So much on my mind Tryna bind them together Weather the storm I continuously have in my head Thoughts all over the place Mind racing I'm stressed out I'm stressed out Cant handle the thoughts in my head All I think about before I go to bed Recurring pain from these thoughts That they have brought It's ok, everything is going to be ok That's all I keep hearing but it's never ok It's a battle up there Dont nobody know that Fake a smile once in a while just to seem ok Hide my true feelings cause dont nobody care Just a fear of some things A bunch of overthinking, mixed feelings Tryna find my path in life A path that's right for me Focusing on what I'm thinking Rather than what's in front of me Try to let things be But if something's bothering me of course its gonna effect me Jumbled up brain Hidden deep pain That I cant seem to control Unless something controls it for me...
In the cold Winter I wanna make snow angels Drink delicious hot chocolate Have a snowball fight Skate on beautiful Pale Opaque Ice In the wet Spring I wanna dance in the rain Smell the millions of flowers Have a picnic Take a walk through a Quiet Park In the hot Summer I wanna dive into a pool Eat lots a icecream Take trips Feel the warm Bright Sun on my face In the windy Fall I wanna see the color of the leaves change Smell the spice of Pumpkins Sit in front of a warm Cozy Blazing fire In The 4 Seasons
Wanna be free Do my own thing On my own time No worries No stress Things running smoothly as they should be Dont need the unnecessary anything Do one thing at a time Still doesnt work out I'm trying to do something for myself Have something going for myself Instead I get pushed back.. Step 1 How is a person supposed to keep fighting like this? Yea the same old saying.. But what else is new though? What else you got for me? Positivity can only bring but so much joy Just wanna strive and achieve
Only works but so much Block out any and every feeling that's there Doing any and everything to make it seem like I'm ok To put my mind somewhere else Then it hits you Now you dont wanna do anything But sleep Eat Think Cry away the pain Pain clouding Just a simple Quick Easy way to think you're out
It is day one and I am alone in a hollow shell with you, in the dark and our breathing turns into short bursts of longing.
I let my fingers trace the god I found shaped like you and our eyes meet in the heavy darkness along with our hands, arms, legs, and lips I slip into the hollow shell we made with twists and curves like a nautilus- your sheets are the ocean tossed gently around us
loving is an art, and I do it well to the point where I do not want to live tomorrow. But it is day two and I am dead without you