Digging my own grave with only the handle of a shovel That's the level of commitment that I bring But I should tell you this one thing That also means I have lost the battle Probably because I could never gain control Up such and such creek with no paddle No shanty to sing Mistakenly trusted an Icarus wing But that was years ago I've been stuck in the flow For what seems like a couple hundred years or so Combating my own soul Laughing and mocking The relentlessness is life altering Landing a career ending swing Not declaring but taking it personal And I think I just realized I'll have nothing to show No, That's impossible Win or lose I present as a broken man not worth repairing And hey, That's still something
One may have to sacrifice a lot just to gain only little and what this will demand would be a big committal. But when one sacrifices a little and happens to gain a lot it could be a very fortunate life which that person has got. _____
From 'The Quatrains' ongoing writings since the early 90's.
Help me- I am so sorry, for all the nights you spent in the dark. they were nights where I needed the pain and fear to stop- And you would do Everything you knew Just trying to make me alright. " No one Deserves my world quite like you do" I heard that in a song once. Now knowing you, silently, I Understand.
Every night I am here In this quiet darkness, Reaching out for you.
And you move into me Like water Like moonlight Like gentle things that never force Or abuse.
How strong and beautiful Is your love for me, As if I have never been used, Like fire to the wreckage I have been through, Steadily erasing these wounds Like new meadows Across decimated bones; The scorched forests of My soul.
We are building something lush And beautiful, With the strength of red woods and The eternity of the sea,
Something as real as our children's Laughter echoing across the sands Of this sun-soaked beach.
There is nothing but hope As far as I can see And your brave vulnerability; Your unfaltering belief in me And all that I am, and was, And could be.
Wesley, I will love you forever and I Will hold your heart in my hands, And I will hold you together
In the same way That you hold me Like the rarest treasure.