I am becoming.


Perception; reality.
Every human mind has its own duality.
Our good side, our bad side;
Life seems to always get the best of me.
Empty, of anything, that they claim to know that I need.
So empty, of feeling,
When all who criticize become unworthy of truly interpreting me.


Without a voice, I am powerless.
Situations arise that give me strength to confess, that I am a mess.
Disorganized, my thoughts are hidden underneath;
I search the depths of my soul to see what I can reap.
Words all scrambled; put them into order.
The writings of a word-thief in a mind of word-warder’s.


Left speechless, when all I say is meaningless.
The canvass is not unused, it has just not been revealed yet.
Artists are there at the start of things;
I am but a binary star upon a life made from strings.


Pull my rip-cord and let the words all flow;
Embrace the darkness we keep inside and let it show.
I am your Pinocchio.
You are my puppet mistress and my eternal muse;
I am just a thing to be used to amuse.
Your touch of love upon my love heart in pieces,
Let’s me become a ray of light inspired by your wish for a sun
And could you give me a hug please?
All light flows from your soul into me;
I breathe you in to let you see what I hide within.


I am becoming a better man, now I am being a better human being;
I am growing into the lover I always thought I could become.
You take away the fear and let me become what I should have been.
It is because of you that I am able to become something from nothing
And now this poem is written and your heart has been won…
Now my work is done.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

I am He, as He is Me


As I was falling in love with you,
Your heart began to break.
Such disappointment in your eyes;
As I allowed you my heart to take.


Now forever entwined with you inside,
I stay in pain, to leave you standing alone in the light.
For life it seems, looks down on me
And laughs, not smiles; this is my purgatory.


Punishment, for being so ****** stupid!
Why the Hell, couldn’t I just go through with it?
Instead of just running away with misery…
I live a life of regrets; it is all I am left with.


For years now, I’ve wasted my time;
When all along, I had already met my Wife.
We just didn’t know it, until we touched
And now that night shall be remembered forever by each of us.


I couldn’t believe how good we could become;
But now it feels like we have always been in love.


This is for you, you beautiful lady:


I am in love with you…
Head spinning, loco, loon;
Crazy, e-love for only you.


You know of my love for Her;
It is minute compared to the love I will always feel for you.
For I knew with Her it would never work;
But with you I knew it couldn’t work,
Because back then I was a ****.


Now I hope after all this time,
You too still feel the same.
Because I see your soul in your eyes
And your eyes speak of someone who has already loved…
Only to be shown loves grave.
But you are my angel;
You simply make all my problems and my history go away.


Imagine your brain has just been born
And it can believe me with no cynicism.
I look deep into your eyes and you naturally smile,
As I speak to you the words of ‘Within’.


I flied!  I flied!  No, you falled.
She loves me!  She loves me!  No, she isn’t interested at all.


I am in love with You!!!
I love You, yes I do!!!
Yep, yep, yep.
Me and You.
All I ask for, is for you to truly believe me, when I tell you…


Goo, goo, ga, choo!


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I am left speechless by her beauty.


My heart is in two pieces, torn apart by love.
Art leaves me sleepless; where is my good?
An empty orchestra plays only violins.
I need her love, to silence my own screams
And bring an end to all my tears.


I can no longer, wish upon a,
Star that has never even shone for me.
I am no stronger, with or without her.
I am weakness, down on my knees.
All my words are only empty speech bubbles,
None of my dreams ever reach for the sky.
She has no double…I have no lies.
I must be true if I remain mute,
Because if I have never spoken,
Then how could I ever have deceived the truth?


All I am is another man.
I have fallen,
I have stopped.
I have no plans to ever give any thanx,
For all the hope that I have lost.


All the love that could have been,
All the dreams…
They don’t mean a thing.


All these butterflies flying inside of me,
Only leave my feelings in knots, I need to breathe.
Hand on my heart,
It feels as if there is a hand around my heart
And I am tight in its grip.
I am forever stopping me…from breathing.


I cannot even help myself,
So I will never be able to show her my true self.
She will never hear about my inner demons screams.
I beg to just be loved by her; she will not see my own agony.
She will not know about the pain I constantly feel,
Because she will never know my feelings for her are real.


I am a broken, broken being.
I have not spoken, spoken of my needs.
She does not know she is what I desire,
Because I am trapped inside this scared of love liar.


All these feelings that I have to keep;
I hold inside my ruined soul.
All these things I wish I could be,
Are only ever love stories that are never actually told.


I remain in silence, my own choice for her freedom.
She is now free because I never mentioned,
The love that exists inside the heart of this man.
She is now gone and I am alone once more;
A stone, so stuck, in quick sand.
I am dressed in black, because of my life as a stage hand.


Last chance to give it a shot and win her love…
Going…
Going…
Gone.


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I am temporary.


I am a fleeting illusion and one day I will be gone;
So enjoy me while you can, because I am temporary.
If you like what I do then I have been heard by someone.
I regret nothing!  I am dumb.  I am full of empathy.


