Different; You heard me, that's what i'll always be. Maybe not to my eyes, but to yours they will see. Different is the word to describe the abnormalities in ones self of individuality. I' am different because your music taste is awful, but who am I to judge ones flavor in artistry. You **** me in and ******* out like a dragons fire. I' am the girl who you never thought you'd heard. Different is what they call me, and in some other terms just a freak in disguise.
It ******* ****** me off When people say something Mumble something Whisper something Speak OneLongWord, And because of a hearing loss I don’t quite hear, And they respond with “It doesn’t matter”.
It does ******* matter I just didn’t hear And need you to repeat it. I need you to repeat the whole sentence Not just the first part or the last part The bit I’ve already heard. Sometimes I’m just missing a key word that makes the whole sentence fall into place But without it Confusion Misunderstanding Wrong end of the stick.
Or they mumble under their breath A hint of exasperation in their voice Annoyed you’re interrupting their flow. Don’t you think I’m frustrated and angry too? Missing subtleties and nuances of what import say you
It’s Discriminatory Disrespectful And hearing-ist, I can’t ******* help That I’m deaf.
It leads to Feelings of Missing out Losing out Feeling dismissed Discarded Not important Not valued - The story of my life..... Disassociated Feeling on the periphery Never quite fitting in Never quite getting the joke Laughing along Pretending But no ******* idea what’s going on.
When I ask you to repeat something I mean just that Patiently Slowly Compassionately With Understanding, And. in. individual. words. not. one
Sometimes love and hate are hard to differentiate. They both give me sensory overload, Even when there is nothing to touch When there is nothing to Hear. Silence can turn into screaming when I think about you. I am bound to go deaf.
Looking without seeing Hearing without listening Eating without tasting Bleeding without feeling Pacing but not walking Hoping but not praying Crazed without lunacy Taking without wanting Breathing but not living
Surrounded without belonging Alone without loneliness Saying without believing Speaking without thinking Desperation is overcoming As I try to find a way To not breath without living
Not really hard to rhyme when everything ends with 'ing'!