Here I sit.
This is the end. I'm holding my breath as I'm counting to ten. Cause this is the end. It's dark....everything is dark. There is no light. I can't believe there's no light here. Where is everybody? There's nobody here but me. I don't know whether I'm up or down,here or there. There is nowhere to walk so I'm sitting here well at least I think it's here, although I'm not sure where here is. There's nothing here. I used to be afraid of dying but death......death is better than this.
Lately I've lost myself and I've felt so alone. Sitting in the dark while crazy thoughts run through my mind.....death is becoming and before I was able to stop it but now I just lay back and relax as it comes. If this is the end then I embrace it because I can't bare to keep hiding and faking it. It takes a lot to run away from the darkness because darkness is everywhere. I can no longer see the light....it's no longer bright, I no longer see the sunlight..everyday that goes past I feel like the end is coming closer and closer. All alone, waiting for the end, waiting for death. If this is the end then take me away....another time, another place, another galaxy. I no longer know the difference between here or there. I just know I'm defeated, I'm dying inside, I'm broken.
Here I sit....all alone with nothing but my thoughts, breaking down to nothing, all alone in the dark. Sipping liquor, waiting to pass out, wondering if I'll wake up and finally see a sun rise. Nope nothing but darkness clouds surround my head and I see that this is officially the end.
Just expressing how sometimes life can get the best of you and you can feel like death is your only option but don't let it be the end. Stay and fight