Gold is your soul


The drive there will be boring.
The arrival so momentous!
The disappointing greeters;
The sights not quite as expected.
The smell at times will be rancid.
The art of it all will be lost.
They will say “Welcome to The City of Romance!”
As you sip your hot coffee, whilst you worry about the cost,
Or getting lost…


…as you take in the views you will realise you have been left behind.
Nobody said anything; you were forgotten, not for the first time.
So you rush off to find the tail at the back of the line
And as you return to the flock, unnoticed by all except one,
You will relax once more and at last notice the sunshine…


…the noise of it all will not be music to your ears.
The occasional cliché will ride by unknown to you,
As you are so deeply engrossed in your list of fears,
Of not being what they expect you to be;
Or not enjoying or appreciating what they did;
Or not feeling what they expect you to feel…
What exactly is it this place is meant to make you feel?


Your heart will sink, as you begrudgingly sip your cold coffee drink
And the clouds will arrive overhead.  Merci!
Others will continue to talk,
As you walk hand in hand with your silence,
Through all the streets
And all the halls
And all the endless corridors,
Until you have nothing left…


…as you pass through the musicians like the spirit of winter,
All the accordion’s and violins will call out “Come back!”
Your soul will only paint a black and white photo,
Of a woman alone, in the cold of the night, street lights shining black.
Smoke rising from her cigarette holder and aging her beauty,
Death is called The Taker.
She smiles as The Joker;
She has become The Wrinkler.
Now her make up is running,
Her lipstick has been smeared,
You are staring into the reflection of a puddle,
With frizzy hair all around you,
Wishing just one person,
Somebody!
Anybody!
Was near.


All you will hear are the tears in their voices,
As they whisper their stories; their stories of love,
From beneath the branches of the boulevard of broken dreams.
All you will hear are the peace breaking shouts and screams
And the sound of old cars as their tires screech.
Real people in a real place with their own busy lives to lead.
This is not the Disneyland you imagined;
This is no place you asked to be.
Lost is the face of the love you hoped to meet.
Where do you find your own Rene?


At long last you arrive at the galleries
And further still will ride the disappointment,
As the Mona does not affect you, as they say “It does!”
But it doesn’t.
You think it is nice.  They will say “It is magnifique!”
You don’t think it is…
And you will continue as they speak only ‘their mind’;
Still never speaking, you casually pass on by
And leave Mona to all the tourists.
You are the only purist.


You will not speak your truth because the truth is not heard.
All they hear are ‘their words’.
‘Their words’, without the feeling;
Just ‘their words’, without the hearing,
Which have all been said a thousand times or more before.
There is no more original…
Thought…


But then as you sit there alone eating a beget you brought for lunch,
You will at last find some peace and quiet.
Everyone else will have gone away to discover their own loves;
Their pictures within pictures,
Which they will all duplicate;
So trying.
Second rate, after second rate, after second rate,
But wait!…


…you put your food down, eyes glued to the image ahead.
You will rise to your feet, you will squint your eyes,
Just to be sure; just to be questionless.
But you will still be unable to truly see,
So forwards you will go.
Forwards into the unknown;
Carried along on feet of uncertainty.


Only video eyes watching you forget your phone.
It could have been stolen!
But it rests next to the broken bread.
All concerns have evaporated;
Shot away from your apple head,
For you have seen something nobody else has ever seen,
Within the lines of a Rene Magritte painting
And it is yours.


This moment,
This time,
This feeling has left you agog!
Unable to write anything without consequence in an artificial blog.
Unable to use the What’s-app-messenger-application,
For you have become lost in the spirit of the master craftsman
And the muses in your head are all a-dance!
And chants can be heard, so you pick up your chalk.
Go on take a chance!


So with metamorphosis and the possession of your artistic soul,
You create your own master piece…

…as the silent smiles cast their eyes over its beauty,
You simply say its name is,
‘Gold is your soul.’
It is the perfect reminder of that which you wished to know…

Aren’t you glad you went?
Tell me, what did you see?


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Gone to the grave


How easy it is now for me to see,
How beautiful you and I could be.
If only you could truly trust in me.


I love you.
I swear it from my beaten, broken heart.
I love you.
If you want me I am yours.


My love I give to you and no-one,
Until you give your body to someone.


I love you my love,
Come back and lay with me in bed.
Close your eyes and forget any pain,
You have felt.  I will wash it away.


I wish I could hold your hand until my dying days.
When you can no longer be saved,
As I have gone to my grave.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Goodbye ***** (Reprise)


My sweetest angel, you are all that I need.
The only one to ever truly know me.
The only one to take the time to get inside.
The only one in whom I could confide.


