Time is moving slowly
About as fast as grass grows
The heart of love drops below the ground
Time goes slow
The feeling of fear spreads everywhere
An icy grip covering the world
Oh my sun, Come back
Spread your love and warmth on me
Don't go away
Please... Don't leave me

The icy fear slowly creeps along
Deepening the cold in that dropped heart
Oh my sun, Won't you come back to me now?
Comfort my heart
Warm my freezing faith
Replace it with love

Time is moving slow
My fear grows
Leaving everything around me frozen
Maybe time has completely stopped
But the cold grows on and on
Maybe it will never end
Unless, maybe, you, my sun will return

While eveyone else
Waste their time
Making new year resolutions
I confess I don't have mine
But do you wan to know what?

I don't want mine
All I want
Is for this year to be full of you
That's all I need to make this year good
As long as I have you
All my years will hold happiness

I don't resolve to lose weight
To be happier than last year
All I want is you

Only God knows what this year had in store
I just pray he will never take you away
I thank him for you a lot

Of I resolve to do anything
I think I'd resolve to pray
And thank God for you everyday

Maybe new year resolutions
Aren't so stupid after all

What
Do
you
Do
When
Your
Cure
Turns
On
You

Even with the quiet ones
I'm the quiet girl
The antisocial one
But it's not all my fault
I can't help I feel unwanted
And left out
I get tired of forcing my way inside
I just want to be included
Even if I don't always say much
I don't mind just being with you guys
When you make me feel like I'm not a ghost
But tonight
I'm a ghost
Translucent
Im not a social person
But I don't want to be lonely
Even with everyone here
I don't feel like I'm someone
I'm see through

Having something to say
Don't want to be in the way
Scared to speak up
It's better this way
I'll keep to myself
Quietly, I keep my place
This is me
I can't be any other way
I'll be okay
Don't worry about me
I'm just tired
I need to sleep

Your lips on mine
Your hands on me
No secrets here
Just you and me
You're all I want
You're all I need
And everything inbetween
My heart in yours
Your heart in mine
We'll never have anything to hide
All the beauty of the world doesn't compare
It doesn't come close to what we bare
This is a beauty all its own
Of its own creation
Nothing compares to the love we share
It's something special
Of its own kind
A kind of love that you would give up your life
Just to save it; keep it safe
This love is a wonderful thing

Dear willow tree
How you enchant me
You provide a place to hide
From all inquiring eyes
You are my secret place
My great escape
Wrap me in your leafy arms
Keep me safe from harm

My mother's tree
You were thee
With all your meloncholy beauty
You mean so much to me
Your leaves hang off your limbs like vines
A perfect place to hide
I wonder if they admire hour beauty like I

Oh the things you must have seen
To make you seem so meloncholy
I want you to know with all your sorrow
You're still beautiful to me

You stand tall and proud
Away from the crowd
You are a cherished sight
Eminating might
You're so graceful as you sway
the wind begins to play
You always beg it to stay
But one day all things go away

But I want you to know
You will always be sacred to me
My dear willow tree

My love, my love
You mean so much
Your affection strikes me at my core
Leaving me sore
Embedded in me
Buried deep into my soul
You helped create this beast
This monster that craves only you

No one else could ever be enough
For I love you too much
If it's not your touch
I don't want to feel it
If it's not your lips
I don't want a kiss

You're always on my mind
All the time

You're the one I want
No one else could suffice
No one can compare to you
No matter how hard they try

Those eyes...
That smile..
Your hands
Your lips
The sensation you bring

No one else could ever have what you have
Because they can't be you
You have my heart
That will never change
I'd do anything for the sake of you

I long for your touch
The feel of your lips

You're mine

I thought that I was over this,
But still those evil lines I miss.
And in my head these thoughts come back
In a hungry, hateful pack.
I want to see my blood run red.
These thoughts returning of the end.

I wish, I wish, to stop for good,
Please break my heart and end the fued
And in my mind the war rages strong.
I'm still finding a way to carry on.

In my heart I know it's wrong.
It makes my lovers heart go numb.
But if I don't so something soon,
These thoughts of red will be my doom.

