Violent heartbeat


Poets are sponges, we take it all inside.
We keep it for use later, safely in the back of our minds.
A memory, an image; a picture of a picture.
We are the student, the expert, the novice and the teacher.


This is all I have to give!  This and nothing more.
Nevermore shall I lead forward; stand alone and learn to crawl.
For I am but an infant, inside this land of experts;
I have nothing of importance to say,
Except, I love the way you use those words,
With a memory so clearly full of megahertz.


I am forever learning how to talk in verse;
Exaggerate the truth, some say there are lies beneath those words.
Poetry is yours to do as your own.
Someone else’s opinion shouldn't affect your writing,
So find your feet in your own time and hope to become well known.


Empty your mind of negativity, so you can become free and shapeless;
Then you can become anything you want to understand.


You can become that thing without effort ever being wasted;
Write like you mean it, with a violent heartbeat
And all you will become is a writer and a poet
And on the shoulders of giants you shall stand.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Vow


I love you…


With every drop of every tear,
That I will ever spill from my eyes.
With every bead of sweat,
That will ever fall from my brow.


You are my reason for joy;
You are my reason for pride.
Until the end of all that which could ever be;
Until even after I have died…
You are my reason;
Our new life starts now.


For now we begin as one;
We are no longer two.


From now I will always stand proudly at your side.
From now until the end,
Through thick and through thin…
You will be my truth.


I will love you, like I always have, until the end of time.
I will love you, even after I have long since died.
I will love you after there are no longer disco stars in the sky!
I will love you forever and even after we have each risen up on high.


Because you love me,
I already have,
All I will ever need,
To make me happy.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Walking down Main Street


As the rain pours down and all the people are indoors,
I walk down Main Street, under my umbrella, alone with the world.
The moon is full, the air is cold,
But I am at peace in this town where nobody ever goes.


They only pass on through, as they think there is nothing here to do,
But there is so much to be seen, if they would only take the time;
But nobody ever has the time,
Because as they say “time flies!”
And this place is no fun, when you have money and you are young;
They all seem to be…in such a rush…


The other old timers watch them all just pass on by.
This old town may not have those alluring big city lights,
But it does have its charms, its people and a picturesque beauty.
If only they had the time to see;
But their minds are closed and they all have some other place to go,
So they will never know of this town
And it’s charming folks…


There goes Taylor-Rose; I guess her parents wanted twins,
But she has no siblings, so I guess she is their blessing.
Their pride and joy, they spoke about long ago,
When they too were young and they got hitched in the snow.
It sure was cold that day, but the sun was so bright;
They said they could not wait until the summer time.
A shotgun wedding; a lasting romance.
It’s been twenty years now, for Taylor-Rose’s Mom and Dad.


There’s the old General Store
And there’s the Post Office next door.
The Doctors Surgery is three doors down,
Past the Pharmacy and The Needle and Thread Store.
At the end of Main Street, there is a sign with more names;
I turn left behind it, to get to my old house,
But I am not heading that way.
Sweet Melissa is making our supper at home again tonight;
She is so wonderful to me; I’m a lucky family guy.


I remember when we met; I had just arrived in town.
I was just passing through like all the others…
And then my car broke down.
The mechanic was busy and then he had to send off for some parts,
So I booked myself into a room at the hotel and there she was…


A housekeeper with such beauty, like none I had ever seen before.
Her parents worked in the hotel too back then;
Her Mom told me my room was on the first floor.
Eventually I asked Melissa out to dinner;
I was a loser back then, but she turned me into a winner.


Now as I turn the right way into Lovers Avenue,
I can see Melissa at home; her silhouette moves in to view.
I’ve brought her some roses, they are not red; they are blue;
They are artificial, of course, but that just means they will last longer
And they will symbolize our love…
It will never get old,
It will only grow stronger.
I should tell Melissa that, I guess it sounds kind of nice;
But I will still give her the card Madison wrote and I simply signed.


She sure is clever, that Madison in the flower shop;
She always writes a verse of poetry for Melissa, from me,
When I cannot find the right words, to say what I want.
I’m just a simple kind of man, with love and our anniversary on my mind,
So I thought I would remind Melissa that I truly love her…
I’m so lucky to be her guy.


Three knocks on the door and “I’ll be right there.”
My love opens the door
And there is the smell of freshly baked bread in the air.
“It’s nearly done; did you forget your key?
Oh are those for me?” She smiles
And I go weak at the knees.


