate?
Coca Cola = Subconscious adverts.
Roll the dice and place your bets!
Be alone all the time,
Or name a pet.


Do what you like,
Or what you are told.
Do you love Him?  Or Her?
Decide before you are too old.
Be one of the common people,
Or break the mold.
Make your own choices.
Do you stay or do you go?


Work for the state (of mind), if you have the time.
Remain independent, or change your mind.
The NHS is the best!
You could choose private.
Pick up a gun or a pen…
Grow up or remain a kid.


Life is about choices, so I choose life.
Life is too short to be worrying about time.
Reinvent yourself as many times as you like.
With every day there is a new age,
So why not smile,
Instead of cry.


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Unwavering hope, in the face a dead hole


All your thoughts are bullet points,
Shooting through our broken hearts;
And all our hearts are bullet proof,
When we are joined in a state of love, you can stay where you are.
You are stationless; we are unmoving and motionless,
In our ardent belief that you are becoming less and less.


Why can you not understand the evil that you are?
We are the innocent passer’s by, running in fear of your gun.
If all we are is soon to be gone and you our last red star,
Then I hope you have a peace of mind, a better life
And a way to cope before you are done and we are only found afar.


We are the innocence of youth, broken in two by people like you
And all you have is already ashes, broken pieces of war on classes.
War on man and woman kind;
War is all that is on your mind.


All we ask is please don't shoot;
Please don't let us end up like you,
With your braindead minds and lack of kind;
You have to hide, from your own cruel conscience.
Never let it be said that you are only subconscious,
Because here you stand in front of me now,
And all I ask is why and how?


Why take a life so easily?
And how are you so different from me?
For all I am is humane and helpless;
All you are is death and worthless.
Who decided to let you go?
What was the price of your worthless soul?
What is it that makes you think you are right?
You have no right to take a life.
So find a place of peace and leave it be.
Just leave; just leave and let us live in peace.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Astro-Nought


I never said I was dead.
I never claimed I was real.
I never saw you as a great.
I only tried to feel.


I couldn’t help you in space.
I’m way too far away from love.
I remember your tear-stained face.
I am giving up.


I never believed down there.
I never believed up here.
I never seemed to care.
I only saw what was never near.


I lived in my dreams.
I hid away from the world,
By floating off into a place of make believe.
Fantasy kept me alive when I wanted to be still.
Here, take my grief.


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Death is inevitable.


We spend our lives, fearing our deaths;
Scared of inhaling, that final breath.
Scared we may die, in the blink of an eye;
It is a consistent thought, throughout our lives.


But we cannot tell, what will happen tomorrow
And no man is able to avoid sorrow.
If it’s our destiny, to lose the one that we love tonight;
We cannot stop their fate, no matter how hard we try.


So rejoice in the fact, you’re alive right now…
For tomorrow you may be floating away into the clouds.


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My wasted heart


Growing older, with memories on my mind.
Wishing I could have had more time to share,
With the women I have loved.
Laughing at love with open eyes, now I am no longer blind.
Romantic comedies are my painful addiction
And my love life is so unjust.


Sing me a song and I will take it to my heart.
Let the backing singers sing along and let their voices be heard!
My wasted heart has forever been lost in the dark.
Will you become my guiding light
And let me see clearly through the blur?


I want to find love, so inside a film I look.
Can you help me find the love I seek?  
There are too many books on love.
All I want is you; let me into your life for a while.
Dance with me under a disco ball and I will try to make you smile.


Raise the trumpets, bang the drums;
Clap those hands and sing about love!
Let my wasted heart find those three words it wishes to hear.
Surely I deserve a little piece of happiness too.
Am I ever going to find a real and true love that will never disappear?
Before you depart and vanish from my life,
Let me leave a thought inside your mind…


Could you fall hopelessly head over heels with me?
And could I be someone you could be with?
I would like to know, how do you feel and what do you see?
When you have come to your decision, could you give me a hint?