Blood, fire, ice, wind
Love is strong
Lust is weak
Have faith you faithless one
All will be okay
For I am here for you

Lord I am weak
But you, you are strong
I ask that you fill me up
Give me purpose
Give me life
Spread the light

The wind gently blows the trees
They sway gracefully
The sun smiles down on the world
you can hear the babble of an unseen brook
What a nice day
The bees buzz
The birds sing
The world is at peace

Relax
Breathe
Be at peace
Accept yourself and feel a weight lift
Let yourself be happy
It's all in your controll
Don't let the world dull your glow

Some people love the cloudy days
Rain and storms
Rain makes me sad
Storms set me on edge
The gloom outside puts gloom in my mood

Give me the sun
Warmth and comfort are these things
Rain just makes me think
I have such a tendency to over think everything

Rain brings life
Helps things to grow
So please explain
Why it depresses my soul

If you really love someone
A love true all the way through
Love will never die
It doesn't fade away
If it's a real love
You will love them for all of time
Long after you die
Your love will live on

Love is a mystery
Hard to hold
Sometimes you think its love
When really it's a joke
You'll know when it's real love
Because it makes your past love look like an elementary school crush

Love isn't about words
It's actions
If you love someone
Show them

Love will last through all the ages
You can't get rid of love
Emotions make us who we are
Embrace your love
And who you love
Your love will last for all of time
**Because love will never die

The hair on my head has never been touched by you.
Every couple years we gain new cells and skin too.
One day I will never have been touched by you.
One day you won't know me.
I'll only be a distant memory.
Let me fade into the background of your mind.
You don't need me in your life.
Please move on.
I'm not the girl you used to know,
I'm a woman now.
Full grown.
You were always full of lies.
Your butterflies have morphed into nothing more but flies.
I wish you would leave.
My eyes are dry can't you see?
When I see your face or the back of your head,
My heart starts to pound.
Not in love or excitement.
But in a nervous, anxious, fright.
Your memories are lost in the depths of my mind.
But when anyone mentions your name...
They crash forward like a tidal wave.
All the laughs and smiles...
All the lies and cries...
The hurt.
The betrayal.
One day...
You will have never touched me.
Let me fade in your memories.
I'm new.
Reborn.
I'm not the girl you used to know.
I'm a woman now.
Full grown.
No longer naive.
Or filled with silly dreams.
My hair you once touched...
Long chopped off.
And in another couple of years,
My cells and skin will be new too.
One day I will have a body you have never touched.
So let me fade in your memory.
I'm not the girl you used to know.
I'm a woman now.
Full grown.

I can't ******* breathe
Certain thoughts just won't leave
I can't escape this pain
These things loom over my head

Hi Anxiety, my old friend
Place your grip on me
I'll crumble under you're familiar embrace

Hi Depression, I love you
Please don't come back
when you combine in my mind
I die
Then how would you spend your time
Without me to hypnotize

My heart is being squeezed and torn and tugged and pulled
Just trying to hold on
My lungs give up
They can't get enough oxygen

These things cloud over me
They control everything
The only best friends I ever need

Oh my love come fight them away
Come save the day
Before they win
They will dictate my life
If you don't teach me how to fight

I want to go to never land,
Love, will you be my Peter Pan?
Oh! Just imagine the adventures we'll have.
Let's fly away to never land today.

We'll never grow old; we'll never die.
Our love will never have to end.
We can sing with the mermaids in the lagoon,
Or we can fight pirates to keep the lost boys safe.
Let's meet Tinker bell,
Why not the Indians as well?

Oh love be my Peter Pan,
Come take me away.
Well create a secret place,
Somewhere no one can find us.

Let's lay out under the stars,
Dream and wish of our tomorrow.
Oh my love, let's find a place.
We'll make it ours,
And name it never land.

