light heals the places beneath my skin where shadows have cut me so deep that I bleed ghosts from my ancient past the face of a girl looks out from within the mirror of my soul, lost and found caught between selflessness and sin wishing she could fall in love with some fallen angel, nurse his broken wings back to life with kisses and melodies that haunt them both desire sits on her shoulder like a whisper or a dream waiting for a chance to quietly enter her heart and build its home in her hands
I can never cut. But sometimes I swear, It feels like wounds are being carved into my heart, And I wonder if carving these wounds unto my skin Can relieve it. This kind of pain you can’t reach; No matter how far into yourself you stretch, If I could grab my heart and squeeze it till it is numb; Like I would if the knife slips; Till all the red in my finger fades away; Till all the pain in my heart fades away.
I can never cut. Except with the words I stick myself with everyday. You taught me how to self-harm, I took the blade from you, And convinced myself that it hurts less if I’m the first one to say it; That if I kept cutting at my heart, If I kept giving myself scars, Then the ones you gave me didn’t matter. And I never let them heal; The wounds, They never heal.
I can never cut. Because for the life of me I cannot get accustomed to pain. I cannot get accustomed to you hurting me over and over again. I cannot get accustomed to bleeding inside. My wounds are too afraid to be seen. My wounds refuse to etch themselves unto my skin; To be so bold. I cannot wear myself inside out; My pain inside out. But I swear, When these wounds are being carved into my heart, I consider if carving them unto my skin, Will ever relieve the pain.
Today my heart shattered again A million pieces and one...two.. I am losing count I'm losing you Please crave me the way I crave you Your heart beat was mine and You took that too See my heart only beats for you but You have a different view Look on my arm I bleed for you Please love me As much as you want her to love you M.d