You know what?
I don't even care
I'm ******* wasted now
With all my usual flair

You might know
I could give a ****
I'm drinking down this bottle
To get rid of the sham

When I'm drunk
I can't think for ****
And I don't remember
Not a little bit

So ***** you
I'm getting wasted
And this sweet, sweet burn
Is just the *** I'm tasting

Red hair, soft lips
Eyes closed tight
Let me be the one
Who wakes you up tonight

With a soft, soft kiss
And a gentle touch
Girl, I need you
So very much

Just open your eyes
And hold me tight
Let me be the one
Who stays with you tonight

Blood
Rushing through my veins
Pumping to my heart
Driving me insane

Blood
Giving me this life
Giving me my breath
Filling me with strife

Why am I still standing?
What do I have here?
Why am I so different?
I am only a mere
Human
Filled with blood
Filled with flesh
And all these bones

Blood
Flooding my insides
Filling up my lungs
There's nowhere I can hide

From this...
Blood

I never believed before
For so very long
That karma was real
But I guess I was wrong

'Cause some of the things
I did in the past
Came right back around
And bit me in the ***

And all of the lies
And the things that I said
Are making me wish
That I could just be dead

All the things that she knows
And the **** that I did
Knocked me down flat
And sent me through a skid

I left blood on the pavement
I hit hard and fast
Because karma's a *****
And I'm caught in the blast

So I'm lying here broken
Scraped, bleeding, and bruised
Crying on the ground
Feeling so abused

Here I stand
With the world in my hand
Yet somehow I feel so empty...

Covered in blood
This doesn't feel as it should
This victory feels so empty...

My armies flood the plains
Trampling bodies of the slain
And yet, I am alone

Above the crowd
I stand tall and so proud
But I am hollow inside,
Left with no fight

Happiness is hearing your voice
Happiness is seeing you smile at me
Happiness is your laugh when I say something funny
Happiness is your eyes lighting up when you see a dog
Happiness is you being happy about cute animals
Happiness is playing with your hair
Happiness is having your head on my chest
Happiness is you snuggling up to me
Happiness is hearing you talk about sloths
Happiness is you explaining environmental science to me
Happiness is kissing you on the nose
Happiness is you singing Disney songs
Happiness is holding you in my arms
Happiness is experiencing something new with you
Happiness is making stupid jokes at Barnes and Noble
Happiness is a long drive while holding your hand
Happiness is your lips on mine
Happiness is hearing "I love you" and saying it back
Happiness is coming home to you
Happiness is falling asleep and waking up next to you
Happiness is "just a few more minutes" in the morning
Happiness is loving you
Happiness is you

Those in glass houses
Shouldn't throw stones
But I never cared
Let's break a few bones

Let's shatter these windows,
And smash through the wall
I'll throw the first stone
And I'll break it all

Entropy happens,
So let's speed it up
Let go the fury
As it erupts

Now there's no stopping
This avalanche rolls
Now stand here and watch
As the rush takes it toll.

You have the most beautiful smile
I haven't seen it in a while
But you know I miss you so bad
When you're not here I get so sad

It'd be nice if you'd come around
All the time I'm wearing this frown
It's so grey since you went away
And it gets worse everyday

Please come back
Bring color into my life again
Please tell me
It's not over, this is not the end
Please come back
I'll do anything to make you stay
Please tell me
They're all wrong and we won't end this way

You have the most kissable lips
You make my heart start doing flips
I can't be sad when you are near
You make me smile from ear to ear

It'd be nice if you'd come around
'Cause since you left I've been so down
The sun has set and gone away
And it gets darker everyday

Please come back
Bring color into my life again
Please tell me
It's not over, this is not the end
Please come back
I'll do anything to make you stay
Please tell me
They're all wrong and we won't end this way
They're all wrong and we won't end this way

Not today, please stay, don't go away
Please stay, don't let it end this way

I wish you were here
I'd hold you in my arms
And if you were near
I'd smile all the time

So lonely without you
The days are dragging on
I'm so glad that I have you
Without you life feels wrong

So please don't leave me
I don't think I'd survive
I wouldn't be happy
Without you in my life

Under the shining lights
Horns and trumpets blare
Take in all of the sights
This city has come alive

People stroll down the street
Rain splashes on the sidewalk
Tap your foot to the beat
As the music fills the night

Get on the floor and dance
The sax man does his thing
This could be your chance
The swing band's letting loose

The is a ******* wasteland
Dead and dry as a bone
Just miles and miles of sand
And I wander here alone

I'm never gonna get out
The sun burns at my skin
I trip, fall to the ground
Is this how my life will end?