A place we can go to when we feel weak, scared, defeated.
A place where only we can find each other.
And if I need to get away, escape;
I'll message you to me me there,
In our place

Ashamed of me
You have no cause to be
Why should you care
What they say?
What they think?
Why do I care that you're ashamed?
I thought my decision was made

Whatever, I'm moving on
You don't have to worry about me
I'll be happy without you
Or maybe I'll still be me
Don't act like you care
I know you don't
You can just leave me alone
I give up

The water rains down on me
On my face, in my hair
Thoughts overwhelm me
I long to curl up at the bottom of the tub and cry
I could sit there forever so I don't even try
But I'll stand there and thing of you for a while

You're breaking my heart
Then you mend it again
It's a ruthless cycle  
But I'll endure it until the end
I love you so much
I'll never let you go
I know it's ****** up
But I need my soul

I miss the way things used to be
But I love how things have grown
Just wrap your arms around me and say something sweet
I've never felt like I do with you before
I'm so scared of losing you
I don't know what to do

My anxiety builds
My heart cries
I need you by my side
Please make my heart feel better

I stand in the shower and think of you
My thoughts overwhelm me
I don't know what to do
The water rains down on me
My thoughts are overwhelming
I'll stand and think of you
Until my lips turn blue

I try to hard
My expectations are too high
No one feels the same as me
I have to accept some people love in a different way
But still....
Sometimes I want someone to love me the way I love them
Try just as hard
I'm tired of feeling I try at a 100 only to be met with 50
I want your love
I won't your affection
I don't doubt ita there
Just learn to show it more

I know it's in you
I know you care
But I can't help feeling like we're in different books
I love you more than my heart can bare
you just have to show me it's there..

Bright as a warm summer day
Radiant like the moon
As beautiful as the stars
This is my love for you
As strong as the mountains
Constant like trees
Forever I will be
Loyal like a dog
As wide as the sea
This is what you get from me
As sacrificing as a soldier
Protective as an army
Sometimes green with envy
Don't want to share like a child
Spoiled worse than rotten food
I give you these things too
Even if they aren't the best
All of me belongs to you
The last one for today
As vast as the universe
My love for you will never grow old
Like Peter Pan
In you I've found my Neverland.

Sweet things
Memories
Peace and hope
In the future
Adventures
Renewed love
And faith
Continue
Strength is in her
Courage is her name
Trouble means little
To one of the faith
Refine me
Try me
I'm yours
Guide me
Use me
Help me
To walk with the Father
Is to walk like a princess

I lay in bed late at night
Wishing you were there to hold me tight
Of all the thoughts that are in my head
You're the one with the most stead
I lay awake and think of you
While sleep evades and leaves me with nothing else to do
But even so your always on my mind
Your the perfect waste of time
I'd lose sleep and time for you
Give up my pride and ego too
So just know before the night
You will always be my light
I love you more than the sun and the moon
I hope I will get to be with you soon

I still have to wonder why
You somehow choose to stay by my side
Even when I gripe, groan, and complain
You help me find my way
I feel more at home with you than anywhere else
You're my best friend
No one else

I've created a dependancy to you
Without you I don't know what I would do
My life now revolves around you
This year has brought us so close
I wouldn't want anyone else

Still sometimes I wonder why
Why you choose to stay by my side
I'm nothing special; nothing grande
But still you choose to hold my hand

I'm so lucky to call you mine
You're far to wonderful for words to describe
You put the sun in my sky
You inspire the dreams of my mind
Sometimes I feel like a grain of sand
But somehow still you hold my hand

I love you for more than all that you are
You are the brightest shining star
I love you with all of my heart

Sometimes you make me happier than anyone else
Sometimes you hurt my soul
Sometimes, sometimes.....
No, all the time I love you so much more than time
Sometimes you make me feel so loved
Sometimes I feel like I'm not enough
Sometimes, sometimes
I wonder if you'll always be mine

Sometimes I think to much about you and I
Sometimes I have to wonder why
Why this feeling in my heart
Grows with the doubts in my mind
Like weeds that destroy the flower beds

Sometimes the weeds win
Overpowering the flowers
Sometimes the flowers prove stronger
Snuffing out the weeds
Will our love be stronger than my doubts like the beautiful flowers beating the weeds?

