Still going


Before the end I will find a way.
Of this I am sure, no need to pray.
Never been a believer, except when I was told.
The story is getting very…old.


If wishes are real, then why am I here?
I cannot believe love is still not near,
When all I do is desire the fire.
My life in the ice is oh so dire.


But still on I go, through all the snow sorrow,
Not knowing where it is I will end up.
All I know is I am destined to be loves woe.
Still going forward; still distracted by lust.


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Still lost


I am still lost in the ghost of you;
Waiting on a sun to shine again.
I see you, creeping into my mind’s view;
I cannot keep pushing you away.


All mentions of the long forgotten dreams,
Instantly rearrange whenever your picture is seen.
You always seemed to be so serene,
But clearly that was not the truth.
Inside you held a tormented being
And your demons only ever sang the blues.


You could have written poetry, but your heart was never listening.
You could have stayed and lived in harmony,
But now nobody will ever hear you sing.


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Still trying


Waking up alone again, but the sun is shining;
Life is tough, but it is good enough to make me smile.
If I said I was doing ok, I would probably be lying,
But I can rise out of bed and face the world and maybe in a while,
Things will get better; I could find a rainbow in my tears.
I could find the love I have been searching for, for all these years.


The songs raise my soul to another level;
I become more than I have ever been able to be.
The clouds outside drift apart and with them go my troubles;
A new lyric can make such a difference to me.


Radio Gaga has become a lady in my mind;
If I could just impress, then I could have all I wish for
And maybe I could do what I can do on stage.
If things do work out for me, I will work hard and try,
Because I love what I do, I love speaking to you;
You give me the strength to smash out of my cage.


Breaking out through the fire exit;
Running into another day ready to face it.
The adrenaline flows as I produce all I can;
The pen and pad is my paintbrush and I am what I am.


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Still we believe


Smoking hot; I’ve had a thought and now it is lost.
Insanity clouds clarity and we lose all we have;
Too soon it is gone.
Money can’t buy love; it is not for sale in any shop.
Jewellery can buy your way into a heart,
But you cannot keep love in a box.


Love has many messengers that spread the love around;
When you see someone in love, you too want to be found.
You wish someone would come along and raise you up from the ground;
But arrogance is attractive, so we are forever let down.


Delusions of love along the highway to Hell;
Entrapped by the witches, under a love spell.
Family fortunes are not only tangible;
They are spiritual as well.


Drop dead gorgeous, can only come between us;
A quest to be faithful is easily failed and tears are too easily shed.
Words left unspoken, promises broken; the sacrifice of love.
At the end of the day, love fades away and we have nothing left.


No jewellery box, nothing on the box;
Tell the tale to anyone who will listen, as to how love was lost.

The singer can sing a song, but no words can heal us now.


A kiss goodnight on a doorstep;
No kiss from a lover when it is time to say goodbye.
A last minute dash to save a love;
Without love there is nothing else to do but cry.


So say what you want, for if you don’t then you deserve nothing.
Love will hurt you,
Love will break your pretty little heart…

And still here we stand, firmly believing.


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Stranger than fiction.


Do you think about us now and then, or am I completely gone?
Do you remember the love I sent, when you hear a certain song?
Or am I a victim of your love, lost to the next one?


Did I fall away and simply fade, like the smoke we used to smoke?
Did I make you laugh in my own way, or am I just something you broke?
I guess I’ll always remember the loving words that you spoke.


If there was a way I could see you again, do you reckon that I would?
If there was a time when you were on my mind,
Do you think my thoughts would turn out to be good?
Or are you just a constant reminder to me, as to what I never want?


I would tell you truths, back when I thought I knew you,
But the truth is I never really did.
I could wish for us and a way to trust,
But that time for me no longer exists.
Just like a dagger, you ripped me apart.
I wanted to thank you for all that you are,
But now all you are is a bad memory.
Remember that you never really had me.
You had a limited version of my love,
You are so fugazi to me.
I would soak you up like you were my favourite drug,
But just being near you was killing me.


You stand there a stranger, a stranger to me.
Now I couldn’t be happier, because you were only temporary.
You had half my love and even that was too much.
You are nothing now, so unworthy.
Go and read my books, take another look at love.
I want you to see clearly, what you have lost.
You were secondary, now just a memory.
I couldn’t write you love stories,
Because you never even loved me.


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Strength.


Lasting memories are formed alongside each teardrop;
Although the tear hits the ground and shatters,
The memory is never really gone.
Cling onto those memories, like they are all that you have got;
Because the next time you are grieving,
They will help you to once more become strong.


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Structure


I’ve got an old fashioned heart and my soul is still dreaming.
I’m not a wise man, but I do have wisdom.
I’ve got an immature head on bones that are slowly breaking.
My body aches, my tired eyes fail
And my memories have all been long forgotten.


