Wake me up in the past
So I don't have to face this
Let me live in my memories
Away from the reality

You didn't deserve to be taken
I wasn't ready for you to go
Did you know how much I loved you?
I wonder if now you'll ever know

You were like nobody I've ever met
Now you've been ripped away from me
I'm not ready for this god forbid
Please stay with me

Let me rest
Let me rest
Or is there no hope
For those who are lost

Let me sleep
Let me sleep
Pray I don't fall
To my knees

Let me fall
Let me fall
Because I don't feel
Like I'm alive at all

Let me sink
Let me sink
Like the sun at dusk
As my heart has had enough

Please just let me sleep
For it is dull and I am wary
I am drowning on my tired feet
So please just let me sleep

Please just let me sleep
For I am done with the world
And all it has to offer
So please just let me sleep

Please just let me sleep
For I cannot bare another second
Being awake in the harsh light
So please just let me sleep

I'm sorry I'm the ***** up mum
I wish I was the daughter
That you could admire
Instead I just destroy
Everything I desire


I'm sorry I'm the ***** up mum
And I'm not like the siblings you love
I promise you that I'm trying
But I know that it will
Never quite be enough

I'm sorry I'm the ***** up mum
The others seem to find it so easy
I wish I could breeze through life
Without a care
Just like the others

I'm sorry I'm the ***** up mum  
I promise you I'm working
Towards a better future for us all
Even if it feels like
It's just a steady crawl

I'm sorry I'm the ***** up mum
I love you more than words can say
I would do absolutely anything
To make you proud
One day

Can you feel the weight
Sagging on your bones
And the dead skin
Carrying your woes

Can you feel the pain
Run through your tears
And the eyes burn
Shining with fear

Can you feel it
Consuming your mind
And your thoughts
No longer holding the monsters inside

I won't be quiet
When you stifle my voice

I won't lay down
When you walk all over me

I won't be give up
When you crush my soul

I won't let you
Get me

Hide me away
Wish I was gone
Give me a kiss
But bite my tongue

Slap away my faith
Laugh at my tears
Then hold me tight
Chase away the fear

Walk into the night
Leave me blind
So I can no longer see
How love died

Please don't take another
Bite of my tortured soul
I don't think I can take
Another second more

Please don't look through me
When I'm right here
I know I'm not much to you
But I don't want to disappear

Please don't leave me withered
And out here alone to die
I've had enough of love
So just hold my hand one last time

Go ahead and rip me,
Into tiny pieces,
What does it matter to you?

Go ahead and crush my love,
Shatter my tired heart,
Why should you care?

Go ahead and darken my soul,
Leave me in bits,
For I am nothing to you.

You may be broken,
You may be burnt,
But you'll be okay.

You may hurt,
You may curse,
But you'll be okay.

It hurts now,
You want to give in,
But 10 years from now,
You'll be glad you didn't.

I promise you that you will be okay.

Please don't give up.

Just hold me tonight,
I want someone by my side.
Let your scented skin touch mine,
Just hold me tonight.

Just kiss me tonight,
Even if it's for the last time.
I can't bear these lonely lips,
Just kiss me tonight.

Just love me tonight,
I want to be with you one last time.
I shall take it in my stride if you love me,
Just love me for tonight.

Good for you for leaving me.
Without a moments hesitation.

Good for you for moving on.
Without a second thought.

Good for you to consider yourself,
even when I was there.

Good for you to ignore me,
when I gave you everything and anything I could spare.

Good for you to do what's best,
even when it crushed me.

Good for me now to say goodbye,
Because I'm better off without you.

Kiss my lips,
Hold me tight,
So I have something,
To remember you by.

I know you're hurting.
I know it's hard.
But you can do this.

I know it burns,
I know you want to give up.
But you can do this.

I know you hate this.
I know you feel a sadness in your soul.
But you can do this, have faith.

I know it stings,
But don't let it poison you.

I know it hurts,
But don't let it destroy you.