If we had never met and you had never known of my existence,
Would you have missed out on something that you could desire?
If you were working as a waitress in a cocktail bar
And I had never asked for your assistance,
Would I have made a mistake if I had never told you,
That you are what I require?


Would my love have been wasted, without you to love?
Or would you make the first declaration inside a crowded café?
You can leave and forget me, but I would never give up on love,
So before you walk away and waste my heart once again,
Please remember how you felt when we first met…

Before I become a stranger and I sadly walk away.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Sparks fly


With a killer smile, she gives me whiplash,
As I spin around to see if she really said that.
She did, I gasp, as I take in a deep breath.
This temptress I would like to get into my bed.


As we stare into each other’s eyes,
Telepathic thoughts run between us
And as we grow nearer to each other,
Our thoughts are linked by our desire to touch.


Whispered secrets are exchanged between us
And in lust, we find love…
Now the fuse has been unspun
And ignited, so exciting;
The two of us are so delightfully united.
We are the beast with two backs,
In my mind of fictional thinking.


Eventually, when we can remain apart no more,
Our lips collide together and we are each lifted up.
We spin as one being, arms around, hugging tight.
We dance under the moonbeams and we become a light,
That can be seen from a thousand fathoms.
The electricity that is between us makes lightning happen.
Sparks fly from each of us as we are encased in this love
And with a final, heart-shaped firework explosion…
Our night of love is done.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

It’s that time of year
once again.


It’s that time of the year; it is here once again.
It’s time for the kids to be opening presents.
It’s that time of the year; it is here once again,
To get all you wanted and some things you didn’t.


So we thank you Lord, for giving us Christmas;
So we thank you Santa, for bringing us presents.
So we thank you Jesus, for giving us Christmas;
So we thank you Santa, for bringing us presents.


Because we couldn’t cope, if we didn’t have toys,
To make the girls happy; as well as the boys.
The Christmas party, another affair;
It’s time to relax and let down your hair.


It’s time to remember, those who aren’t loved;
We must mock them and jeer them, for they are not like us.
It’s time to forget, the stress of the cost;
Three months of anticipation, will soon be forgotten.


And now the wrapping is on the floor, the box has been discarded;
Whole days are wasted preparing the lunch,
Or to drink at the Christmas parties.
Then New Year comes and we make false promises;
Just a day after Christmas day,
Yet another argument has started.


The presents we loved have lost their shine;
Since we went back to school
And saw their presents were better than mine.
The poorer families were happy on Christmas day;
But consumerism took that happiness away.


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My missing piece.


Sometimes I’m crying ******* the inside;
I’ve been thinking about you running through my head,
From time to time.


And if you can hear me, I’m here for you
And all that I hope for is that you can hear me.
I hope to have just one more chance to see you smile
And one more chance to tell you, I love you, my missing piece.


If we make it through,
All the crazy days will fade
And we can start anew;
Because we both deserve the truth.


Just one more shot at love,
Just one more look.
Surely after what we had together,
We can learn from our mistakes and once more share a hug.


Yeah, we could find us, at last;
We could make each other happy again and forget our painful past.
Do you remember that September?
When our love had just begun to bloom.
The rain was falling down all around us,
As we sat inside our own cloud, speaking only truth's.


I found you up in Heaven and we stood together as one;
Underneath our own personal sun
And then we built our own little connection;
The two people will merge and never see another separation.


Nothing can truly take away what we were;
For I could never have become Him, without Her.
We are both just two pieces of one love
And we have waited far too long to meet again,
So this is no time for us to be giving up.


It was written on my bones,
Like the writing that runs all the way through a Blackpool rock.
The whole way down, deep inside is written your name.
It’s never faded from my memory
And you have never faded from my view of what we lost.


It just got complicated and caused us so much pain,
But now you must surely realise, that you and I are nothing without love
And without you to love, I will never smile again.