So I'm writing to you to simply tell you
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye.


You broke my heart, when you kissed me goodbye,
And every time I found out, you'd told me a lie
And every day of my life, that you’re not by my side.
I've no more tears left, because I've cried so many times.


So I'm writing to you to simply tell you,
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye.


Thinking about you makes me breakdown and cry.
Thinking about those times, you kissed me goodbye.
I can't go on anymore, I wish I could die!
You took my heart and soul, now inside I've died.


So I'm writing to you to simply tell you,
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye.


I was a kid and you were my girl.
Thought we’d grow up and conquer the world.
Always believed that love conquers all;
Immature feelings between a boy and a girl.


Rushing through the years, never taking the time,
To say the words that I simply couldn't find.
To really make you believe,
That we were worth all the trying
And to simply appreciate,
The beauty in your smile.


So I'm writing to you to simply tell you
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye.


(C)2005 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Good luck


Are you happy today?  I hope that you are.
If you are not then I will wish upon a shooting star
And throw your three coins into the fountain.
I wish you good luck
And if you are all out of luck, then I will wish for you to be in.


If you are in need of love, then please have all of mine.
If you are worried about money,
Then I hope you can find a way to put your mind at ease.
I want you to be peaceful and happy
And if you have something you want to find,
Then I am crossing my fingers and hoping you do find all these things;
I hope you do become all that which you want to be.


With this rabbit’s foot, I am sending you my good luck.
Best wishes;
Maybe you will find what you need, if you take another look.
I would give you the world, if I only could.
I have e-mailed you a letter and it is full of love.


I have told them of your story;
I have told them that you are good.
I will continue to tell everybody how much you mean to me,
If there was only enough time and a way that I could,
I would do anything to help you find your way to being happy.


I would make all your dreams come true,
If only I could my friend.
I would do all I could to make you smile at your life,
Because I want you to feel loved,
So to you all my love I will send.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Good woman


Looking for a good woman;
Been looking for her my whole life through.
Searching for some good lovin’;
This is my search and it leaves me feeling so blue.


Tryin’ to find her, looking everywhere I go.
I’m just looking for a good woman.
Won’t you give me directions to her, if you know?
I’m just looking at the women as they all pass on by.
Waiting on a good woman.
I’ve been waiting my whole life.


I’ve met the most beautiful roses,
And they all wilted away.
I’ve seen the brightest moonbeams,
And they all faded with the passing days.
I’ve woken up next to Goddesses,
And I’ve slept next to ugly hearts.
I’ve wasted too much time on empty dresses.
I’ve broken pieces of me that can’t be cured with stars.


I’m singing songs of lovin’,
But I’m lonely as a bee.
I’m writing poems about love,
But love is a thing I ain’t ever seen.
I’ve seen a thousand imitators,
And I’ve wined and dined a million fakes.
I’ve listened to other people’s stories;
All the lovers and all those I hate.
I could never believe their souls were good for me,
Because all I have ever known is misery.


Still time to find a good woman, they say.
I’ve still got time on my hands, so I pray.
I’ve been sitting on my hands forever.
I hope opposites truly do attract,
Because I am such a stupid man,
And I am still left here waiting for my love-life to get better.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Grace


Grace, can you hear me?
Grace, can you hear me, when I cry?
I tried so hard,
Left my mark on your heart.
I have fallen so far beyond;
What is normal?  What is life?


I just can’t tell you;
I just can’t tell you anymore.
So won’t you tell me, with or without?
Inside or out?
All of my loving words, you say you have never heard before;
You never hear me when I knock on your door.
I need you to see me;
I need you to see me as I fall,
Beyond this world into the abyss of an unanswered call.
Can you see me as I am crawling up this wall?
Can you see me?
How can you hear me, when we don’t talk?


I talk to your ears only.
I whisper to you softly,
I am here; do you still need me?
Do you still see me?
Do you still see me break?
Do you still see me, or am I just another empty face?
A ghost of love,
A hand to touch;
When all is dark inside my life, I want to see you.
I want to see you for what you are;
You are my hopeless love.
A truth so real it leaves me, touched.


I really hear you;
I really need to see you smile,
But you can’t hear me or see me,
Walking away as I leave you behind,
To words of numbers never dialed.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Grand theft auto


Key in the ignition, let’s begin.
Foot on the pedal, it’s not stealing,
Just borrowing, for an hour or two.
Doing ninety now, no sign of lights of blue.


Music blaring without a care.
Who said peer pressure isn’t fun?
Each of us daring to go out there;
No fear of crashing because we are young.


