Why is there so much warmth touching cold nose tips in the frost of the morning;
Pressing foreheads together to share our secrets.
I beckoned you and the winter and we were both waiting for a spring that would never come.
Even if the storm outside raged you left snowflakes; strange, unique, & special.
So precious to want to touch and keep forever but too easy to melt.
We left it all in the cold; preserved and safe. We both walked away taking the warmth and melting with each step.

I wish you were here
I was I was a priority

I want to mean something
I wish to fade away gently

I wish I didn’t need things
I want to live less selfishly

Most importantly
I wish I wasn’t here

And tonight I go to sleep with a heavy heart

Burdened and not wanting to restart

Rest for ages and age bringing death

I fear what comes but I dare not take another breath

Am I ungrateful for a loss that does not outweigh gain

But a heart is a heart that will not easily change

For even a small loss can cause the greatest pain

I fear me, Dear

I’ve gone insane

Waiting is just a pain
and disappointment
I only have so much patience
You make me get my hopes up
Wishing you'd do all the things
I've seen on TV
This is reality
This is my reality
Maybe I want too much
But maybe it's what I deserve
And you've got nerve
To keep me waiting
               Wishing
                    Hoping
                         Breaking

Sweet dreams of lost ones
Those who we can no longer find
                                 A place to be safe
                                 Hoping you will be fine
                                             Trying hard to breathe
                                              Not knowing what will last
                                                     But the future will be brighter
                                                        ­                The past is just the past

Everytime I say goodbye
My heart hurts to leave his side
I know I shouldn't cry
But I'm just not satisfied
With leaving without a word and just a sigh
I love him too much and I don't know why
Our love comes easy we don't have to try
My o' my
love

I wish you were here
Near is such a luxury
To kiss you and hold your hand
Understand it means so much to me

My desire is a fire's flame
Blame it on how beautiful you are
You're so tender and forgiving
Having you in my life is like a dream

You are distant, My Love
Love you ever as much still
Think of you often
Soften my heart's will

To see you soon
Moonlight on your face
I will embrace you
Blue when you leave again

You are distant, My Love
In my heart you are always near
You are distant, My Love
I wish you were here

I wonder how much people can change
And how through all these years
I've stayed the same

The only thing that passes me by is time
And I'm trying to my best all the time
But I have to wake up and realize
I'm not fine doing fine

I'm such a simple girl
With complex emotions
So simple isn't my world
Too many situations

"Help me" I wish I could say
But I'm silently wasting away

I want it to be love
Oh desparate heart
I want it to be you
But what you is real

If you hold my hand
What a great start
If you be closer
I know you would feel

For me, a thousand kisses
For you, a golden throne
I want it to be real
But I'm really
All
Alone.

It haunts me.
It haunts me.
The way you breathe my name.
Your touch still lingers on my, and oh my I can't believe you stayed sane.
I grow old with the cold, but at least that I know I can find you now.
I breathe you out.
I breathe you out.
I see you now.
I breathe you out.
I breathe you out.
I can win.

Everything** will be okay;
as long as you stay by me.

When your world is a blur
and you feel unsure;
you can count on me.

I know you just need a friend.
I'll be there til' the end.
You can wait and see.

The world can still be beautiful,
but you've always been beautiful to me.

Oh Moon, oh goddess;
why do you weep?
I know too well of your lonliness.
I know too well about the darkness that surrounds you.

Little light lingers from the end of a day.
The same light that approaches you.
It shuns you, pushes you away.

You believe nobody sees you, but
I know many who admire your
shimmery shine.
Plenty look to your silent beauty.

Oh how the stars are yours and nobody else's.
For they are just as dazzling;
yet you outshine them all.
The glimmer even at a glance of a sliver of you
is enough to allow a decadent sigh.

Somewhere along the way I lost you
In a crowd of a hundred
Waited for you to find me too
But that's not what you did
Is it me imagining you said I love you
Did we not talk all through the night
You never kissed me
Or told me it'd be alright
Music takes you away from me
Even when it's the one thing
That connects us and let's us fall in love
Without lyrics but I guess that's never enough
I'm lost in the rhythms
And you already played the song
I was a piece that you played
without the notes there's no reason for you to stay

The rain is coming down hard
The windows are blurred
Can't see out into the yard
Only thunder to be heard
She sways into the living space
Light of the lamp casts eerie shadows
Something seems out of place
She's not quite sure though
She turns the radio down
Then comes a crash
She turns around
And...


