the moon burned with blue fire
there were houses and lanterns around
there were also darknesses and flies
and we walked with a friend straight
went straight to the celebration and home

we left the embankments
and we left the vineyards
and we left the streets by the airplane
and we left the shops
and everyone moved on their way

22.08.18

outside the window comes autumn outside the window goes
it goes slowly outside the window
outside the window is a favorite sweet time

outside the window snow rushing outside the window
fly they fly they are my joyful children
my yellow lovely leaves are running through the window

about how many years about how many days and hours
I breathe here among the houses in the middle of the moon
among the lanterns and among the stars alone


time passes it passes it rushes
flies and flies like a bird in the sky like cold
and how warm it all runs and runs

smiles and sorrows tears and dreams of joy and
only grief and love and gaze at the sea
all over and over with me all over and over

о the immortal melody
oh how much more will you be here oh how much
still i will be here such a sad joyful wanderer

07.10.18

in the rotation of the collar
various flowers are spinning
and tulips and blue flowers
and roses are all red
and sunflowers forgotten

in the rotation of the collar
spinning spinning
spinning spinning is not clear
where it is not clear
heaven and earth are spinning

and the sun and happiness
and happiness and sun
and different different feelings
and sunflowers and roses
everything is spinning a cycle

28.08.18

and there was anger
among papers among the parties
there was anger
among the trees of the dead
among the boards and the world
not real not living

and there was this fury
and I was alone
one with destiny
with death and birth
I again led my steps and moves
and there was this fury
among the blood papers

06.09.18

feeling like a wheel
spinning spinning on the hill
eternal tears and sufferings
and dead end and space and water
and the sea of the ocean is not at all around
no nearby

all perpetual motion all perpetual
contemplation of a thought
around from behind the circle
the eternal circle on which I and whom
I myself am eternal sadness
which there is no limit
which have no end

18.12.18

these lips through them
the universe passes the current
the speed is incredible where I am
and where did I get my lips unexpected
and immortal when it was a clock
in this world
this current
where does this force
not allowing me to speak normally
then the tooth is now the lip
then some kind of infection
why is that
o farm days
o water
in a bottle

05.09.18

under the lake we were we
under the lake we sang about
than we then sang we sang we
what were we talking about then
what were we talking about then about
what were we then and when

under the lake shining where all around
flowers alone flowers and roses and moons on meadows
about the circle about where the
lake is where the lake is in the wilderness
about what we sang with you about what we were
about what we sang with you about what we went about

18.09.18

running notes fast fast
on fingers ran quickly
quickly walked along quickly
and be so quietly and quietly
quietly melody on the nose
slipped and sank into sleep

and there were white papers and will
black paper and torch burn and
notes will run again and all also
it is not known where and when to burn and
quickly run fast then
when I was five years old when I was

when i was six years old
I was seven years old and when I was
exactly eternity eternity one infinite
and when I was not a man but a piano
when I was just the keys and only
white and black black and white and all

02.10.18

autumn autumn well where are you
where are you and your mouth where are you
and your music is the same fall autumn where
where are you why I can't hear everything
why can't I hear or hear everything
and I do not hear you and I do not hear or see
I am yours your mouth

oh autumn oh autumn knock you again you
come to my door come to me my
great inspiration my great revelation
oh come in oh come in and heat you run me like
man demand i demand new updates
and new i'm like person like person want
new water and new food

and again the stars in the sky will play and sing
and again there will be people all singing on their phones
and again and again and again and again I will go
I will go without knowing where and why and I will go
and I will go I will go only in gold only
in the cold only in devastation which means in
too strong filled place

11.10.18

she forgot me she forgot
oh why did it happen
there was so much beauty around
so many moon charms and so many colors
and o so much beauty

well why why she had it all
why she forgot me too
why she threw out of my head
all that so life gave
and the fact that it actually stood