Learn from your mistakes; do not keep making them.
Give up or try harder, time is of no consequence.
The light fades away and we all become grey,
In the end my friend; so savour the taste.


I am just one messenger, in a land of screaming voices.
All the choices we make only bring us more choices.
A violent heart is lonely, truly;
A loving heart is happy, inside empathy.
Any fool with a tool can try to speak,
But I shall only listen to things that interest me.


A stranger in this land, I am becoming.
Forget about me, I am heading for my day of reckoning
And I think in the end, my life will have counted for something.
I wish I could be with you, but time is not our friend;
Goodbye to the good times, I hope we have shared.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

I am without you


In a perfect world, nothing is perfect.
In a beautiful world, not all things are beautiful.
It may not be easy to see, but love is truly worth it.
You can either choose to have faith in love,
Or you can forever remain doubtful.


I choose to keep believing,
Because to me love is everything
And when I do eventually meet her,
I will tell her of the way things were.


The reason for the absence,
The loss and the heartache.
The reasons why I couldn’t believe,
That anything good would ever last again.
I will try to be romantic and woo her every day.
I will try to be all she could ever need,
So she doesn’t feel the need to fly away.


If she is my Ms. Right, then she will see through my eyes
And find my heart a leaping over a belly of butterflies.
I will find a way to make her complete,
If she decides to believe in me.


All these things I will do,
Because love is still what gets me through,
To the other side of this darkness;
This time I am without you.


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I blame Jane


No way out of this hole in which I hide; locked in, a box.
No direction forward, life has all but stopped.
Trapped here by my imagination, all reality is lost.
Now way out; oh such a loss.


Do not get too close, or you might sink down with my mood.
I do not eat healthily; I am so bored of food.
Forced nutrition, the body needs fuel to work.
It has been a long time since I last flirted with a terrible flirt.
Love is just a forgotten memory and life is no ice cream.
A dreamer dreaming of a crystal palace
And a crystal crown for his Ice Queen.


You are a pinion upon the wings of this phoenix from the flames.
A damaged brain is just a part of a life, that is so lame.
I blame Jane for all I have to say…
Walls so tall they can never be climbed over.
The mind is a terrible thing to waste.


Solitude suits me,
Because it is my only option.
I would never start an argument
Or feel secure enough to state an honest opinion.


Now I only see Jane in my memories;
My social circle is a lot smaller.
All together now;
We all used to sing the same smoking songs,
Before we would all fall down a little poorer.
The dog days are barking even slower.
I fight my way, through the wind, shadow-boxing in every corner.


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I can’t get no.


Cure my boredom; give me freedom.
Release me from this demonic kingdom.
For far too long I have been stuck in a rut;
Going nowhere fast and all because I was in love.
Now I have found another and lost my romantic voice.
She took my confidence by kissing other boys.
I hope you are not bound to your independence,
Because if you fall in love, you will be sentenced,
To truly believe in a thing called love.
Then one day it will explode in a silent phone…good luck.


I confess my desire to see her undressed
And if she doesn’t reject me, she does what naturally comes next.
She says she loves me and then she cheats like the others.
Why is everybody the same, why do I only find pathetic lovers?
So unworthy in intelligence and integrity.
I wish I could die so I could escape the monotony.


She is the reason for my self-hatred.
Who allows her to be happy, when I am so ill-fated?
If I could love just a single person,
I could release a billion inner-demons
And I could find a way to be free,
Instead of being trapped with the same old misery.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

I can’t write


I haven’t written a good poem in ages.
Throw away phone pages, end of messages.
Nothing important to say, but I’m still speaking.
Body is full of words, now all with lame meaning.


Speaking truth, but no longer believing.
Wish I could write the things I am dreaming,
But all that inspiration is lost,
To being bored of forget-me-nots,
That I just do not remember.
My heart feels like December rain.
I want the summer to come back again.


She is gone, the one named love.
Given away like all the drugs.
Now all I have is one big heart.
I am desperate to give it away…but I can’t.


(C)2019 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

I choose to YouTube.


When famous people die,
You get to look back fondly at their lives.
You get to see what they accomplished;
You get to read what people write.
You get images never seen before;
You open whole new doors.
You learn the truth and the lies;
All truth is revealed in due course.


When famous people die,
You find out who really deserves to be in ‘Who’s who.’
You remember their contribution to the world
And you wonder; what could I do?
How could I do something to earn that fame, that respect?
You wonder if your life, when you are taken,
Will have had any kind of effect.


When famous people die,
You become nostalgic for a youth long since gone.
When a famous person dies,
You remember them in poetry or in songs;
Or you remember their songs,
Or the movies they made during their life.
When a famous person dies,
Some of them become more famous,
Than they ever did when they were alive.


Remember fame brings you immortality;
So find yourself a way.


Amy Winehouse, Michael Jackson;
Kurt, Bowie and Prince.
I really liked them all when they were alive…
I have loved their music since.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

I could be loved


There is a woman I like
And I think I might,
Be able to tell her how she makes me feel.
She can see it in my smile, so I can no longer hide.


