Our love will never be a thing of today or tomorrow, but it will always be there. It exists, and blooms first thing in the morning, but even if you don't find it, it is there. Only, it is asleep, and you wake up, only if it matters.
Some days, I wake up with a hole in my chest, some days, I wake up with my chest filled with too much, that it hurts beyond words. Do I burst with joy? Burst with ire? Or burst into red dahlias and daffodils?
Because I always hold the watering can with earnest, the grooves of its handle imprinted in my hand, as I water my garden each and every morning. And you don't notice them, the flowers that I make bloom.
You gave me the red dahlias and daffodils, and I always close my eyes at night, thinking one day you will notice.
And I know you won't.
But I go on anyway, with my morning gardening; keeping the soil, cutting what has died, keeping them alive from morning through night, caring this way always, without self-regard.
This is my way of love.
Red dahlias-betrayal and dishonesty