Hold me close to your beating heart
So I can learn How it feels to be alive again
I’ve been feeling quite hollow lately.
here i am again
reaching for hands i am commanded not to hold dreaming of just a whisper of your touch and again i ache a hollow space in your shape haunting everywhere i go i try not to search for you dreading my impending doom the moment i catch even a glimpse of your ghost mocking my mortality and yet possessing all of me and god help me because i cannot help it a willing captive fully at your mercy and i am afraid for my being because even ensnared i wish not to escape you blinded by your light i mistake you for heaven i am waiting at your gates saying all the prayers begging you will bless me with an eternity of your love if only i were worthy and here i weep because what use is all this i see you and i sigh keep myself at arm's length because it is not enough and it will always be like this i'm too much of a romantic to see things clearly
Broken bones and shivering souls,
Harshly uprooted from the ground... Counting scars and all the holes, Happiness nowhere to be found... Hard and thick are all the walls, Shielding love from all around... Away from the heart it tries to crawl, Yet your memories are kept, safe and sound...
She said it was her only life line
scars telling of her life in parts every detail of every knife line where one ends, another starts numbness is nothing pain is something she said it was like her only need satisfaction in killing the numb in the darkness, she can only bleed looking forward to the pain to come
One winter night,
when it's all cold and dark memories stirr a pain that will again leave a mark Silent screams that echo words that claw at soul heart then pumps the agony and you start loosing control the darkness then seeps in and coldness that follow morning sun then shines on a heart that's left hollow !!
reaching out, turning back
deep, empty hollow ways reveal only pitch black no route, no escape the home of lost souls; the epitome of loneliness
there is no future, and there is no escape
it’s now or never i’ve never had this hollowness in my gut where i realise there is no way out i am trapped in this body but also forever does that mean i’m trapped with this mind i can’t go on like this anymore it could happen at any moment whether i go through the consequences then i need to end this suffering my head is so full i don’t know what i’m expected to do anymore i just feel like an empty lifeless corpse all i can do is float around and pretend to be a part of something when actually i'm not i’ve lost the place i felt safe to somewhere i can’t see and don’t know if it’s true i don’t understand it but what’s the point anymore if i’m going to end and all my friends are going to end why not end now instead of suffering through day to day i’m useless worthless i wish it was easier to let go but i know it’s not easy especially when no one can hear me because i can only scream in silence
you’re my parents, you don’t realise but you’re pushing me further into myself and one day i won’t be able to come back
you’ve just told someone who’s already suicidal that there is no hope. how do you think i feel because i can only scream in silence.
Yes, I want to be sure of you,
But here I am, not having the slightest idea of what to do, We laugh, we talk everyday as the darkness turns to light, With us being so messy and not knowing what to decide, I find the words to explain that I have such little hope, You ask me not to worry and that we are sailing in the same boat, Smiling to myself, I sink into my pillow, Wondering how a request so simple can fill me with a sudden deep hollow…
a tiring maze
a puzzle unsolved a lightning phase before your old duty madness weighs your soul the human sadness that can't be told. an idle transcript of ending time oblivious to your obscure mind a hollow space saved till you find whats been missing- The yet 'undefined'.