She is beauty to me and who knows? Maybe,
She may feel the same way, if she is hiding her feelings deep.
We always exchange smiles and when we talk time flies by;
I see the blue lakes in her eyes and she takes me so high.


She lifts my true heart, way up, to be seen within my eyes.
I could love her one day, someway, if only I knew her mind.
She makes all people feel good with her loving words.
She happily speaks of love, (not my bitter words of hurt.)
She makes me dream of possibilities;
Every time she makes me laugh, I see epiphanies.


No more doubting love, no more sad heart ache.
I must believe in love; more effort I must make.
I must throw myself into the eye of the storm,
All in the name of love; all in the hope of her touch.
She gives me confidence to once more try to trust.
Maybe we could be good together
And maybe…
I could be loved.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Idea


Dream a nation; take a vacation.
Autopilot does not need direction.
Claim a notion; works a vocation.
Words do not have to have perfect punctuation.


Message in a bottle; totally random.
Chaos Theory.  A hat may not fit.
Ring the chapel bells and then leap on a tandem.
Tyger eyes watch it go by without realizing it.


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I don’t believe in love


I don’t believe in love anymore;
I don’t see anyone worth fighting for.
I don’t remember the last time I was in love…
I want someone who is unforgettable.


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I don’t belong here


The fate of man is to fall into the dirt;
For what we are worth.
I heard it first that we are all creatures of God's Earth,
But he/she has never been seen on a television screen
And all the hope has been taken away from all my dreams.


All I had, I have lost along the way.
No words left to say,
To comfort me each and every day I live in pain.
All along I knew they were wrong,
So I never believed in or sang their worship songs,
Of days that passed away a long time ago.
All they left me with is endless sorrow.


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I don’t care.


Would my father have left, if I was not born?
And would I have become his favorite son?
If he’d let me, if he’d let me.


Would I have become, the son I became,
If he’d stayed in my life?  And if he had stayed,
Would I still be?  Or would I be?
The same as I am!  Angry at my Dad!
Or would I see, he’s not worth it?


And I don’t care!  That Daddy wasn’t there.
I don’t care!  How he is now.
And I don’t care!  That Daddy wasn’t there;
Because I have love, from my Mother.


So rejoice with me, because I speak my mind
And I say what I mean and I’m not angry,
Because I don’t care; no I don’t care.


And if you can relate, to the words I say
And you understand, what I’m saying today,
Then it’s ok; yeah it’s ok.


And I don’t care!  That Daddy wasn’t there.
I don’t care!  How he is now.
And I don’t care!  That Daddy wasn’t there;
Because I have love, from my Mother.


And I don’t care!  That Daddy wasn’t there.
I don’t care!  How he is now.
And I don’t care!  That Daddy wasn’t there;
Because I have love, from my Mother.


So I thank you Mom, for the love you gave;
For your warm embrace and your smiling face
And I do care, yeah I do care.


Because you were always there!
You never walked away!
You are always there!  If I need you.
I thank you Mom!  For everything you’ve done
And I do care, now and always.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

I don’t know


In your smile, I feel locked in love; no longer alone.
I don’t know, I don’t know;
I don’t know why I love you so.


We are him and her
And he and she;
Will we always be…you and me?


I don’t know if we will love each other forever;
I don’t know if we will drift apart.
I don’t know if this is as good as life gets,
Or if you could make it become even better.
All I know is…
I want to remain a little piece of your heart.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

I don't like to think in riddles, because I am easily confused.


A nation of cynics, racists and drinkers,
Still wonder why, we can't think like the thinkers,
Of ancient Greece, like Plato and Socrates;
Whose minds were clearly, open and free.


Do you ever think in riddles? And turn time upon its head?
If the mocking bird becomes a killer,
Does it leave the innocent for dead?
Or does it simply do, as nature intended?
The strong will survive, the weaker one we shall eat.


Destroy your baby, to feed its sibling,
This is what, Mother Nature is saying,
To the blinded scholar, of nature’s laws;
To destroy is to give life, to your daughter or son.


Have you ever had to walk away, from Easy street?
Running away, to simply make a change.
Leaving behind, all of your lost memories;
But you'll be back one day and things will be the same.


What is soul? I don't know.
I think it's the inner being, of everyone.
The centre of your body, your mind and your heart;
The thing that makes you, decide what is art.


The thing that makes you, you and different from all others.
The thing that gives you rhythm, so just dance my brothers
And sisters around the world; become free inside.
Fight for your right to fight, until the day that you die.


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If…


If you’ve got to shine, then shine your light on me;
If you’ve got to love, then love me.
If you’ve got to have a life, the live it with me;
If you’ve got to have a dream, then dream of me.


If you think you can make it, then make it with me;
If you really need it, then I need you to need me.
If you want to be with somebody, then be with me;
If you want my emotional honesty, then be honest with me.


If you need to hurt me, then don’t expect to be hurt by me;
If you feel like I don’t deserve you, then you don’t deserve to have me.
If you want to lose me and find someone else, then you will lose me;
If you need to get away to feel free, then you are free to leave.


