Every moment is so small and brief
Yet is worth more than one can fathom
Sometimes joy, other times grief
A lot of the time it can be random

I wonder if the bad and good balances
And everyone is meant to live equally
Thinking like that has consequences
And I don’t have time for that really

So I choose to be selfish, make life mine
To make myself more important than others
If it all leads to happiness, isn't that fine?
Can I float along, not a leaf but as a feather?

My self worth is not mine
It is defined by those around
If they're happy it's fine
Even if I'm drowned
Sinking in this cement
Never can I be content

I adore each friend
Because I see a soul
Pain it will amend
Again make me whole
Stave away my torment
As never can I be content

I cannot always rely
On those around me
To help me get by
And set me free
Self love must be my intent
Or else never can I be content

A student wanting to learn
To love who I am
So I never have to yearn
For help when I stand
I can then invent
My own life of content

We always feel entitled in life
That the world revolves around us
To have everything with no strife
The world bends to us, it must

Except that is not our right
We deserve is what we earn
After we work and we fight
This is what some don't learn

They think life is their's to bend
That they deserve strength and pride
But without work it will be their end
Fueled only by entitlement, they died

Our only God given privilege
Is the right to be happy
To pursue that ambiguous image
All else is earned ultimately

The good life is ours to pursue
No one allowed to stand in our way
Earning our keep is hard, it's true
But our right to life will never go away

In this fight
Insides twisting
World black and white
Battle of existing
World keeps bringing
But I'm still here swinging

Blow after blow
I'm on the ground
Get up, I don't know
My mind unsound
The crowd cringing
Cuz I'm still here swinging

They tell me to stop
To lay down and die
I can't be on top
So why even try
Wounds stinging
I don't know why I'm swinging

Yet I get up again
It's never easy
Moving past this pain
So much I'm dizzy
But that fat lady ain't singing
So I'm still here swinging

Cracked and broken,
Pieces scattered,
From a dream awoken,
To being shattered,
Broken from what I lack,
I can feel every crack.

Each piece has a story,
Of life, in of itself,
Some times of glory,
Others of poor health,
All these memories on my back,
It's no wonder I crack.

So instead I pull together,
And fill in what's missing,
With gold and put pressure,
Until all the cracks glisten,
Now I stand up, broken,
But within gold is woven.

It's easy to say
That I would die for you
When I'm far from death

It's easy to say
I'll do anything for you
When there's nothing to do

It's easy to say
"I promise"
When there's nothing to break

It's hard to say
I'll live for you
When there's nothing left

Burrowing, digging, feasting on us
A parasite using humanity as a host
Eating at the necessities and essentials
Stealing away your pride and credentials

What it is, is the all knowing dictator, the “man”
The one who points at everyone but himself
A false prophet propped up by influence and money
Got where he is through manipulation so ugly

A hard worker unrecognized
A leader tunneled on wealth
A family poor and despised
A nation swimming in its own filth

People’s portraits painted a certain colour
For other’s to see and blame without reason
Under a veil of justice there is corruption
Down below is the pain of separation

A world dictated by status and privilege
Equality is but a myth, a dystopian notion
The head is corrupt, parasite in control
A body in pain, paying the ultimate toll

A baby crying, now starving
A politician crying, now corrupt
A soul crying, now departing
A flower crying, now plucked

We were so close
A friend in life
Who could take my woes
And cut them with a knife
Yet I was a flake
I want to mend this mistake

I chased others
Who said they'd stay
Then flew like feathers
The very next day
My heart they take
I want to mend this mistake

I missed your presence
The way we smiled
We were a menace
Living life wild
For our own sake
I want to mend this mistake

Then one day you spoke
And still cared for me
You fixed what I broke
And I felt so happy
Now I lie awake
Mended is my mistake

I wake up to shadows
My body unable to move
Panic begins to set in
These visions inhuman

My eyes are barely open
I can see them moving
I'm awake it seems
Yet I'm still in a dream

The shadows move closer
They shift and whisper
I wonder what they say
As I panic where I lay

Here I realize something
How good it feels to choose
What happens around me
And how I shape my reality

Creativity and art
Come from the unhinged
The insanity, the beast
Our unchained selves

Only when we truly see
Beyond norms and regularities
Outside the everyday mundane

Does the beauty so magnificent
Comes absolutely

Terrifying

Sometimes I'm in the dark
And the night closes in
I live with this mark
Sadness upon my skin
Ask if I'm okay and I want to lie
Because I never want to see you cry

It can get hard to move
My feelings are howling
But your care it does soothe
No longer it feels like drowning
I feel happy and begin to fly
Because I never want to see you cry

The world keeps spinning
And life goes on
Yet just beginning
A new day's begun
I want to go on, ask why
Because I never want to see you cry

New Mazdas flying overhead
The air is clean and clear
Worries of pollution dead
This world is full of cheer
A world for us to thrive
What a time to be alive

On the ground we bled
Around us is only fear
Nuclear waste where we tread
Death in our atmosphere
Why did the missiles arrive?
What a time to be alive

The sidewalk moves me along
To my new job downtown
Birds chirping their song
To the cities bustling sound
Around only clean cars drive
What a time to be alive