Still learning to lose control.
Shackles released; let’s see how fast we can go.
Flew past a ton in the blink of an eye.
Touching the sky in our under the influence minds.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Grey


This place is my wasteland of fear.
There is nothing for me here.
Out there, there is a whole new world to discover.
A whole new land which is at the moment undercover.
Remove the covering, begin discovering,
A whole new home in a place where I believed there was none.
Am I not too far gone?


In here I am polluted by the gaseous air.
Here is where the nothingness grows.
Day by day and night by night I want to be out there,
Instead I am trapped in-between, in limbo.


There is nothing to see when I close my eyes.
I have nothing to say, because all is grey skies.
No artist could make this a place of beauty.
I broke my crown and now I await,
The day of my destiny.


(C)2019 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Groan (up)


Age is a shame when it comes to love.
It reaches a point where you just give up,
But the heart’s desire keeps setting on fire,
Every time you meet someone who lifts you higher.


I’m feeling too old to love her or flirt.
She desires another and I am left to hurt.
My heart wants to love whilst she just wants fun.
I wish I could, once more be young.


I want marriage.  She wants to party.
I’ve had enough, while she’s just getting started.
I could be right for her as she is wrong for me.
She is so beautiful.  She is my need.


I have to move on, be gone!  I’m no fun.
A setting sun remembers being young.
My thoughts haven’t changed,
Still wanting the same.
Marriage is the way,
But not today.


(C)2020 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Guitars in the Night


There is a place I have not been,
I go there each night in all of my dreams.
The fictional world of fantasy.
I think it’s a result of a life that has been lived
And a worldwide vision called the T.V.


I woke up this morning after another dream;
I was late for work in my mind and the panic awoke me.
I looked at the clock it said 45 minutes past three,
So I closed my eyes and went back to sleep.


I hum the tune inside my mind,
I can’t see the meaning; it doesn’t mean that I’m blind.
All I can hear are the words with meaning;
Something personal, just for me.


All we want is you by our side;
All we hear are guitars in the night.
All night long I’ve been singing this song;
I don’t know the words, but I sing along.


All I hear are the thoughts I am thinking;
I can pass the time in a blink of the eye.
Now I know what I must say,
To make you understand my mind.


I’ve got my feet firmly on the ground
And my head is in the clouds.
I’m a full time dreamer,
Who is full of self-doubt.


(C)2011 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Half-love


I am already halfway to loving you.
Halfway to the sky, you give me angel wings,
As when I see you I am floating on air.
I’m already halfway to loving you.


Say what you mean, it’s all music to me,
In the words that you speak, I hear poetry.
Forever I am falling deeper into you.
I would go to Timbuktu, if you needed me to.
For you, I would do.


Procrastination will no longer have its arms around me.
Apathy will no longer be my love.
Sadness will no longer allow me to share a house with misery.
You could become my life, as with you, I could be loved.


Love changes everything for me.
This time I hope the result will be different.
Surely it has to be…eventually.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Handbags at dawn


A man in the middle of Handbags at dawn.
Two lovers for one heart.  This is war.
A mighty showdown; a choice is needed.
One man, one love; never being greedy.


People don’t worship love anymore.
It’s just a thing they do.  Forget about being faithful.
It’s so much easier to do what you want.
Consequences don’t happen, just have fun.


Standing face to face, eye to eye.
Fighting for love.  Crocodiles don’t cry.
Learn the pattern, then anything can happen.
Love means nothing, truth only saddens.


Another body is all that matters baby.
Sleep with two until one is unhappy.
There are no rules; promises are made to be broken.
Sleep with convenience.  Lies are easily spoken.


Have an argument to get rid of one.
Then find the other one when they are gone.
When you have used them, say goodbye,
Then find the other one and apologize.


Demand privacy when it comes to your phone,
So you can hide when the other one calls.
Tell them you want a night out alone,
To stop the fights…hand bags at dawn.


(C)2019 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Happy feet walk away.


Instinct tells you that you are right.
Doubts cast aside.
Do, or do not try.


If you can, then why not love?
If you have already given up,
Or never believed anyway,
Then that is okay.
Good luck.


You and I are not the same;
We read a similar script, but we are on a different page.
With age comes meaning, enlightenment.
Money is there to be spent.


If you are saving for a rainy day;
Welcome to England…save away.
Young people; go enjoy your life.
Old people do not listen to change.


People my age, congratulations!
You think you have it so great!
You think you know so much.
I know that I know nothing about love.  You trust,
People to never be trustworthy.
I trust enough for love to hurt me.
Happy feet are only ever seen,
Walking away from me.


