Sloth and slow
Unable to quaver
Full of life
Your words are like an arsenic drip
slowly destroying me from the inside
Times have changed dramatically for me
things to be so
For I now move In the
world as a single man again after twenty
Oh how strange that all now feels almost surreal
In no more than a blink
All has gone don't think
I'll ever come to terms
with the feeling of perminate
Coming to terms with grief
It all now feels Perminate the
loss so surreal all gone just
Understand that silence is actually loud.
A woman’s silence is very deafening.
In a world of noise,
you were my silence.
And I just listened to you all day.
substantial breakable quiet, the moon
shimmers above, a great beacon of tranquility
the night whispers a hidden new tune
and hides its face in an attempt at humility
quickly the sound is gone too soon
a misty white evening
with boats on the bay
the water churning, until it is gray
an empty stillness weaving
the tapestry of the night
a multitude of dreams, and quiet hearts
the living hold breath, at the magnificent sight
because of the silence, the mind can't help but spark
we are a simple people, it is with the absence of sound
Our scholars and our work, have become renowned
in the beginning, there was silence and today there still is,
we cannot live without the quiet, unbearable though it is.
I don't know what this is honestly.
i don't want to tell anyone
i don't want to talk about it
if i talk about it that means it's real
i don't want it to be.
i know what this is but i can't say it im sorry
As I walk an all too quiet house
glass under my feet,
I look for the whereabouts,
the place all my sanity retreats.
A temple modeled after the greatest intentions
and point of my attention.
I hear the clocks
ticking a warning, looking, a response,
trying to let me know
these walls will never let me go.
This home is built of memories
not concrete or tile or trees.
Built off of everything I want to be,
how I devote my character to thee.
my only tyrant.
My pain and misery,
from this toxicity.
Come back, knock, the door
anything to make it louder once more.
I have finally come to the conclusion,
that I do not love myself.
that I don't love the way i smile,
I hate that I am quite,
that I'm introverted and
would rather prefer to spend my days alone,
rather than surrounded by people.
I'm trying to improve how I view myself,
however, how do you change your perspective
when you have been living it for years?
to those that dont love themselves. this has been my biggest struggle this year.
there's an aching rhythm to my bones.
they cry and they call out;
please please, we want to go home.
and i don't know how to reply
and i don't know what to say
other than i know, i know.