21.08.18

no I never died no
I was never born no I
never developed no I
never swallowed nothing
I'm not alone I'm not the only one in my
many millions of eyes and deaths
I am the whole world and even the future and
the past has never been in the world
everything was only and only once
once and only just now
all that was the sixteenth century
seventeenth eighteenth and now
and now it's all in one moment
all in a jiffy just now was not
I have a birth and I did not have death
will not be tomorrow and will not be yesterday and was not
tomorrow and there was never and never before

no I never died no
I've never been born no I never
I did not feel nowhere to feel
go after all this whole world of
an unfavorable corner and place
every girl and every man of every character
every word every poem every torch every love
every eye and every color every moon and sun every
clouds all this all this all
this all this is me and only
only and only and only and only
and only me and I and I and I
every time every time every artist
and every composer
every poet every deceased every newborn is all equal
they were never and never were born there was no being
being has always been and is all this
I all this I all this is me

19.09.18

this is music and this is music
music sounded when
I was not here when I
did not look when I did not think
about sand about desert about cacti

this is music yes this is music now
plays and does not play and plays yes
she sounds all the same when i
was still a girl she sounds all
as always when I was

when was i when was i dust
when was i say so the stars
when I was words when I was
just a restaurant or tea
or just an ordinary sheet

12.11.18

I want to become like everyone else
Everyone says I'm a loser
I want to be like you
Everyone says I'm dumb
I do not want to be me
I just want to find peace
I just want to find peace
I just want to find peace
I just want to find peace

Everyone was tired of my freaks
They say I behave like a fool
Everyone bored my clothes
They say I look like a clown
I do not want to be me
I just want to find peace
I just want to find peace
I just want to find peace
I just want to find peace

2016

time time time how much
the same time you pushed me and killed me
how many times did you destroy me
how many times how many times
how many times now about I think
that we all live in the memory of that
we do not live that all the sleep now I do not
I can understand where we are and live
whether we are either asleep or asleep or dreaming

time time time how many times how many
once you made me do water with fire
how many times did I feel my childhood
once I felt old I was born and therefore
I'm dead so perhaps will be forever about time being
time I sleep whether I'm sleeping now because everything is not
sleep alone in a dream because all the reality of what is
it's reality where we are and how we do what we do
did I ever have a childhood

30.09.18

the days are flying and here is september
on the calendar is
and here is the gold outside the window
rather, definitely not
but gold is
from memories
from anguish and sorrow

they fly flying days
all slip away imperceptibly
where am i now where am i now
but I am in a life in the world
in eternal existence
days fly and days fly
and now september is almost
and the calendar is new or not

but I'm not old
can distinguish
all new now and old
all old now and new
all the lights are now dark
all mourning is now a joy
nothing I can now discern
where am i now where am i now
in life eternal in life

26.08.18

and there was a steed from me
the horse is huge
like the moon
the moon is very similar

and here we are the moon
full moon
put forward
a great way

and here we went on the boulevards
on beautiful roads
and poetry to each other
read

how wonderful those moments were
how saturated they were
now this horse is gone
she disappeared

she went into space
she forgot me and this planet
she went to the stars
went to the ghosts of the night

03.07.18

candlestick lying on the floor
and his candle goes by itself
and the fire swims
on the ceiling
under one's feet
under my eyes

ants got closer
they sing their song
the fire is no longer on fire
and my eyes are blue
go instead of him
under one's feet
under heaven

and today the time ran
everything became so chaotic
and time runs like a real runner
and the present runs away from the truth
but the truth and the present is not at all
never and never we have not been

25.07.18

skin slips away skin escapes
again she flies by plane
again she runs away from all of us
again she runs away from me

but was there love whether she was
was the beauty of the moon of that day
was I and were those moments
o all escapes all runs away

20.09.18

quiet quiet in the night room now
quiet quiet it's time to close soon
close my eyes again today
and again and again go to miracles
and again and again feel some dreams
only dreams only dreams

the light and the light burns and says and
says his bright and bright greetings and
hello o light and light o light and light
soon and soon it's time for everyone to sleep
soon and soon only the moon will warm
she alone in the sky night and lonely

09.10.18

I'm very sad
I'm very sad
because everything
vaguely

because everything
unknown
Because it's not clear
what will be ahead

I'm very sad
and the moon in the sky is beautiful
but even its harmony
does not help to soothe everything inside

and even her singing
and even her wonderful game
on the piano of heaven
can not give me rest

can not give me stars
and can not give freedom
such freedom
what was in childhood

her i
forever lost
lost as well as almost all
in this world

14.07.18

return to the past
it was recently been now
return to the past
was recently was today

return to the past
collision with gray leaves
return to the past
happening happening right now

