If I can so easily see (and so deeply love)
both sides of your multifaced self, don't you think
you also can start at least try seeing and loving
yourself as equally beautiful (simultaneously, so) parts,
who's congruent sum so beautifully make within you,
the whole?
Look at you shoot and scoot (run back and hide)
after never even (until now) having a taste of being seen
(and yes, Babe.. loved) for who it is that you truly are
( a beautifully.. goobery, complex sum of the whole)..
growing, as you little by little embrace the truth,
and in doing so, have the broken-into-shards ,
tainted perspective within your trauma-stricken mind
become slowly rebuilt and renewed
into an accurate picture of the true you..
Even if that picture is conveyed back to you
as I hold the mirror's reflection up to you
(a reflection that your beautifully.. at times, open heart
paints upon innerwall linings of my heart-infused soul)
and then you admittedly (your beautiful honesty, again)
jet back into your world of daily distractions..
So I say to you, beautiful girl..
It is you that chose to reveal to me your true self
in a way that I could so easily grasp within all of who I am
as I struggled to keep myself from truly falling in love
with your gorgeously-blatant honesty..
so I ask you once again--
Why would you so beautifully choose to paint
your true self upon the inside of a man
that you knew and believed could actually convey
the utter and beautiful reality
of that incredible picture back to you:
but do it in such an unholy, sneaky way
as to be able to bypass any and all of your intricate,
security (survival) based defense system
in a way that the true view of you could (and can)
actually get through?
You fear the congealed congruency of the truth
of your own consolidated glory,
as if you are forced to live within the resignation
that the true parts within you
cannot co-exist equally and simultaneously
within you at the same time,
without the (feared) unbearable tension
and anxiety within you
causing your own spontaneous annihilation.
But still, young Beautiful...
You showed me you, anyways.
You did not do it because you hate you,
that we can both agree on..
But the manufactured (created) you
has a whole world of relation (its own form of 'connection')
built around the you that feels safe inside
if the presented image to that world
remains loved and cherished
But also, good as people that they are.. they find you..
(you, who so well emanates a self that congeals
with their emanated self).
..So when you enter into a room
that you can truly breathe (as your true self) in--
As you prepare to exit its beautiful doors,
you almost have to (temporarily) sever all there is of you
that you have so beautifully and tangibly painted (imprinted)
upon the insides of all of who it is that I am.
You are beautiful within your entirety.
I am not intimated by it, nor am I threatened
by the possibility of its beautifully shining glory
being 'stolen away' by another. The gift of it all to me
is that you have chosen to reveal your true self to me
even though you very well knew
what it was going to cost you--
(the stronghold within your manufactured self)
And so now, here you are--
shaking and trembling within the
unprotected tenderness of your own, newfound Glory.
You feel it here within these four walls
like you have felt it in no other place on earth,
..So why would you want to betray yourself
by running and hiding back into your detachment?
It is horrifying to be seen and loved like this, I agree..
But think of this...
What if what is seen and felt (Loved)
within the four walls of this private room
we are in together here,
is the true taste and pieces of True reality,
and most all outside of this,
only continual extensions of 'the game'.
What if this right here is how life (love)
was truly meant to be experienced and lived,
and most all other things out there..
just a well-built and contrived (machine) of distraction.
Let your own heart be your guide.
You can sit and play my guitars
while you unfold so beautifully (as you so well do)
right in front of me. In turn..
and through day after day
of me being there for you like that,
your beautiful war-torn mind will slowly
(and then, quickly) become renewed.
It will all be about (and for) you..
and when you have had your fill,
you can punch me in the nose
for my having a hand in plunging you
into "the horror" of it all,
But you truly also for the rest of your life,
will never be the same.
You are fascinating to me in all of your brilliant-minded,
gorgeousness. You are absolutely beautiful, kid.
This is what is truly real. This.
Think about it, there must be a higher love
Down in the heart or hidden in the stars above
Without it, life is wasted time
Look inside your heart, and I'll look inside mine
Things look so bad everywhere
In this whole world, what is fair?
We walk the line and try to see
Falling behind in what could be
Bring me a higher love
Bring me a higher love
Bring me a higher love
Where's that higher love I keep thinking of?
Worlds are turning, and we're just hanging on
Facing our fear, and standing out there alone
A yearning, yeah, and it's real to me
There must be someone who's feeling for me
Bring higher love (My love)
Where's that higher love I keep thinking of?
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#xoxo