If life is a clock-face, I am not yet at six,
But my heart has gone on past eleven o’clock;
I guess you can teach an old dog new tricks.
I raise my spirits up and once more venture into my destiny.
Time is a non-entity in a world of possibilities.


Dreams come and go, as do the years that fly on past.
No longer a child, I am a man; there is no turning back.
The clock is still ticking, counting sands;
My lack of ambition is a steak through the heart of all my plans.
Hopes and wishes are only ever fantasies.
Back to reality with a bump, I am still falling, but enough about me…


I hope you are simply splendid!  Anything less is not worthy.
You deserve only the best of my kindest of wishes
And I hope you find in your vocabulary,
The words to tell me what you envisage,
So I can try to move mountains for you in all of my dreams.
Let it be so; what do you need?
Ask me for anything.


This vessel is your tool to build a great wonder of your choosing.
Great literature shall be written about the future we are building.
One stepping stone at a time, there are paths beneath the waves.
We can make dreams come true here;
Together we will find a way.


Great towers shall stand, fires atop them, burning high into the night.
All people will travel to see your wonder that we will bring to life.
From small seeds great oaks shall rise
And your vision they will find,
As they walk out of the desert and marvel at your creation.
It will be a perfectly perfect personification.
Our hands are the missing link,
Your theory is a string;
Let me be the bow to your violin.


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Such a loss, to me, not you.


In need of being loved; in need of a hug.
In need of somebody; somebody to love.
Alone now so long, I haven’t had to say goodbye in such a long time.
I can’t remember what real love feels like;
I have no memory space left for it inside.


You are all welcome to all the love,
But nobody can have mine,
Because I am so far removed, from any kind of love life.
I have already rolled those furry dice, one too many times
And now I just do not have the will, to keep on rolling snake eyes.


The risk is no longer worth the reward.
The chance is not in my favour.
I am at odds with the world and even if I was only ignored,
I could at least understand that kind of behaviour.


All the love in the world, I could have it inside my heart,
But it is worthless in my hands.
Love is useless to me and far too hard.
Too hard to find; too hard to keep.
So easy to lose, this stupid love thing.


So no longer will I try and no longer will I want.
No longer will I go in search of love; it is time to finally stop.
You can tell me anything…
I am no longer listening.


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Suicide is not an option.


There are times in your life, when time is not on your side,
But please do not rush to your death,
I have no wish to see you die.
I intend to lay here, by your side
And awaken you with a kiss, in the morning light.


For suicide is not an option, I shall let you choose,
Suicide is not an option, I shall let you take.
I wouldn’t want to grieve the loss of such beauty,
So please don’t go away.


For you are everything this poor boy needs,
To sleep at ease each night.
You give me my reason to struggle on, try as life might,
To take me out, I’m going to stand solidly at your side,
For your love gives me strength
And holding your hand gives me such pride.


You are my reason for continuing to live,
No matter what this life may throw at me.
I wish I could mean as much to you,
So if you love me, then suicide you cannot think,
Is a viable option you can seriously take.
Please my love, don’t let me awaken to your corpse today.
Please my love I would do anything,
Whatever it takes, to give you a reason to live.


But suicide is not an option, I shall let you choose;
Suicide is not an option, I shall let you take.
I wouldn’t want to grieve the loss of such beauty,
So please don’t go away.


Have you really given up on us?
Have you had enough of me?
Do you mean it when you say I have your love?
Or are you simply saying that to get what you need?
Because I want you to know I love you so,
This is why I can’t let you just go.


So suicide is not an option, I can let you choose,
Suicide is not an option, I can let you take.
I could not grieve the loss of such beauty,
So please don’t leave me today.


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Suit


All I can write about at the moment is love;
So I am going to ride the crest of a wave,
Until the time my surf board breaks.


When you see me crawling up onto the beach in my wet suit;
Only then will you see that I am done
And other poetry will appear again.
This is my truth.  Love is my pain.


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Summer’s here


Summer’s here at last, so laugh;
Enjoy the sun before God takes it back.
It’s only temporary so enjoy it while it lasts
And pray to God it’s not your last.


Let the sun shine down on me, let it pour down all around us;
Let the sun shine so bright that it blinds us.


Looking at the sky in wonder
And wondering why it shines so bright.
Does this mean what I think it means;
That the time is right to find love and change my life?


Angels cry in summertime,
As love is lost, because you chose to hide.
You can’t go back and change your mind;
Your choice is made and now it’s time to die.


I believe in a better place than this;
I believe I deserve to see someone I have never seen.
The sun must shine in Heaven and I hope we do live in bliss,
Because the summer will soon be gone to become a memory.