12.12.18

we are floating on the moon
swim in the sun
every day
and our eyes are burning
and our eyes sparkle
endless words
about beauty

we swim through the woods
we swim around the world
we are floating on the clouds
and our love
and our love is with you
has no borders
and never will

about the new day
about the last day
the future
we will always
together all to meet
we will always be with you
swim together on the moon
swim in the sun

11.07.18

I would like to go with you
on a ship in waves in the sea
I would like to be with you only
and poems to write and poetry to read
and poems to sing

I would like to be with you
forever and for all to be forgotten
so that no one will ever remember us
as when that morning we met
as when we were greeted by the moon

14.08.18

the ghost of love appeared today
today and unexpectedly he appeared
this ghost or more precisely not he but she
yes it was she who appeared girl
from nowhere and how it appeared is unclear
where and why I why I'm weird
then when I forgot and at all about love then
when I forgot and stopped dreaming about it
she appeared and only she began to loom
ghost ghost of love away somewhere in the fog
somewhere beyond the bridge somewhere
in the seas and in the light and moon
and again the thought of whether
she will run away from me or
she will still be with me or all the same we never
we will not meet and will never worry about leading
about the upcoming inspiration it
is unclear what will happen now and on

silently and silently the lanterns burned with their ordinary
ordinary light buzzed they and I just walked in
his usual dreams were in his dreams and in
his gloom was daily and more and more convinced
that what is material is our thoughts unnecessary thoughts
unimportant thoughts are not important thoughts first come out
outside in the light we create this light but for what purpose
i know for what but as usual I do not want this and at all
and I do not want to talk about it at all and I'm on the boat again
and where are my eyes looking really I see that fog
is it really not a dream really in my life
love breaks in love but for now only
ghost but it does not matter anyway it's the same thing

22.09.18

I walked along the sea in bold steps
by the sea I walked and did not stop
as if my heart was not beating
as if my heart did not move
and no matter how people do not bother me
I walked along the sea in bold steps

but the days were flying like birds
like trees in spring and autumn in summer
like the snow outside the window like a blizzard
as if every day and every night
but the days of flying flew away
but the dream took root in me

30.07.18

it was raining
but only in my head
everything was gray
everything was like an autumn

summer is gone
today was his last day
met an old friend
nothing changes and goes

played piano
quietly and almost silently
I looked at the sea
it merged with the sky

31.08.18

come together all the paths come together
all roads and all roads now i'm
very lonely now i'm forever lonely
and now once there is it now means
it was always before my birth
and after him and after my death

lamps flash around and swirl
flowers and birds fly in the sky in the dark
the fog used to wander around like me
when was not yet so inspired sick
when still not crazy with strange sounds
daily when the joy covered all the tears

I remember a wonderful moment when it was may and
even when it was winter when we were all together
stood at the piano and began to listen to lovely music
when was grandmother and when was brother when all
there were but alas someone took the wind to a faraway country
and someone took a bright bright light more precisely death

03.10.18

along the embankments along the highlights
along the dark light ahead
along the embankments along love
along the beauty and dreams of melodies

i walked I walked one on one
with his own great destiny
i walked I walked one on one
with his own bravery of the wild

and the waves on the shore of the shore played
played waves in the ocean in the sea
and the sea was black black and dark
but the faces are bright but faces

24.07.18

When we going
We look a sky
a sun
and sometimes
sea too
When we going
to home
Going - sad
Going - trouble and
Depression
Depression
Why

Oh! Love - killing everything
Oh love - killing me
Killing your friend
Killing your darlings
Oh love - killing all

Hope - trap
Hope - blood
Happines like a web
And love - spider

Oh Love - killing everything
Oh love - killing me
Killing your friend
Killing your darlings
Oh love killing all

2017

I watched my essence
I looked at her today
from all sides of existing
He looked and did not let go
and his tongue did not let go
I looked at her and looked at everything.
while the night outside the window did not appear

oh my soul is an eternal mystery
About how much time do I try
you understand and understand
but I figured it out but I realized
all for a long time already understood everything
as soon as they appeared on it
for the first time for the first time

the whole truth of what was and what will be
she was forever with us
from the birth and the first day
from the childhood of our unforgettable
but evolution is degradation
we are growing up
we lose our childhood and lose wisdom