If you want a real love, then you have to really love me;
If you want me to write about you, then you need to inspire me.
If you are a wrecking ball who destroys love, then you will destroy me.
If you want to be loved and treated properly,
Then treat me with your real love and we will always be happy.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

If all else should fail.


Let the light be gone and all darkness embraced;
Let me leave this world behind me in ruins
And let me be gone from this place.
Let the sun fall from the sky and wipe out all who stood before me;
Let all who dream of better futures,
See the ashes of a burnt out planet, buried under their misery.  


If all else should fail and my extinction stopped,
Then let the bodies drop
And fall from the pedestals we have placed upon this world.
Let the hatred unfurl;
Let the pain and misery rule.
Let all who came before me be brought back to this world,
To face their day of judgment…
Let them face their punishment.


Black out the sky with angel wings,
Hanging beneath the Devil’s claws and his puppet strings.
If all else should fail and I cannot be gone from this shell,
Then let Hell reign eternal upon this land that we dwell.


Then maybe they could feel how I feel;
Let them feel the agony of a dying heart,
That lives inside without a cure; let everyone depart
And leave this planet a wreck of a rock,
With nothing left to feed upon.


If all else should fail and I am not allowed to depart,
Then let the demons descend upon the ground before us
And burn the buildings down to give death to art.


If all else should fail and the pain cannot be removed;
Then let the pillars turn to ash and no broken heart ever soothed.
No person left with a heart to use;
No sanity left to claim to rule.


If all else should fail...


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

If I had another life…


Food is but a cold reminder,
Life has been unfair to me.
Wish upon a starry star, to find a plate of empathy.
Understand I mean so much,
My voice it sounds so hollow!
Waking up in agony,
I only live in sorrow.


Picture books are full of drawings,
Abstract ruination.
Colour me in with vitamins and leave me to my ruin.
All I want is everything
And nothing at the same time.
All I want I cannot have,
Or take or even find.


Days like this serve to remind me,
I am but an egg shell.
Swiftly broken pieces swept away,
Nobody to tell.


If only I could start again,
I'd rip this up
And send another swimmer.
This life is broken!
I am not a happy, be-lucky, winner.
Things are not quite as they seem,
When I look in your mirror.
All I see is a reflection of me,
But I am looking thinner.


I don't know which way I chose to go,
Is it up or down?  
I just don't know!
I'm heading for the stars, I couldn't be happier,
I never even tried.
I want to live like I have already died.
Swim with the fishes,
All that I truly know is,
They never seem to cry,


Days are all numbered.
One to ten, and then repeat the process.
I cannot,
I will not,
Vote for a system that is causing distress.
Leave things just as they are
And starve or start a revolution.
All I state is there will be no peace,
Until we build a Freedom.


Creatures only crawl into my mind.
All I do is pass the time,
Selling broken watches,
To all my broken well-wishers, my peeps.
They cannot appreciate,
There is no early,
There is no late,
There is only a right time
And a place to send me,
But I will never tell them;
They couldn't agree.
One day I will find a way to live,
Or find a way to be free…

But today is not that day…

That is all I CAN say...


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

If so.


Do you like poetry?  
If so, I will write something for you.
Do you need someone to love you?
If so, I will see what I can do.
Do you want to be wanted?
Do you need to be needed?
If so, I will be here for you and I will tell you my truth.


I could picture you being happy with me.
I could see us walking hand in hand.
I can still see your smile,
Each morning when I wake up from my dreams.
I think you are drop dead gorgeous!
I love your style.


I think you could be growing on me.
Only when you leave do I lose my leaves
And your summer dress is replaced with winter’s tears.
Is this the only way that it can be?
If so, you are still the only one.
The one I want to spend my time with.
You are my energy drink,
You give me wings.
You make me believe that this could really be love…


A love at long last that is bound to last
And if so and it truly is meant to last,
Then I will be forever happy,
Because I saved the best for last.


Let me be the first to compliment you on how beautiful you look today.
I took a second look,
Because a thousand horses couldn’t drag my eyes away.
I cannot just forget you;
That is something I am unable to do.
It is not every day, or any other day,
That I get to see a woman like you.
In fact it has never happened before;
You are unique.
You I could adore.
If only you would want me to.
If so, would you please tell me you want me too.


I will be over here waiting through another ice age;
Waiting for you to breathe new life into my veins.
My air; my water; my sun shine.
Say it ain’t so, or say you will always be mine.


If you want to be loved, then I will love you forever.
If you want me to go, if so, then I will be gone.
If you think you could one day fall for me like a feather,
Floating down from up above, you are sent from God,
Then here I will wait for you to land safely in my arms.


I will wait for you,
I will carry you,
I will lift you,
I will hold you,
Because you are the only one,
Who could make my chaotic mind become calm.


You could guide me to a place of peace in stormy seas.
I could love you, always, if that is what you need.
Do we share our empathy with each other?
Or am I just a loser?
I need you to tell me…please.

Here is my heart, it beats only for you.
All I say to you is true.


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If wishes were kisses we would all be happy.