I am at a point in my existence,
Where I do not have the time for your idle pretense.
Just say it clearly, what do you want?
Time is short, so fall in love and need to be loved!...

Or simply get to being gone.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Hard-Bitten


The gun is on the pulse, pull the trigger or live.
Truth or false is not a choice they are willing to give.
It’s you versus us, versus the things that they did.
Do you believe and trust or never forgive?


They claim to be our protection,
But are unwilling to allow closer inspection,
For they have no reflection as they sold their souls.
The ‘God’s’ teach us genuflection,
Because their badge is misinformation,
And their prison plantations are only built for gold.


A man is never born free,
There is always a price that must be paid;
And from your very first day to the day with the *****,
You are made to work, digging your own grave.
One day at a time, there is a game that must be played.


Choice is not a thing we choose without regret.
Do we get out of bed or put a bullet in our head?
With life’s hands ‘round your neck, I’d say the choice is made,
So put a smile on your face and just hope for the best.


It’s a pretty world if your mind is blind.
It’s a lucky life if you are not kind.
It’s a ******* good day; a good day to die.
It’s a choice we made when we chose to no longer cry.


(C)2020 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Head against a brick wall.


Mobile phones are like listening to a headache;
Women are obsessed, with a need to be fake.
What's going on, for ***** sake?
Go o'naturel; let me see your real face.


Show me you, not what you wish me to see.
Don't let your inhibitions, stop you being free.
I'm always here for you, if you ever need me;
But I'll never walk away, unless you ask me to leave.


I'll stand by your side, in the pouring rain
And I'll give you my coat, to keep you warm.
I don't mind being wet, if you’re happy and safe
And as long as you know, that I am all yours.


What can I do, to keep you with me?
Why must I let go, when I know you will leave?
How can you simply, walk out on me?
How can you not know that's it's you whom I need?


I just keep losing my mojo, somebody’s stolen my muse.
I left it in my pocket, now it's not there with you.
You took it as you left me, laying crying on the floor;
I ran after you, but in my face you slammed the door.
I lost a tooth and found a black eye
And the nurses never believed that I walked into a door.
That's because our love for each other, they never saw.


But please don't leave me, here all alone;
Don't let me be the one, who has to stare at his phone.
Awaiting your call, that will never come.
Say you still want me and need me and show me some love.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Head down


I'm still walking.  I'm still talking.
I'm still trying to find a way for this life to mean something.
I got no direction…just using self-reflection.
Trying to find a way to see me under closer inspection.


I wanna be in love, but no one loves me and they never could.
I could have wrote a book, but that's another story.
Just advice from a reflection in a mirror that I never took.


I could have reached high, but I just passed on by.
Now I'm another Mr. Nobody who spends his time staring at the sky.
I could have made it, if I just tried to;
But there’s no way I'm ever gonna be safe with you.


So I still walk alone; no interest in my phone.
Just use it to write rhymes that don’t ever matter,
While I'm walking home alone.


I got no lover. I got no life, besides,
I couldn't ever try to make it to the other side.
Just staying in this hole; the only place I know.
It keeps my feelings safe, when I just bury them deep in my soul.



(C)2020 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Headlights


I’m heading home now to see my Wife;
I’m gonna kiss her and hold her tight;
Because I think she is so wonderful;
My love I love you.
You are so beautiful.


Driving home on a winter’s night.
All I’m seeing are those **** headlights.
Those blinding lights, those bright, bright lights.
Those killer lights, have taken my life.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

He-art


Iron heart; cage no free thinker.
Iron maiden has never gone away.
Question everything; search forever deeper.
In the end we are all looking to find away.


Plastic heart; turn the vinyl record on.
Croaking voices, broken strings; leave us…
Stone heart; there will never be a final setting sun.
Today is forever, so continue to speak of love.


Glass heart; shatter my tears against your kiss.
I am see through when it comes to loving you.
Scratch your nails down my back; give all you have to give.
I want to slide into your mind; clearly this is my truth.
Fire heart; all I can give you is my undying passion.
This love is too hot to lack compassion.


Wooden heart; I want to be a real boy.
Walk with sandals (full of holes); the last straw on a camel’s back.
I am pining for the fjords, before I am destroyed,
By the inferno of lies they tell; forever to remain…forever sad.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Heart-Shaped Needle


The female form is perfect,
So why get a tattoo on your heart?
If you need to cover it up with art,
Then that is your wrong choice;
But now I am so far away from using my voice,
When in all other circumstances,
You and I would be dancers.


