I wander through
I trudge ahead
I just keep going
Through the mud
Up the hills
Over the bumps
I fall I stand back up
I get knocked back
I roll down the hill
I brush myself off
I cry I scream
I begin again
I strut on by
I don't stop
I just keep on rolling on
I refuse to stop
I just stand tall and walk
I know there's something
ahead
I can't stop
I wander through
Till my rest is given
I then will stop
Till then
Wander , I do.
©Jennifer L DeLong 🦏 1/5/2023

Being a grandmother is a beautiful gift
I became a grandmother in January.
My son's 1st child.
Sadly I have yet to hold or meet my little grandson Rex.
The girlfriend has decided that no family can meet him.
My son has decided to agree.
I raised him better than this he was so close to us and especially me.
So sad so confused never thought it would turn out like this.
I don't know what he thinks I've never done to deserve this.
I don't know why he doesn't stand up and say this is not happening.
That baby deserves to know his family.
We accepted her into our family.
She's always had some issues but this is the final straw.
Time is flying by and that little boy is growing up without our love and our spoils.
I yearn to hold him
Tell him I love him have pictures taken of us too.
It's like I say you never know what's going to happen tomorrow.
I could die tomorrow then what would happen then how would they feel.
I pray that doesn't happen.
I also pray , I meet that little beautiful boy..
A grandmother's love is special and , I hope
, I get to share that with my beautiful grandson.

07/2024
© Jennifer L DeLong

It all feels so lost
Lost in doubt
Lost without hope
It has come to this
It had such promise
We all were striving
We all were learning
We were all getting along
Today it's violence
A shooting here
A overdose there
A homeless camp on the news
Why has it come to this
Why do we just act like sheep
Where's our strength
What has happened to us all
Its feels we have lost
It feels we are hopeless
It makes me feel so sick
All I can do is take care of me
And try to be safe
In a world that's lost its way
©Jennifer L DeLong 2/3/2023

No energy for my thoughts
Feeling so cold
Feel like I'm lost
You can't understand
Your not me

Lonely comes at a cost
My mind screaming
Desire and need
Someone to care

Can you say you been here
Where nothing feels like home
Where you can be empty
needing something anything
to make you feel whole
Just to feel like someone cares

Tired from feeling so cold
The pain soaked in to my soul
Wanna feel warm and whole

Depression takes it time
Driving my brain
straight into a wall

Unless you know
Unless you have felt
what I'm going thru
You wouldn't understand

Feeling so blue
Feeling without a clue
hoping to feel better soon
When I say I am lonely

I'm not asking
I'm begging for you
to care to listen
It's me making anyone someone
to listen to care
to help me from lying here
dying into darkness
© Jennifer Delong 4/2018

As , I am sitting here
I got the past
traveling through
its taking a train
showing me pictures
making me remember
Its quite a change
so much is new
I wonder how it knew
I needed to see and feel
to remember you
so long gone
it makes me think
it makes me feel
so many things
but , I run into you
that is again true
I think of you
when driving
When sitting on the beach
So many memories
come traveling through
and its something
I wish you knew
so the train has stopped
at the station
time to depart
I will be back
to think of you

© 𝑱𝒆𝒏𝒏𝒊𝒇𝒆𝒓 𝑳 𝑫𝒆𝑳𝒐𝒏𝒈 3/7/2021

Journeys , I travel
The miles Ive walked
The thoughts that traveled
Many journeys
in my short life
I am not tired physically
Mentally a bit exhausted
Writing them down seems to help
So here , I sit to write a few more
Journeys my Journeys
writing the miles the many
hoping to relieve this over burdened
over worked mind
Looking for a bit of rest
ease this pressure just a some
Journeys I am writing
so here I sit
© Jennifer L DeLong 4/2018

If only , I could have
those most desired
If only , I could have
the love most desired
If only , I could have those
wishes & wants  
It is the if only's
But you see it's not how
it comes to be
The if only is just a dream
we can want it but only in
our dreams can it happen
then you wake up and
go about your day
still thinking if only
If only life was fair
If only we could be happy
with what we don't have
So just remember
If only is just that
If only ..
© Jennifer L DeLong 🦏

On this beach
It's where , I find peace
Sand between my toes
Waves crash splashing me
She's such a beauty
This beach
A gift of nature
I find such pleasure
On her shores
Miles have been walked
Driftwood gathered
Laughter's echo
Of days enjoyed here
Even buried my Emma
On her shore
It's just a beach
Oh she's so much more
This Mission Beach
© Jennifer L Delong  7/3/17