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Sunbeam


As the lightning strikes, I close my eyes again;
I wish for the clouds to part so I can feel the sun shine.
When the darkness fades, I let my sad mood drift away;
As I raise my head to look up, there is no more rain
And everything is alright.


No more cold winds blowing through my bones;
No more dark nights, no more frightening times, no more endless miles.
A change of heart has appeared
And I have received a blessing of the soul;
I can walk amongst the strangers once more and embrace their smiles.


Out into the yonder, in search of a different future to my fate;
This life is no longer on rails and it has only just begun.
Where once I was a passenger, who was afraid of change,
I am becoming a better person and embracing all that is to come.


Breaking from the chains of my own history, fighting for this chance;
I burst from my shell and dive into a book.
Knowledge is power and if this is my last hope and all I have,
Then I will grab the stars from the sky
And turn them into diamonds, to give to you, to replace what they took.


What matters is not always what we want;
Sometimes we are not happy to settle for what we have.
But desire is the ignition to a big bang called love;
If confession is good for the soul, then speak aloud
And never let that, just be that.


Let the hurricane come and blow its wind of change;
No tsunami can change my mind in these times of hope.
If the ground cracks beneath my feet, I will grow wings and fly away;
Because there is no disaster that could stop me telling you all I know.


The world can stop spinning and the moon can fall from the sky,
But I have a sun beam for a soul now, so I can illuminate the night.


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Super Hero movies are boring.


I’m just casting wishes out into the atmosphere,
Casually hoping that somebody will hear.
Send me a sign, a reply or a solid cheer
And I will smile, I will grow stronger
And if you really affect me I will shed a tear.


But it will be a tear of happiness; sadness is unwelcome tonight,
For I have heard the poetic sounds from way down inside.
I am unable to be perfect, but born to be write.
Think fast, create, be natural and arise.


We are building a future one wish at a time.
We are dancing through ice daggers that fall from the sky.
We are leaping over fires that rage throughout the night.
They are the starlight; we are the guardians of the light.


Fantastic beasts and magical creatures.
We cannot be defeated by fear; we have curiosity and extra senses.
We see through all that blinds us from the future we are seeking
And when our time is spent, we will be gracious
And we will accept your desire for us to stop speaking.


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Survival of the fittest


A bird on a branch, reflecting on existence;
Realizing everything it thought it knew about mortality,
Was really just how to show its own ignorance.
No possibility of death as it rides upon the wind so free;
Flying so high above the land,
That nothing could bring this day to an end
And there is still so much more to see.


An idea of creation so profound that it seemed the only truth,
But all it knew has come apart
And it has lost faith in all that which it views.
Everything has changed in the blink of an eye
And a stitch in time is not saving; it is slipping and sliding,
As the bird falls down from way up on high.


The friend it saw only yesterday has disappeared from its mind’s eye.
Gone in a second of time, its wings no longer flap
And the rotting flesh is more or less a piece of magpie pie.
Gone from its sight; no conversation in the morning light.
No dawn chorus, no warning; no more soaring.
Just a ghost of a life that has passed it by.


Eaten alive by the cat in the night;
The bird that no longer sings is no longer spotted flying high.
For that is that; it has no goodbyes,
So the bird rises from its branch and flies,
Up into in the great blue sky.


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Sweet little compromise


I love your sweet little compromise.
I love your deep blue **** eyes.
I love to watch you sleep at night.
I love to get between your thighs.


I hate the way you make me feel inside;
I hate the day I love the night.
I hate to hate, but hey, that’s life!
I hate it seems to me all the time.


Your love is my disease; it’s very contagious.
It seems like everyone’s falling all around us.
In love that is; they fall for each other.
Finding their other.  Their favourite lover.


But love’s a disease that eats out your heart.
The day is now over; the nightmares will start.
The hate and despair, will tear you apart,
Until your find your next,
So the love story can restart.


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Take a chance.


Send me a sign, to show me how you feel
And I'll return my message to you, in a little while.
I'm taking the first step, but it takes two to tango,
So what do you think, shall we dance with each other?
Will you become my lover and my lay with me tonight?
Or shall I leave you to these people and not be by your side?


You see, I'm the one who made you smile
And you told me that it's been a while,
Since you remember being happy and thinking like this;
But I too harbour the bad memories that come with this thing.


But if I can take the risk, then I'm sure you can too;
If you can't, I understand, I've been there too darling.
Those crazy misspent days and those long winter nights,
Left us happy and content.
We were always happy when we weren't crying.


But times stands still for no man and it's time for me to leave.
I've got to leave you here alone now,
So you can breathe a sigh of relief.
You may want things to be different,
But I'm a ghost ship passing by;
The guy you thought you made a connection with,
In the blink of an eye and an awkward smile.