Waist could have been in arm, both totally naked,
Looking into each other’s eyes, never wanting to look away.
Now your eyes only see me walking away, I’m saying “**** it!”
‘tis such a shame that I cannot stay
And ask you out, because without doubt,
I could fall in love with you in all other realities,
But not in this one,
Because you want to get a new tattoo done.
So I am gone, lost in your painted sun.
I wish I could see past it,
But you and I are not the right fit.


If only I liked it, then we could unite,
But I have my own life and I live my own mind
And it tells me “no.”, keep on walking;
Go and watch the next show,
For she is in need of a pin cushion, jigsaw man, painted blue,
So you will never greet her ****
And say how do?
Even though she is so **** cute!


You only meet eighty percent of what you wanted,
So all is lost to nearly,
When she could have been the perfect fit.
Kama Sutra,
It sure was nice to meet ya.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Heavenly beings.


Eternal in Heaven.
The day is warm, but the air is cool,
As I sit here watching an angel, who is sat upon a toadstool.
She plays the harp and whispers a song
And all around, children and their families are sat listening in silence.
They are loved; each and every one.


She is beauty in this place of peace;
Her blonde hair gently blows in the breeze.
Blue butterflies hover all around her.
The sun is shining on us all as she plays her harp
And softly she sings her words into the air.


Tiny gnomes march past and the children glance up and smile,
At the unicorn that accompanies the gnomes, as they walk on by.
They are heading off to see God and the angels inside;
While we sit here on the outside, in the morning light.


I decide to go with them and leave the music behind;
I have a job to do, so I must do it, but I can do it in my own time.
You see, I am a poet and this allows me to be free,
Of those things which hold other people trapped;
Those things like obligations and duty.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Heavy Feather


Life is on top of me, eating my soul.
Whatever happened to all the hope?
People come and people go.
Why am I unable to just say no?


I am weak in a world of warriors.
Feeble mind, broken pieces of truth.
All life has done is make me a worrier.
All this pain is nothing new.


From the darkness comes a hope.
She is light inside a shadow.
I run to love with all I know.
Still haven’t learned; soon saying “Ow!”


Heavy Feather weighing me down under water.
Subconsciously I am falling apart.
Make me a bird so I can fly back further,
Before all of this when I had a heart.


Before I decided to put on the bird suit,
I had dignity and a body of my own,
But lately all I do is try to soothe,
The flesh burned skin-suit I call a home.


(C)2020 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Heavy Metal Sunshine.


My Heavy Metal Sun shines alight,
Up above me in the morning light.
Tequila sunrise, burns my eyes;
Another wonderful day to wake up in paradise.


My beautiful bride captures my heart,
As she shimmers in the Heavy Metal Sun’s rays.
Her beautiful mind shines as bright as the son;
In the darkness, the sun lights up her face.


Her dress of the night, so soft to the touch,
Gently blows with the breeze of the morning’s air.
She opens the curtains and welcomes the sun,
Then turns to me and smiles, as the light seeks everywhere!


The dark angel of the night, has clearly arisen,
An angel of the light, now released from her prison.
The sad woman has gone, to be replaced with a smile;
She floats out of the glass door, to go and swim for a while.


So I bring down some drinks,
To watch the water discover my love.
Then I lay in the sunshine
And thank you all for my Heavy Metal Sun.

(C)2011 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Here


I will be with you through blood sweat and tears.
I will stick to you like note paper for years and years.
When you need someone to listen to, I will be all ears.
When the end comes and I fade away,
I will never truly leave your side; I will never disappear.


(C)2019 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Here I am


I am a stone and I am crashing through my own window;
Where I will end up, nobody knows.
I am sure to never become a sure thing;
I doubt I will ever find a path to leave you to your wondering's.


As I scream through the air like a banshee at night,
My words fall apart in front of your eyes.
I know a fool when I see one in the mirror;
My vision of love has become so unclear.
Next to you but without you, I stand here all alone.
Sit peacefully with me in these times of madness,
So when I fall I can hold my clone.


I have no ready-made rhymes written within my mind,
But still I drag these lines from deep down inside.
Just broken thoughts, on broken lines;
Broken hearts see all the signs.
A broken clock, my heart it dies;
Only twice in a lifetime will it tell the right time.


Until we are forever herein and going there,
We are always nothing, forever nowhere.
Nothing and no-one;
No-one, so gone.
I was loved once; will there be time for another someone?


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Here is the enlightenment you are searching for.


Enlightenment is a continuous journey of discovery,
Taken by all people willingly or otherwise.

The amount of time dedicated to enlightenment,
Shows the value of the enlightenment one has gained.