This desert will not **** me
I still refuse to die
Despite the burning heat
I stand and keep up the fight

Step by step I carry on
Toward my salvation
Feeling in my feet gone
Pain a fleeting sensation

I'll walk until I can't stand
Then I'll crawl on my knees
I won't die in this land
One day I'll be ******* free

Happiness
You are so elusive
And you are
Always so reclusive

Like a ray of sun
When the day is done
Disappear
Beyond the horizon

And I look around
You're never found
Disappear
Into a darkened room

Happiness
Always somewhere else
And you can
Never offer help

Like a fleeting dream
Dissipate like steam
Disappear
Into the black night sky

Like a quick half smile
Never seen in a while
Disappear
Into the impossible

And you thought
That you could **** with me
Play with my heart, my feelings
And do what you wanted

Well I've seen past the ruse
And I care about you,
About as much as I care about the ******* form
Of this **** poem

Chin up, head up
Bad days never
Last forever

Eyes dry, don't cry
I'm here to say
It gets better

I'm here for you
If you need me
And I won't leave
Believe me

I'm just a tiny thread
In this tapestry
A million other threads
All the same as me

I'm just a glowing star
In this galaxy
A million other stars
All the same as me

Then I stumbled into you
A glowing star, a tiny thread
The same as all the rest
But you got stuck inside my head

And when I'm here with you
You make me feel strange
Like I'm somehow different now
I've gone through some change

So maybe we're all the same
In this galaxy
A million tiny stars
But you're the one for me

I love to dream
'Cause when I sleep
it just seems
That life is so much simpler

And you're with me
I see you smile
So wonderfully
For a moment, I am happy

For in my mind
The world is right
And I can find
You, always there right by my side

I imagine
That glint in your eyes
And that teasing smile
'Cause you have a surprise

I imagine
Your laugh ringing out
When I tell you a joke
No matter what it's about

I imagine
That we almost touch
And that tingly feeling
Is almost too much

I imagine
That you're here with me
We can do whatever
And I make you happy

I imagine
A lot of things
But you're so far
Away from me

The cigarette burns bright
Between your perfect fingers
And I think that this night
Could never be any better

There's strawberry wine by your bed
And your hair falling down your back
And these thoughts racing through my head
As our bodies draw so, so close

Acting intimately
I feel very, very small
All these things you've shown me
I'm left struck with this awe

Your hand on my thigh, I'm shaking
I gently caress your smooth neck
My heart is violently quaking
As I draw you in close, touch lips
And fall into your kiss

Under the mountain
The dragon does sleep
His silver and gold
Under guard does he keep

Make haste, flee away
From his fiery breath
For his eyes they see far
And his claws they bring death

He flies through the sky
With a vengeance filled mind
An anger undulled
And unwearied by time

His enemies burn
From the flames of his tongue
He slays one and all
From the old to the young

And once he is sated
He slumbers once more
And pray ne'er again
Will we hear his great roar

Home is a nebulous concept
Fleeting, like a cloud on a windy day
Where you feel most at home
Is where I think you're likely to stay

Some people assign a place as their home
And they never stray too far from that spot
But I feel that it's far too static
And they merely don't give it enough thought

Some people will wander the world
Never settling down in any one place
But I don't think that's for me
I appreciate a familiar face

I can only speak for myself here,
But home is wherever I'm with you
With you by my side I'm content
I hope that you feel this way too

Regardless of where I rest my head
Any place is home to me, if you're there
I can laugh freely, live fully, and relax
Because when I'm with you, we've love to share

Purple hair, green eyes
Lips that mesmerize
You're my only one
You're my shining sun

Soft kiss, whispered words
Love that only I've heard
You're my darling girl
You're my whole world

Your love, warm glow within
It's all I want, beginning to end
You're the one I need
You mean everything to me

You have
Always been there
Somehow
You've always cared

You are
More than I deserve
Somehow
You always end up hurt

You've got
The most amazing smile
And the
Most beautiful eyes

And all I ask
Is that you don't give up
On me

Innocence traded for
Fun, *****, and an easy lay
What more is there in life?
That's all I want by the end of day

I used to be so innocent
With good thoughts in my head
But now I'd rather **** than sleep
When I lie in my bed