“I didn’t use my key, because I wanted to recreate our first date;
Do you remember me nervously knocking on your door?”
“Oh; the memories.  
And all these years later, you are still…my love.”
“I’m sorry I am late.”
“Nonsense, you’re just in time.”  She smiles at me
And after supper and dessert, we are both still smiling…


I have to go now, for my time is all just for Melissa…
So long memory lane; I hope you enjoyed the memories.
I sure am glad I didn’t just drive on through;
Just think what would have happened, if I had never met her…


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Wallowing in mud


The soul, the soul, my life, my soul!
If all I have left is my soul, my life, my grail,
Then take it all away from me; take it all and go!
I can no longer hold on to something I no longer believe in…so,
With words of blood I spit at you; the nerve you have to call me nice!
I have never been nice in my entire life to someone who did not deserve it
And you my friend…you never did.
So walk away from all you cause and leave me in your wreckage;
I can no longer wait on you to finish your sentence; I have never been festive
And the season is over, look over my shoulder
And you will see the past behind me.
That is where I have left you and all your lies.
Go wallow in your own misery.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Water Soul


She is waiting on me to tell her no lies,
But I am still mute as to what to do.
I am already see-through when she smiles.
If she touched my arm I would puke.
Not from disgust, but from sheer excitement.
My body would not know how to react,
So the ***** would rise and I would reach enlightenment.
Reminder to self, do not do that again.
Women do not like it when you throw-up on their dress.
It kind of ruins their day.


The feelings inside me want to burst out my body,
Waving a big sign saying I like you, yep you!
I should just tell her I like her,
So she can say I am sorry,
I have no interest in anything that you do.
Well ain’t that just a kick in the teeth!
Stupid me, stupid people, stupid planet, I want to leave.


The two of us can move on and go back to being strangers.
Love only hurts anyway, so I will keep my heart out of danger,
And just say nothing…Waiting on her…
My heart is dying, my time is fading, my hair is grey…sprinkle the dirt.


The final door to be closed or not to be?
I am all out of options.  The answer will not shock me,
Unless she wants me,
But I have given up on my dreams;
I no longer believe I am destined.


As I walk into the last chance saloon,
It is do or die.  Do I live with you?
Do I become bullet proof and protect you?
Or do I become see-through?


Love is over, while I burn in my own passion.
Nothing soothes; endless, nameless.
There is no shame in admitting defeat.
I tried my best to find you soulmate,
But you are gone and I am so lost,
I am becoming less than less.
I guess we will never be.


Aching bones hold up a fractured ego.
I would have gone wherever she goes,
Holding her hand, being her man,
Making plans…
But now…
Just ****.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

What am I to you?


What am I to you?  Which words do you hear?
When I speak only truth and face my fears.
What am I to do, when I don’t know what comes next?
If this is all we are, then what is left?


What am I to you, if not an impostor?
What am I to do, to become even clearer?
What doesn’t ring true, when you view my minds picture?
I follow no footsteps and I am no leader.


I walk in solitude, wary of facing a deceiver.
I am what I am; I am my own special creation.
Breathe into me, so I can take you into my heart
And not be left here alone feeling vacant.


Devoid of empathy and lacking understanding;
Who am I to complain to you, when I am winning!?
Who are you to judge me?  I am unworthy of a glance;
But the fire in my hands will breathe new life into your romance.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Winter


The cold wind blows, through the bones in my body.
A shiver down the spine makes you shake a gesture or sign,
Of a forthcoming winter; the cold is in the air.


So enjoy the sunshine, before the cold dark days;
The winter of discontent.
The eerie sound of an icy wind, a time for you to lament;
That the warm days, are no longer.
This summer has come and gone.


So wrap yourself up, nice and warm,
Before you catch your Death.
The bleakness of the moral, is innocently lost,
But the cold air gives form, to a heated breath.


So stay indoors, where it’s safe and warm
And keep the heat trapped;
For the heat that you have imprisoned,
Beneath the blanket on your bed,
Will soon become,
This winter’s closest friend.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Within


Play Slipknot’s ‘*****’ song four times and use these lyrics:
(Do not use the official video clip. It has more than just the song.)


I still feel your pain within my skin…


Ripping out my heart again,
So I can’t let you in.


Silence only ever hid my truths…


The Book of Life showed us the way;
My fate is up to you…amen.


Never been one to simply move on!
Like to stay in wonderland, all alone!
It still seems to feel like you inside.
All it took was the death of love and suicide,
To find our paradise!
I saw the love within your eyes;
It burnt my soul to say goodbye.


Oh…So now I scream “I’ve changed my mind!”
But apathy has got a grip over me!


Death will surely catch up, eventually…
But if I have you by my side
And I have your love for the rest of time,
Maybe then I can truly say “Goodbye.”
But only once and never again, not in this life!


Happiness has gone from me again!
All I’m left with within my world, is my own pain;
But I never said to you, just what I knew.
Just know I only ever spoke the truth.
I just couldn’t do this to you!
You’re much too weak to take this pain,
I guess, thought the crazy fool.
Oh…But picture me within your heart;
I’ll be your love light in the dark!