In that moment I saw you truly,
As you wished no-one could see you right now.
With your guard down and you hair messed up;
You shone so bright like a nuclear cloud.
An explosion in my heart and then you were gone;
Tomorrow you may not remember me,
But you shall not be forgotten.


A single smile, with your red hair in the wind,
Reminded me of what could be, if I changed a few things
And forgot those bad memories that have now engulfed me.
They keep me here trapped, letting nobody in.


I'm willing to risk it all and lay here at your disposal,
To dispose of at your dissatisfaction,
But to keep while I'm still useful.
Until the day comes when you disappear into the night,
Then like a candle blowing in the wind,
Your love will walk out of my life.


But the pains we have endured, shall become our cure.
Make us stronger this time; we can do it for sure.
Just one girl and one boy, how hard can it be?
It's as easy to do as you’re A,B,Cs.


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Take Care


So delicate a flower has never been touched,
By such worn golden fingers, so callous and rough.


Such care must be taken, when speaking of love,
In case your inner thoughts are misinterpreted,
With the slip of a tongue.


Then what would become of loves chosen lovers?
A different path they would have to choose,
As they go in search of another.


Missed opportunities, come and go,
The whispered words that are never heard,
Only speak of sorrow.


Unless such care, did the lady take,
To listen to this poor boys, tears of pain.


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Tasteless


Food is ugly, words are false;
Finish your plate or else!
Starving hungry with eyes that cannot see;
Understand, I just don’t want to eat.


Never been a vegetarian;
Bacon is too good at being the best meat.
Open fridge to a room full of emptiness;
Shelves so full of complete blandness, so complete.


Never needed a witness to confess;
Willingly I show you around my head.
My heart and soul may be connected,
But my brain and stomach are not even friends.
They cannot relate, my empty plate,
Wasting away, happy today in my own way.


Too full of apathy to eat.
I see my reflection staring back at me,
In the microwave machine;
The only place I bother to be.


I catch a glimpse of malnutrition,
But do not worry about me,
Or what I eat; I eat to please.
To please the ones who worry, they are sweet,
But I am still so unhealthy.


I am happy when I weigh less than I should be;
Used to have a better body.
Used to be a better version of me;
Used to be somebody.
Those days are gone forever;
Too far gone to remember gladly.


Working hard to find my six pack;
Afraid those days ain’t coming back.
Give it time and it may be;
Only if it happens will you see my body.
This skin on bones I hide with clothes,
This belly should not be a part of me.
I cannot let you see that I have become so flabby.


Happy being skin near slim,
Not fat like that.
The mirror man has never been perfect,
But if only I could reach what I once had.
Weight a while, break the scales,
Walk in the snow, walking for miles.
Heart, body and soul, no place to go,
Striving for perfect,
But those wishes are too shallow.


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Tell me


Tell me about love.
Tell me about life.
Tell me about giving up,
Or tell me how you survived.
Tell me what you wish,
Or tell me absolutely nothing.
Tell me what you are willing to share.
I make no promise to tell you anything.


Tell me what you like
And all the things you dislike or otherwise.
Tell me about the light,
Or if the darkness has covered your mind,
Then tell me or anybody,
How you truly feel inside.


Tell me something if you want.
I tell you all you need to know,
But I am not your font.
Bubbles appear and then they pop!
Into waterfalls land every drop.


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Terabithia


The grief of loss, when death is the cost,
Is soul destroying, when you know they are gone.
We used to cross the water together;
We ran so fast in any weather.
We will have our place, forever and ever
And nothing will replace those memories.


We built a bridge to cross the river.
We created a land called Terabithia
And now I walk here with my sister,
Where once upon a time my love walked with me;
Now I only miss her.


I haven’t cried this hard in ages.
It breaks my heart to turn the pages.
I want to see beyond this end,
But the story has not finished yet.


I cannot talk to her anymore;
Where once we ran through our own world
And now she is gone, the beautiful girl.
The Dragon Flies that kept us safe; they are flying no more.


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Terminator X


A cloud burst into life and rained down acid rain;
The skin peeled from the bodies of those who couldn’t be saved.
The future termination just waiting to send us to our graves,
Means our destiny is already written and we cannot be saved.


So call on Arnie to save or ruin the day,
Here he comes in a rush to redeem or bring rage.
Is he good, is he bad?  Let’s write another sequel,
Because we can’t get enough of this cyborg killing people.


Terminator 1, Sarah Connor is forced to face death head on.
This Terminator X is going to rip somebody’s face off
And Terminator 2 saw Arnie as a Hero,
For John Connor likes Guns ‘n’ Roses, look out here comes a truck.


Terminator 3 the machines are on the rise again,
The future is shown to us; it looks like humans live in pain.
We are obsolete; the robots now rule the entire world.
So let’s rebel and give ‘em Hell, one of Johns acolytes is a hot girl.


