You look in the mirror and see nothing but a girl
But I look into your eyes and see my whole world

| I wish I could go back |
|Go back and relive some of the best|  
| days of my life |

You either die a hero
Or live long enough to see yourself become the villian

Just depends on whether
You are willing to
**** yourself to save others
Or whether you need to **** others to save yourself

Do you ever just feel so frustrated that you would be willing to tear all your hair out
No matter the pain
Just this loathing trembling that  threatens to eat you alive
You try to control it but it seems to possess you
You lash out on the ones you love
You regret
You feel
You didnt mean to hurt her

Its just this monster inside that you can't seem to tie down.

Theres a tightness in my chest
I cant breathe
I cant think

Thank god noones looking
Even though I kinda wish they would
But they are busy
Busy with their school work

I dont know why
Why I had a panic attack in class
There was no trigger
No stress
Just
No breath

It happens often
But Im scared that this anxiety
Is not just an illness anymore
It cant be treated anymore
Its as though its a part of me

A part of me that hugs me a little too tightly
Or strangles me a little too softly

Knotted in my throat,
My breathe lifts me up.

My toes curl inwards,
A laugh escapes my mouth.

There’s something about the air,
Something that moves me around.

Like a puppet on a string,
I sway carelessly to the sound.

Letting this feeling carry me,
Weight falls from my shoulders.

No pressure.
No judgement.
Just free.

Laughing burns calories
So instead of going for a run
Let's just watch a comedy instead
(/^▽^)/

Broken  bodies
Twisted  necks
Eyes  wide  open
Car  in  a  wreck*

Metal curved and embedded into the tree as though mother nature herself had engulfed the vehicle whole

Shards of glass pierced through skin
The hum of birds start to sing

Help is too far
There was never enough time

Breathless
Lifeless
They lay stone cold and stiff
Fingers entwined with one another

They may have died
But I doubt their love did.

Tell me
Would you mind if  I slipped away for a while?
Would you be okay with my head forever lost in the clouds?

I don't want to leave you
I just want to leave this place

So if you want
you  can  join  me  in  my  *escape

Make me your art
your game
Make me your leisure
your name

Crystalise me with beauty
drape me
With shackles and chains
until I bleed enough
To cry out your name

Wrap your arms around me
Let’s trade you say
A thousand kisses
For a thousand burns

Let’s dance you say
Instead I bow
I flail, fall and pray
Please, please, oh please

Wake up.
The flames no longer tickle
You no longer want to dance or play
The burns singe my skin, dark and brittle

Check mate.
It’s over.
You’ve won.
You always do.

I never wanted to hurt you.
I’m.
So.
Sorry.

Indesicive
Insecure
Obilvious
Naive
Aggressive
And stressed

We all have many flaws including me
We just have to find someone who will accept them,
Love them
and love   you
♥❇♥❇

I could feel the tremendous pressure as he tried to convince me
My skin stung and burned under his harsh touch

It felt wrong
His voice was too agressive
Too demanding

I felt bad
As though I owed him this

But as soon as he slipped his hand up my back I knew it wasn't what he had made it out to be

I told him "No"
But he just ignored me
I tried to pull away but his grip got tighter
I had to shove him away as hard as I could for him to back off
I walked out
I began to walk home

It took me a while to realise that I was shaking


I could'nt help it
I fell to the side of the road

The first tear dropped faster than it should of

The next day it happened
Of course it happened
How could I have been so naive
He dumpt me
Said he was moving and couldnt do long distances even though I saw him several times in the same area later on.

Yeah right.
He only ever wanted me for *** and when I could'nt give him what he wanted he just left

The worst part was that I was so entrapped by his precense that it took me several months to get over him

And even now
I pretend that what we had was real.

I laugh in an attempt to pretend
To paint away my true feelings like art
Its as though my laughter is a vault
Locked shut
And it takes the right code
For someone to let what I truely feel
Out

I may not be agressive or violent
But Im protective
So dont expect me to be kind to you
Don't except me to smile at you
Don't expect me to think high of you
If you've done wrong to one of my friends.
They may have seen passed your mistakes but I'm not so forgiving ✳

Reminded of old days
Past days
The days where you were constantly on my mind
All the time

Its strange how so much can change in a day
Its weird how we used to be closer than ever but now I feel as though we are just friendly strangers

I trusted you with my life
But now I doubt you would even try

Sometimes I think that it wouldn't matter to you if I was dead

It wouldn't surprise me

Sad how I would do anything to help you
I would risk my life for you

Now I'm not saying I love you
I'm just saying I care for you
As a friend
As someone who saw and knew what no one else did

Its just sad how I'm almost certain you don't feel the same way too. ✳

Explaining the feeling
Of feeling frozen
Is like explaining to a child
Why people hurt
There is no delicate way
To describe the intensity
The entrapment

Words trapped in my throat
My body wrapped in invisible rope
As though a man at each side
Pulls the rope tighter
And tighter

You want me to explain?
Honey, I can’t explain
Something I also don’t know

People say that your past is your ghosts
That they follow you wherever you go
Haunting your dreams and clouding your vision
I don't agree

I believe that the future holds more ghosts than your past
The only reason you reflect in the past is because you either desire or fear it reoccurring
You can't be scared of what's already happenened
But sure as hell can be scared of it happening again

The future holds your ghosts
For it follows you more than your past ever will.

❇             Trust is like glass.          ❇
❇Once shattered it can never be❇
❇               fully repaired.              ❇
❇        Unless you replace it         ❇

Your personality reminds me of water

You're either warm and inviting
Or cold and ignorant
You can never stay still
Your hair like waves
And even though sun reflects off you like diamonds

I can still see right through you

Thank you
Thank you for laughing at my insecurities
I appreciate feeling like crap