I want to become a published poet.
I want to raise a smile;
But I could never make enough money,
To make myself worthwhile.


I want to live again.
I want an end to all the pain;
But it’s the same old broken life
And it will always be this way.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

If you ever need me, I’ll be here waiting


There’s something about you that,
I’m finding it hard to hide.
There’s something about you that,
I don’t think I can keep inside.
Though I must hide my feelings,
I cannot hide the tears I cry.
When you are not here with me,
I want you to be in my life.


There’s something about me that,
I think in you I could confide.
There’s something about me that,
I think with you I couldn’t hide.
It is my every feeling,
It is my every ounce of pride.
It is the joy you bring me,
It is my ever beaming smile.


And if you ever need me,
Then I’ll be right here at your side.
And if you ever need me,
I’ll be here waiting for all time.
If you ever need me,
Then I’ll be right here at your side.
And if you ever need me,
I’ll be here waiting here for all time.


You are my everything,
You are the one I want to hold.
You are my everything,
You keep me warm when I am cold.
And if I ever hurt you,
I won’t forget the tears you cry;
I never want to hurt you.
Let me be the one who makes you smile.


Won’t you just lay here with me?
Won’t you just simply hold me tight?
Won’t you just lay here with me?
Won’t you hold me throughout the night?
For you are all I need now,
The only thing I know is right.


And if you ever need me,
Then I’ll be right here at your side.
And if you ever need me,
I’ll be here waiting for all time.
If you ever need me,
Then I’ll be right here at your side.
And if you ever need me,
I’ll be here waiting here for all time.


I’m just another punk now,
I’m just a hippy with long hair.
I’m just another rocker,
I’m just a Goth who knows you care
And if you ever need me,
Then just call me on the phone,
Or turn to me in bed,
For with you I feel at home.


And if you ever need me,
Then you just have to say my name
And you will see me running,
I want to come and save the day.
I want to be your hero,
I want to be your only prince,
I want to be your lover.
I want you to help me live.


If you ever need me,
Then I’ll be right here at your side.
If you ever need me,
I’ll be here waiting for all time,
For you to say you need me,
For you to take me into your life,
For you to say you need me.
You are the bringer of good times.


And if you ever need me,
Then I’ll be right here at your side.
And if you ever need me,
I’ll be here waiting for all time.
If you ever need me,
Then I’ll be right here at your side
And if you ever need me,
I’ll be here waiting for all time.


And if you ever need me,
Then I’ll be right here at your side
And if you ever need me,
I’ll be here waiting for all time.
If you ever need me,
Then I’ll be right here at your side
And if you ever need me,
I’ll be here waiting for all time.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

I hate my voice


Chaos lives inside my head; shattered love has never been more broken.
If I could change this life, then I would simply forget,
Everything that made me what I am
And my words would remain unspoken.


But for now I will talk of the man inside.
The hollow heart; the empty eyes.  So loveless, so lifeless…so feeble.
I am the burden I carry; self-sacrifice.
Lies tell the truth; we wish to hide all feelings from all people.


I am no light and I am without help.
Me, me, me; self-obsessed, so I write.
Only I can save myself, from myself,
But apathy is killing me and I am feeling nothing on the outside.


Music is my only friend who never lies to me;
Poetry is my only chance at finding the soul I desperately need.
I am a pathetic piece of me and the ashes of the man I used to be.
So I remain the same, I remain the same; I remain inside my grief.


Pictures mean nothing to me, but words show a true image.
Art is yours to take or leave and I am without a voice.
All I do is see the truth, as I ignore the finish;
Books have become interesting…poetry is my only choice.


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I hate you


You took the love away.
That is why I hate.
You can never give it back,
No matter what you do or say.


(C)2019 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

I Hate You, My Love



No longer together, in a world of madness;
Just sat alone, in my world of sadness.
So come with me, on this journey through life;
I'll enlighten your eyes and I'll open you mind.
Open your mind,
Open your mind,
Open your mind, to another kind.


Something new, old, bluesy or rocking;
Musically free, from you becoming damning.
Criticisms needed, if your work is wrong;
But you’re perfection in a glass, so I wrote you a poem.


Softly bang your head and break your neck;
Live a life of missed opportunities, but have no regrets.
Hold me in your arms, because I've become contagious;
Come die with me…nobody can save us.


And save us from what?  This living Hell?
Your perfumed body has begun to smell.
No longer the fresh smelling roses from Heaven;
You’re disgustingly *****, since you let me in.
No longer a ******, do you think they can tell?
Your mothers lead you to believe, you’re condemned to Hell.


I see through your eyes, as you describe what you see;
You've now become a part of me
And now I've let you, smoke my ****;
I've now shown you, all I need.


Everyday I'll write you a song;
Everyday the words will be wrong.
Everyday you'll see that you hate me;
Everyday we'll disagree.
Everyday I'll want to **** you;
Everyday you will **** me.
Everyday is a whole new day;
And everyday is wrong for me.
Everyday I kiss you with passion;
Everyday I get satisfaction.
Everyday we drift apart;
Everyday you break my heart.
Everyday I **** myself
And everyday I need your help.
Everyday you must die with me;
Everyday we must both believe.
So everyday let's both fall to the ground
And everyday the lyrics will crumble down.
Ashes to ashes and blunts to blunts;
Come die with me *****, you ******* ****!