Hello, you've called #12 Neighborhood Watch. How may we assist you?

Yes, there's something suspicious going on

Please Miss, tell us what's wrong?

I've...

Breathing out
In order to breathe in
I know nothing's wrong
But I'm not convinced
I can't let it out
And just let it happen again

It is me
At fault
For having high hopes
For having great expectations
It is me
Whom I'm mad at
Because I allowed myself
Because I believed
It is me
Always me
Always my fault
Always wrong
Am I right?

I'll be the girl you'll forget
The quiet one with things on her mind
The one who prefers whiskey to wine
I'll be the girl you leave behind
I'll be anything and nothing to you
Pass by move on with your life
I'll be yours even if only for a moment
Whenever you feel it is right

Listen to music
Calm down
These things won't matter

I won't tell you I love you
But I'll show you

I still look for you
Everywhere
I always have
I always do

Whether far or near
The rest of the world is blurry
Only you are clear

I still look for you
There
Where we met
Where you left

No matter where you go
If you are lost
Only I will know

I still look for you
Because  my heart belongs to you
I tried to pull away
But I still look for you
And I want you stay
I still look for you
I still need you

And if I am to love you
With great might and understanding
Understand that I am a person too

Strong as I can be
I too have feelings
So please don't hurt me

It's not fair
To tell me I burden you
I didn't ask for this
I'm trying my hardest really
Do you think I want this?
Did this on purpose?
I want to be the girl who talks to people without hesitation
To speak my mind
To get up and dance
To not cry when I'm alone
Not be unable to breathe when I feel the slightest bit of social awkwardness
Not be offended by everyones' joke and jab at me
Which usually leads to more crying and hating myself
I don't want to look in the mirror and hate what I see
I don't want you to think I'm off putting because I'm quiet most of the time
I don't hate or dislike you
I hate and dislike me which is why I could never talk to a person like you
I don't want to love feeling second best at everything
I don't want to be treated differently because of my physicality and mentality
I don't want you to leave
I don't want you to feel like you have to fix me
I can't be fixed
Pain is relentless and forever
I stare for long periods of time contemplating my death
But I realize I can hurt the people that hurt me
I am weak
I am sad
I wish I could stop feeling this bad

Is my heart a petty thing
You are a petty crook
You steal glances at me
My heart is one of many you took

Goodnight used to have luster
When it was shared between our lips
Now you fall to her
Her seductive smile; the curve of her hips

Is my trust a petty thing
Or have I mistook
The truth we shared the lies she told
You reeled me in on a hook

Love her but remember me
One day you'll be wishing
To know where I'll be
I'm long gone on daybreak dawn
Nowhere to be seen

You know that feeling when time freezes
You're hand starts to shake a little
You can't help smiling when you know for a fact how stupid you look
They're the only thought on your mind first thing in the morning and last at night

If I close my eyes you're here

But I'm not real

But you're here and you're alive
You're breathing

But I'm not real, I'm not alive

But touching you feels real
Your hands, so soft
I remember them being soft

Don't you understand
This isn't really me
I'm gone

I don't understand anything
You're here and why can't that be okay

Because I'm not really here
it's not okay for you to go on this way
You must let go

I tried and isn't that worth something
Can't I be allowed this moment of bliss with you

I'm not real
This isn't real
Let go Milo, let go
I'm dead and you must let go

I'll never let go
You're gone but my love will never leave
Forever is a simple thing

Body, mind, and soul
All grow tired
All grow old

Heart strong as a lion
Once so true and brave
Lie six feet under in a watery grave

Inevitable
Life and death
Work then die
Look forward to a future that leads to our inevitable death
Wonder why we try

It makes me sad to lose you
You were something I never had
Never will have and thanks to her
She's not to blame
That I am sure
Only myself
Because she is better