You are a star sign from up above;
All knowing, all seeing, everything I need to find love.
I guess I’ve got a touch of the love bug,
Because I am still infatuated
And can never be sated,
By any other imposter;
A failure to love her.


A failure to function without the lover I had once hated.
We crashed apart, when we should have crashed into each other;
I crashed upon the shore, a wreck, when I lost you my lover.


I need you in my brain, because you flow through my veins;
You have always been a part of me.
When all is darkness inside my head, you shine a light ahead
And I can take all the love that you have to give,
Because you give me such clarity.


You and I until the end.
When the walls are gone, we move as one; on that you can depend.
We are Siamese, indeed!  So we can once more find our way.
Stuck to each other like a wife handcuffed to a husband in chains.


We are committed to a love that is free;
I never stole your heart, because you gave it to me freely.
Pretty in pink, perfection is priceless.
You are my snowball effect and my love only increases
And nothing less, could pass the love test.


We were building a new life;
We spoke of giving birth to another and raising a child
And whilst I am so stupid and so fearful for the fragile,
With you I believe that anything could be possible.


So overwhelming, this love;
I have never questioned where your love comes from,
My beautiful gift from God.


So listen carefully, right now;
Because this is our time and this is our last chance to dance.
There is no reason to ruin a destined love.
We are united as one; we should be together at last.


Some people come and go and they can go,
But it is only with you that I have ever felt truly at home.
Never divided; not a chance.
Our love is the only love, so far above all others,
So much more than it was; just a fleeting romance.


Your natural beauty suits me;
I wear you on my sleeve, on my heart and on my mind.
So if you can hear me, then I will say this clearly…
I love you and no other will I ever want or need.
I am all yours; do you want to be mine?


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A storm is coming.


Darkness has descended in the middle of the day;
The sunshine is no more, now the sky is becoming grey.
In fear I hide beneath the shelter, trying to be safe.
Inside I hide, beneath the rain.  


Thunder above booms out as a warning;
Be prepared to be scared, for the lightning is coming.
Dogs howl under a flash of light, on a very dark day;
Where is the light that I woke up to this morning?  


Water pours down from the clouds up above;
Where is the sunlight that brings us warmth?  
Where are all those promised, better days?
Why are we so fearful of a little bit of rain and so in love with the sun?


People run inside, trying not to get their hair and clothes wet;
The man in shorts is now having regrets.
The cold hits the air like the touch of death;
Thunder and lightning are no friends of ours...
So bring your brolly with you, or stay indoors
And hide away with your pets.


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Your eyes on me


Before my eyes, Nine Inch Nails are live;
I am alive when I hear the sounds they make.  
In your eyes, I must be despised,
For not wanting to be the same as you and not having your tastes.


My eyes fixate;
Break up all that which came before.
Your eyes, take them away;
I do not wish to be seen by a person who has never hit the floor.


Knocked out, kept down, I drown in the misery of my own mind.  
Picked up, put down, leave me alone!
I just want a way of my own to find.


Rail tracks, lead lives one way, to a place where I do not belong.
The right track I have never been on.
I could never follow in your footsteps,
When I know that everything you think is wrong!  


I am beneath you in every way,
Apart from the heart that beats inside of me.
Mine is open to a change and my love is so real,
Whilst you are all about order and finding a way to make me kneel.


Nothing to trust inside your words;
Pictures lost within your dreams.
All the truth you see in visions of light,
To me are but a blur.


Inside your idea of peace, I sit and scream!  
I can never write what you expect me to write.
I can never write what you would like to read.
I can never say the right thing at the right time, sigh,
Just to make you smile, because all you do is poison my heart
And all I want to do is leave!
Fly away to a beautiful place,
With a beautiful face,
On a beautiful day;
But this is just a dream.


I have no interest in your romantic movie ideology,
You had me at hello, so have yourself a nice day.  
All I see are trees, without their leaves;
Snow upon a sun that has never shined down upon me.
A hopeless lack of sympathy…
A lack of anything.  