I love you dearly, but I hate your guts;
You drive me crazy.  Completely nuts!
I'll love you forever, until I don't;
This is my suicide letter, now I have to go.


**** it I didn't go through with the plan;
Because of you *****, you held my hand
And told me that you understand
And told me that I'm your only man.


Can you not see how much I hate you?
Can you not see how much you hate me?
Why don't you believe, what I say is true?
Why are you here, when I told you to leave?


You’re a punk rocking beauty, but completely false.
You’re a grunge kissing psychopath, that I completely love.
I have to say I hate you, so I don't feel we’re too close;
But promise me Angel, you will never go.


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I have come undone.


I see the Devil sat beside me in the passenger seat,
As I’m speeding down the freeway.
He is egging me on to go past one hundred
And I am liking what he is saying.


The light on the freeway, I have become;
I never wanted to be much less than I could.
I fall apart now the sun is gone;
So set me free before I become undone.


Help me, to help me, to help myself.
I need you to change me and my thoughts, so I can feel safe.
I am scared this is the road to Hell;
So won’t you please help me?  I need to be saved.


The fires burn in front of me and I drive towards them at speed;
Give me all I want and I shall do as you please.
Heading into the future, a ball of flames;
The world comes crashing down upon me
And I am tomorrow and yesterday.


I am all things in an instant and timeless without a soul;
I am gone to forever with the Devil and so,
I am here and I am there; I am split in two.
I have left your world of pain behind me
And now I sink into the depths of sorrow.


I am sat inside this hole, looking up
And dreaming of once more feeling the sun’s rays upon my face.
Living in Hell all my life, I chose this life and the drugs,
Because that was the only way I could face this world
And face another day.


I am broken by any means and my existence in meaningless;
I am a mess, I am disintegrating and I am hopeless.
I am nothing and all things destroyed by a dark world;
I am gone to never be remembered
And now I am forgotten and nameless.


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I have fallen


I have fallen; this death I despise.
When I have fallen; will I rise?
Will I float up, above the skies?
I have fallen…will I rise?


Arise titan!  You are strong of heart!
Arise puritan!  You are pure of thought!
Arise Illumini!  You are the light in the dark!
Arise I tell you!  This is the end of your war!


As I get to my feet, I am lost in a thought;
Am I strong enough?  To rise once more?
Once more the time has come, to draw my sword.
Once more I manage to make a stand;
Never again shall I fall.


As angels lead me throughout Heaven;
I am surrounded by light, in search of family and friends.
As I am lead into the afterlife,
I am told my new life has just begun…
And there will be no end.


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I have lived.  I have loved.


I---I have lived!
I---I have loved!
I---I have lived!
I---I have loved!


In this world of Devils, Angels fly away to escape;
In this world so full of Devils, there is no-one left to save.
When there is nothing left, but the evil in their ways.
We are all to bla---me!  For no-one being saved.


We are surrounded by wolves and I hear their howls;
How am I alone!  Meant to make you feel sa---fe?
When the fires burn and there is nowhere left to turn;
How am I alone!  Meant to act my a---ge?


I---I have lived!
I---I have loved!
I---I have lived!
I---I have loved!


Nothing costs the heart, as much as love.
Nothing makes the heart; feel so good.
Nothing is ever, worth the cost of your soul;
Nothing is lost, when the risk you take is love.


I took the drugs!  I took the pain!
In the end it all fades and it all goes away.
I never did enough; if I could I would change.
My life a waste.  Never be a slave to the wage.


I---I have lived!
I---I have loved!
I---I have lived!
I---I have loved!


What I want, doesn’t matter as much,
As the truth being set free and a new kind of love.
What I’ve lost, never compared to love.
I took the drugs; I took too much.


Now I am gone, heading into the sun;
Breaking bad habits, never did me wrong.
I’ve learned a lot on my journey through love;
Now the end has come, so I will carry on.


I---I have lived!
I---I have loved!
I---I have lived!
And I have loved!


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I have loved


For all the souls that I have loved,
I give up my heart as an offering.
For all the hearts that I have stolen,
I vow to thee you are everlasting.
To all the women who have affected my life,
I cherish your contact;
Please take this care that I bring.


To all those I have lost throughout my lifetime,
I loved you all…


I say these words just for you
And these words do not do me justice;
But these words I do mean,
For they are all true and you showed me such tenderness.


I loved you then and I love you now;
I shall continue to love you ‘til I am gone into the clouds.
I will love again and I shall feel love somehow
And I shall cherish it like I have before,
Because love is to be found underneath loves shroud.


For all the lovers throughout my lifetime, I pledge my allegiance.
What is your passion?  It shall become mine
And what is mine I shall give to you,
Because I have loved and will forever love you.


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I have nothing


I have nothing left to say.
I have nothing left to write.
I have nothing without her love.
I have nothing.


