I know just where I'm going
And what I have to do
I’ve looked into alternatives
And discovered what is true.

I've got my mind made up
I'm in possession of the facts
I recognize the pitfalls
And how confusion acts.

There is a higher road
And I am going to take it.
I am going to change my course
And I am not going to fake it.
I’m going to speak my mind
If I am ever really asked.
I will tell the honest truth
That will train me for the task.

It took a very long time
For me to get myself here.
I had to stiffen my resolve
And face up to my fears.

I had to choose between
Pretty lies and hard reality.
I had to let illusion go;
Let truth be the best for me.

I’ll take the higher road
And I am going to take it.
I now have changed my course
And I refuse to fake it.
I’ll welcome those people
Who love me who I have become.
I will tell the honest truth
Let that be my rule of thumb.

Alice Jul 13

It's not the moon's influence that dictates the course of the ocean's fleeting tides, but it's persuasion. 

The moon's light shines wholesome promises and tender manipulation onto the water.

What use would words have, with such power in her gentle gaze, her glowing eye?

The tides oblige.

The ocean speaks back in hushed whisper, as it commands the movement she silently requests.

It whispers obedience and fear, knowing one wrong move and she may leave forever. 

The tides will always oblige.

I play hide & seek with my daughter,
It's my turn to seek her this time,
Sankshaya, my girl, blindfolds me.

As she is scurrying away from me,
It's only her tiny footsteps I hear,
I follow her sounds and follow her.

And suddenly she screams in pain,
I remove my blindfold instantly,
It's imperative to instantly help her.

I see her writhing on the floor in pain,
It's a nightmare for me when I see,
See her dropped down onto the floor.

I take her to the hospital immediately,
I answer as they ask about my wife,
"She had died battling cancer."

"I am so sorry, don't mind it please,
We will take care of your daughter,"

The doctor assured me so very kindly.

Sometime later,
Coming out of the emergency room,
The doctor says with a serious face,
"We have performed some tests."

These tests are always so very evil,
I enquire that doctor cautiously,
"When the results'll be here?"

"Soon, within the time of a week,"
The doctor said very calmly,
I didn't get more scared.

A week later,
I was holding the report,
A tear rolled down my cheek,
The patient has eye cancer.

All hell had broke loose on me!
Inherit it she did from her mom,
The daughter carries the oncogene.

The doctors had it tailor made,
That suggestion to such patients,
Remove the eyes as cancer spreads.

I cautiously confess the truth,
Sankshaya smiles her Angel smile,
'Let's play hide & seek one last time.'

Truth hurts, I know it since long,
But this is the limit!
WHY DID YOU CREATE CANCER?

I just weep silently,
With a resentful heart,
Clutching my daughter.

My HP Poem #1610
©Atul Kaushal
Benji James Jun 29

Lyrics just aren't hitting
Like they should
Everything I've been doing
Just hasn't been that good
I'm losing faith
Too busy chasing girls
Putting dreams in the fire to burn
Why I try and find love only to get burned
When will I ever learn
I should put these dreams first
Just keep letting lines fly out the window
Like I'll remember that even though I don't
Thought I was killing it
Truth is no ones feeling this
And I've lost the connection
I once had, feel disconnected
It's all going bad

This is all I've ever wanted
And I keep on letting it go
Took my eye off the ball
And now I'm letting myself down
Keep trying to figure my life out
And I keep on falling into the same old traps
And when everything felt right
It just collapsed

I'm losing every line
That was in my mind
Thought everything I wanted
Was in my sight
Now I see that it's not
I've got work to do
Finally feel like I've got something to prove

Not gonna let another line
Just slip through the cracks
I want them to take notice
I want them to see the flame is still there
See I'm still striving for greatness
Come to far to turn back now
And if they don't take notice that's alright
I'll find something that will capture the mind
I have and I can
Sometimes I wonder if anyone understands
The things I'm going through
And the proof is in the words
that I write
This is the story of my life
Within the lines that I write
If you want to know me
It's right in front of your eyes
Always throwing my heart out on the line

This is all I've ever wanted
And I keep on letting it go
Took my eye off the ball
And now I'm letting myself down
Keep trying to figure my life out
And I keep on falling into the same old traps
And when everything felt right
It just collapsed

I'm losing every line
That was in my mind
Thought everything I wanted
Was in my sight
Now I see that it's not
I've got work to do
Finally feel like I've got something to prove

It's in these songs
That's where I belong
It's in the sentences
My emotions lie
It's in the way I write
It brings out the thoughts of my mind
It's the power it brings
It's the inspiration it gives
That makes it so special to me
It's the way it can change somebodies life
It's the way it always changes mine
It's the way it can make me see things in a positive light
The time it's always been mine
I'm grasping on, yeah ready to fly
Aim high, will you come along with me for the ride

This is all I've ever wanted
And I keep on letting it go
Took my eye off the ball
And now I'm letting myself down
Keep trying to figure my life out
And I keep on falling into the same old traps
And when everything felt right
It just collapsed

I'm losing every line
That was in my mind
Thought everything I wanted
Was in my sight
Now I see that it's not
I've got work to do
Finally feel like I've got something to prove

©2017 Written By Benji James

Benji James Jun 19

There's a lot of illustration left in these pages
The confessions I confess have become contagious
Here's a little more of my story untold
We all wait patiently for it to all unfold
I was the one left out in the cold
Don't like my lyrics find somebody else,
To pull off of your reading shelf.