Once you have discovered enlightenment,
You shall discover that it is a continuous journey of discovery,
For the rest of your life and into eternity.

Forever more becoming more enlightened.
Forever searching for further enlightenment.

Ergo – you are never fully enlightened…
But you shall forever find enlightenment.


(C)2011 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Her heart


There she goes into my words without prose.
I cannot continually write about my sweet dream-rose,
Who will never know,
How I feel about her.
My missing words all a blur.
Hidden beneath my fears, so never heard, so hard to speak,
Of needful things, because I have no belief in me, to believe in.


I am not the important one;
She is yet to hear my song bird singing only for her.
Her songs, the endless rivers hum;
I never braved the rejection of what I truly want.
Love is all I want from her, but she is fading from view,
Because of my lack of nerves.
No bottle, just desire,
Walking away alone, never to return.


A single entity to be passionate about
And I can never let my words out,
Because all I think is never said aloud.
I would if I could, but I don’t know how.


The words of romance are unknown to me;
The words of love are a mystery.
The right thing to say is all that I need,
But my foot in my mouth ruins everything.


I cannot hope because nothing is good.
I cannot stop thinking; I wish that I could,
But still I have fire running through my blood,
So passionate about her, but so stuck in the mud,
That is my mind; it has no sign, of ever showing me,
How to become the person I am on the inside.


Everyone has opinions of my image.
Nobody can see what I imagine in my mind.
Everyone thinks I don’t try to improve my finish,
But this is the only ending that I can write…

Because I never will win her heart.


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Her viper eyes.


Our landscapes always change with age;
As we lose ourselves, we find our true way
And once again we rise, rocketing into the highest skies.
I walk alone to fly and all else disappears over the horizon…
I am my own meteorite.


As I walk these streets, I see no people I want to see,
Because they are no part of me; they are a mystery.
But she is a stranger to meet; so far away from me.
She glides in her own way and I can only stay,
Behind this glass, I hide; I have no guardian at my side.
A million feelings I can feel, but I will not kneel to cry.


She just passes on by, without me in her sights;
Not even on her mind, so how can she become mine?
I can never truly look deep into her eyes,
Because I lie, my eyes lie, so I think she is a lie.
Another ship in the night, another treasure hunt,
So soon she has faded into the darkness and I am but a no-one.


I cannot be honest this day, because I have no complaint
And she would only ever leave, if I ever asked her to stay.
So I will hold my tongue, because of her viper eyes.
No words can be spoken that would sound nice…
I am only alone again because of my damaged pride.


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History Repeats Itself


America is the same as Britain:
Not enough good and too much bad.


I think we should actually listen to The United Nations,
If we really want peace in our time.
Do what thou wilst, for we are clearly ignorant,
To anything except The Law of Lies.


The laws of life?  
The Law of the Jungle is our only Bible in this time.
It’s a shame we didn’t think of the cost,
Before we committed the crime.


Our life time is just the same as the others:


History repeats itself!
History repeats itself!
History repeats itself!  
Revelation!  Discovery!
Go ahead and preach your own story.


If you ask me which faith you should follow,
I’ll simply give you a different answer, today and tomorrow.
For if you realize, what I have discovered,
Then you shall maybe have your own thoughts
And use your knowledge for guidance.


Have you own thoughts,
Understand what they thought they taught.
Then make yourself happy, by making them happy
And leave the pain to someone else.


The United Nations are the good guys;
They will save our world.
The USA and the UK
Cannot even see past their own borders.
If every other nation in the world joined the UN.
Would Britain and the USA say you’re all wrong…again?


(C)2011 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Holding on


I’m trying to move in with you,
You’re breaking my heart.
I’m holding onto you for dear life,
While your tearing us apart.


All I ever wanted was the woman in the dress.
All I ever wanted was your soul.
This my love I do confess;
Hold me close and never let me go.


I have found enlightenment; I have seen her grace,
You may never understand, but I have found my place.


I’m sorry I’m not the one,
That you can depend upon.
But once upon a time I was you’re shining sun.
Now I’m nothing at all,
Except gone.


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Hollow


I am hollow inside; I am a hollow toy.
I am hollow, I am hollow; I am a hollow boy.
My insides have been destroyed when my love life was broken.
I have no feelings left inside me; I showed them all to you
And you left my heart on a pyre quietly smoking.


I am haunted by your look;
I am lost inside your thoughts.
I am hollow, I am a ghost;
I am the memory of love turned to dust.


Hollow dreams of changing the future;
All we have left is a hope to lose.
All my life I have been surrounded by vultures;
Now I can’t have love, what do I have left to choose?


