I fell asleep on Valentine’s Day I’m sorry I didn’t write you I was choosing a card in my dreams, sorry I slept right through Dreaming of a pen to write I woke the day after too late to be my valentine I sign ‘Your sleepy admirer’.
Sometimes I just want to give up on life These past 3 years have blasted me with so much strife No one truly understands what it's like to be me They talk down to me and that makes me so angry Saying whatever they **** well please I'm forced to just put up with it; geeze! Since life is so unfair I think to myself "Why should I even care?" Nobody else does and its warped my mindset I no longer give the benefit of the doubt. I assume the worse of everyone. So many of my "friends" had shown me their true colors And I hate that I gave them my friendship in the first place. They certainly didn't deserve it. Giovanna, Olivia, Melissa You three girls affected me the worse. I wish I had never met any of you. You did me so ***** when you unfriended me. I constantly wish you regret your decision but it's not likely. I don't even want to mention the women that scammed, extorted and blackmailed me. They are not worthy of still being in my head I keep them there tho so as not to repeat my mistakes.
Been a minute since I wrote a poem so I just wanted to get out just about everything I've had on my mind. Some of this goes further back than the 3 years I've been in this state.
i was so foolish back then seeing you in a perfect light it blinded me your unfulfilled promise became my only hope i let you drown me in your own pity your own insecurities i let them define me, i let them break me you got to play magician always pretending you could snap away my cracks when i was the one mending yours always making me worry disappearing for days at a time but always finding a reason to be upset when you would return i was your toy a pawn in your game and i never even read the rules you let me believe you needed saving when i was the one living in the nightmare
the ghost of who i thought you were still haunts me but i could never hate you
you can trust me secrets wishes desires all kept under my lock and key they can’t hurt you not unless they take my entry and steal what was ours to keep i would never betray my own word only if you abandon me the depths of my own knowledge are often so bittersweet filled with the voices of a thousand murmurs, sayings that are mine to keep admit it once, i’ll lock it away never for anyone to peek