Our backs hold stories
Not even the spine
On a book can handle

I want to believe in my
OWN truth
The many times I've come
Through on my own
Did what needed to be done
Without being told how

By using my own intuition
I was brought here with
To forge a place around
my Own tree of life
My surrender
My sovereign
My light

And the best thing is there are others
In my life that show up and stay
From time to time
To wake me up into this
To help me grow
Into the Meet me

First of all those
Who see that best me rise
And to compliment
Not control
Who endure through
Not who back down

Who drown inside themselves
To get to this unconditional love
Which they Know
From lives thousand
Before them

To make this time
Ours to shine in
And do more than
Just march on
But to EVOLVE
To become a
Revolution in their own

I want to be spanked
HARD
held down in knots

Black tar dripping
From my
Porcelien body

Yours forever
If you'll
Keep me

I want to be begged
Jadded and screwy
All the ****** up
Things that we
both need

I need to be alivened
Dead and
Frozen
All at
Once

Hanging from
The ceiling
While you
Watch me

You're on the floor
Knee deep in memories
Swimming above the rest

Taped inside to a wall
Of secretly filled desires
Unadultrated
Fetish tied
Teeth gripped
Tears inside

Turning fears into
Excitement

You crave
You dance
At the thrill
Of the life
Those nights
brought out

Let me choke you
A few more times

I slapped his ****
Across my cheek
Held it in my mouth
And did it again

Oh you nasty little girl
You love daddy's ****
Don't you

Suction your head
And make a loud pop
As I come off

Finger up your *** now
Spit and slide lips round and down
Pumping finger in and out

Cupping your ***** like a ring
******* you
Till I scream
Now get every last drop
Mmmm that's right

Engorged breast
Supple thighs

Scent toking
Under neon lights

Leather strap
Near my neck

Tie loose
Around your ****** neck

You are mine tonight
Don't forget to
Come...back

I'm death defyed by you
Your warm skillet
Of afterthoughts
And tongues

The sweet taste of
Teardrop and bubblegum
The *** from the nurses
Cabinet

The stairwell
We had a good habit

Only to lash out
Of many times like this
When I kiss the cheek
Of a monster
And steer down
A road less inhibbited

One we want to know again
One that taste of teardrops and sin
And fun nights of running
With guns down
the streets of Adalie

And once again
We find this bliss
Somewhere between
Heaven and who gives a ****

Where the stars kiss our toes
And wine fills our holes
From valinquished unrelinquesed love

Replaced by sweet current aftertaste
Trying to perfect this flow
Is a hell of who knows
Why must I travel down it again alone

I want to make people laugh
And as their eyes dance
I sing inbetween the rhythm
Of a half naked clown
Another poetry lit

As you may presume
I have a knack for the gloom
But uh uh my wicked bunny
Trix are for rabbits and
Laughter for the kids

So eat your heart out
Pull out your tounge
Make your soul bliss
As laughter hangs from above

And kiss the stars again
As the night returns its moon
To the window in time
Whom we'd all like to meet
Again soon

I feel like I'm trapped
In time and space
But you are not
On my continuum

I search each hall
Only to find pictures
Hung of you
With no after

I'm miserable and
Complacent
There's only one thing
I could think of

Play you just say
Play
And I will

Dream you just say
Dream
And I will

Forever you just
Say forever

And I scream
STAY just
Stay

The space
In between
Where we want
To be
And reality

What lies
Beneath
Will never be seen

What lies ahead
Is all in our head

Go for it
Make a dream

See the future
Break free
From what use to be

Hold dear
To the quiet atmosphere

Time here is inevitable
But the illusion
Is the lie

That takes us
From prison and hell
To doors we never
Thought were there

He wrote
inscripted objects
Into my eye

He bountied
For affection
One not
Likely met

She screamed
While sufficating
Her authenticity

He shouted
Yea she'll come back

She wore her wedding gown
Into the dessert
And was found drowned

He wrote
Inscripted objects
Into my eye

The novels now
A mystery
My Life
Total chaos
With a smile

Because he's no
Longer with me
I cry my left eye out

Love is a four letter word
For your soul
To dive into

Why not beat the armoured trust
And hold onto the empty

Cause love doesn't know
another door
It always wants to fill me
With targeted emotions
I can't trust

But I don't want to rust
I don't wanna run
Never give up the fight
The answer is us

We live in your mind
Not in your heart
So follow the footprints
into the dark

your mouth will fill
With bitter pills
That poison the answer

Your tongue will hide
the greased stained lust
And rot out the center

Let me wash away
all your broken shame
So I can get into
The beauty that
I can't explain
I'm running from fears too

