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hannah May 2018
Faking being happy
Lies served with a smile
Boredom seeps from the cracks
Scared smothered and covered with false personality
Insecurities fed with food to make us feel better
Tear drops behind closed doors
Death’s associated with happiness justs so we don’t break down
Because when we break down people can see us for what we really are
hannah May 2018
Broken and confused
I sit alone watching the world go by
Nobody pays me any attention
So alone I sit
Facing the world by myself
hannah Feb 2018
Am I the ghost from the past that follows you around
Am I the nobody you are try to shake
Am I the outcast that you don't care about
Am I the loser nobody needs
Am I...
hannah May 2018
People have led me to believe that I am not good enough
They don’t think of the consequences of what they say anymore
I cry behind closed doors wondering what I did wrong to be the way I am
Let's put it the way it is I am not pretty, skinny, or smart enough for anybody
hannah Mar 2020
Stomach in knots
Eyes on the ground
Scared of the words
People spew out of there mouth
Scared of the voices
The doubt spread by fear
Anxiety screaming out
hannah Feb 2018
I know what it feels like
To be
laughed at,
to feel worthless
to be told to **** myself
to be late to class just to avoid my bullies
to ask teachers for help and not get help
I hate to say it but if I had the chance to make them pay for what they did, I would
I don't understand why anybody would feel the need to push someone past their breaking point. I have been bullied before and everybody told me to forgive and forget but it's my choice so what if I don't want to forgive and forget.
hannah May 2018
I don’t know what to do anymore….
People here are so fake it's funny
They put on a show  for the world
Fake being brave is one thing but to fake who you are is another
people hide behind fake people nobody is what the seem.
hannah Dec 2018
We are expected to put on make up for the same people who will just use and abuse us
Why do people define a girl as a boys plaything
We are so much more than that
We are united against a idea
The idea that trys to hold us back but we will not allow it
We will push a little harder then any guy out their, we will run a little faster
Just to prove that we are equal to them
hannah Feb 2018
I am not good enough to make you stay. I can tell that you don’t even notice me anymore,all you notice is her. She hurt me in a way that you will never know. She hurt me because I envy her.
I envy everything that you see in her from the way she talks to the way she walks.
Your everything to me but I am nothing to you. I am your bestfriend and you have never thought of me any other way.
Do you remember when you said you liked the way me face lit up when you walk into the room? You made me feel special now I feel like nothing.
Was it all just a game do you take pleasure with playing with my emotions? You act like it never happened I wonder if she knows what she has?
I would love to be him and for you to notice me but I am not him I am nothingness…
hannah Feb 2018
As I scribble all the the questions I want to ask you
I slowly die inside knowing that I if I have trouble saying hi
how am I going to ask you the questions on my mind
hannah Mar 2020
Sleepy but not tired
Eyes closed but not asleep
I see you when I daydream
hannah Feb 2018
Death I can tell you have always wonder what it would feel like to die.
Would it be painless, will you remember the ones you loved, or will you see how they talked about you when you were not around?
Will they even notice your gone or will they be over it in a day only talking about you to have others feel bad?
Will the people who hated you the most talk bad about you like always or will they pretend that you were their best friend?
hannah Mar 2018
I knew as soon as I seen you I was in trouble.You held a shotgun and a smile. How was I supposed to run away from You, when all I want to do was run towards you?
How am I supposed to hide from the one thing I want to keep close by me? How was I supposed to fight you, when I couldn't even stand to see you hurt? I stand there as you smile and then I understand this is what  you want from me.
If my death is all I have to offer you, then who am I to complain if you take it. After all they say that death is the sweetest when one is with their love one during the last moments.