Carefree laughter given away
For carnal pleasures in the night
Companions valued in my lust
Are tossed away at morning light

Intellectual ideas put aside
For desires of the flesh
And a new girl every night
Just to keep things fresh

I've buried myself far, far down
I don't know how I'll get free
And now I'm drowning in my lust
With no way out that I can see

Tired, eyes bleary with sleep
But I force them open again
I can't doze off just quite yet
You have to go to work at ten

Sitting in front of my screen
My mind begins to wander
But I can't sleep quite yet
'Cause I still have to call her

I can see the sun glinting
Just through the window glass
But I just want to talk to her
Five minutes, that's all I ask

Well past four in the morning
My phone lights up the room
A smile fills my face
It says, "Hey honey, I love you."

Poets seem sad to me
Because we feel more
And we hold on tight
And when we hurt, we write

Our tears fall on paper
In the form of words
Thoughts in scribbled ink
As our hearts begin to sink

Other people's pain fades
And drifts away with time
But a poet's hurt will stay
There on the tear stained page

Death who is pale and cold
He takes both young and old
His gaze sweeps 'cross the land
And all fall to his hand

He walks the fields of war
Where men fall to the sword
He haunts the scholars' hall
And spares no one at all

He rides a pale white steed
His every command it heeds
It bears him near or far
To where the dying are

Beware the Reaper's scythe
He comes to end your life
For always there is Death
When you take your last breath

A harsh wind howls over the mountains
But I stand tall, alone and unbowed
With my wild hair and pelts
I am the barbarian, fierce and proud

No weapon can fell me, no man can best me
For I vanquish all with my axe and my shield
Flee now before my might and wrath
To my power surrender, to my fury yield

Like the wild north wind I come
Laying low all in sight
So cower in fear, you soft ones
And flee fast into the night

You know
You've hurt me so much I cry
You know
Sometimes I just can't get by

And I wish
You were dead
That you never
Came up in my life

You know
That I gave all that I had
And you know
That you make me feel so bad

Like I failed you
And I've never ever
Been good enough

So tonight
I'm saying *******
I'm walking out of here with head held high
'Cause tonight
I'm getting drunk
So I don't remember how you say hi

Because you made
Me feel ecstatic
And like I was amazing
But now I'm
Absolutely nothing
So *******, and everything you were

Because
I'm good enough
Without you
Sorry
But I'm good
So I guess, this is my last adieu.

I am indomitable, untouchable
I am wrath embodied
The rage of the downtrodden made flesh
Nothing will stand in my way

Their corpses torn apart by my hands
Their blood soaked into the soil
I have wrought destruction upon them
And brought ruin to their hearth

They dared to provoke me
To spit upon me when I was weak
And what was sown
They have reaped

I am the berserker
Blood streams from my wounds
The horde overwhelms me
Yet I refuse to be defeated

I smash through their lines
A roar ripping from my throat
As I rend my enemies asunder
And cover myself in their gore

I see terror in their eyes
As they see the blood frenzy in mine
I lay waste to all who oppose me
And still it is not enough

My lust for battle can not be sated
It will not be satisfied
Until I have annihilated them
Until I have erased every trace of them

My veins thrum with
The thrill of death and blood
My eyes alight with life
As I stride through the mud

Dead men all around
Most felled by my hand
They gave their all to die
And still alive I stand

I am invincible
Too angry to die
The battle rage fills me
As I roar at the sky

My thirst is never sated
I always yearn for more
More killing, more blood
More bodies for my sword

Every thought of you
Is like a piercing thorn
Ripping up my skin
Leaving it cut and torn

Every word you say
Is like a poisoned knife
Stabbing through my heart
Slowly ending my life

Everything you are
Is everything I need
So I cling to hope
Although it makes me bleed

I'm only a man
So why do you think
I'm more than I am?
I don't know

I can't save the day
So why don't you want
Me to go away?
I don't know

I don't know
Why you want me
Or keep me around
I don't know
Why you pick me up
When I fall down

All I know
Is I'll stay here
As long as I can
And I'll love you
But I'm only a man

I am your madness
I am the voice in your mind
I am your demon
That says do not be kind

I drive you to ****, and to steal, and to maim
I make you smile and laugh as they try to escape
I make you grin as you cut them all down
Their dead, lifeless bodies fall limp to the ground

I am your madness
And you can not run away
I am your demon
Just accept it's your fate

