When I saw his name pop up In your phone. I felt something in me break & it hasn’t been right since. The way you call my name, The way you touch me. I knew it was over. I continued to go about, Remembering the person I once Knew. When you’d kiss me your grip Only got looser, while mine Became tighter. The receiving end of closed eyes In search of better times, Reliving a moment perhaps I’d never live again. Deep down I felt something in me Break, something only you had The power to fix. The voice in my head told me, The way you grabbed me the last Time we met told me. The way you tried to hide it The way I pretended not to see Told me. Your eyes told a familiar story, Not everything needs to be said. To be dumb deaf & blind, I love you that much
Looking at him by that door, ****. It hurts like your first baby tooth falling out. A space left empty by something so familiar. I can still feel the warmth of his pressure on my chest, And boy, I miss it. He looks like a kicked puppy when he has to leave, But I feel like one. And every night, I turn the lock to the right then back to the left. I can’t lock this door. I can’t for fear that I’ll walk into my room And he’ll run up, Meeting a barrier which I allowed To come between us, And I can’t for hope that he will come back, Arms open, jaw set crooked, biting his lip.
Baby. Why did you go? More importantly where did you go? I’ve looked everywhere for you so you can return my heart but, Now I’m weak without it. And I can’t look anymore. Baby. I asked. No! I begged you not to leave. Only a few more hours I pleaded. ‘No!’ You screamed. Will I ever have my heart back? Or has someone else already got it?
Lying next to you is like heaven on earth. Surely you dont realize what exsactly you do to me. My heart is in ruin. How the **** can I let you go. I cant find sleep. I'm watching you sleep. And your talking in your sleep. These little moments with you I will always cherish. Why did you give yourself to me, if you were just going to leave. I understand you need to find yourself. Let yourself heal from a wicked past. A past that haunts you so badly. Theres no room left for me.
I need to be a man about this. I need to let you go. But darling I cant seem to know how. Before sunrise you'll be gone. Out of my life. I love you C. Always have always will. Please come back. Please be my wife.