When you tell someone that you would take a bullet for them, that still counts if they are the ones behind the gun.
hannah Feb 2018
Sometimes it is better to delete the person with the messages. Wash their toxic touches off one by one. Cry until you drench the image of them. Scream until you can no longer hear their voice and Erase their name from your brain. Say their name over and over until their name loses flavor. So when someone says their name in a conversation you no longer know who they are talking about.
hannah Jan 2020
Always watching
never noticed
Living through others
Spreading a bit of pain to every life I touched
hannah Apr 2019
You can't do this to me
You can't leave me like this
Don't tell me pretty little lies
Don't say your my everything when in realty you are nothing
Don't rip me down the seam
Don't tell me your here when you are really somewhere else
In your mind you are still with her
I will always be second
hannah Mar 2018
Do you notice me
Why do people always ask that of themself
I don't understand why people care so much about the way they look,
We should all be fine without being noticed
We should be happy with the way we look, walk, talk, weigh, love
hannah May 2018
How does nobody see the mask that everybody puts on
Is it because they are so busy fixing their own
hannah Apr 2018
I will still be waiting here for you to return
You will be damaged and broken
But it is the only time you turn to your real friends
hannah Sep 2018
Girls think they fall in love with guys
But they do not understand what's falling in love
Because I fell in love with a place
I fell in love with this place and now it holds my heart
I am never happy if I am not there
I don't feel if I am not there
I fell in love with a place that got ripped out of my hands
hannah Mar 2020
The moon
That's what I see when people talk about their flaws
I don't believe the moon exists.
hannah Mar 2020
The beauty in his eyes
The wicked smile that would lead to my own demise
But I was drawn to the ocean in his heart
The calming wind of his rage
Constantly inconsistent
My love for him rages on
hannah Feb 2018
push him away
2. stop talking about him to your friends
3. start talking to new people
4. start going out more
5.start looking at guys
6. I bet you don't even know his name anymore
hannah May 2018
I guess what you give is what you get
I didn’t realise what it felt until I got what I deserved
Tossed out like trash I am
Abandoned by my best friend just like the horrible friend I am
Rejected like the Reject I am
Played with like the player I am
Life dies in front of me into a puddle of understanding and feeling sorry for what I put other people into……..
hannah May 2018
Am I really the death of you
The reason that you failed at life
Could I fix the  problem if I am the problem
hannah Feb 2018
Nobody really cares
If they cared then they would say someting
however they stay quite
and watch my slowly die inside
all they have ever said is that I could handle it
well guess what
hannah Feb 2018
You feel better cutting your woes away?
I see you hide the scars that you can’t help but give yourself.
Falling in the darkness and not having the strength to pull yourself out.
I can’t help but watch as you fall again and blame yourself for something you didn’t do.
How can you help someone up who pushes themselves down? Slowly wishing for death in the darkness of a bathroom.
Crying out for death to take the pain away you mutter I feel better
hannah Dec 2018
I live many lies
I love so many that I need someone to remind me who I was
Someone to hold the broken pieces together
To glue the remainder of my heart back together
I need someone to hold me when I can't sit still
I need someone to make me laugh when I am about to cry
I need you
hannah Mar 2018
I sit here not over there with the smart kids
I sit here not over there with the "cool" kids
I sit here not over there with the happy kids
I sit here not over there with the emo kids
I sit here not over there with the dorky kids
I sit here not over there with the gamer kids
       I don't fit in anywhere
hannah May 2018
Deadly snakes twist their way up my back
I was their tamer but the are not tame
They slowly twist and I see my life flash before my eyes
But is it wrong to say that I am glad I am gone
hannah Mar 2018
I know it's wrong to like u
When she likes u too
I don't want to be the person to hurt her
I will just keep it a secret forever
to protect her
It's crazy to I thought it would have worked out
It's crazy because she is all you need
she is crazy for you too
hannah Apr 2018
Tears splatter over the keyboard
He is yours not mine
Why do I do the things that I do
(I think I  like you)Backspace and delete
I can't do that your hers
and she is yours I don't fit in
So please don't get mad when I cut you off completely
I can't do this if your in front of me all the time
so instead I type ( I can't stand you) send
hannah Mar 2020
I wish I could yell out all my anger
I wish I could cry away my sadness
I wish I could be allowed to feel my feelings but that is not the way a lady behaves.
So, I cross my legs
So, I smile and nod
So, I pretend
hannah May 2018
They tell me fight back, but is it worth fighting.