To find joy in the pain of the strong and the weak
And destroy all the solace of those who seek peace
I'm why you laugh as they grovel and cry
I make you love how they bleed as they die

I am your madness
I am your insanity
I am your demon
You will never be free

Faerie flitting through the trees
Please, oh please, don't come near me
I don't want your taunts and tricks
Your words are worse than stones and sticks

Though you look so fine and pretty
With your voice that's so bewitching
Your fair, fair face hides mischief well
And all the secrets you won't tell

Your glistening wings, they flutter fast
As you loop and circle past
Lost in the maze of tangled leaves
A shining speck on the summer breeze

You and I
Used to be something
Talk all night
Used to mean something

And now we're
Strangers on the street
Share a glance
Strangers who won't meet

You and I
Used to be happy
You and I
Used to mean happy

And now we
Barely talk at all
A small word
Whispered in the hall

You and I
Used to be best friends
You and I
Will never be again

I sleep too much
But when I sleep
I dream
Oh, such dreams

I dream too much
But when I dream
I feel
Oh, how I feel

I feel as if everything
That I need, that I yearn for
That I so desperately crave
Is in my dreams

So I sleep
And I dream
And when I dream
I am happy

This whimsical mask alight in my arms
Such a light, cheery laugh
Surely I mean no harm

Just a little, slight push and it's up on my face
Now I tumble and flip
To the clouds I give chase

For I am the tumbler, the jester, the clown
I make people smile
I chase away their frowns

With a flip of my hat and a twist of my tongue
I make all the oldest
Of tales seem young

I am the gleeman, the poet, the bard
I see your future
In the face of my card

So come watch me now, as I put on a show
I'll make you laugh
As this happy crowd grows

I miss you a lot
So much it hurts
With every thought
That passes through

Not talking to you
Not seeing your face
Makes me take a few
Minutes to breath

This love inside
Comes so easy
Impossible to hide
But it can hurt

When you're not around
I mope and drag
And wait for the sound
Of your ringtone

Because my life's dull
And it's just not right
I don't feel whole
Without you in it

Death, blood, violence, death
Everyone eventually
will stop drawing breath
And the sleep comes to all

Eternal and quiet
We lay in these halls
Waiting, still waiting
For our descendants to call

For when they most need us
We'll rise from this grave
And march forth to battle
Their young lives to save

We'll make our way out
With our axes and swords
Though long we have slept
Now we march forth to war

To cleave heads from necks
And to shed the foe's blood
This day shall be won
As we knew that it would

The enemy will cower
And flee to his home
He'll hide away there
And no more will he roam

Death, blood, violence, death
Our enemies fallen
They sleep without breath
As we were, now they are

You're like a lighthouse
Signalling to me
As I drown out here
In the deep blue sea

You're like the seat belt
Holding me in place
As the cars collide
And glass cuts my face

You're the oxygen
As I suffocate
Flooding through my lungs
Pushing death away

You're the only one
Who pulls me from the brink
You keep me afloat
When I begin to sink

Into these thoughts
Of me dying
You're the reason
That I'm trying
To survive

You're like a doctor
Jumping my stopped heart
As I start to fade
and I drift apart

You're like the siren
Shaking me from sleep
As the fire burns
Flames devouring deep

You're the helping hand
As I start to slip
Catching at my arms
When I lose my grip

You're the only one
Who pulls me from the brink
You keep me afloat
When I begin to sink

Into these thoughts
Of me dying
You're the reason
That I'm trying
To survive

A man with many faces
Is a man with the cleverest lies
He knows how to hide his secrets
And keep them from prying eyes

A man with many masks
Is a man with a practiced smile
He knows how to end his foes
And act their friend all the while

A man with many ears
Is a man who won't be surprised
He knows what his enemies plan
And he acts out the perfect reprise

A man with many faces
Is a man who will live long and well
But ask yourself this, my friend
Will he live in heaven or hell?

You're just a substitute
Someone to hold in her place
'Cause if I close my eyes
I can still see her face

And I kinda like you
But this sure isn't love
'Cause when I fall asleep
It's her that I dream of

And it's her I want
When I'm alone at night
But you're in my bed
When I turn out the light

So I'll hold you close
But my mind isn't here
It's wandered away
Wishing she was near

You will never be her
I'll never be content
Because inside my heart
I know it's not meant
To be

I live for the cut and ****** of battle
I dance to the rhythm of violent death
I listen for the gasping, moaning rattle
Of the fallen man's last, desperate breath

My veins run hot with warrior's blood
My sword sings out the song of war
The foe breaks over me like a flood
How could I ever ask for more?