Sometimes I really hate myself
Not because I don't like myself
But
Because of how I feel
These emotions that I just can't control
It's
Scary
Sometimes I hate myself
Not who I am
But how I act due to my emotions
How I feel
It kills me
I don't want to be nervous all the time
I don't want to feel the way I feel
But
That's what being human is
Its not something anyone can control
You don't mean to feel
You just do

Chaos ensues
Thunder booms
Making anxious people fright
Lightening consumes the sky
The world is being judged tonight
Loud and monstrous
Poisonous belongings
Becoming homicidal
Howling, moaning, cursing this mortal world.
Angels are crying
Mercy
Orphans hide under their beds
Find solace in the night
Find peace in solitude
No one is safe tonight
Many will die
Some may live
You can taste the tension in the air
A baby sleeps safe from harm
While the mother's husband lies in another woman's arms
Still the thunder screams for all to hear
Lightening flashes angry with all
Chaos, ******, judgement
Is upon us all.

The earth has a heartbeat
It's as alive as you and me
It's alive yet holds so much life
The earth is amazing
Wise from millions of years we can't imagine
It has beauty no human could attain
God's wonderful creation
It took six days to make
And is filled with so much wonder and amazement
Earth; the first mother
The earth has a heartbeat
It breathes as do we
Provides us a house
The ungrateful humans
The selfish race
The earth is sad
It sees us drifting farther and farther from the farther
It knows disaster is coming
It offers us what it can
I see a piece of my God
When I admire the beauty of the world
The earth is alive
AND again tonight she cries

The girl in the mirror today isn't me
The girl in the mirror is pale and pretty
I might be pale
but pretty is not a word that describes me

Who is this stranger
Staring back at me
I don't know her
but I don't know me

Maybe this is meant to be me
Am I supposed to become the girl I see?
how can I do that when I know that can't be
The girl in the mirror; she is not me

She's someone else
I can't steal her for me
It would put her in my pain
I can't do that
So here I'll stay

Maybe one day
When I look in the mirror
I'll see me

Liars, liars everywhere
Liars, liars no one cares
I'm dying inside, but no one sees
Oh my goodness I just want to sleep

Tears an fears
Death and dispare
All just things to keep you here
Don't go with the flow
Dying more each day
Trying to be strong
So still you move on
Suffering this pain

If you survive no one has to know
No one had to know of your fight
But if you lose
There is no where to hide
So don't even try
Be proud of the death
That sets you free
They all will feel pain
Not seeing your misery
That is there fee

I want to be pretty
I want to be sweet
I think of all the people that I'll probably never meet
I think of the sun rise
I think of the look in your eyes
I know it's with you I'll be

You are the best person I could ever meet
I want to be different
I want to make a change
You could leave a hole in the sky that would never fade

I want you close
Yes close and tight
Barely room to breathe tonight

I crave your love
I crave your name
I long for you and sunny days
I hope I leave my mark on your soul
I want to be a light that will always shine bright

Warmth and comfort
Kisses and hands
Feelings that I always have
I want you close
I want you near
please promise not to leave me here

I long for your mind
I long for your soul
I want to know if I make you whole
I long to know your deepest thoughts
I want to break your mind apart
I'll leave a piece of me there
Only with you shall I share

If I die before the day
Promise me you'll let me stay
Tell me your secrets oh so dark
Let me know I made my mark

I feel like all my time is wasted;
But I can't make my feelings turn to hatred.
For some reason I really want you by my side,
I can feel a change of tide.
There's something stirring in the wind;
Please, I'm scared, don't let it in.

The warm night breeze upon my face;
Don't lie to me, there is a better place.
Some place peaceful, free of sin;
A place where we will meet again.
Close your eyes and try to breathe;
It is as beautiful as the sea.

But first to know the truth within;
Look inside, don't give in.
Know yourself, then know me;
Then it will be new and shiny.
I won't let your feelings of me get in my way;
I will always dream of a better day.
A day when we are close at last;
A day when all of this is in the past.

And if this day will never pass;
I'll always dream my dreams.
Full of fields with the softest grass;
A ray of sunshine that forever gleams.
Yes, I will always have my dreams.