Downward Spiral, out of control,
As my mind crashes down to kneel before her feet.  
Feelings have been lost, because you took all of the love!
So now I stand here on my spot!
Refusing to move towards the one who I wish I could.  


Walk away again because I cannot be saved,
From my own way’s and my own grave.
My own pain is my only way,
To get me through the day,
So fade away from me…


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Death in the sky


Crash and burn like falling fireflies;
From the skies come a sign to die, a lightning strike.
It scares the children up here in the plane, oh no!
But we know it can’t hurt us.  Or can it?  I don’t know.


It crashes against us and lights up our night;
It causes panic, it causes fright.
It causes the plane to shake, just turbulence they say;
But we don’t believe their stay calm warning, this is our judgment day.


The end of our world, we are falling through the sky;
I don’t want to die please; I want to learn to fly.
I want to live forever; it can’t be my time already.
I haven’t learned how to live life yet, I’m still not ready.


Ascend into Heaven, screaming in the wind;
It is your time to go stand with your King.


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Silent thoughts


Candles burning brightly bring visions to my eyes.
Shadows dancing in the corners give this room a supernatural vibe.
As I sit here under the covers, all fears are held below;
I gaze into the broken mirror, in a room with no visible windows.
Curtains hide the outside from me; pictures hang on every wall.
Unopened boxes still sleep their long slumber;
They have sat there since the fall.


Unread books sit on the bookshelf;
The dust has gathered on all their pages.
Cobwebs hang like Christmas decorations,
They show the footsteps the spiders took;
They have been there for ages.


As the cold air slows my heartbeat, I could have been here for a year.
So forgotten, so complicated; there is no-one left to cheer.
I have tried to change the channel,
But everything just sounds the same.
I have tried to feed my hunger,
But my body refuses and so it remains.
A thirst calls out for a glass of water; legs are aching for some help.
If I hired myself a waitress, maybe I could help myself.


Candles flicker in their actions; a silhouette fills all above.
There is a ghostly face on my ceiling; swiftly it changes and all is mud.
As the wick burns down to nothing, I prepare to make a stand.
I am reaching out for lightning; fire in my hands.
As I strike another cigarette with the last match inside the pack,
I carry the flame across every candle; I will have to soon sleep or act.
I whisper words into the emptiness, as several thoughts go passing by.
I take hold of my loneliness and put it out of sight, out of mind.


A man is speaking on the TV and I do not like the news he has to tell,
So I press the off switch at the television,
So I am no longer under its spell…
The sound of silence is beginning to annoy me,
So I flick the switch on the radio.
Another old man tells me something new again;
I need music not this breaking news show.


I try and fail to read a fictional story;
The fading light no help at all.
Remembering former days of glory;
Newspaper clippings on the wall.
All the frames have cracks along them,
Where they have fallen to the floor before.
The memories that live outside my head,
Are entrapped in photo’s that are boxed up against the wall.


I need money to change my life,
But changing times are always hard.
A moth is living where there should always have been plenty of cash.
I take out all the plastic cards…
And I throw them in the trash.


Counting pennies like an accountant;
I don’t just wear this hat for fun.
Another winter of discontent;
Crying out to feel the sun.


Breathing clouds because of the cold air;
Toes are asking Santa for slipper shoes.
I lost my will to try a long time ago;
My heart is not mending, it is way too bruised.


Body aching from a lifetime;
I never give it a second thought.
The clock annoys me more and more,
With every tick-tock and with every chime…
I’m too old to be closing doors.


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I Need Some Space To 'Think.'


You asked me to give you some space;
But in space no one hears you scream.
There's nobody out here with me
And there's nothing for me to see.


If I'm giving you space,
Does that mean I can't get with someone new?
I have to turn down the offer of love, while I'm waiting for you?
Look if you want your space, then you can have it without me;
I'm gonna leave you to have your space, to yourself, to think.