All our decisions were wrong
Our wars ruptured the ground
Left are only the strong
Even so life is barely found
It's been this way since I was five
What a time to be alive

The day ends as I go to dinner
The people around me joyful
And all we have to consider
Is how we to make our bellies full
Into our meal we dive
What a time to be alive

Every day we grow thinner
The dirt I have to eat is awful
Punishments for us as sinners
Humans, the environment culls
For the earth that died
What a time to be alive

I leave the table, answer my phone
My wife asks when I'll be back
Broken is the cleaning drone
I tell her, "After dinner with Jack"
Thankful for my beautiful bride
What a time to be alive

At first I believed I was alone
But in the darkness I hear a crack
All I imagine is my tombstone
As my death waits in the black
No where for me to hide
What a time to be alive

The night ends, and I pay
I walk home and think
About how it got this way
No more is hate's stink
All that's left is love's order
A world of hope and wonder

The night ends, and I pray
No more living at the brink
Why does it have to stay
A place of darkness' ink
Where all that's left are monsters
A world of misery and terror

If you're someone's friend
You do what you can

If you love someone
You do all you can

and then some...

If we're angels in life
We get to live with them
In heaven with no strife
To life eternal, we come

In life what I did sadly
Wasn't what made an angel
I did what made me happy
In the end fate was cruel

Continue what I'm doing
And I'd be sent to hell
My sins began accruing
But my soul I won't sell

Those I love, act the same
So we are not perfect
To win heaven's game
Our beliefs we must forfeit

How can heaven be so great
If my friends can't follow
I'd rather have hell as my fate
Than go to heaven hollow

Heard was the “Iceberg dead ahead!”
The titanic continued to keep its course
The captain feeling heavy as lead
Already feeling the weight of remorse
The impact reflecting their woe
The iceberg has so much more below

They began to sink to the bottom
The ship filling and breaking
Falling like the leaves of autumn
Those trapped start peeking
Under the iceberg lies a show
The iceberg has so much more below

Light begins to dance in the ice
Moon shining through the night
Little stars dancing like mice
More to be seen than at first sight
Entirely different view down low
The iceberg has so much more below

If only they could stay forever
Watching the beauty that lies there
As they fell down even deeper
Their lives complete, void of care
Because of the true sight and glow
Of an iceberg that has so much more below

Acting to please others
Yet why even try?
Most end up bothers
Rest quickly say goodbye
It's always a lot of stress
To try and always impress

There are too many people
To care about every person
But in my back like a needle
Is a need for acception
I end up becoming a mess
Trying to always impress

I can feel their eyes
Judging my every move
As if they're more wise
Myself I have to prove
I am their slave, I confess
Always trying to impress

Except this is all in my head
I need to stop creating strife
So I matter when I'm dead
To those who care about my life
But to truly end this distress
I must be the first one I impress

I can feel my heart beating
I am ready for it to stop
But there's a feeling inside
Telling me just wait, I'm not done

This feeling is life, in of itself
Why do I live? For who?
If a dew drop were to fall
The other droplets would droop
But only for a moment
Then go back to normal, as if none the less

If a leaf is meant to eventually fall
It's journey meaningless
Why should I grow

Sometimes when I think
About people struggling
Pushed to the brink
I feel nothing
This isn't anything old
All I feel is cold

Emotion is fleeting
Happiness absent
Despair receding
My mind stagnant
Soul has been sold
All I feel is cold

Nothing is what's left
Gone are life's sparks
But I am not dead yet
A walking corpse
Emptiness uncontrolled
All I feel is cold

It takes three things to be happy
This life decides to torture us though
Two at a time it says, a thing of cruelty
For we only get to give life one go
Because of this impossible is serenity
Time, money, and energy

We begin life with an open mind
All the time we need to run free
Fast as we have energy combined
But to go at all we must pay a fee
With money we don’t have you see
Time, money, and energy

Now we are older and working
All this money to spend on us
Still have our youth to keep running
But no time, back to work we must
Caged by responsibility no longer free
Time, money, and energy

Life coming to a close, show ending
We have our fortune earned and ready
No more work, time to be spending
Alas no more energy to keep steady
Our bones ache, our youth lost at sea
Time, money, and energy

Is happiness made to be impossible?
Well that’s the funny thing really
Happiness is easily the most affordable
With 2 colours we can paint life artfully
Creating our happiness, a thing of beauty
Time, money, and energy

Throughout my life
I've tried to be the best
No matter the strife
I was to be above rest
Now it's gotten tough
Good enough isn't good enough

I forgot how I felt
The grade was all I saw
To see my name spelt
For others to yell "Hurrah!"
But really I'm in a handcuff
Good enough isn't good enough

Trapped by expectations
I was under infinite stress
Recently I've had a revelation
I'd rather be happy, not the best
To be happy is good enough
Because life is short, gone in a puff

I don't know where to go

Trapped in this thread
My entire life is here
My soul fills with dread
And all I feel is fear

I never saw this coming
Flying high with no care
In my way I saw nothing
Invisible was this snare

