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641 · Dec 2020
A Seat For One
Maria Etre Dec 2020
I found broken glass shards
on the couch
where my heart used to sit
639 · Dec 2016
Enough
Maria Etre Dec 2016
I have never felt
this humiliated and betrayed
by my heart

It looked at my life
and beat that strong thud
that sent my foot
pushing down on the ground
in staccato
telling me "enough"
638 · Jan 2021
Naming
Maria Etre Jan 2021
Your name diluted
with time
a pronoun was enough to remind me

Now when they use your
pronoun I forget
and ask who?
638 · May 2019
A Pendulum
Maria Etre May 2019
Swings right
when things just feel right
caresses under blankets
away from eyes
holding on to fleeting moments
stretching them, till they tear
with dawn

Swings left
broken beats left lonely
almost silent
in a loud world
where everyone hears your voice
while I suffocate on mine
being shattered into tiny shards
of transparent truth clawing their way
down my throat
to stunt my heart
from beating …normally

Swings right
your hand in mind
that’s right
that’s nice
faking it till you make it
learning the good in the bad
that’s only single-serving
I am left in a shady area
in a black and white world
full of bruised blueprints
that never made it through

Swings left
change feels like the cold
wind of a monsoon
before the heavy rain of judgement
falls piercing your skin
questioning your being
“but stay”
after you’ve blown away
all the fortress I took
so long to build
stone by stone
year by year
tower by tower
experience after experience
“we’re friends”
was the explosion that
turned my castle
to a sand
a desert, deserted

Swings Right
I feel right
on your right side
but then again
there are millions
standing in line
for get your right
I sometimes think
the spotlight does
shine on me
then I realize it is I
who put it there

Swings Left
….this is my queue to leave
Time
636 · Sep 2016
Human-ning
Maria Etre Sep 2016
I have given pieces of my heart
to those who need it most
and yet I still found enough love
..to give my heart it's color
to let it blush
when it should, when it's struck?

I have juggled the knives
of insults that tried to paper cut
my skin as each one fell
a hairline away from my fingers
and yet I crave the adrenaline
that comes from defying such
near pain experiences

I have melted at the sight
of beauty, of music, of art, of poetry
of words, single or together
that kind of beauty
that moves your soul
the one that coats you
with a chill
that breathes life into
your blase presence
the one that's rustic
classic, that's ethereal
the one that creeps under your skin
and glazes your eyes with a glossy layer
for your body cannot explain
it in any other way
cannot digest
cannot comprehend
that such pulchritude
exists and
the best part
is that
it's real

do you feel that?
congratulations
You're still
feeling
&
that's a *******
blessing
feel..
Read full poem here: https://indiedoodles.wordpress.com/2016/09/23/human-ing/
635 · Sep 2016
Love (In + Love)
Maria Etre Sep 2016
Some remain
pouring emotions
involuntarily
giving, providing

Some embrace
some comfort
with no conditions

Some stay
regardless, they care
they kiss,
their minds and hearts
join forces to soothe the world
between, within

Some calm
aid, make a presence
some are here
and stay here

They love

Some eyes glisten
hands sweaty
uncontrolled smile
I don't know what it is

Some look
it's not any look
it's a look that floods
your vision with your view
that center of attention

Some giggle
it's the butterflies
they flutter in your stomach
their untamed nature
makes its way to your face
your mouth
your mind

Some fall
into a rabbit hole of your own
through a colored tunnel
that colors your vision
giving you rosey glasses
providing your with a new perspective
a new view, a hue that you and only
you enjoy

Some fall in love!

Let me fall in love
with love
and imagine
the kind of world
around me
that seduces you
to explore
just a bit more

Fall in love with me
and lets love
the fall
with a love
being
in
love
634 · Sep 2018
Sacred Syn.
Maria Etre Sep 2018
"I saw
somet(h)ing
in you th(a)t
g(l)owed
in h(o)liness"
Hidden Messages
632 · Sep 2017
Surprise
Maria Etre Sep 2017
I called for
the unknown
The universe heard me
and flooded
me with the unexpected
then said
"you never fail
to surprise
me"
632 · Oct 2020
outofbreath
Maria Etre Oct 2020
>IfeellikeIamchokingoncontent<
double meaning
628 · Dec 2017
Reflections
Maria Etre Dec 2017
If you saw
yourself
in my lines
then
yes,
that poem
was about
the
fictional
you
in the eyes of a
Writer
625 · Aug 2019
Did I miss a life lesson?
Maria Etre Aug 2019
At this age
I still haven't figured out
how to become the life-connoisseur
everyone else has seemingly become
625 · Mar 2017
Naturally
Maria Etre Mar 2017
I fought my inhibitions
but nature pulled through