So stab your blade shaped arm through a chest
And hope you find the right Sarah Connor.
Dead bodies litter the doorsteps of random nests;
You know he won’t stop until he finds her.


Get Arnie some new clothes to cover his nakedness,
Use nitrogen oxide to put an end to this X-file government,
Conspiracy of robots, they are here to end our lives;
So crush their body and throw this terminator into the fire.


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Thanks for something


Thanks for something.
Thanks for nothing.
Thanks for all those words you said.
Go to bed, you’ve said enough.
You’re all out of luck and I’ve got nothing to say.
Go away!  Have a nice day.
Peace be unto me.


Use the force in May, to make them change their mind, maybe.
Little time left for you; time to be crazy.
I’m not listening, no more a slave to ladies.
Use a noun, not a name, hello Baby.


Left all sad at the end of a phone.
Cut the line to the lies…leave me the Hell alone!
I know you better and more than you would like me to believe,
But babe please, don’t be a tease,
Waving your love at me.
If it ain’t real then it ain’t no-thing.

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That word.


All we can give is one hundred and ten percent,
Or the lack of effort that we all did.
All I have left to give is the emptiness,
Of a future already behind us, so let’s give it a miss.


We are young; we are evermore.
I am the strongest with your hand in my hand.
We believed forever more that we would be pure,
But life changed us into The Devil’s man.


It began with *** and inside my head,
I had all these thoughts that I would confess,
To a woman I loved, if I ever loved any,
But life ain’t like that; lover’s are ten a penny.


They come and go and on with the show.
They say I love you like it is just a word they have heard.
All I can say is the pain that I have known,
When that word has been said to me…my God that word.


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The almost perfect


In an almost perfect world, I met an almost perfect wife.
She was no ordinary girl,
She was a true angel and oh so stunning.
In another time or place she would have been the true Miss Right;
She was light itself, against a mind,
That couldn’t see a way to let the sun in.


If she did not wear a wedding ring,
I would have found one for her finger,
But there was no place for me to wait inside her heart
And I am no adulterous sinner.
I believe in love and marriage and so she can never be my true love,
Because I never truly had it…so good.
I was simply infatuated by her smile and her exquisite beauty,
But now I realise it cannot be, will never be,
But she has truly inspired me.


In an almost perfect world,
I met an almost perfect woman.
On an ordinary day,
My eyes were left simply amazed.
Perfection stood there shining beauty,
My mind was blown away.
This love could be the love of my life,
But it was not to be, unfortunately.
I will have to look for another,
Somehow,
Somewhere,
Someway.


The almost perfect woman,
Was, for me, never meant to be,
But there she was, lifting me up,
Sweeping me off my feet.


She never realised that I was falling;
Falling so deeply into her eyes, oh man!
I was entranced in those eyes; her hypnotic gaze.
I found my way back, when I found out she already had a man.
Already the spell was broken, so I walked away…


Now I am more than ready,
To find a woman of my own, to go steady.
The search goes on, the search continues;
The search for a ring on my hand ensues.


I am waiting in anticipation,
For love to find my heart and see my true passion.
My heart burns for her;
Yearns for her.
The almost perfect girlfriend-girl has ignited my candle
And now I shine for love once more
And I throw away my sandals.


I cannot run to my true love’s arms,
If I am wearing flip-flops;
So with a leap of faith,
I kick the sandals off
And I land in my running shoes.
No more running on the spot;
I’m running home to be with you.


On I go; to where? I don’t know.
All I know is my shop is closed, to all but my everlasting love.
Hold me like I am still falling;
Romantic ideals are tough,
But I know what I want;
The thunder bolt love.


Ignite the flame within our souls;
Do you remember passionate?
Create the page and become whole,
There really is no time left.


If the world was to come to an end
And all of this was gone,
Will you look back and be able to remember
“Friend, you made your mark.”
Or would you not?


Did you once aspire to change a mind,
With thoughts and good intentions?
Or did you just tire with time and fade away?
Never again to be mentioned.


If just one line can change the world,
Then write The Great American Novel.
Spin this planet for boys and for girls,
The future is in need of survival.


Find yourself a like-minded soul;
God gave us all rock ‘n’ roll.
The best place to be is here;
The best time is now.
You will find your way to find love, somehow.


Ignore the negativity of those who do not care.
They were not remembered in their own time;
It’s like they were never there…
I remain true through all the heartache;
We fall in love time and time again along the way.
You may think you are a nobody,
Until you find, with love, you become somebody;
Now nobody could ever forget your heart
And this is a whole new day.


The sun is shining just for you,
So appreciate it while it is there.
The time of crying is over friend,
There are too many people who care;
So you should not feel lonely again,
Just reach out for your free hug.
Love never truly disappears
And neither does the good.