A silk so smooth
A soul that can't move
A strung up person
A life that can't worsen

Then I see those eyes
Eyes of a predator below
I look to the skies
Looking for God's glow

But he is not there
And I have nothing
Below fangs bare
I prepare for my ending

A life frozen in time
A beast that can't climb
A cage is life's sling
A web the only thing

That keeps us from the monsters below

A reckless nature, the seed of disaster
Impulsive at heart, chaos flowing
In a world of mayhem I am master
My first instinct always showing
Who cares it's not my bullet bit
All because I feel like it

The universe even knows the truth
That to stay alive we need chaos
To create disorder and keep our youth
Destroy harmony, the fool's oasis
I hate this world, every piece meant to fit
All because I feel like it

Entropy a euphemism for discord
Actions meant to dictated by instinct
A message so loud it brings down the Lord
From his seat he creates order so distinct
I feel compelled to make even his will submit
All because I feel like it

It’s madness that’s come over me
To want to break the perfect machinery
That moves like a mind in harmony
It’s a want for a change in scenery
For a need is too easy to permit
All because I feel like it

Is it a sin to live and act on a whim?
To forgo all thought and just do
Thinking leads to an outcome grim
Even if logic says I’ll come through
I’d rather blank and go for the hit
All because I feel like it

Impulsiveness is known to be for fools
But for me it’s an escape from reality
For I become different than the tools
That move the machine so carefree
I continue to act my way, never quit
All because I feel like it

Love is something unique
A feeling we long for
It makes it hard to speak
Sometimes leaves us sore
We can never deny though
It is beautiful as winter's snow

When the snow finally falls
We can only stare in awe
Our hearts, the snowflakes call
Amazing is nature's law
Never need to be spoken of
Is the beauty that is akin to love

Love enraptures the soul
It drives us to be the best
Our happiness, we take control
So our love has no contest
Like the winter's glow
Our love is beautiful as snow

Snow can melt very quickly
It's beauty already regressing
So you must act swiftly
To make the most of this blessing
Yet similar to love, there is a chance
Snow will stay like a perfect romance

I feel my heart beating again
The world is collapsing
There's no way out but drown
Until I realized there is an up to this down

I feel something changing,
Something writhing
It's my soul black and dead
Ignited anew by a flame instead

Changing as I change
Feeling as I feel
I am no longer the leaf
Destined to fall

There is purpose to my growth
Reason to my being
I am one of many sisters, brothers
Surrounded by others

Not held down
But kept up
They are not the similar current
So I accept something different

I am the sun
Ready to shine
Upon the leaves
That kept me so safe

I felt all of this pain
Tired of all these bothers
So to douse the flame
I asked help from others
But I just heard the sound
Of me being turned down

I didn't understand
Why did they not believe
That I needed a hand
I wasn't trying to deceive
So why do they frown
And turn me down?

My life may be great
Friends and family here
Yet myself I hate
And the future I fear
Lost and need to be found
Yet you turn me down

I trusted all of them
To help me up when I fell
But now I'm just a problem
An issue to expel
So it doesn't matter I drown
You would rather turn me down

The only people you trust
Must be chosen like fine art
Never feeling like they must
Their help always from heart
So they will never let me down
They make me feel safe and sound

Death is the end
And it scares us
But it's also our friend
Something we can trust

Life is so wild and bold
Potential everywhere
But it's the same old same old
It begins to lose its flare

But it never lasts
A set amount of time
It goes by so fast
This end a crime

We fear when life concludes
And we can't feel anymore
Negative are our attitudes
About death's door

So we fight back
And live life to the fullest
Our happiness an attack
The love we feel our bullet

Against death we fight
But that's what he desires
For us to be bright
Before he puts out our fires

I lived at home so long
And then one move away
Makes home feel wrong
My new place I want to stay

Away from my old problems
I don't want to go back
A new experience blossoms
I finally feel on track

This new life feels better
Home isn't home anymore
The sun shines brighter
Allowing me to explore

Despite forgetting my roots
I am someone I want to be
Eating from life's fruits
To experience life fully

The skin I have is dark
And that's all most see
I walk around with a mark
That says I can never just be
I feel like a different breed
My freedom never guaranteed

People are born different
Their love may be unique
Sadly some aren't considerate
And treat them like a freak
They think they're some ****
My freedom never guaranteed

I started with nothing
Poverty knocking at my door
If I were to wish for something
It wouldn't be to have more
But to never have to need
My freedom never guarenteed

All of this makes me different
Yet it makes me who I am
I'd rather a societal aberrant
Than part of a program
To be free is to concede
So I'd rather be me than be freed

It's easy to say
No one understands me
When I don't even explain

It's easy to feel
The world breaking around me
When I don't even try to fix it

It's easy to see
What's wrong
When I close my eyes to what's right

It's easy to hear
You can't do it
When I tell myself that

It's hard to believe
Someone can love me
When I can't love them back

An easy breeze on a hot day
A free apple off of a tree
These are the little things in life
We don't ask nor do we give,
They just happen and we go on
The little things aren't given second thought
But they give us a little smile everyday,
Enjoy things in life that just happen
Because one day we won't see them