05.08.18

experience for the future experience
nerves experience for the future for
all around and in a row and at the piano and
for guitar and for ukulele and for minutes
experience for the future experience

experience for the future experience
the imagination of what is to come
everything worries me a little
worries and disturbs me without end
experience for the future experience

experience for the future experience
which year which is around
nerves leave me no nerves and
no they probably never leave me
experience for the future experience

06.12.18

how strange it all sings
how strange everything leads around
strangely all this is strange
how strange it is now october
and the fact that now is not november and the fact that
now is not september and what is now
there is something and that is strange

how strange it is very all around
how strange everything is very and incomprehensible
and why and why does this circle exist
and why and why am I a hostage in it
did i sing too loudly or at all
very very quietly I really sang
I was too strong man or very
and very weak about what is the reason for all

reason about the reason all around what's and
these all the weirdness of these all sorrows
all the joys of where and why and why now
not december and why now is not february and why
and why am I saying all these words now
because I know that now everything is in the same lane and
that now everything is both yes and no and always

20.10.18

and all the water lilies fell from all
parties and from all the islands to
they all disappeared long ago where they
all these water lilies have gone away for so many years
I lived among the swamp and nature so much
I wrote poetry there and went to
I kept looking at the moon with clouds and rains

disappeared the disappeared sea disappeared
people and disappeared myself I disappeared myself and I think
perhaps forever forever forever

16.09.18

in the sky sang the mountains today
red moon
she said her true word
and joy and laughter and pain and sadness
and anxiety and fear and horror and confusion
all overtook me at that moment

I was destroyed and created
it was a new birth a new death
these were new steps and not steps at all
I was in the middle of emptiness and darkness
where I was not known where in the moon
probably in the red moon behind the mountains

27.08.18

walk on human eyes
walks around the eyes every day
and every night all the walls of this world
all its circles and all its angles
it's all me and all this is my eyes all this
I and all this are my eyes all this is me and everything
these are my eyes and so it was always and here
every day every day I go
and look only at my eyes only
on your eyes and more only
on your eyes and nothing more and nothing

then on what I write every day then where am I
I go every day that I eat every day
what I listen to every day is what I watch
every day what I hear every day is
about what I think every day is that I'm in the hands
take every day all this is my face and my skin
my eyes and only my eyes all this I all this
I and only I and so will always be so always
so it will always be like this forever and death is me
but death eternal life eternal life eternal life
the eternal transition is all this I am all this I am all my eyes

26.09.18

how sad it was today
for days it's sad to my eyes
it finally finally means
a cold snap is expected soon
it will be cold soon it will rain and
fog careless bright bright fog

it was sad it was sad
it was very inspired and bright and musical
It was very musical and therefore I am very
very sad today or not
yesterday i live in the world and so i'm dead
there was no birth but death was all

15.10.18

behind the curtains behind the back
behind the new spaces
behind the back new curtains behind the back
new means old and vice versa
behind back behind back
behind back behind back
my

gone day and gone hour
wasn't it always the case
what is always our every hour
we were with red napkins
and all forever they spun and flew
we have with us somewhere near namely
behind back behind back behind your
and my

31.10.18

day passed
I walked this day
slightly like a shadow
slightly like snow
walked by day i
I went through it

and it was raining today
small not big
but the wind was very blowing
very very large
and everything was spinning around
foliage in the trees
and everything around is somewhere
it raced like I did

early in the morning I got up
and looked out the window
and there september
september is burning
in the window
here are the new expensive
here are the new ways
after a strong strong
storm of black

08.09.18

and all this time goes
watch and go and go
and all this time goes
and the weather outside the window is changing
It does not change and will never change

there will be my eternal steps and eternal
Cotton on my feet and not mine
will be eternal in front of shadows and shadows
who were luminous or not at all
never been deprived of it has always been

16.08.18

again thoughts about the future
again and again they have me
again the future is coming again
again my ages and strangers
all over again and again and again

again thoughts about the future
which like the past does not exist
again and again I all think about it
although I am not in this world
and never me and others were not

no light no darkness there is nothing
only the bushes are burning with flame
only the flame and ice around
flame and ice flames and ice and time goes by
and again and again thoughts about the future