It all seems to fade
It creeps along fading into
shades of grey
you fill the linger of it's haunting memory
as you grasp so tightly
it can't be kept in your grasp
you can only have it's joy
as it happens to exist
Sadly you don't know it only
will be for a short time
so as you feel the sadness
you mind wanders to the
truth
it's only gonna fade into a grey memory
you can't control it's time
or change it's ending
it will slowly fade away
Leaving you lost in a sadness
wishing it could have lasted longer
outta your control
it's just how it happens to be
So say goodbye
and let it fade
into a distant memory
© Jennifer L DeLong 🦏

Tear at my flesh

you still can never

reach my soul

Daring and Willfull

trying to get in

despite the pain

Knuckles bruised

not once giving up

wanting to reach there

For you see

you can't hurt me

I'm blessed in this flesh

Reincarnation
built this fence
around me

Sadly you will lose
as , I stand here
looking into your hell
Seeing what once was a human
now all , I see is

the sad sad
weaker of you

I live in spite of you

and you will never

reach what's

mine

my soul is human

© Jennifer L Delong 🦏1/22/2018

It's not the things
that , I desire

It's the moments
It's a walk on a beach
It's a conversation over coffee
It's enjoying a good laugh

The moments created
That leave memories

To be humble and give
back what nature so glady
has bestowed upon me

To appericate what , I have
To just find the joy in this journey

It's not without struggle
But for now I am here

I am not gonna worry
Why stress when you are blessed ..

© Jennifer L DeLong  Sept 2020

Deeply I am lost
I feel my navigation
has spun outta control
I was content knowing
my destination
I felt secure sailing
through life
Knowing my gps
was in hand
I couldn't get lost
I had someone whom
I could call
so now
I'm lost at sea
I have lost my gps
How will I sail in life
now that
my call is no longer
a minute away
my navigation has
broken
Will , I just drift on land
Will , I sail again
I just don't know
© Jennifer L DeLong 🦏
3/25/2021

Its just a ?
Its a feeling ,  I get
Its gives me this feeling
It makes me ?
Its causing me to wonder
Its causes me to think
Its causes me to ?
Why do ,  I
What am ,  I
to do but ?
So do ,  I
Should ,  I
Question
© Jennifer L DeLong

Capture me
Take me & make me yours
Show me your strength
Be not afraid of the pleasure
It's a game we are playing
Try something new
Is all , I want to do
Submissive I become
As you take what is yours
Yes that's it
I'm yours so it's yours
Show me what you want
It's built on lust & trust
It's all yours so do what you must
Cause lust is all I'm feeling
Mmmm now you get it
Oh yes this is fun
Passionate play
As you take what's yours
That's what I want
The rest is for us to enjoy
All night we shall play

© Jennifer Delong  1/5/19

Dreaming
Awoke to a different reality
Strange feelings
flowing on my body
Strange sensations
got me shivering
Do , I stand up
no I will just sit here
maybe , I will awake
might still be asleep
Hope , I am just dreaming
This would be a
a messed up reality
Dripping walls
Colors twisted
Sensations crawling &
tapping
So , I am just gonna sit here
till , I awake back to
reality

© Jennifer L DeLong 🦏
4/11/2021

It's funny how it always turns out it's always you it's always you
You're the one who captivates my soul makes me hope for more
Staying away has been hard but it's what I've had to do
To see if you really cared if you really wanted more
Now I just don't know I just don't know
Will we ever be more than we were before
I guess I honestly just don't know I just don't know
But here I am wanting you waiting for you
Time has been
passing by
So when will I hear from you I guess I just don't know I just don't know
© Jennifer L DeLong  🦏2/27/2021

Make a wish
I'm your genie
One or Two
I'll show you

Magic is in me
Dare me to come out
and Grant for you
A wish or two

There is
Just one thing
Careful what you wish
Cause you just
may like this genie
and what she grants
For you

I am feeling nice
got a feeling
This wish you have
May just make me
Unleash my magic
As you see
Look into me
Rub my bottle
Wish is granted © Jennifer L Dlg
1/10/2018

As I sit and ponder
My mind is full of wonder
Colors deep and bright

The things I desire
On the tip of my tongue
Eyes are my looking Glass

Come dance with me
in these magical seas
Feel the hope
As warm wind wrapping you

Smell the love
Surrender into me
Turn up the music

Lay with me on this cloud
Feel the softness of skin
Close your eyes kiss me

Feel my thoughts
Consuming you
My fingers tickling your skin

Stare now into the sky
Blues and Purples
Warming and inviting
Shhhh listen just listen

My mind a music box
Singing a song
ahhh such wonderful
thoughts traveling
Through this mind

©Jennifer L Dlg 1/12/2018

It comes and goes
When it stops
I'll never know
Living in this life
Its all quite a maze
Going here maybe there
Quite confusing
Time doesn't stop
So you really never know
When or how
So as you grow
Your dreams may not be
Only now can you guess
Live it now let it go
Don't reach to far
Keep it real feel it breath it
It's all just a maze
So as you go
Remember you never know
© Jennifer Delong 1/2019