Keep on going through space, thinking I'll hang on for you.
Desperately awaiting your decision,
On if your mates allow you to,
Go out with me tomorrow
And let me shower you with gifts.
Well I'm afraid my space is now filled
And you've lost me; bye, bye, *****.


Come back I want you!  I've made up my mind.
Doh! Why you gotta keep spinning me a line?
You've already got me hooked; I'm just putty in your hands.
I was your man completely, do you understand?


Yes I'm sorry my love, I never meant to harm you;
I just needed time, to decide what to do.
Well Miss Independence, go tell all of your friends;
I need a woman who can think for herself and puts our love first.
I need someone who wants me completely,
Not just when she's not seeing her friends.
I need someone who wants me for me;
Not because I drive a Benz.


But I need you, I love you!
I'm sorry I asked for a little space.
Talk to the hand *****!  
Then see the look on my face.
I offered you my heart and soul
And you wanted time to think;
Ok times up for you and me.
You’re dumped!  
What do you think?


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Marriage


We should go on a date; I won’t be late.
Then you should go drinking with your mates.
Tell them to meet you at eight.
If that night you meet somebody else,
Then you decide you want to be with me,
We could maybe make it last six months,
If we are very lucky.


But if you get drunk and decide I am the one,
That you truly want to be with;
Then I will love you for a lifetime.
Maybe one day would could raise our kids,
To believe in love, just like we did…this time.


I only need one love;
That is all I am searching for.
There are many doors we could go through,
Many choices to make before,
I decide and you decide if we have found the truth.


I wish you all the best with your search;
I hope you find somebody who makes you feel loved.
I sincerely say I want you to be happy;
You uncertainly say, you would like a family, maybe.
I hope you find whatever you are searching for;
I want to find true love with you, for good.
I want a woman I adore.


If you choose me,
Then I choose you too.
The choice is yours…
My choice is,
I do.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Woodstock ‘69


At first they said we couldn’t;
And then they found they couldn’t stop us now.
We came together as one people.
The smoke we blew, flew up and made the clouds.


They said it wouldn’t happen,
But the happening is louder than one sound.
With peace and love we could be happy;
Try as they might to bring us down.


There stands a sea of people.
The band on stage, the force behind the hand.
We come in peace, so peaceful.
We crash wherever, sleeping on the land.


The voices spread like a virus.
Chinese whispers write a novel of romance.
They couldn’t understand what lives inside us.
Now they see, we only came to sing and dance.


Love is all you need, to truly love your life, man!
The concert is a sell-out.
The tickets all say free; it’s no more plans.
Just flowing with the motion, taking all we have.
The rain came down and some said, that was the end of that.


Up rose a half a million peace signs.
The food is free; the peace is in your hands.
This thing that they called Woodstock,
Grew bigger than you…and I’m a hippy man.


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An empty soul


I have seen insane and I have found the route back to sanity;
The only thing that could ever hold me down,
Was my own apathy and gravity.
But as I rise above, as I rise once more,
I see my future in my own hands as I am every possibility.
I can have it all.


I can move the stars when I have a guide to lead me;
I can change a heart in the middle of a scream.
I can intake a thought and show it to you like a movie,
Because I have found my higher purpose;
I have awoken from the dream.


I am Neo and Peter Pan; a monster mind aplenty.
I have seen the ghosts of love walking throughout every cemetery.
I have cast out my demons into the books I have written
And all my intentions are turning into actions; it is elementary.


Fix a thought on a diamond and you will see through eagle eyes,
That the wisp of me that roams at night can no longer be despised;
For I am simply a mortal in disguise, hidden away inside a locket.
I am a warrior mind on the inside, but all you see of me is my shadow.
All you can do is view me with scorn
And every feeling I have you will mock it.


That image of me you have is but a figment of your minds creation;
As you stumble through life intoxicated,
Your soul is permanently on vacation.
I live here in the surreal world observing you and all you do
And I am secure inside my own station.