The world is still in motion
And so in tune with your emotions.
Sometimes you may feel cold as ice,
But tomorrow is another day
And people are quite nice.


They will speak of what you say,
If you let them understand,
That we are all so lost, unless,
We are…all together now…it’s a plan.


So go find love and hold their hand;
Walk two by two into the future.
Who knows what is waiting out there for you?
That smile on your face sure does suit ya.


Don’t worry, be happy.
This world really ain’t such a bad place to be.


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The Army Needs You!


I wanna be all I can be,

I wanna be released.

I wanna be all I can be,

I wanna be deceased.


(C)2011 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

The ashes of a phoenix heart


If just once more we could start again,
Then you could find that in me you have always,
Had the kind of person you want me to be;
But at this moment in time, you are unable to see.


Let us fix this fight and once more live one life.
You have your doubts and I guess that is ok,
But you must know that I never lied.
Things are not fine, but give it time
And maybe we could once more rise.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

The Audience


As the curtains begin to close,
I can see no stage light at all.
All my feelings they were never exposed.
I am trapped behind this wall.
Never letting anybody close,
Too much to risk to let them know
And when those curtains finally fall,
I am left a hollow ghost.


I had no effect in my time,
Never to be seen again.
This is all that remains of my life,
The tears that stain the page.


Empty words in an empty mind,
There is nothing, there is nothing, there is…
Inside I am falling into the abyss; all that I wish for…never arrives.
Nightmares are the only dreams I have left,
Since she took away the possibility of my heart ever being kissed.


My screams have no sound in this oblivion.
My voice has no will or volume to turn up, for an audience without her.
She could have given me a state of bliss, a rose tinted kingdom!
Now all I have is loss, all is gone;
I am gravitating down…into the Earth.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

The beginning of the end


This is the end of the beginning
And the beginning of the end...


I have no control over what comes out of my soul
And this poem was desperate to escape.
I try to keep my pain inside, but it hurts so I must let it go.
If only I could still feel something other than the pain;
Then maybe I could passionately write about hate…


I'm trying to build my own future, using my own hands;
But it isn't working without someone else,
To help me become all I can.
I need a divine muse and a Mr. Miyagi;
So this dream of fruition,
Can allow me to become all the things that I could be.


But this is the end of my hopes and dreams.
The dream is over; it has come to an end.
I try to break from the chains of a mind full of ghosts,
But they are real and not just make pretend.


I begin to tell you of my desire to be;
But eventually you will see, that all I can become, is the same old me.
Now is the time, the beginning of the end;
The end is just beginning and continuous…
And there is no release, from this descent.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

The Best Friend Ever


The way I felt for you transcended ***.
That is something you will always be able to get.
But to me that would not have been enough.
It is your soul I am in love with, not just your body.
You can have *** with anyone;
It was babies I wanted you to have with me.


Your kid will be the coolest of them all.
Your body is the most beautiful.
Your face is a masterpiece,
I could happily get lost inside.
Your thoughts are my nourishment.
I take them all inside me and give back commitment.


I pledge my soul, to my true beloved.
There is and has only eva been one love of my life.
How do I know?  Because I didn’t know then.
Only one girl can make me cry,
Simply at the thought of never seeing her again.


I love you.
I am your friend to the peaceful end.
Until death rips me apart,
Or until you break my heart again.
But if that is your intention,
Then I shall die now alone.


Even if Her love for me is gone,
My love for her shall never end.
Friends until death.
I love you my best friend.



(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

The Best Plan Ever


I’m never gonna leave you, I’m never gonna say goodbye,
Because today I had a thought and it changed my mind
And it changed my life
And it changed my mind
And it changed…my…liii-ife.


I’m going to be with you, for the rest of my life.
I just didn’t have the time to work it out before now;
But this new plan of mine is to make you my wife,
Because without your love in my life I will forever feel down.


I like this plan, of loving you forever;
It’s one I’m gonna cling to, it’s a tie I’ll never sever.
I love this plan, of loving you forever;
It’s the best plan ever, it’s the best plan everrrrr!!!.


And it feels like the best plan ever.
The best plan ever,
The best plan ever, this is a bond I’ll never sever.


And it feels like the best plan ever,
The best plan ever,
The best plan ever, this is a bond I’ll never sever.


I’m gonna love you more than you ever thought I could.
I want you to know that with me, anything you could become.
I have a master plan on how we can beat the traps set by love;
We’re gonna stay together longer than anyone ever said we would.


I love you, and I know you love me, my love bomb,
So let’s go show them exactly what our love is like.
It burns so bright that their jealousy can do us no harm.
I’m gonna love you forever, I’m gonna make you my life.


I like this plan of loving you forever.
It’s one I’m gonna cling to; it’s a tie I’ll never sever.
I love this plan of loving you forever;
It’s the best plan ever, it’s the best plan everrrrr!!!.