Breaking barriers of what if's
unclothing all those hidden thoughts

Naked and free, I bashfully
bathed in my liberty
succumbing to all things "now"

For I have found beauty
in the "momentary"
and the naturally
inevitable
624 · Feb 3
Intro/Extro Verses
Maria Etre Feb 3
".............",
his eyes said
without
saying

"and I, you",
I sighed
with
saying
introverts_extroverts_poerty verses
Maria Etre Feb 11
I lost touch
with
my to-do list
only to find
myself
found
in my
to-live
list
619 · Oct 2017
Cliff
Maria Etre Oct 2017
My feet stood on the edge
of a cliff carrying
the weight of 30 years
yearning to jump
into something new

But the wind pushed
my head up
just to show me
you, standing across
on another cliff
looking at me
616 · Oct 2024
Baseball Romance
Maria Etre Oct 2024
I threw my heart at you
and you struck
a home run
and placed
it among
the
s * t  a  * r  * s
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614 · Jan 15
The Giving Time
Maria Etre Jan 15
I gave my
gut
a voice
it
gave me
cœur-
age
cœur: means heart in French
614 · Jan 2019
Acoustic
Maria Etre Jan 2019
You're
the acoustic
cover
of the
soundtrack
of my life
613 · Apr 2019
National Poetry Month
Maria Etre Apr 2019
To every poet
that turned misery to beauty
reality to fantasy
life into poetry
love into mystery
words into sorcery

To every poet whose
word on paper
is an invitation
to play with fire
610 · Aug 2017
I am Sick Today
Maria Etre Aug 2017
Call out
to the muses
for I have lost
my inspiration
to the sickness
that has boiled my
body feverish
and my mind
numb
610 · Jul 2018
"Marketing Kisses"
Maria Etre Jul 2018
Suitable for nights
casual Fridays
"feel like it" moments

Terms & Conditions
We are not responsible for any
Unexpected Outcomes."
610 · Dec 2019
The Shortest Tragedy
610 · Mar 2017
Writer's Perks
Maria Etre Mar 2017
It goes beyond saying
that there is nothing
more liberating
than the moment
the story-filled
tip of my pencil
touches the soft
surface of an innocent  
white paper
Maria Etre Aug 19
If we put all our ideas on the back burner
wouldn't we be stuck with undercooked concepts
608 · Jan 2017
Calm
Maria Etre Jan 2017
Have you ever felt
the calm before
the storm?

So, now
Do you dare
calm my demons
and wait for
what's come?
607 · Sep 2017
Perspective
Maria Etre Sep 2017
The nightingale
sang a song
of sorrow
that the night
changed to a lullaby
every time
lovers wished upon
the stars
606 · Jun 2017
Worst Nightmare
Maria Etre Jun 2017
I have exhausted my muses
till they ****** the life
out of my hands
and tortured
me with
bottled
thoughts
left inside
me
A writer's worst nightmare is overthinking without venting on paper.
Maria Etre Mar 2017
I have been dragged through drama
swimming between problems
floating over ups
and tip toeing over downs

I have been here and there
walking with lovers
picking up broken pieces
holding hands with friends
forgiving enemies
moving on gracefully

I have been brought up
in the country
living in the city
dodging reality
loving fantasy
falling for stupidity
climbing back up, rationally
falling again and again
and still
my legs stand tall
holding a head full of wants
and a heart
bursting with desire
for so much
muchness
600 · Nov 2015
Thuds
Maria Etre Nov 2015
Thuds
I only knew
that I was a fool
when I left that bubble
and walked down a path of rubble

I asked my eyes
why they were so blind
I asked my mind
why his thinking was so behind

They refused to answer
and left one noise afloat
a beat that I know served as a moat
from all reason and logic
leaving me in a state so tragic

I heard a whisper
my mind said "listen"
sunken in tears I did
and I heard it beat with candid

"It was I oh silly soul
hang in there, I'll recover soon
I'll guild my cracks
with a new love so bright
and even fall in an abyss of fright

It's not my fault ask the powers above
for I myself am mysterious to the
game
of love" - heart
indiedoodles.net
598 · Aug 2024
B-locked
Maria Etre Aug 2024
We lock things
to keep them safe

We lock them
as plan B

because at that time
we feel unsafe
around them
597 · Nov 2024
Of Poetry & Vodka
Maria Etre Nov 2024
I drink it
straight

I write 'em straight
to the point
bold, curvy, squiggly,
pressured or light
and oh
so transparent

Liquid courage
inked in my vessels

soft introductions
******* bodies
the outros
are mostly
unexpected

but they all
deserve a cigarette
afterwards
597 · Jan 2017
Taste
Maria Etre Jan 2017
Entertaining
thoughts of you
gives my muses
a taste of what
"could have been"
and that drives
them insane
595 · Dec 2018
If I Made You King
Maria Etre Dec 2018
Debt