Is life worth the fight anymore...
hannah Feb 2018
Love is a hand to hold on long car rides
Love is wearing your jacket
Love is hugs before classes
What you did to me was not love
You judged how I talked
You hated my friends
I am not your maid
I will not sit and wait on you hand and foot
I will find real love without you
hannah Apr 2019
Love is fake
People have made it to were it is just a word
The use it and abuse it
Tearing people down inch by inch
Till they can't even trust themselves
It gives people fake hope
It makes then believe in something that isn't real
It makes people go insane
Never really knowing if its real or not
hannah May 2019
We create a divider between the people in the struggle to be better then one another
What has this world became in the mass destruction for a single rose
Just to trample over hundreds of others
When did the evil win
When did we start to give up
hannah May 2018
The only mistake I made is you
hannah Mar 2018
My first monster
As the blood drips through the cracks of your fake disguise
Skin peeling off from the fake body you claimed as your own
You wear the face of a friend but the intents of my worst foe
Lust seeping from every pore of your body
My second monster
The face of a man twisted until it hurts
The sound of his merciless crys
Limping slowly towards my bed post
They crawl towards me
And I hold them close because they are just like me
hiding behind a disguise, and withering in pain.
hannah Feb 2020
The heavy weight pressed against my chest as I stumble over the words.
Falling on my face has become inevitable but yet I still hope you will catch me.
hannah Aug 2020
I know your lost, scared, and confused
stumbling around but you got your feet on the ground
You learned to keep you head up high
They told you just marching soldier
They asked you why the frown
with each step you slowly come undone
And your upset because the battle is not yet done
So you struggle as they beat you down and ask you why the frown
hannah Feb 2018
No one's here to hear my pleas
You said you be back but you never came
A false thread of hope torments me
As I scream out for help your hope has done nothing but plunge me deeper into the water
Finally I stop trying and accept my fate
You were to late
All hope has to eventually deflate
hannah May 2019
I feel nothing
The world is dead to me I am lost in my own silence
I no feel the torment of your abuse
I  no longer hear you bringing me down with every step of the way
I don't feel anything and I have never been more at peace
hannah Mar 2018
Would you notice
The people dying from hunger if they were on your doorstep
Would you notice
The broken and abused kids if the were sleeping in your bed
Would you notice
The neglected and hopeless pets if they were in your backyard
Would you notice
The hurt and unclean young girls if they were in your living room
Would you notice the people in need of help if they were right in front you face
hannah Mar 2020
The heat brushing against my skin
Your words echoing in my head
Your body perfectly built for worshipping with my eyes
Your breathing heavily like the perfect melody
The feeling of heat between my thighs as I look into your eyes and finally claim you as mine
hannah May 2018
People don’t understand the impact they have on other people’s lives. They act as if they are the only ones with that are allowed to be upset. Sometimes I  wish I could go back into time
Call me what you want but I will not cry in front of you, but behind closed doors I will scream, and yell and weep my sorrows away.
hannah Mar 2018
Why can't we all just get along
Aren't we all apart of the same race The human race
I believe that we should be proud of where we came from
I believe that we should all be able to hold are heads up high no matter what we are
I believe that we should be equal in the eyes of others
I believe that we should not be judge by where we came from, but by how we
represent it
I believe that we are all the same no matter what we
look like,
believe in,
come from.
I believe that we are equal
hannah Aug 2018
Pain and anger
It feels as if it's not me
I feel like a puppet doing and saying as you command
I feel like a fool only meant to sit still and lifeless until you say otherwise
I am not a human anymore but an object that does and says what I am told to
hannah May 2019
Calming playful breeze runs it's fingers through my hair
  Salt water gently nips at my ankles
I watch the sunset over the ocean
The mix of colors setting just right over the horizon
Getting lost in the warmth of the moment
Losing myself to the picture
hannah Mar 2020
Tormented by the voices
That rattle against my head.
The whirlwind, spinning, and twisting my thoughts.

The outside a picture of perfect calm
Perfectly happy
Smile and nod
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