No one's here to hear my pleas
You said you be back but you never came
A false thread of hope torments me
As I scream out for help your hope has done nothing but plunge me deeper into the water
Finally I stop trying and accept my fate
You were to late
All hope has to eventually deflate

You do not understand
I feel like screaming
Listen I am not done
I demand an answer
I can't be thrown away like that
I am not alive to serve you hand and foot
Don't play innocent
You have never been innocent
I was just stupid
I am to trusting I couldn't see the fact that you where using me
But I am just a child what could I know
I know that I cared but you didn't...

I know what it feels like
To be
pushed,
hit,
Kicked,
laughed at,
to feel worthless
to be told to **** myself
to be late to class just to avoid my bullies
to ask teachers for help and not get help
I hate to say it but if I had the chance to make them pay for what they did, I would

I will still be waiting here for you to return
You will be damaged and broken
But it is the only time you turn to your real friends

You didn’t love him because you don’t destroy something you love.  He lost inside.
I don’t know what to do about it.
    Ever since she left him, he has been lost I can tell the only reason he let me in is to pick up the pieces a broken heart and find a lost soul.
         She had the dignity to tell me she was just using him. That is one secret that I will take to the grave.
    I can tell that he doesn’t want to suffer alone, but I am suffering hearing him tell me how he feels about it.
The one person that  would take a bullet for me, protect me no matter what I did, my only true friend,  is suffering and I don’t know how to fix it.
Have you ever watch something you love be destroyed by the hands of others.
If you have you know how I feel the despair,  loneliness, and the fact that you know you can’t fix it. 
 Does that mean that they don’t notice how you feel or does it mean that your just their second choice?

Nobody really cares
If they cared then they would say someting
however they stay quite
and watch my slowly die inside
all they have ever said is that I could handle it
well guess what
I CAN'T HANDLE IT ANYMORE

Would you notice
The people dying from hunger if they were on your doorstep
Would you notice
The broken and abused kids if the were sleeping in your bed
Would you notice
The neglected and hopeless pets if they were in your backyard
Would you notice
The hurt and unclean young girls if they were in your living room
Would you notice the people in need of help if they were right in front you face

I didn't notice until it was to late for me to change my fate
You used me for your twisted uses until you got bored
It was like a withdraw
You left me when you had someone new to play your twisted game with
I didn't understand I guess I didn't get the memo
Because the day you left I still tried to say hello

Pain and anger
It feels as if it's not me
I feel like a puppet doing and saying as you command
I feel like a fool only meant to sit still and lifeless until you say otherwise
I am not a human anymore but an object that does and says what I am told to

Take care of it
Fix it
change it
Take care of your problems
Fix yourself
Change yourself
Because we don't like how you are
I just sit back and laugh
Well I don't like how you are
How about you take care of your own drama
How about you fix your clothes so it doesn't show everything
And finally How about you change your opinion on how a girl should look and act
Because I think your funny

Dear ghost,                                                           ­       
Do you know who I am
I don't know who you are
So how do you know me
I see you staring but I don't know your name
I don't know who you are
I wished I did because
You make people laugh
You make them smile
You make them happy
Maybe with a ghost I could be happy too

What happen between us
We used to be friends now you avoid talking about me much less talking too me
I used cry every night wondering why I have lost you as a friend
Now I just lay down and stare at the window numbly wondering what I did wrong...

Broken and confused
I sit alone watching the world go by
Nobody pays me any attention
So alone I sit
Facing the world by myself

If we fall all the time why do we get back up?
If we are destined to die why do we try to fight it?
We set ourselves up for disappointment
By trusting people when we can’t even trust ourselves

Why can't we all just get along
Aren't we all apart of the same race The human race
I believe that we should be proud of where we came from
I believe that we should all be able to hold are heads up high no matter what we are
I believe that we should be equal in the eyes of others
I believe that we should not be judge by where we came from, but by how we
represent it
I believe that we are all the same no matter what we
look like,
believe in,
come from.
I believe that we are equal

Nobody showed me how to love in school
I never learned the definition
I never had vocab test on it
Never read a chapter in those stupid textbooks on it
Never watched a bill nye video on it
So how was I supposed to know when you said I love you You were lying

I used to think that we were friends
But that was back before you were accepted
You are no longer the book that can't fit on the shelf
I used to think that everybody should be your friend
But now I see how it has changed you
I  used to think that we could have been everything and more
But that was before people knew your name
That was before you meet them
That was before
This is the after
Your friendship means everything to me
But only when you can do something for me
Why haven't you replied I texted you ten minutes ago
Doesn't answer a text for three months

You told me you loved me
You told me you cared
You told me that I was your bestfriend
Only to let me find out that you were just using me
My secrets where given away to smoke and mirrors
Did you really think I wouldn't find out
I knew all along but lied to myself for you

I am not good enough to make you stay. I can tell that you don’t even notice me anymore,all you notice is her. She hurt me in a way that you will never know. She hurt me because I envy her.
I envy everything that you see in her from the way she talks to the way she walks.
Your everything to me but I am nothing to you. I am your bestfriend and you have never thought of me any other way.
Do you remember when you said you liked the way me face lit up when you walk into the room? You made me feel special now I feel like nothing.
Was it all just a game do you take pleasure with playing with my emotions? You act like it never happened I wonder if she knows what she has?
I would love to be him and for you to notice me but I am not him I am nothingness…