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I have seen it all.


All that, which is now
And all that, which will be
And all that, which has come before…
I have seen it all.


With fortune eyes, inside a crystal ball mind;
I found my destination, as I heard the call,
While the others remained blind.
Tell us no lies, to make the truth memorable.
When will be the day that our love will end?
Or when will we see that we are inseparable?


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I'll never forget you.


I'm still a boy inside and sometimes I still need to cry.
If this makes me not a man, then I don't mind.
I'm supposed to be strong for you,
For you have no strength left to fight.
But I'm simply too beaten,
To stop the tears pouring from my eyes.


I thought you'd always be there, if ever I got in trouble;
But you’re slowly and painfully bursting that bubble.
My protection is going; I can't do this without you.
Please try to keep your eyes open;
To delay my heart from being broken.


I hope you know I'll always love you
And I hope this finally ends your pain.
For you never did anything to deserve this;
I'll think of you each times it rains.
Because the dark clouds brought us down,
Whilst the sunshine made us happy.
So I'll never forget your last words,
Or the fact you gave me a family.


Or the fact you loved me when no-one else would have;
I'll never forget those times, you and I laughed.
I'll never forget those times, I made you cry.
Please forgive me, I never meant to hurt you;
I was just a silly child.
Who made mistakes, just as adults do;
But I'll always know that you'll love me, whatever I do.


And I'll always love you, for you gave me my life
And you never did, judge my choice of Wife.
You were always there, for us and our child
And you'd always make us happy;
Just being with you made us all smile.


So I thank you Mom, for everything you've done for me
And all those times, you lent me money
And every time, you were there for me.
I'll never forget you Mom
And when you’re gone, I hope you never forget me.



(C)2006 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

I love you, but…


I love you, but you’re driving me crazy.
You’re such a cry baby; I’m driving Miss Daisy.
Can you even hear me?


I love you, but I don’t get your jokes.
I hate the fact that you make me feel so alone.
I want you to stay, but I can’t wait for you to go.
I love being with you, but I am beginning to tire of your ego.


I love you, but I wish you would do something different with your hair.
I wish you knew how to show me that you really care.
I wish you missed me when I am not there,
But still, I love you, whenever I am anywhere.


I love you, but I don’t know what our future holds.
I don’t know if you love me when you leave me feeling so cold.
I don’t know exactly where it is we are going.
All I know is I can’t imagine being without you;
But you are never around when I need consoling.


Been with you so long I don’t know what is wrong.
It’s just the way things have always been;
I thought you were my swan song.
I love you, but is this all going to go away?
I love you, but I wish you would change.


I love you, but I don’t know if I always will.
So I will love you for now,
But one day I will no longer,
Be willing to run up that hill.


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I love you so.


Every time we say goodbye,
A little piece of my heart dies.
You’re the one who makes me cry;
The one I love has the devil inside.
Hoping for an angel, but I know she just isn’t that type.


Something tells me you’ll be here later.
Something tells me you’ll stick around.
Something tells me you are worth fighting for;
Because without you, I’d be lost and never found.


Never found in love is to never live.
I need love to destroy my grief.


You do something to me that I can’t explain.
You keep me happy, in the pouring rain.


And I love you so.


(C)2015 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

I’m coming home


Been gone so long now, I don’t remember the day I set off.
This flying visit became a journey and I’m sorry that it took so long.
Our only conversations have been by phone and video.
I hope your love for me is still burning bright when I do arrive home.


If you became lonely, like I did while I was away,
I hope you stayed true like I did;
Ignoring all the interest that came your way.
I believe in you; I hope you kept the faith in me too.
My belief in us is the only thing that helped me to get through,
To the other side of what seemed like forever.
It seems so long since we last kissed.
You give me a place to long to come back to,
When you tell me I am missed.


You have always been there for me, even when I had to leave.
I would have liked to have stayed there with you,
But we don’t always get what we need.
Life is not always in our hands;
Sometimes we have to go so we can return.
The light of our love has never gone out;
My passion for you still burns.


I’m coming home to be with you soon.
Look out for me in the red light of dusk.
I’m letting you know that your love is a harpoon;
You shoot your love into my heart and pull me back to you.
I will be there soon…
I’m coming home to you.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Immaturity


Logic dictates that we must escape,
The shackles of youth and mature with age,
But who can decide when we have matured enough?
Surely we all have a part of us that needs to remind us of the fun,
We had when we were young.


The first time we found love, finding the music of our life.
Memories that takes us back to a moment when we were happy.
Maturity is a good thing, but so is immaturity sometimes.
Do what you love, all hobbies are good.
The older we get the more we love the way thing used to be.


Become what they expect you to be,
Between the hours of nine and five;
But an evening of your life is yours to do with as you please.
Find someone you love and if they feel the same way,
They will accept you are young at heart
And they will accept your immaturity.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

I'm Sorry (Duet)


(FEMALE)

Two months had passed, not a day was he late.
He said he'd never let me down, I thought he was great.
But today I sit here, is this the end?
Is he gone forever?  Will I see him again?