There is nothing left to lose,
When there is nothing left to love.
So give me something to make me feel better;
Any kind of drug.


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Hollowed bones.


Give up on drugs and fail to love.
Live life unknown and do not trust.
Break up and cry.  Suicide.
Fall apart behind their lies.


Have apathy for you and me;
I live to die, keep your empathy.
My lack of faith is a disease;
I fail to believe in anything.


So hate them all and break apart.
Tear out each other’s broken hearts.
No light in Hell and no new start.
We suffer eternal agony, so let’s depart.


No Queen or King; no money for things.
No saints, just sin; no longer sing.
No love of hate can survive inside me,
Because I have learned to accept my every disease.


So pity me; forgive me please,
For I can no longer stand this world of sin.
I cry at you all because you’re nothing like me;
So tear away my skin, because I feel everything.


Leave my hollow bones a scattered skeleton relic;
For gone is my hope and faith.  Call a medic.
Relish the reason for life instead of reality;
For I no longer want to live the destiny of a tragedy.


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Home for the holidays


Welcome home, to the place you have never wanted to be.
The place you have never felt at home.
No longer the only place you have ever known;
Now you have somewhere else that you can go.


Oh, just smile; the past arguments are just forgotten memories.
The times of change are already here
And this is the place where we all want you to be.


Please don’t leave; we all know it has already been too long.
Surely it is time for us all to just move on.
Those arguments can never be won.
If one side loses, we all lose.  
How can that be fun?


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Homeless.


A red sunset on a nice warm beach;
A place to call my own, to get some self-respect.
A job in an office with a decent wage;
Two point four children and a couple of pets.
A wife to lay beside me, till the day that I die;
These are the dreams I have and they help me survive.


Life on the streets isn't peaches and cream;
It's the hardest way of living, so just make a change.
You may lose all your hope, but never lose your dreams;
Because you know in your heart, things can't stay the same.


It's all downhill from here, if you don't sort things out;
You’re going to die real soon my friend, if you don't get a house.
A place to call home, a place to lay your hat;
These are the things that you dream about.
You'd make it in life, if someone helped you find home;
But you have got to help yourself and I think you know that.


Life on the streets isn't peaches and cream;
It's the hardest way of living, so just make a change.
You may lose all your hope, but never lose your dreams;
Because you know in your heart, things can't stay the same.


Hold onto your dreams, for one day they may come true;
You might make it in life and get all you deserve.
Or you could give up on life and just throw in the towel;
You must think about yourself and decide what you’re worth.


Is life worth hanging onto?  Or will you roll over and die?
You won't feel any more pain and you'll no longer cry.
But you'll never see them smile, when you make it in life;
You will never have a family and you will never have a wife.


Life on the streets isn't peaches and cream;
It's the hardest way of living, so just make a change.
You may lose all your hope, but never lose your dreams;
Because you know in your heart, things can't stay the same.


When you dreamt about that beach, with the red sunset;
Did you really want those things?  Or did you lie to yourself?
Because if you want them there they are;
Just go right ahead and get them;
Or give up on life my friend and you we can forget.


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Honesty


Tell me your truths and I shall say I pass no judgment,
But we both know, I will feel something.
Ask me a question and I will answer it honestly.
If I am capable and you are faithful,
You can trust what I say to thee.


Turn on the light so you can see I’m not lying.
Turn off the light if you have faith in me.
Whisper your truths so no-one can overhear them;
Maybe you can find a little relief,
To get your burdens off your chest.
A problem halved can only aid its solution findings.
Listen to my truths carefully my friend.
I must speak them in two tones,
Hoping you are no longer blind.


Kiss my lips so you can feel my honesty;
Love me and speak of it, so you and I can become we.
Sleep next to me; I hope you feel safe beside me.
I close my eyes content; in you I truly believe.


Dream all you wish for
And one day they may come true.
My dreams are simple,
You and I, love, happy with you.
I hope you see reminders
Of our time together,
For if you do and you are happy,
It means we made it, we never severed.
We never had to cut the umbilical cord.
We help each other live our two lives in one world.


Who will lead and who will follow?
We can find out tomorrow.
At the moment we are content,
So we have no need to chase hollow,
Dreams of more, cravings, lusts.
At the moment we are not unhappy.
Let’s embrace this moment,
For right now we are us.


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How do you feel about me?


Your eyes, your smile, the way you move,
The way you glide through all my thoughts,
Returning to thoughts of you and I ****;
But I am not being ******,
I am simply wanting and needing an answer,
Because I think I think about you too much,
Before we even mention the love stuff,
Because I am very much in love,
But I cannot say that yet, until we touch,
But you have a grip on my soul,
I’ve got nowhere else I need to go;
Being stuck here with you is all that I need,
So please tell me please,
How do you feel about me?