(Woah!)


I’ll be the one who cares!
I’ll be the one who is always there!
I’ll be the one you keep within;
I’ll be the one you let within!
I’ll be the one to teach you sin!
If you would only live again…
This bullet has your name on it.


Oh…I’ll bury it within my skin.
I’ll take you deep inside of me!


I’ll open up and I will live again!


PLAY TUNE AGAIN…
PLAY TUNE AGAIN…
PLAY TUNE AGAIN…


Bury me with love within your mind…
Dig me up to play with me, from time to time.
Read what I’m so desperate…to say
I’m older now and people change;
If I hadn’t just walked away…again…


I’d walk straight up to him!
And punch him hard in the face!
Such innocence you have no right to take!
My psychopathic, unstoppable, rage!
Would have put an end to his days!
But those words I guess I couldn’t say.
I guess you wouldn’t listen to them, anyway.


Oh so shocked that I would let you go!
I hope you know within my heart, you were the one!


But these words that you must never know…
Are truly spoken only to…cleanse my own soul.
Now I know I had to let you go;
I just wanted to tell you that…You are not alone.
Just tell me that you will never go!
Bury me with love and death, deep within your soul.
Know your words are in my heart…
But I could never let you know.
I wouldn’t want to make you cry!
Your tears only ever made me want to die!
I couldn’t be the one to save your life;
Oh, but you will never truly know,
Just how much you have affected mine!!!…


(Woah!)


The pain I never made you face!
I kept it all deep within.
I buried it deep with you, inside of me;
But I never did find any kind of release.
I guess I just couldn’t let it ever end up like this.
So pity me for all I should have said!
Lay with me once more my love, in our broken bed.
Oh, kiss me deep within your soul of light;
Stay with me and hold me tight!


If you still care I just want you to know…


PLAY TUNE AGAIN…
PLAY TUNE AGAIN…
PLAY TUNE AGAIN…


Together we will surely show this,
This loneliness, its death;
For I will never let you go.
I will only ever walk away.
For I have seen the death of love…
Once more in time, I should…have tried.


But these words of mine,
I guess I just could never say!
I miss you right now my bitter love!
I think of you now and then; sometimes other stuff.
But I want you to know, you are always in my heart.
I never truly left you; but I did depart…
I never told you how I felt.
Oh…I had to leave your broken heart,
But never weep, because of me!


Never say…you are unhappy.


You will never be alone,
For you are buried in my soul
And if something I guess I could have changed;
I would have left you to your pain,
I would still have walked away
And hope to God, I pray! I pray!
That you would only ever have followed me!
My love for you shall never go away.
I feel like I need your love to breathe!


I think I need you!
Trapped inside of me!
I think I saw something in your eyes;
Oh…
I think I saw my paradise, but now I guess I’ll never truly know!


(Woah!)


I think I’ve hit an all-time low!
So come to me, I’ll embrace you once again!
I’ll speak to you with honesty, my beloved friend;
Let me pay my penance for my sin.
Let me tell your heart and your soul!
That you my love, shall always be kept within.
I keep you safe, within my dreams.


Oh I offer shelter to your hurt and pains,
I only ever wanted to let you in!


I only ever wanted to let you in!!!


PLAY TUNE AGAIN…
PLAY TUNE AGAIN…
PLAY TUNE AGAIN…


So you can truly believe my words when I say…


I will never walk away;
In the distance I see your faith.


One last time you smiled at me and then…


You walked away, then you felt my hand,
Land upon your hand, again…


I love you, I always have!
I just didn’t understand!
But all these words I keep within;
I’ll never hurt you, I’m your friend!
I’m sorry I just couldn’t let you in,
But I believed you would be better off in the end;
If you never saw my face…


Oh, if once more I had just walked away;
You would never have read your words and all of this would be a waste!


But if I were to tell you how I really feel…


I’d simply scream at you “This is for real!”
Let’s once more live in sin.


So I can show you, my love, within…
That you shall always be kept with me, deep within.


So save my soul I need you to care;
I need you more than I need air!
I need your love to set me free;
I need you to become one with me.
I need to tell you I love you my Friend,
I’ll never truly hurt you…not in the end;
I never claimed to be a saint.
Oh in wonderland I love your soul,
It took her death to let me know, I love you so!


(Woah!)


So come be with me or break my hope!
You My Love; I believe You could be the one;.
I only tried to be of help;
But you are strong enough to help yourself
And I will pay penance for your pain!
I will not leave, I’m here to stay!
Angels like me fear our souls.


Oh, for my love was banished long ago,
If you still care, just know I love you so!

If you still care, just know you are the one!



(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.