If I made you king
that doesn’t mean
you get to exercise
dominance on my free will

If I made you king
that doesn’t mean
you get to rearrange the chambers
of my heart to fit your comfort

If I made you king
that doesn’t mean
you get to enjoy your castle
the way you please

If I made you king
that doesn’t mean
you forget what it’s like
to be human

If I made you king
that doesn’t mean
you ally with my weaknesses
and keep my strengths in the dark

If I made you king
that doesn’t mean
you summon wars
in my ribcage
to shake my very core
with battle cries

If I made you king
that doesn’t mean
I am in debt to your royalty

If I made you king
that doesn't mean
you are one
594 · Sep 2017
Crave
Maria Etre Sep 2017
It's not too bad
to crave the feeling
of falling
in love
and act upon the
symptoms of such a drug

It's a natural high
a chemical imbalance
that paints the world
a pinker hue
at the end of the day
it's easier
to fall
than to defy gravity
and get back up
593 · Oct 2020
Dear Heavenly Father
Maria Etre Oct 2020
Prayer takes time, unless it's a miracle
Poetry takes nothing
but gives
eh-very-thing
*sighs
592 · Nov 2019
I Need a Drink
Maria Etre Nov 2019
I set down my script
and took a seat
today,
I'll be an attendee
I grew tired
of
being
592 · Nov 2015
THAT SONG
Maria Etre Nov 2015
Mind infused with different poisons
those that inhibit the socially acceptable you
and strip you from the guard you have up
all the time

He drove home
across the the hazy lit highway
the street lights were so hazy
they had no borders
they were floating
just like her mind

She was sitting in the passenger seat
legs up on the window
head back

He was silent
trying to find an ounce of sobriety just to get them home

Suddenly he parked
"we're here"
she gathered her loose limbs
and her levitated mind scavenged for her purse and shoes
in the back
she always takes them off during car rides
she likes the fleeting moment of the wind against her feet

She got her keys out
and opened the door
he followed her,
They've been living together for quite sometime now
but with her, sometimes she wants to be alone
and kicks him out, others, she longs for him to warm
her bed, his side of the bed at least

They got home, she rushed to her room
to play some music, sometimes the silence
terrifies her, she finds sanctuary in deep beats
even some acoustics to compliment the night

She let it shuffle
as she undressed a certain tune started to play
for some reason it injected the night with a perfume of seduction
one that awakened her from the toxic senses
and inhibited her, wholey

She looked at him sitting at the end of the bed
rolling his cigarette
in his boxers,
It was the middle of August and her AC was broken

"Gahd ****** that song"
The darkness of the night embraced her being
it stripped her from the proper person she always is
it stripped her from that dress that carefully fell on her curves
it broke her guard, it dilated her pupils
she knows what she wants

He looked at her
as he shred the tobacco
as she undressed
her sunkissed skin made him jealous
jealous of the fact that every ray tattooed
a part of its glow on her
on her silhouette
He knows what he wants

"tick" Electricity went off
"****" she said
"my rollie" he said

She turned her back to find a t-shirt
he saw the glow of the moon align her spine
and rest at the curve, that little dip at the end of her back
He loved that

"She's ******* gorgeous" he thought
He put the rollie on the side
and got up
and slowly settled his hands on his hip bones

he shadowed her from the back
his pounding chest released ripples of goosebumps on hers

They both were infused with that song
it's like they were hypnotized by every beat
their beings were guided by the night

He turned her and kissed her
well, tasted her, and abruptly stopped
he teased her
she wanted more,
she curved her hand around
his neck, got him closer
and savored him, her lips tasted like
godly wine, he thought
he loved the way, their tongues waltzed
to that **** song, their emotions twirls
as their tongues did
he embraced her, as if some sort of power
is drawing him nearer
and she bit his lip wanting more

He carried her to bed
or as she called it
"the playground"
Guiding his hand from her back to her head
so as to lay her gently
she wrapped her legs around him
and let gravity take its toll

He lay her there,
jousting kisses, interrupted by
the short lived piano beats the song played
with every note she took a breath so as to resume
to her lover, with such burning passion

"I want you" she says
when he heard her whispering voice
his body vibrated with lust, she was his woman
his lover, he felt her wetness
her rose awaiting to welcome him
she was shaking with burning anticipation
she nailed her hands in his back
he wanted to be inside of her
he wanted to feel her warmth against his manhood
he wanted to awaken the untamed version of his lover
that he and only he knew