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

How do you write a love song?


How am I meant to write a love song,
When I cannot find love?  
Surely this situation is wrong.
I need a bird to give me a buzz.


Can you help me to find the love that I am always looking for?
How can I begin to woo you,
When you leave me speechless, so I can’t even talk?


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How I tamed the tiger


How I tamed the tiger that burns inside of me.
It was not a conscience quest to change,
Life just ripped it out for all to see.
I have only emptiness inside my chest
And all that is left to wait for is death.
This is my only recognizable form,
For human being has never been my norm.


I just don’t understand people.
I only know of loss and evil.
Those who claim to love, but don’t.
I could fall in love, but only if I helped them cheat and ignored my soul;
So I won’t.


Alone I remain, wishing for flames,
To once more spark inside my heart,
But the ignition switch is broken, like my art.
All is dark where light should be;
There is a tiny light which exists inside of me.


I cannot laugh at comedy, because I am so tragic.
I no longer believe in cupid’s magic.
I only believe in the inevitability of the end;
Happiness stolen by ex-girlfriends.
Take one soul, have an affair,
Repeat process without a care.

Love is stood over there,
And I am silent, unmoving, uncaring, and she is unaware.


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How to say goodbye.


Days pass by with no love in sight,
But throughout the sighs, I see a Wife.
My Wife, not yours;
You are safe from my charisma.
I believe in a true love;
You can keep your amoeba.


Through the spirits of time,
I have had conversations with past lives,
And all day long, I write the same lines.
Every page contains love or death,
Truth or lie, but still I cannot hide.


In days of yore, I spared a thought,
To what she would think, if she read my ink,
But now I hold no remorse; no love; no more,
For she has disappeared away from my world.


This day is at an ending;
I am through with all pretending.
Sarah speaks through her verses…never lending.


I ask nothing of you,
For I am no longer your true.
There is only time for one last sigh;
No time for a final line to say goodbye.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

How to write a bad poem.


Use words that simply rhyme like time and dime,,,
And line after line after line repeat the same line
Repeat your sentences to repeat your point
Without a true interpreter then what is the point!!!


I put no thought into lines without care.
I do not care if tHisss is spelled correctly; I do not care.
I do not care if you even care;
Without love and despair, poets will go nowhere.


Annoy the reader, reader, reader, reader, send them to sleep;
Speak only about other people’s cliché’s and ideals…and sheep.
Say line after line without thinking to read,
Judge someone for their mistakes.  Never be truthful and never free.


Never let the words fall onto the page, without feeling;
Never bother to read other poetry and never bother to try reading.
Never speak from the soul, without any kind of meaning.
This is the poem I do not care about…it’s time I was leaving.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

I am an idiot.


Still we are searching for a light in the dark.
Forward we march and still we have no knowledge of who we are.
Higher we climb towards shooting stars;
We are lost without guidance
And evolution is one step for mankind too far.


Stuck in reverse; heading nowhere fast.
Take a step back, to take another look at what we had.
A thing that was never truly seen,
But imagined and so soon it was in the past.


So we keep on going in the wrong direction.
Blind to all future wisdom; lost without a kingdom.
No place to place my heart at your feet, for a home I lack
And I have no crown that is not broken, that I can use for a hat.


A false self-bestowed title of King I placed upon myself.
A lie about a man who lives in his own personal Hell.
A wish to be more; but impossible without your help.
A maze inside a garden is no place for the mind to dwell.


But stuck in a rut is my normality;
So tragic to see that you just can’t see me
And nobody can hear the words that I need to speak,
Because I am forever unknown to you
And that is the way it will always be.


Forget me not’s in your rose scented garden.
Remembering a voice; remember to share your wisdom.
For all are in need of your message of hope,
Because we lack any belief in anything and so,
We meander through your mind, splashing in every puddle.
A whispering wisp never before seen is showing you your double.
A reflection of your fate in the water; there is a presence.
We are now only a memory, for you are royalty
And I am simply a simple peasant.


No resentment on either side, but still no will to confide
And so inside a lie we hide the truth you wish you could find.
But we are not sharing, because you could never understand.
The words of a wanderer, who wonders;
Why are you not using the power within your hands?


Free me from my burden which I carry inside my head
And just let me forget you and the possibilities;
So I can just become oblivious.
I have a need to unload these words I have said,
But you refuse to listen; you will not take them,
Because you are a mystery to me
And we are the idiots.


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