29.08.18

on a black and white background I walk
i walk on black grass and black
I watch the sky when I watch

in black and white background I walk
I walk treading on my old shoes
my new but I still go

here and in the sky a gray moon appeared
and her glance does not surprise me
and she is just like everything completely gray

14.12.18

every day I think about you every
day i look at the moon and think about you
every day i walk the streets like
always but all the time but all the time
all the time and all the time thinking about you
I can not stop at all I'm passionate
you are passionate about you all you all you

i can't think about you i can't
stop you lit a fire in me
you lit me in soul you lit in
my eyes you lit up my way and
all the way and all the way and all the way
you changed you changed my life
you are all you are all you are all you are all

07.11.18

You'll go up I'll go with you
You'll go down I'll go with you
You'll go to the right I'll go with you
You go left I'll go with you

I'll go anywhere with you
I'll go with you while my heart beats
And as long as I exist
I will go with you

You will go ahead I will go with you
You go back I'll go with you
You'll go far and I'll go with you
You'll go and I'll go with you

I'll go anywhere with you
I'll go with you while my heart beats
And as long as I exist
I will go with you
I will go with you

2016.

go to bed and wake up again
and see again the new day
go to bed and open your eyes again
and see again the new sunset
every day and every day see
death and destruction of the whole universe
every day and every night see
wreck and destruction of all ships
so we are all capable of people and stars
so are we all capable and this is our turn
every day and every day see
how do our loved people die
every day and every night see
how we ourselves perish in fire

go to bed and wake up again
again and again see this new day
to sing again to scream again
to feel again to know again
this whole treasure this whole contribution is huge
stars in order to learn in order to know the same thing
eternal cycle in order to find out what is possible by air
breathe in order to find out that we are people in order
find out that our skies are over our heads
in order to mean that life and death in the world
in the world forever exists and sings

27.10.18

pillow behind the back
back hurts
my heart is beating
from coming from fog

pillow behind the back
how the hammer knocks
pillow behind the eyes
how time is noisy

only noise around
noise noise noise noise
and nothing more

around only harp
sharp jet sounds
how my last year's cry

15.12.18

next to the totem I'm standing
make a square make
numbers and runners ran
down your sweet ice
and I'm standing with a totem make
square number of knowledge of the way

red stripes and green
wild huge sharp eyes
big long bright tongue
like my late friend
like a friend of my past winters
oh I will never see him again

squares like circle circles like rhombuses
oh yeah i know what a circle is i know
what is square and know what is
rhombus red and green yellow
colors i know i'm near orange
desert and no this is my bag of light

19.12.18

i want believe
i want believe
i want believe
in happines

i want believe
i want believe
i want believe
in sunny day

i just want believe
i just want believe
i just want believe
in blue sky

i want believe
i want believe
i want believe
in happy life

i want believe
i want believe
i want believe
in pretty day

i just want believe
i just want believe
i just want believe
but i can't

i want believe
but i can't
i want believe
but i can't
i want believe
but i can't

wanted rest
wanted loneliness but
nobody but nobody
but no one was going
give it to me

wanted rest
wanted solitude
but no one ever
never and never
not to give and not to give

turn off the alarm
and don't get up anymore
never get up again
and never and never
forever to be in the same dreams

25.10.18

my back is healed
because sweat is climbing like a snake
but it's summer and here it is
here it crawls like a spider
and the web here it floats
like a shark in the sky
and now among the clouds
she will eat her cherished fish

my back is healed
and the feet themselves live
and my eyes fell directly into the pan
tomorrow I'll cook dinner for breakfast
tomorrow there will be gourmet pancakes
and then what will happen next
but it is not at all clear and it has never been clear
can the death that occurred just yesterday
or the death that has come yet
to my cherished birth under the apostles

25.07.18

I'm on my way
I'm walk in rain
I'm on my way
I'm walk in rain

Across a Novorossiysk
Across a Moscow
Across a Novossibirsk
Across a Russia

I'm on my way
I'm walk in rain
Today was sunny day
A now rain

A now rain
A now rain


I'm on my way          
I'm walk in rain
I'm on my way
I'm walk in rain

Across a Novorossiysk
Across a Moscow    
Across a Novossibirsk    
Across a Russia

2016