And it feels like the best plan ever.
The best plan ever,
The best plan ever, this is a bond I’ll never sever.


And it feels like the best plan ever.
The best plan ever,
The best plan ever, this is a bond I’ll never sever.


One last time I must tell you I love you,
Because I know you truly…love meee…tooooooo.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

The Big Day


Something, somewhere, must be alright,
So why is all I see and hear today so wrong?
I was drinking so heavy and hard last night
And I finished the night with a hit from the ****.


What day is it?  Oh yeah, that's right,
It's the most important day of my life.
For today I get married, for the first and last time,
To my beautiful fiancé who has always been at my side.


Who I can show off with pride,
As my beautiful bride,
For the very first time tonight
And for the rest of my life.


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The Big Finale


I spit my lyrics out loud,
To make them hear it so shout:
REACTION!  REACTION!


I wrote this simply for you
So you could all sing it too:
REACTION!  REACTION!


I made it easy to sing,
So just sing along with me:
REACTION!  REACTION!


I wrote this song for you all,
For each of you I adore
REACTION!  REACTION!


I had to write you these words,
And say thanks for letting me hear the
REACTION!  REACTION!


I want you to seize the day
And go and do it your way
REACTION!  REACTION!


So give yourselves an applause
And let me say thank you for your
REACTION!  REACTION!


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

The book that never was


There is a book inside my head;
It feels as if it is one I have already read.
It’s trying to escape,
But I can’t write all the words that are so difficult to say;
There are not enough hours in the day.


I wish I could release them from my mind,
But they will remain trapped until I do what I must.
I hope one day I will be able to find the time,
But for now, you will just have to read my poetry about love.


I just can’t write it all down and remember what has happened;
I guess I’ll never finish it, because I have become distracted.
It has become the book that never was…
I hope you can do what you want to do;
I do what I can do, but it was fun while it lasted.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

The Broken Heart Club.


I came to see you yesterday;
There were drunken degenerates outside your place.
I got nervous, I'm afraid to say;
I'll come back tomorrow and try again.


I had an epiphany, a realisation;
Why must I struggle to come see you?
Why can't we change the situation?
What do you say, shall we live together?
Stay together as one person, forever and ever?


I love you completely, I'm infatuated,
Please tell me you feel the same way,
I don't want to feel deflated.
Let down by you, the one person that shouldn't;
Because our love is eternal, I'd still want you even if I couldn't.


I want to hold you in my arms, knowing you truly love me;
Because I'm obsessed by your beauty and personality.
Head over heels, wearing rose tinted glasses.
We could teach lessons to students, 'The How to Love' classes.


Wedded in white, the ****** bride;
Not in today’s society, they lose it as a child.
Make a promise to each other to stay together;
Until death does us part; or you’re bored of each other.


I'd like you to meet my Wife; oh you met her last week?
Yeah, she was stripping in that club,
She's got a nice pair of (Bleep).
Sorry didn't you know, that your girl is a **?
The boys down the pub have all had a go.


Walk away and I stumble, I need your belief;
You take away my breath, I need an Iron Lung to breathe.
Everyone comes and goes, but no-one really knows.
When you found me, I looked deep inside, at a picture of my soul.
There was a picture of me smiling, I felt good inside;
But the truth will out and now my heart has just died.


You’re getting too close, get out of my bubble,
What is this love thing?  Why does it cause so much trouble?
Your love is a hemorrhage; it's bad to the taste.
I gave you my heart and my soul.  Oh my dear, what a waste.
You threw it in the bin, like it was yesterday’s news;
As you met the man you loved, who would have knew?


I really didn't, I stupidly thought you loved me;
I must really be a loser, for I lost all I need.
You my love, you were the one for me.
But true love?  Now I'm not so sure; I no longer believe.


We were happy once, before all this happened.
You loved me once, before you loved him.
But why did you marry me and then do something like this?
I will always love you dearly;
Yet at the same time know you’re a *****.


(C)2005 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

The choice is yours


There is a little ball of fur playing inside a paper bag
And it chases every ball that it see’s rolling past.
It is learning how to hunt, using stealth and quick reactions;
It is stalking its prey every time it moves and it waits in anticipation.


A piece of string is attached to a ball that is placed before the cat
And every time I pull the piece of string to make the ball move,
The cat leaps into action and suddenly attacks.
But its attention span is short
And soon it loses any interest when nothing moves across the floor.


But I can control the puppet on a string;
Do I mean the ball or the cat?
Or did I just make you read my words,
Simply for my own pleasure, just to amuse.
What do you think about that?


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

The complete truth


I honestly do not care about anything.
Nothing has flavour; nothing matters.
I do not care about a thing.
I could live or die; I don’t mind your disasters.