Consider a change as my words begin to fade from all memory;
Your yesterday is still today, your tomorrow to you is unseen
And unknown, but I am all seeing, so I am alone.
I am so happy in misery,
Because who would want you to tell them how to live?


I am my own nightmare.  I am haunted by my twist of fate,
But at the end of this life, my ideas will remain.
Peace, love and empathy is a simple wish,
But it will be all I have left, in the end, to give.
When I have stolen a heart and I am a Prince among thieves;
I will be watching, waiting and writing your future inside the tea leaves.


I have foretold you and I have already predicted your future;
I have said it, I have read it; I am your messenger.
The voice of reason in a place without lines;
The tired and the heart broken have been forsaken by time.
We are without a destiny,
Because we never created it in the first place.
In the end all we are is empty of ideals,
Ideas and a way to find our own way.


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+-


Reality ain’t as dreary as some say it is,
Or others say it will be.
Positivity is the best of me,
So I apologise for my negativity.


Do not just smile to make them happy,
Smile because you are really happy.
Tell them if you are feeling sad.
Things improve with time;
Stop living in the past.


Do not bother to swear,
Or make promises you cannot keep.
Get an early night,
It sounds like fun
And we all need a little sleep.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

I love you, but…


I love you, but you’re driving me crazy.
You’re such a cry baby; I’m driving Miss Daisy.
Can you even hear me?


I love you, but I don’t get your jokes.
I hate the fact that you make me feel so alone.
I want you to stay, but I can’t wait for you to go.
I love being with you, but I am beginning to tire of your ego.


I love you, but I wish you would do something different with your hair.
I wish you knew how to show me that you really care.
I wish you missed me when I am not there,
But still, I love you, whenever I am anywhere.


I love you, but I don’t know what our future holds.
I don’t know if you love me when you leave me feeling so cold.
I don’t know exactly where it is we are going.
All I know is I can’t imagine being without you;
But you are never around when I need consoling.


Been with you so long I don’t know what is wrong.
It’s just the way things have always been;
I thought you were my swan song.
I love you, but is this all going to go away?
I love you, but I wish you would change.


I love you, but I don’t know if I always will.
So I will love you for now,
But one day I will no longer,
Be willing to run up that hill.


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Mr. Nobody


I am without a voice, in a world of decay,
Because I cannot say why things have turned out this way.
I am without a name, because today,
I am an unknown nobody without a face.


Nobody knows Mr. Nobody,
Because I am still nothing without your empathy.
I am without doubt the last on the list,
Of the kids who made it.
Success?  I gave it a miss.


Fade into obscurity to find a place of security.
A voiceless speaker; a muted T.V.
A picture of youth, a forgotten memory;
I never became all I wanted to be so I am still Mr. Nobody.


I have had an out of body experience.
I look down on myself with such contempt.
I wish myself away to a faraway place, so I can forget;
But nothing becomes of the hope’s I cannot hold inside my head.


The knives in my back are holding me back
And slowing me down, by bursting my bubble.
The wishes I had, only ever left me feeling bad,
Because love is too detached from the life that I lead
And it seems to be so unattainable.


Give me your love, so I can compare it to mine.
Your love is a sun beam and still I outshine,
Because I am a sign; the guide says I have a beautiful mind
And I am clearing all the broken heart land mines,
That will all explode given enough time.


Footsteps slip when we fail to kiss
And we are gone to become a nothing, when we should find our bliss.
Mr. Nobody cares, because it seems nobody cares,
About Mr. Nobody and why he stands there with that hopeless stare.


Searching for a real love, waiting on a friend.
Wishing to find a heart that will not deceive, or break; but bend.
A heart of steel to match his heart of stone;
I am a solid, truthful, oath writer,
Who vows to never become a broken bond…
This is why I remain alone.


Words are just lovely when we are feeling bubbly,
But lately I hate me, so the only word I like is misery.
We want to be happy, but only they can be;
We are destined to despair for eternity.