To all my "friends"
I want you to know
I want you to know that from now on You're alone.
Don't cry to me for help
Don't **** up to my face
I know to you I'm just a mark you'll erase

To all my "friends"
I want you to know
I'm not a toy you can use
You can't pick me as you please
Just because you're favorite toy is missing
I'm no one's second choice

I gave you guys my all
You just let me fall
There is no trust here
Just rotting walls
What do you say behind my back
On second thought, I don't give a crap.

To all my "friends"
I figured out you're game
And guess what?
I'm done playing

To all my "friends"
I want you to know
I used to live you so much
But people change
Time moves on
Its time for us to go our separate ways

It's been too long
Too long since I've seen your face
Felt your touch
I need you here, now, forever
All I want is you
And it's been too long since I've held your hand
Too long since I've kissed your mouth
I miss having you around
It's been too long since I felt your arms around me
It's been too long since I've seen you last
I miss your warmth
Your touch
Your kiss
It's been too long since I held your face
Too long since I've been next to you
I want you here
I want your hands on my skin
It's been too long
It's been too long since I held you in my arms
I miss your smell
I miss you
It's been too long
Too long since I've seen your face

Sometimes I hate myself for loving you
I put so much of my time to you
Pour out my heart and soul to you
But do you care?
I don't think you do

Maybe I should stop trying so hard
It doesn't seem to be appreciated
But my heart just won't let me
It screams at me to try harder

But what do I get from you?
Tender moments sweetly shared
But will you always be there?

If one day I stop trying so much
Would you stay?
Sometimes I'm unsure if you would
But forever yours I'll remain

Why so you keep haunting me?
Just leave me alone
All you bring is misery
The pain can't be undone
Stop showing up
I don't want you here
The more you appear
The more my anger grows
Don't turn my friends into foes
Leave then alone
Why can't you just go?
Grow up
Stop being childish
Your maturity is low
It's time to say goodbye
Don't out up a fight
Just let me leave
While you learn the meaning of trust

Everything is going wrong
There is to much going on
Death is looming in the air
Filling me with despair
Sickness

Trying not to cry
Butterflies
Upset stomach
Getting sick
Everyone *****
Smile
No one cares
Close your heart
Love
Does it exists?
Maybe sometimes
Sometimes not
Just close your eyes
Pretend you aren't here
They wont see your tears

I feel as if I might explode
Filled to the brim
Overflowing with emotion

Love, wonder, hurt, sorrow,
A lightness in my chest
A feeling in my heart
It is something I can't explain

All these emotions filling me
I feel everything
There are no words to describe
What goes on in my mind

This feeling in my heart
It fills me with want
I don't comprehend
What do I do to the end?

Is this to be my fate
Never finding the right words to say
Is this what it means
To have a poets mind?

I'm not very good
Not like the greats
Classics that eveyone knows

Or maybe
I'm just to close
To see my own greatness
For to me
These poems don't fit
I can't use symbols
Or discreetly criticize

Everything straight foreward
But is this feeling in my chest
The potential I have in me?

Today made me pensive
Today made me think
I don't think his dad cares for me much more
Somethings wrong
It leaves a bad taste
I wasn't careful in my haste
He walked by the open door
My heart feel to the floor
I was mostly on top of you
Fully clothed
Still I feel judge
Even after his past
I wonder if he'll let me come again
Take some time to look within

Even so I feel so safe with you
Your warmth calms my soul
Your presence fights away my every fear
I love just having you near
You comfort me in ways you'll never know
I hope you can see to my soul
I want to be with you for all of time
Come on baby say your mine
Your dad used to like me
I'm sure he'll get there
That won't be a problem
Just stay with me here
I need your touch
I need your warmth
Come be my blanket
Be my shield
Forever yours I hope to be
Maybe even there will be a ring
Soon before the end of the school year

You walk me out
Into the cold moonlight
It's time for me to leave

I dont want to go home

It's only almost 11 o'clock
This is late for me
But I can't sleep
My eyes are tired but my mind is beyond awake
So I stare at my laptop screen
Trying to think of what to say next
He's already gone to sleep
And I'm left here thinking
He doesn't realize I'm awake for him
Contemplating words I should have said