I could be happy, or I could cry.
It’s not in my eyes, but from my mind.
I could have written a better line,
But tell me please, who has the time?


I could love, but what is the point of that?
I could give someone a hug, but no-one is worthy.  Just stand back.
Do not get too close or the truth will have to be exposed.
I truly don’t hate you, but well, you know.


Apathy for apathy’s sake.
Rip out my heart so I can throw it away.
Punch me hard in my expressionless face.
I do not care if I have a nice day.


It’s not dislike; it’s not like you did anything wrong.
It’s just every single thing in the entire world is gone.
It all means nothing, I do not care.
I don’t want to shame you, when you say cut my hair.
There truly is no point, it really doesn’t matter.
Believe me, I could show up with green teeth, a disease
And my hair all matted, face unclean, with clothes all torn.
They have never been ironed, because I was never taught.


At the end of the day I could get fired
And I wouldn’t have the tiniest bit of sadness for the loss.
I will gladly accept it because I am so bored of liars.
Tomorrow should be something to look forward to,
But it is not.


So empty inside, but I have to smile.
I have to ask how are you, it’s been a while.
I leave no question mark because the answer does not interest me.
For this I no longer have any empathy.


I could explain, but I will not.
You do your own thing and get lost.
All you say is falling on deaf ears.
I am not listening, so do not expect tears.


Maybe I am a psychopath; I have no remorse.
Compassion I lack, how do you feel about that?
I exist inside all these flaws.
Are you answering?  I am mute, step back
And keep on walking in any direction.
I have no desire to make any kind of connection.


If you get too close, you will see on closer inspection,
That there is no lie here to be found, because this is perfection.
The antipathy of a verse of truth,
Written with a clarity of thought absolute.


(C)2019 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

The continuous culture


As none would be, yet still exists,
One who creates a perfect bliss.
So sensational as to be unbelieved;
Yet tales are told as first was seen.


The image there for all to see,
Gave birth to words and epiphanies.
A mind of light and stars and streams.
Connections made and ways believed.


And all upon a head of clouds,
Were seen a million times and how,
All understood the thought as one,
As all never needed a mirage in the sun.


Electric bolts from mind to mind,
Shared all the knowledge of all mankind
And as man all stood on land to view the sky,
Beneath the moon and sun all was clear to the eyes.


At last a chance to see the next footstep in humanity.
A language born a long time ago,
Was able to be used to translate,
And now all into a brighter future can go.

The mind of a hive, a continuous culture.
A change of life; breaking the spell we were under.


(C)2019 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

The creator of love.


Our hero rides again at night.
All dressed in black, still he cannot hide.
The man inside continues to shine.
You all know him, but he remains out of sight.


A reflection in a shop window that disappears as you turn your head.
Maybe he was never there.
Never let a bad word be said,
About his intentions,
There is no need to mention,
The way he moved you to be together.
He is spreading love around hoping your bond will never sever.


Karma is his friend and his only weapon;
He uses good vibrations to correct the mistakes of men.
He lifts a heart with his good intentions;
As he passes by he raises a hand and a smile comes into vision.
He needs no acknowledgement,
For he is content,
Knowing he has helped the two of you to figure it out.


The questions you had, he has put the answers into your head,
With all his whispered do not forgets.
Find love; cast your net,
For there are many fishes in this wild life of a sea,
So go find what you seek and he will do the rest.


He believes in love, so he believes in you;
Begin again with a love that is new.
A love letter arrives, beginning a new love life.
No thank you needed; a total surprise.
The present arrives at the right time,
For the day you forgot to remember to buy.
In your hour of need, send a wish out to him
And your dreams will all come true, he promises.
If you think you are ready to once more commit,
Then so be it; your love is a gift.


When your love is found,
He will float back into his cloud
And look out for the next believers;
You are content and do not need him now.


A lonely single person who is in need of being loved,
Will always find him when they need him,
For he is
The creator of love.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

The death of a lover


Black out the blue sky and lets the stars disappear;
Blot out the sun and bury me under a shadowy mirror.
Leave me with nothing, no-one and no noise;
Silence the drones of freedom of choice.
Freedom of speech?  Just take it and go.
Leave me to bemoan the death of a lover;
For all that is left of her is skin and bones.


Blow the wind through my home and let it all be gone,
Because nothing really matters; all hope is lost.
Cease to touch anything and stop the clocks;
For the bed no longer rocks, so sleep in socks.


Erase everyone from this planet that we call Earth;
Curse me with bad luck and I shall not curse.
Such words are without passion, when I am without her;
God is nowhere to be seen, in these visions of dirt.


Suffer foolishness because reverence is irrelevant;
Send down the condemned, to suffer your punishment.
Demons hold you by the tongue, as you say no more;
Let everybody fall into darkness and leave them to crawl.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.