©2017 Written By Benji James

Benji James Jun 11

Ever lose that spark inside
A light slowly dies
Like a candle fading in the wind
And you've felt the sting
From love, you thought
You had found the one
And you're running
through the memories
Within your mind
You know you'll find
that healing with time

Looking around
Nobody to the left
Nobody to the right
Got no one to hold my hand
In sight
Can't turn back
I've been down that road
There's only one way
I've got to move forward

One foot placed
In front of the other
Baby steps
You can make it
My conscience keeps saying
Step by step
I'm gonna get there
Step by step
You'll see new faces
Step by step
You'll discover new places
You can make it
That's what my conscience keep saying

This damaged heart
It's still beating
Blurry eyed,
but visions still vivid
Think I can see a life
Without you in it
I may have stumbled,
Lost my stride
But you'll never break my pride
Gonna sweat this out
Work you out of my system
I think I've found my reason
To keep on living

Looking around
Nobody to the left
Nobody to the right
Got no one to hold my hand
In sight
Can't turn back
I've been down that road
There's only one way
I've got to move forward

One foot placed
In front of the other
Baby steps
You can make it
My conscience keeps saying
Step by step
I'm gonna get there
Step by step
You'll see new faces
Step by step
You'll discover new places
You can make it
That's what my conscience keep saying

Tears have run down these cheeks
Now I'm finally starting to see
There was no happy ending
For you and I
You weren't meant to walk
The same path as mine
Finally ready to let this go
Take a deep breath
And let it out
The end of the darkness
I can see it now
Let the sunshine brightly down
Soak it into your skin
Release your happiness from within

Looking around
Nobody to the left
Nobody to the right
Got no one to hold my hand
In sight
Can't turn back
I've been down that road
There's only one way
I've got to move forward

One foot placed
In front of the other
Baby steps
You can make it
My conscience keeps saying
Step by step
I'm gonna get there
Step by step
You'll see new faces
Step by step
You'll discover new places
You can make it
That's what my conscience keep saying

©2017 Written By Benji James

Benji James Jun 8

All those words
I should never have said
All those thoughts
That entered my head
Misreading situations
Placing false allegations
What am I doing here,
my mind is so unclear,
My windscreens fogging up
I'm drowning in the silence
All I want is to hear
Your voice calling out my name

It's not the same
Without you here
I can't bare to watch you leave
And I've made mistakes
It's okay,  it's my fault
I'll take the blame
I'm sorry for causing you all this pain
It's not the same
It's not the same
without you here

I'm sorry
For ripping apart your heart
I'll make it up
I'll make it up
And I'm sorry
For creating all these scars
I'll patch them up
I'll patch them up
I'm sorry for giving up
I'll make it up
(Just wait and see)
I'll make it up
I will make it up

How could I have caused such hurt
When I really love her
How could I not have seen the signs
She's been signalling all this time
How can I take back all I said
I've just gone and changed everything
I don't want this change
Don't want you to go away
Please stay, please stay
I'm reaching out my hands to you
I'm reaching out my hands to you

It's not the same
Without you here
I can't bare to watch you leave
And I've made mistakes
It's okay, it's my fault
I'll take the blame
I'm sorry for causing you all this pain
It's not the same
It's not the same
without you here

I'm sorry
For ripping apart your heart
I'll make it up
I'll make it up
And I'm sorry
For creating all these scars
I'll patch them up
I'll patch them up
I'm sorry for giving up
I'll make it up
(Just wait and see)
I'll make it up
I will make it up

After all, we have been through
After all this time
I'm losing you like this
Because of my selfish antics
How could I not see
How much you were hurting deep down inside
I'm supposed to be your protection
The one that you could turn too
Never should have let you
Fight these battles on your own
I've made mistakes
I've made mistakes
Yeah I hope and pray
That one day you might forgive me

It's not the same
Without you here
I can't bare to watch you leave
And I've made mistakes
It's okay, it's my fault
I'll take the blame
I'm sorry for causing you all this pain
It's not the same
It's not the same
without you here

I'm sorry
For ripping apart your heart
I'll make it up
I'll make it up
And I'm sorry
For creating all these scars
I'll patch them up
I'll patch them up
I'm sorry for giving up
I'll make it up
(Just wait and see)
I'll make it up
I will make it up

I love you so much
I'll repair your heart
From the damage that I've done
I'll make it up
I'll make it up
I love you for all you are
Shine bright my star
Shine bright my star
I love you for all you are.

©2017 Written By Benji James

Em MacKenzie Jun 7

Steal my thought, and hold my heart,
we both have fought since the very start.
Rob me of air and match my soul,
to be there I'd pay any toll.

Well the days just keep on passing,
the months, they have become years,
This love has become everlasting,
it was once my biggest fear.

Live at my side, and meet me in my dream,
the moon might hide, but the stars will gleam.
I'll speak true, but you'll read my mind,
just to see you, I'd go blind.

Well the days just keep on passing,
The months, they have become years,
there's not much that I am asking,
I just want to dry your tears.

From this day on, I'm always yours,
I already was, you know this, of course.
But from this day on, our souls are together,
just promise me, you'll remember forever.

Shape my world, and hold my hand,
I need a girl who will understand,
what I've been through, and will be mine,
'cause for you I'd wait my entire lifetime.

From this day on, I'm always yours,
I already was, you know this, of course.
But from this day on, our souls are together,
just promise me, you'll remember forever.

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