Some days
You will feel
Like a fine wine
Dressed up and fantastic
Complemented
By your buffet of friends
Some days
You feel like
Watered down kool aid
Artificial at best
Trying to be
Something you aren't
In a world parched of love
You will find both will do
However you feel
Share what you have
Some of you

You can try to fix it
Or just live with it
But dont fix it
Til its damaged

Carbon steel can be easily damaged.  The human heart is so much more fragile.

Keeping someone
Perfect in a box
Is only valuable
To the one
Who got rid of you

The blur of grey
I felt it as you snuck up on me
Trying to hide from it
Should I show you my face
I'd never seen that in you before
You fumbled your words
Watching and waiting
I'm not brave enough
I'll wait till you are

I wish
I could
Give out
Extra
Weekend days
Like candy

Pink jelly beans
Kinda don't like your taste
Not sure what flavor
You're supposed to be
Maybe generic Barbie?
Please
Don't take this personal
Still very cute
Someone loves you
But
Apparently
I don't enjoy the taste of
Mystery

I just ate
The last
Of the
Rocky Road
Out of the carton
Eating
My feelings away...
There wasn't much left
For me

I watched you swim
Under the blue raspberry
Pink vanilla
Sugar spun sky
The nostalgia of your innocence
Made me realize
My life could not be any sweeter
Than this
Then you proved me wrong
With your gazed upward view
And whispered
Daddy
I want to be just like you

I dreamt of you again
This time in color
Colors never seen before
The shades of you
Didn't speak
But the
Color from your lips kiss
Was Adore
Please...
Tell me more

Seeing her turn around
Watching him
Walk into the room
Both adorned
Made his way to her
Leaned over the row of chairs
Her upper body pulled towards him
An embrace
His left hand
On her long dark hair
Disheveled upon where
Her neck meets her face
And then a sweet kiss
On her bloomed cheek
Meant just for her

Everything in my mind stopped...
This meant so many things to them
Hello my love
How are you? My best friend
My future
All the meanings of love
But
I've seen this before
Havent I?
Ever so openly
Simply done
When a older one kisses a baby
A mate kisses you goodnight
Kissing someone you've missed
This simple expression

But this
So secretly beautiful
In full view
Kindness and respect
For each other

In my mind
I looked around
And asked myself
Was I the only one
Who saw it the way I did?

I have something
In my eye
I think its love
What kind?
I'm not sure
There are
So many kinds
I feel

Pretend naps make
Imaginary dreams
Singing no lyrics
Dancing with me
Twirls I can't feel
My mouth is watering
The thirst is real
....
I need a real nap
So I can dream of you

I sometimes feel
My small words
Are just breadcrumbs here
(Compared to yours)
But then I remembered
My breadcrumbs keep
Your meatloaf together

You preferred the sunrise
But saw only gloom
Seeing your best friends
Smile
Tucked away in your memory
Took over
And
Lit up the room

Are you someones moment in time?

Or their

Eternity?

Hanging out
In your blind spot
Hoping
You'll accidentally
Notice me

Watching you wait
Tanned from the sun
Your glistening glow
On your week grown dark shadow
In your hot white shirt
Almost too hot to touch
Sitting on a Santorini wall
Your piercing dark features
Looking for me
Waiting for me
While I watch you

I can see the
Unfinished man
In pencil
That drawing that's missing
something  
The outline of you
The curves of you forming
But still not whole
Still seeing who you might be
What moves you make
I can even see where
You have been erased
Mistakes have been drawn over
Paper is worn a little
Even torn
But
I'll be patient
I'll wait
For you to fill in
Get your lines straight
For you to be complete

And
Drawn in ink

Romantic illusion
Carnival of curiosity
Deadly illusion

Going forward
Every day
Seeing in frequencies
And
Hearing in color
Reminds me
Sometimes
It's ok to get there
In reverse

I looked over
Saw her take your hand
Reminding me of a time
That never existed
And yet
I wanted so badly
To go there

I knew you loved me
When you curled up inside me
And took my pain away

I wish you could see
How big my tear looked from my vantage
Feel how big it felt falling
From the corner of my eye
Down my face
My mouth
My
Chin
My blanket
Only one tear?
That's all
I had the strength for

Walking in the room
Captivating
My attention
Without my permission

Everything on my body
That I have two of
Don't match perfectly
So why do my socks need to


Wednesday excuses

Standing on a porch
Living in your dream
Quiet still shadows
Shimmers on the water
Born of imagination
West view open water
Distant lake shoreline
Thunderstorms
Distant on the horizon
Flashes of lightning
So far off
No thunder
The stillness
The water like glass...
Homesick for the mystery
The unknown
I didn't long for anything else
In those moments

I
Want to be
That one that
Can be
Poured into
A wound
That needs
Healing...

I love that you
Treat me like a
Library book
Checking me out
All the time

I may be simple words
But if you
Write me some music
And let me translate them
With my voice
Then I will show you
They are simply
Not just
Words
Anymore

Even
In my dreams
I try
To make you
Safe
Comfortable
Loved
Holding you
Carefully
In my
Small hand

Even if the lyrics
To our song
Were none
It could be
A beautiful one...
My heart is
Waiting
To be filled
By your notes and chords
Go ahead
Practice on me...
I am here

Your voice
Deep soft tone
Is a comfort
Puts me to rest
The man voice
I never had
As a child
To read to me
Or even miss
Now I have my own
Who knew how badly
I needed this gift

The moon was brilliant
Last night
And yet...
I caught you
Staring
At me

I think I see you everywhere
But I can't find you
It hurts when I'm not near you
When you are gone
When Im gone
I feel something
This void I need filled
Where are you?
No matter when or where
The one place
I know you are
My safest location...
Pulling at my heartstrings

You stared at me
Longing
But didn't say anything
You were too far away
In your mind
So you wrote it down
And handed it to me...
I never saw words look
So deep before

Accentuated my concealment
By concealing what I should of Accentuated
I covered up
What I should of been bold to reveal
But I couldn't...

Simply
Out of fear

Burying yourself so deep
Now
Everyone can see

Why am I captivated by
What I don't even know
Like
What you are doing
Right now
Wait
Don't tell me
I like being in this
Mesmerizing stare
Of wonder

Accidental events

Being
Unconsciously drawn
To a peril
You can control

Engendering loss

Unresolved grief

Is data
Not
Created equally

I'm drawn
To you
But I would still
Rather  
Be
Pulled
Towards you

I listen to your song everyday
Somedays the lyrics are lush
Some they are few
But your music always
Touches

The vibe of you makes me melt
But not so I can sleep
Puddle of emotions
Cannot be explained
You let me inhale
A trace of that vibe
And it's all I need

It went
So deep
Time released
Embrace
It lasted for days
Leaving an imprint
On my being

That's how many days
We've been one
Its hard to remember
When we were two
When did two equal one?
9855 days ago ...
or so

Wooden, splinter

Ouch

Stupid box

Needs...

Desires...

You.

Made for you
You didn't use it

Can't get it back
Gone forever

Always there...
Is it waiting for itself?

If you find out
Let me know

I need more...

Diving deep into
The photograph
I see who you are
Touching the surface
With fingertips
Unable to feel
The warmth of your skin
Tracing your face
Touching your chin
Fully submerged in
The pool of your
Stare
I feel who you are
Deep in my heart

Drawn by the sadness of time
Minutes of repeated striations
Hours of wounded sketching
Days draining color
Outstare me...I dare you
Survey my damage
Morphing into
A dueling masterpiece

I dreamt of you
In black and white
But
Your voice
Was in color
I do not know
What words you said
But I heard
Shades of adore