I know it burns,
But don't let it consume you.

Stolen kisses in the dark,
Words laced with liquor,
Tipsy love striking hearts,
Wishing tonight will last forever.

Crush me,
Add another blow,
What will one little hit do,
To an already drowned soul.

Choke me,
Smother my bones,
What good is the body,
With an ashen soul.

Just have a little bit,
To get you through the night.
Just have a little bit,
To be able to see the light.

Your heart is weary,
And your head hurts,
But know in your soul,
That this isn't the worst.

Listen to the advice,
Try your best,
And know that,
Soon the universe will answer those prayers.

Don't let the pain,
Corrupt your soul,
Even when it feels,
Like there's nothing to live for.

Don't let the heartbreak,
Swallow you whole,
Even when it feels,
Like all the world is wrong.

Don't let yourself,
Fall off that ledge,
Sometimes you've got to,
Depend on you instead.

When your footsteps seem to fall back,
At first you'll just laugh.
You'll brush it off with a smile on your lips,
Saying this is just a temporary mess.

But then you fall back again,
And your patience wears a little thin.
You still stand up tall,
But your empowerment is not quite the same anymore.

You tell yourself it's okay,
Until you stumble over your feet.
You sob into the ground,
And realize slowly, there's no getting up now.

******* their wings,
Tell them to fly.

Ignore their pleas,
Shout at them to try.

Kick them,
Ignore their cries.

I miss you.
I miss your smell.
I miss you.
I miss your voice.
I miss you.
I miss your kiss.
I miss you.
I miss your touch.
I miss you.
I miss your heartbeat.

Don't let it rain,
Let it pour.
Wash over my body and soul.

Don't let it spit,
Let it pour.
Drown my sorrowful soul.

Don't let it drizzle,
Let it pelt.
Envelope my broken soul.

Sink

Drown

Smother

Crush

Break.

Drown me.
Smother my bones.
But you will not destroy,
The depth of my soul.

Suffocate me.
Choke my skin.
But you will not obliterate,
All my sins.

Watch me.
Drink in all,
But please do not,
Facilitate the fall.

Let me melt,
In those big eyes.

Even if it is only,
For one last night.

Let me feel,
What closeness is.

And let us just be,
In total bliss.

Hearts will collide,
A forgotten word.

What is a mistake?
If it is fate.

Please remember,
The taste of my soul.

Even if,
You must go.

Hurt me with words.
Rip out my heart.
Stomp out my aspirations.
Breath hopelessness into me.
Thank you for false love,
But I'd rather you just **** me.

I cannot take this heartbreak.
A sinking feeling that chokes you.
what is life when life is nothing?
Close me off to the world.
Thank you for the ruins,
But I'd rather you just **** me.

The grief is blinding.
With walls crashing all around.
Colours turn dull.
The world is cold.
Thank you for the darkness.
But I'd rather you just **** me.

Just have a little,
Just a bit.
Enough to make sure,
The heart does not rip.

Faith is for the strong,
Thinking is weak,
So the heart must,
Continue to beat.

Do not lose hope,
Just carry on,
And wait until fate,
Will play its song.

Close your eyes
Pretend to wish
Open them
And enjoy the kiss.

Love is dead
Yet the heart stirs
What good is love
When I'm not enough?

Let the heart cry
Just a bit
Yet bite the tongue
When words meet lips.

Hope will get you,
Through the deep dark night.
When you feel like,
You are falling away from light.

Hope will give you,
Perseverance that will not fail,
When it feels like the world,
Is just about to crumble.

Hope will make you,
Grin and bear it,
When you think you can,
No longer take it.

Do not lead the way,
If your footsteps will lead astray.
Be honest with the heart,
So that it will be easier to depart.

Do not go down that path,
If you wish not to feel loves wrath.
Run whilst you can,
Because it will be a better plan.

Do not give false pretences,
And drop the innocent defences.
It will hurt all the same,
As love is never just a game