Feeling alive lying here
delicious thoughts spinning
around , dancing wildly about
If you could read my mind
I wonder what you'd say
How'd you look at me
Oh come on it'd be fun
Laughing out loud
just at the thought

©Jennifer L DeLong 4/18

If by chance , I get to meet
real love
If by chance , I get to be happy
If by chance , I get to be me
I will be grateful
I will not let it go
I will appreciate and treat it kindly
I will say thank you
I will not by chance let it
go
I will know , I deserve it ..
It's my chance to be happy
© Jennifer L DeLong 🦏 11/12/21

I want to feel it
I want to live it
I want to express it
I want to share it
I want to know it
I want to trust it
I want to see it
I want to want it
I want it now
I want it forever
© Jennifer  L DeLong 🦏
5/2021

For me it's quite simple
Love and Adventure
Laughing and Caring
Being together
It's really just that simple
Old stuff is good stuff
Would rather spend money
On going on roadtrip's
Spending time together
I need to feel alive & desired
I give so much &
I don't need much
Its that simple
It's the time we have
It's all we get
So why not enjoy it
Make the most of the moments
Appreciate what we got
It's really just that simple
© Jennifer L DeLong 🦏

Its time to ******* rise
Rise above all the *******
Rise above this pain

Let yourself soar
Go after your desires
Make it happen now

We have had our wake up call
So make it happen
Fulfill your wants and needs
Say what you need to
Be unafraid

******* rise up
Be whole my spirit
Bless me with the good
Fullfill me
Release any fear

Rise up
Its now
Its time
Let us be whole
Time is now
Rise Rise Rise

© Jennifer L DeLong  🦏2/27/2021

Feelings are always there to
remind us
of what we enjoyed
of what we shared
not always wanted
or desired
Its bound to happen
its a song or smell
its seeing a picture
or stopping somewhere
Let it take a minute or two
then take a deep breath
and let it go
not always easy
for I know thats true
So keep it short
take a deep breath
its all you can do
Just don't let consume
you
..© Jennifer L DeLong 4/2021

So cold body like ice
Need some warmth
Could use some body heat
A blanket will just not do
It's to dam cold
My teeth are chattering
My knees are shaking
Not made for winter
Want to hibernate
That would be so nice
Wake up to 90 degrees
Not a wish that can come true
So bring me some body heat
Cuddle up drink some coffee
Let's hibernate till our bodies
Are at least above freezing
Fine bring me a electric blanket
That will have to do
I'm tired of this cold
Body like ice
Need to warm my soul
© Jennifer Delong 12/6/18

Is it the cold or is it the short days ?
Living in the dark
Feeling so cold
That's what it must be
I long for the warm days
I live for days that never end.
Winter is just miserable
for me
I love the Christmas lights
I wish more filled neighborhoods
It's just not like it used to be
So come on spring
let's get this winter
over with
So my winter blues
can fade away ..
© Jennifer DeLong 🦏
12/28/2022

Isn't it madness
Today
Forgot tomorrow
Love should be honest
Love is a promise
Not meant to be used
Not meant to hurt another

Seeing in your eyes
forgotten
Just a week ago
Love is what I saw

Where do you go
To hide in your shame
knowing it's karma
coming to eat your soul

Better am , l
sitting here
hurt and angry

Then next to you
with a lie upon my heart

If karma is all I got
you better pray
cause you will be the
one hurting
and my pain
will you feel
Karma is a *****
but again so are
you
© Jennifer Delong 2/2/2018

Well time to wake
Need to shower
Got alot to do
Wish I could wake
next to you
I do miss those mornings
Being close
Making your coffee
Kissing you till you woke
Those were the mornings
I miss I really do
Ok time to get my coffee on
Can't lay here all day
Ok there we go
Music's on
Coffee brewing
Hot shower
Now I'm ready
to get my got to do
done

© Jennifer Delong 1/23/19

It's a spiritual path , I  walk
Born with this gift
as I have learned
its a gift to cherish & appericate
It's a part of me it's not to fear
Though at times its a challenge
the things , I see & feel & hear
Knowing its been handed down to me
Its my path my spiritual
life lesson
it's who I am
I now show the souls
the way to go
I teach others to understand
makes me appreciate it more
it comes with wonderful intution
It comes with healing hands
It's not a curse it's my gift
My spiritual path , I must walk
Witch , Healer  , Psychic
I have them all in my arsenal
My Spiritual gifts
I am a witch
© Jennifer Delong 1/4/19

Finding within something screaming
Yearning for Wanting more
Try as , I might
For silence will not come
It pulls at my flesh
Leaving me tattered
Try as , I might
to hinder the pain
It's left screaming
I use my gifted knowing
to try to sooth
to comfort
Try as , I might
I must give up
For nothing will do
Its wanting you

© Jennifer Delong 10/25/18