Scared of the world and scared of falling in love.
I will bury myself inside a room full of books.
No-one will come looking, because there is nobody left to care;
But in words I will be comforted by a dream of fresh air.


Stuffed into a book is a spell to free me from this prison,
So I chant the words aloud and I am transported to an island.
A fantasy land; a place to escape from the realism.
A place I can pretend to be visiting, but I will be staying until the end.


No wish to turn back and head towards what I had before;
This land of fiction is my only way out,
So put me back on the shelf, or leave me in a draw.
Let me stay inside this book, so I can hide from you all,
Because you are all so proud and mighty
And Mr. Nobody is so insignificant and his voice is so small.


An unknown voice whispers up from down below.
Hello?  Can you hear me?  I am without hope,
Down here in the dirt, hiding in these shadows;
But if you just pass me a glance and see the heart that I hold,
Maybe you could see me and take me into your heart.
Maybe you could love me…
Who knows?


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The land that lies


Happy dancer, singing songs,
Knowing that the end will come;
But which is the end and which new beginnings?
Waiting on the end of the beginning, is this the beginning?
This all started a long, long time ago,
When I thought I was winning, but now I know.


Remove the light from around her;
It has no use in being my magnet.
Turn the music off, for I am empty
And she could only ever be tragic.
Dancing alone at the end of the night,
Crying in the morning as I lie.
She is only looking lost,
Whilst I am truly falling.
She has never even seen me,
She has not heard me calling.
She has never truly been searched for,
For I have no power to remove my walls.


Sad boy blues with water eyes,
Stares at happy dancer with such despise.
His dead eyes reveal no fury;
The hate is hidden, His jealousy forbidden,
But never silent, truly.


Maiden calling, watches them both and laughs.
She lives in her bubble head as she lies her way to bed
And all that she knows could be contained in a small paper bag.
Her mind could be printed onto the tiniest part of a pinhead,
If only she could remember to not forget;
Maybe she could be more than the worthless words never said.


These are the people at the bottom of the barrel.
Three for the price of none.
Take them and all those singing without knowing of Axl.
Take this rose to free my hands for the gun.
All these people seen through drunken eyes,
Bloodshot eyes see fools in disguise.
All that is left in this pit at night,
Is calling cards and fake profiles,
Lists of idiots with studied lies.
Unknown numbers for adulterous wives
And I am so tired…
I am so very tired.
So tired of people with crocodile cries in the night,
Over people who do not even matter,
So why do I lie?


Suicide is not a surprise when the truth is seen at last.
I have lived in your land of lies
And still you wonder why there is no turning back?
Once choice is made, love is no longer your slave,
For the beast has been released and is free.
Free to leave you behind, free to fly,
Free to find a place to hide
And when I am found there is no more left to say.
What more needs to be said to someone who walked away?


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Monkey In A Tree


I am a monkey sat way up in a tree,

Looking down on humanity.

You wish you could climb up here and be as high as me;

But you have evolved so much, you’ve begun to decrease.


(C)2011 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Accept your fate


What time is this?
What age of man?
My body feels so broken.
What day is it?
What place is this?
I’ve nothing left to try; I have done all I could.


Who knows what will become of my life?
When I am done in, will my words remain unspoken?
We all become our mother’s daughter,
Or we become our father’s son.


As beauty fades, we seek the shade;
The sunshine is no longer attractive.
In modern times, there is money to be made,
In anything, if we are not too distracted.


The hopes of youth are not often followed through;
Such dreams are fanciful.
If you became the same as you had wished for in youth;
Would you still be so grateful?


Such ambitions are usually far-fetched;
Only realistic aims are achieved.
The fountain of youth is wasted on you;
Accept your fate and leave the next generation to grieve.


Age is just a number and your number is up.
You have lived a long and interesting life, so embrace the end.
Time is continuous;
We are not.
On this you can depend.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.