For when I ****, I feel alive
The death I bring makes my heart beat
Taking a life is what makes me thrive
When covered in blood I feel complete

Who can compare with your majesty, oh Lord?
Who can match your might and power?
For with your breath you gave life to the earth,
and as you spoke, the world came into being.

Truly, God, you are powerful beyond measure.
Your strength is beyond the comprehension of man.
Only you can say what is right and wrong;
from your mouth come the decrees of justice.

Hear my plea, oh God.
I have fallen in the darkness,
and I can not raise myself up.
The heights of Your glory are beyond my reach.

I am beset on all sides by trouble.
Doubt and fear are my constant companions.
My eyes are blinded,
and I cannot see your path.

You, Lord, who sees all,
know of my faith.
I have never renounced your name,
but always have I kept it in reverence.

Look upon me in my hour of need,
and see that I have done no wrong.
Through no fault of my own
I have lost my way.

Surely, oh God, you will deliver me.
For do you not guide the righteous along your paths
even as you condemn the wicked to damnation?
Surely, oh God, you will pull me from the depths.

Reach out your hand
and rescue me, Lord.
Restore unto me surety and boldness once again,
that I might walk in your light forever.

Nothing is impossible for you, God.
You are all powerful, all knowing,
with love that never ends.
I place my trust in you.

Your mercy and grace are boundless.
Though I often fail to keep your laws,
still you do not abandon me.
Your forgiveness is unfathomable.

Slit my wrists
What happens next?
The blood drips down
On to my desk

The pain feels sharp
Inside my mind
It clears my eyes
No longer blind

The world is clear
I'm able to see
How people can show
Such cruelty

Why stay here?
There's nothing left
And nobody cares
About my death

So I deepen the cuts
Lean back in my chair
And fade away
'Cause I don't care

I think that I'm
Addicted
To this emptiness inside
To this secret pain of mine

Because I don't
Feel happy
I've got all I want
But it's all a front

Because I want to feel sad
I want to be mad
At the way I'm shut out
Of everyone's groups

And when I'm empty
I feel complete

Tales of the shadow
Creeping in the night
Tales of the hunter
Searching with keen sight

'Tis an endless dance
The pair of them make
The hunter to save
And the shadow to break

The Soulstealer comes
In the witching hour
While people are dreaming
His chosen prey cowers

The hunter steps light
With his weapons in hand
When he finds the dark beast
There he'll make his stand

For 'tis his sworn duty
To guard and to save
From the dark in the night
And the shadow in day

Am I depressed
Or just a little sad?
Am I insane
Or just a touch too mad?

I try to find rhythm
In the words on the page
But I long to be free
And escape from this cage

I try to find order
In a humdrum, safe life
But I need to get out
Find some conflict and strife

I'm going insane,
At least, that's what I think
And I know that my thoughts
Are beginning to sink

They're becoming so wild
So restless, untamed
And there's things in my head
That can not be named

They claw at my eyelids
They scream in my ears
They keep me awake
And they pour out my tears

I'm going insane
I just want it to end
I don't know what's coming
Around the next bend

The suspense is killing me
Will someone please help?!
I'm about to fall off
Of the highest high shelf

When I hit the ground
I'll shatter and break
And the pieces of me
Will be left for a day

Just to gather some dust
Just to sit there and rot
Because no one will give me
A first second thought

So the pieces of me
That are shattered and broken
Will remain like the words
That I've left unspoken

Alone

Quiet clouds drifting across the night sky
The world is quiet, as everyone sleeps
The moon above like a half eaten pie
Majestic and bright, her vigil she keeps

How does something so completely right feel completely wrong?
How does something make me feel at ease, yet make my dread so strong?
It's this complicated, complex problem tearing me apart
This paradoxical, puzzling thing that's ripping at my heart

It confuses me
So easily
Tap
Tap
Inside my brain
This is driving me
Insane

How does something I love so much make me feel this uneasy?
How does the thought put my head in a spin, and make me queasy?
It's this intricate, enigmatic problem I can not solve
This mysterious, mystifying thing around which I revolve

It perplexes me
So easily
Tap
Tap
Inside my head
Makes me wish that I
Was dead

These voices arguing inside me won't be quiet
No matter what I do or say
And they all belong to me
And I just wish that they would
SHUT.
UP.