He loved how her voice vocalizes pleasure
adding sexuality to the song as it blasted in the background
he entered her, she looks at him
her eyes speak volumes when
he marveled at her body
her curves, how her breaths and her ******* moved simultaneously
how everything he did made her move beautiful
even the way she kisses him differed
his chest pounding
his love for her multiplying
her legs pulling me
it was her lover
submitting to his natural state
and her to her wild one
she glared at his dark hazel eyes
he knew
she wanted control
he slowly raised her
and set himself below
weak in front of her
facing such a beautiful woman
with an arched back
and the movement of seductive goddess

She knew how to stroke his fancy
how to pleasure his lust
how to play with his naughtiness
how to dance with his demons
how to control his peak
and how to tease it
with every movement of her waist against his
he moans, loving the mental and physical connection
he rests his hands on her hip
slowly guiding her

with the song, she moaned
shaking from the flood of pleasure
he embraced her
feeling her clenching to him
not wanting that moment to flee

as she lay on his chest
the song kept looping
his heart kept beating
in sync with her breathing
591 · Oct 2015
They said
Maria Etre Oct 2015
Find yourself, they said
you will walk down unknown paths
with dragons and lava puddles
with a shield and an unbeatable armor

Find yourself, they said
you will face the biggest beasts
and find shelter in their ribcages
warming yourself with their hearts

Find yourself, they said
you will sleep in the meadow
with only the moon as your company
and the wolf howls as you sleep melodies

Find yourself, they said
you will dance naked
around a fire of cherry wood near the forest
of undiscovered creatures

Find yourself, they said
and you will bathe in infinite oceans
of comfort and color your skin
with the sunsets

Find yourself, they said
and you will be swept off your feet
by this deathly wave of what they call love

Find yourself, they said
strip every layer the society accumulated
on your center
and expose the skeleton that you harness
so shyly

Find yourself, they said
and you will find yourself
afloat on a cloud of comfort
shedding all sense of care

Find yourself, they said
and you will feast with Kings of confidence
and Queens of beauty
igniting forest fires of jealousy
amongst those who just don't know thee

Find yourself, they said
and all those birds will flock to your feather
even change their own patter to fit yours

Find yourself, they said
and you will treasures of self worth
that no
mirror
can
reflect
590 · Mar 12
ED Survivor
Maria Etre Mar 12
I never ate my emotions
I starved them
That's also an
Emotional Disorder
589 · Jan 2018
360 Degrees
Maria Etre Jan 2018
Shooting stars **
to attract my attention
I tried to look away
&
I turned right >

Gigantic full moons "O"
to lure me
I kept turning right >>

Signs of "listen, your heart knows"
to alert me
I kept on turning right >>>

Songs of yesteryears played
to wake me up
I turned even more ...right >>>>

To find myself
back where I started
in your (arms) <<<<<
Magnetic are the things meant to be. #indiedoodles
589 · Jan 2019
Blue with You
587 · May 2019
Weigh-in
Maria Etre May 2019
Checking in
to weigh in
the weight
of years
waiting
to burn
off
587 · Aug 2019
Take a Walk
Maria Etre Aug 2019
The tug war
between my heart and my mind  
left me in a minefield
of questionable
outcomes
586 · Jan 27
Time To "Self"
Maria Etre Jan 27
Does maturity
dress itself
just to fit in
while your
raw
spirit
undresses it
every
single
time?
585 · May 2017
My Mind Left
Maria Etre May 2017
My mind left my body
and went wondering
under dim street lights
dusty with cigarette conversations
rusty with hesitations
overlooking lovers, strangers
friends, and sometimes
moments of firsts

My mind left my body
and went wondering
dancing with conversations
from her about broken hearts
cheating wishing stars
merciless time
future-reading-palms
and the unfairness of it all
For Full Entry: https://indiedoodles.wordpress.com/2017/05/01/my-mind-left/
584 · Sep 2024
Lebanon is at War.
Maria Etre Sep 2024
They drop
traumas
like
r
r                                         i
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                                                              ­                        n
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My country is at war.
They*** have been bombing the South and various regions rippling PTSD and traumas thus crippling Lebanon.
583 · Feb 2018
Yes, I am 30
Maria Etre Feb 2018
I lost
myself
in the me's
that have clothed
me through these
30 years

How can you love "you"
knowing there are
so many?
581 · Nov 2018
Ink Tongue
Maria Etre Nov 2018
I started
giving ink
to my tongue
and for some reason
I developed a sleeve tattoo
that spelled courage
Speaking without borders
speak your heart
580 · Aug 2017
Apathy, I Fear You
Maria Etre Aug 2017
I fear the day
my heart fails
to crack my ribs
with the
earthquake
that shakes
all the way to my skin,
in the form of goosebumps
I fear the day
it forgets
to recognize
the heat of that flame
579 · Mar 17
New Font
Maria Etre Mar 17
It felt weird
when my heart
left its type
and fell
for a whole
new font
that read
differently
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