I can feel the water behind my eyes
Wanting to escape
It's not that important
Not that big a deal
But all these other things came racing through my brain

I may be older but I still feel like a little girl
I can't handle much more
This is almost all that I can take
I wish I could talk to you
But you're asleep and I'm awake

You will always be my everything
I'm trying to do this right
But we're just so different
You and I
Still I always try
It just isn't easy
But if love like ours was easy
Everyone would have it

I probably won't tell you anytime soon
How much sleep I lose because of you
But the struggle and tears are worth it
Cause a love like ours only comes once in a hundred years

My love, my love
A sunny day
My love, my love
Don't turn away
Open your heart, your mind to mine
I want it all, nothing to hide
My love, my love
Let me in
My love, my love
It is no sin
I want to know from the brightest of days to the darkest of night
The inside of your mind
My love, my love
A sunny day
My love, my love don't turn away

My inspiration is dust
It was ***** out of me
By an unknown force

My love for you is stronger than the time
Even if you only know because of a dusty rhyme
I can't get you off my mind

I'd do anything for you
You know it's true
Oh how I love you

Break my heart
Tear it apart
whatever your will may do
it's yours for the taking
Do as you wish
Nothing could make my love for you run amiss

I care to much
I'll only get hurt
but since it's for you love
I'll make it through
You can hurt me all you want

Use me for your own gain
Act like it's a game
It will all be okay
I'll always let you win

You have nothing to fear
I'll always be here
I'll never let you go

When you're not here to keep me warm
I'm always cold
I can't get warm
Without your touch
The feel of your arms around me
It's impossible
Impossible for me to get warm without you

You bring all the warmth and goodness to my life

I need you here
I've gotten so cold
Fill me with your warmth
You're the only thing that works

I really want to be strong,
                                                           A warrior.
No fight or flight,
                                                          Just fight.
I want to be tough and wise,
                              A survivor and a fighter.
I WILL become more than these things,
                           I will emerge their leader.

The stars don't shine as bright
When you aren't around
My mind thinks to much
When you aren't around
My heart aches more
When you aren't around
Worst of all
The stars don't shine as bright
When you aren't around

I wish I could be
Who I think you need
She just isn't me

I can leave
If you don't go with me
Everything hurts
When you aren't  around
Everything is worse
When you aren't around

The stars don't shine as bright
When you aren't around

How come I never feel I am enough for you?
No matter what I do
How hard I try
I feel I always bother you
How come I'm not enough for you?
Why can't I be enough
When it's all that I want...

Will I forever remain
A light in your eyes
An ornament
Stationary, at your side

One day will I see your irrational side?
The darkest, deepest part of your mind
Like you already know mine

You brought light
Where I thought there would be none
You showed me someone loved

I want to see every side of you
Every part of your mind
Lead me to your soul
My love, there is nothing I hide
I will love you for all of time

I love you with more than just my heart
I love you with my mind
I love you with my soul
I love you from my head to my toes
The very essence of me love you

Please, love, tell me
Will I forever remain
A light in your eyes?
An ornament
Stationary, by your side

Will you keep me forever
Set my love free

If one day the answer is no
Will you promise to remember me fondly?

I love you more than my heart can bare
So tell me again love

Will I forever remain
A light in your eyes?
An ornament
Stationary, by your side

Will you allow me to love you
For all of time?

Will you try to take my breath away?
Show me you love me everyday
Make my heart melt
Sweep me off my feet
Prove to me how you feel
I'm tired if having to assume
It hurts my heart to have to wonder
I don't know how to explain the feeling
Just pain
I can't make it go away
Only you
I know you just aren't as outward as I
You love me I know
It'd just be nice if you let it show
Will you try to take my breath away?
Show me you love me everyday
Actions speak louder than words
You're quiet both ways
Take my pain away
Will you try?
Try I ease the pain in my heart
Be more outward
Share your thoughts
I'm sorry to ask
Will you try for me?