I'm sorry for the argument, we had last night.
But I thought we were ok?  I thought we'd ended the fight?
If I could turn back time, I would make things different.
How can I go on?  Without his existence?


It's five past nine, where could he be?
He said he would, never leave me.
Please my love, know I still want you.
I thought we'd always be together; I love all that you do.


(MALE)

I'm not actually late; I'm punctually lost without insight.
A reoccurring excuse; oh well, these things happen.
I'm sorry that, I can't see you tonight,
It's my parents fault; these things can't be helped, again and again.


I'm sorry I was late, I wanted to give you time to get ready,
Would I lie to you?  Never!  I want us to go steady.
I'm sorry when we met if I embarrassed you, did I mention?
But I was simply trying, to get your attention.
I wasn't trying to make the others look bad.
Just to make you adore me; make you happy, not sad.


I don't have time to be with you right now,
I'm sorry for this; I’ll make it up to you somehow.
I'm sorry; I was ignoring you at the function.
Just another job; just more tax deductions,
From a wage we earn, to have money is to have pride,
To give you the things, I believe I should provide.


I'm sorry I was drunk,
This always happens when I'm nervous;
It helps me think clearly, about the two of us.
I'm sorry I didn't know, how to make it perfect;
To ask you a question and to have no regrets.
To fully believe, we could last forever.
The two of us happy, like birds of a feather.


I'm sorry I didn't ask earlier,
For your hand in matrimony;
For you to be my wife
And for you to love me for eternity.
To have and to hold, until death do us part
And for eternity my love,
You must know you have my heart.


I'm sorry my dog ate my car keys
And we had to hitchhike to the vets.
I'm sorry I got diverted,
But I must get these words off my chest
And tell you my love I'd like us to wed;
Be together on Earth and lay together in our bed.


I'm sorry if I'm late, I thought that you knew.
I'll be with you soon, just me and you.
I'm sorry I’m not on time; I would be if I could.
I’m doing all I can to be there, but I'm not feeling too good.


I'm not actually late, I'm early for tomorrow.
My death came a day early, along with your sorrow.
I wrote you a letter; it's in the post.
I'm sorry it's my last, but now I'm a ghost.
I'm sorry I didn't write earlier; I couldn't find a pen.
I'm sorry I've lost you, my only true friend.


If you cry,
Because I didn't arrive.
I'm sorry I'm late,
But today I died.


(C)2005 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Indestructible


I can no longer be…indestructible…
I have tried so many times.
I told the truth and I heard the replies…
They were always lies.
I tried, oh how I tried, so many times…
But I can no longer be…indestructible.  


If love is all I have to give with nothing in return,
Then why must I give my love away when love only ever burns?
Love should be so much to give,
But all my love is worthless, it seems.
I am losing my empathy
And my understanding.
Losing my plan A and my plan B.
Losing when I should be winning...


I can no longer be indestructible,
For I am made of glass...
I can no longer be...
Indestructible.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

I need love to live and breathe.


Love is missing you every day,
In every way, I hope and pray,
That I could tell you, in an easy way,
The words that are so hard to say.


You think I love you, but you’re not sure,
If this is real, if my love is pure;
If my words are true or how I really feel,
Or even if I am worthy of you my dear.


But listen to your heart and not your head;
Have faith in your feelings, be confident.
My love is real, it’s just hard to show;
Please don’t let this love become a ghost.


If our love dies, then angels cry
And Heaven disappears.
How can I have a divine afterlife?
When I can’t hold you near.


If I could have a neon light, that said I truly love you;
I’d wear it proudly on my heart, simply to prove,
That I love you, as man loves air; you give me life again.
You breathe your love into my soul, each time you say I love you.

(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

I Need Some Space To 'Think.'


You asked me to give you some space;
But in space no one hears you scream.
There's nobody out here with me
And there's nothing for me to see.


If I'm giving you space,
Does that mean I can't get with someone new?
I have to turn down the offer of love, while I'm waiting for you?
Look if you want your space, then you can have it without me;
I'm gonna leave you to have your space, to yourself, to think.


Keep on going through space, thinking I'll hang on for you.
Desperately awaiting your decision,
On if your mates allow you to,
Go out with me tomorrow
And let me shower you with gifts.
Well I'm afraid my space is now filled
And you've lost me; bye, bye, *****.


Come back I want you!  I've made up my mind.
Doh! Why you gotta keep spinning me a line?
You've already got me hooked; I'm just putty in your hands.
I was your man completely, do you understand?


Yes I'm sorry my love, I never meant to harm you;
I just needed time, to decide what to do.
Well Miss Independence, go tell all of your friends;
I need a woman who can think for herself and puts our love first.
I need someone who wants me completely,
Not just when she's not seeing her friends.
I need someone who wants me for me;
Not because I drive a Benz.


But I need you, I love you!
I'm sorry I asked for a little space.
Talk to the hand *****!  
Then see the look on my face.
I offered you my heart and soul
And you wanted time to think;
Ok times up for you and me.
You’re dumped!  
What do you think?


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.