I am not good enough to make you stay. I can tell that you don’t even notice me anymore,all you notice is her. She hurt me in a way that you will never know. She hurt me because I envy her.
I envy everything that you see in her from the way she talks to the way she walks.
Your everything to me but I am nothing to you. I am your bestfriend and you have never thought of me any other way.
Do you remember when you said you liked the way me face lit up when you walk into the room? You made me feel special now I feel like nothing.
Was it all just a game do you take pleasure with playing with my emotions? You act like it never happened I wonder if she knows what she has?
I would love to be him and for you to notice me but I am not him I am nothingness…

You feel better cutting your woes away?
I see you hide the scars that you can’t help but give yourself.
Falling in the darkness and not having the strength to pull yourself out.
I can’t help but watch as you fall again and blame yourself for something you didn’t do.
How can you help someone up who pushes themselves down? Slowly wishing for death in the darkness of a bathroom.
Crying out for death to take the pain away you mutter I feel better

Love is a hand to hold on long car rides
Love is wearing your jacket
Love is hugs before classes
What you did to me was not love
You judged how I talked
You hated my friends
I am not your maid
I will not sit and wait on you hand and foot
I will find real love without you

I live many lies
I love so many that I need someone to remind me who I was
Someone to hold the broken pieces together
To glue the remainder of my heart back together
I need someone to hold me when I can't sit still
I need someone to make me laugh when I am about to cry
I need you

Always watching
never noticed
Living through others
Spreading a bit of pain to every life I touched

The heat brushing against my skin
Your words echoing in my head
Your body perfectly built for worshipping with my eyes
Your breathing heavily like the perfect melody
The feeling of heat between my thighs as I look into your eyes and finally claim you as mine