Your mind will not let go
Please Open up
I want you to feel soon

Your arrows fallen
Spilled with gold
What can I hold onto

There's targets on my heart
Need enlightened points
And I'm calling out for
ONLY YOU

You are the tailor
The maker
The storm and the desire

I dont think
We see the dark
Until we see a crack of light

I woke up
Same as always
Too stuck in thinking
The fog was normal
Was supposed to be there

That somehow I Needed
Permission to be just Me
My high impact crazy ***
Overdoing it fast self

Yes I may be too much
And I really have to watch
My limits
But that's not the issue

I trust myself to come down
Off my highs
And all the things
That say I can't fly
Were Never mine

I release the need to please
To act as if I belong
I only belong to me
I am only accountable for me
No one else has a right to
Change me unless I let them
I guess I am owning it
My actions my consequences

Tell me i lost you in my dreams
Not in real life I can't take that
Tell me tell me please you'll come back

Poetry is flowing over my skin
Lights me up from within

The way bubblegum feels
As it pops on my skin
Sticky and sweet
I feel a burst of fresh air
Pop inside of me
Lips lick the pink aftertaste

Her hands came
From sawdust
Burried deep
Hidden caves
Of madness

Her speech
Made no sense
But I knew
I read her lyrics
I could see the stars
Dancing in her eyes

Madness
Was a four letter word
Lust love tragic
We had to say goodbye

I miss her sparkle touch
And warm hugs before
I closed my doors
Sometimes a heart
Just won't have it
And sometimes it ask for more

I'm tired of "understudying myself"
  
(The just in case syndrome, the worry, the not good enough,the anticipation of failure has got to go.)

Its time for me to be the Star

Skin torched
Tongue porcelain
Unable to convey
What I have to say
  
One day
One day

Her thin unwritten beauty
Prevailed the sadness
Between her white eyes

Her beauty may have made
Her different
Her gifts she could not hide

What was now taken
Was fully once embraced
Her sound of the undertakers face
Scared off by her grace

The end.

Colors begin
To obscure
My diluted
Distained
Avatar vision

Soon I Will
Wonder
What I was fussing
Over in the
First place

He pulled me in
Never to return again
One last look
One last touch

I'm lost without it
***

Do you stare
At a devil
In your shadow
I do?

Does he ask you
Or threaten you
Where to begin?

Rhetorical functioning inhibbited
Playing once again
With the demons
Called friends

Some are nice
Yet some too revengeful
To let in

Do other angels
Call like she used to
Singing sweet lullabies
But all you give
Them is fables

Spotlighted gaze
I hunt this maze
For self denying sacrifice

Only second
Isn't right
And turning left
Is now
Out of sight

I close both sides
of heaven and hell
noctournal persuasion
held within
dust leaves
walking shadows
casting souls
to find another

She ran on empty
far too long
She kneeled
At the alter of creativity
And began to write

You dance around you
Fire rings
Until the light comes
Seeping in
After midnight

Your hearts on fire
It quakes the very
Core of men
This stronger will
To pursue the
Earth beneath me
And dig all my bones
Up again

Just to leave me
In piles of ashes
Carried off by
The coffins
Where they
Lay inside

No longer in
My room
No longer in
My life

The coffee sip
At 3am
Is just another
Punishment
They say so
But I kind of
Like it

Take me my soul
I'm Bleeding in
Take me my soul
Bring me home
Again
Take me my soul
I'm Bleeding In
Take me my soul
Make me KNOWN again

Sparkling drops
Run down my face
Reaching the floor
Burning holes until
title ends

*******
*******
*******

To everyday
That I feel pain

To the ones that always
Rain on my parade
Pardon my manners
But I think my head is displaced
Or off circuit
Or just a basket case
of unending nerves
That bundle together
To make a fire place

And then shock
Me with migraines
On an unforgiving
Regular basis

My paranoia
Is all that's left
Maybe I'll give that a go
Maybe know one will ever know

That the shhhhh....
Their listening!

Sorry the end.

Hold yourself
Make something
Out of this
Human being

Give authorization
To you
And not them

Show this mirror
That life
Is temporary
Thoughts
Emotions
Are too

You don't have
To feel the pressure
Or conform
To their to dos

You are enlightened
Firm and true
You are a million
Stars birthing
Kalidescopes turning
You are you

Words are forms of vibrational starts
Pure white light increases
Downward I feel healing

Salt life

The taste of spirit on my tongue

Salt life

The sound of my heart after it drums

Salt life

The opening healing to my childhood wombs

Salt life

F* my style
I don't
Have to
Rhym

Maybe I'm back there
Doing my time

In this room
Called attitude
You work me
Like a dime

I ain't gotta
Make money move
Just living
A hell of
A ride

Outlets are a must
I bust my *** off
Just to watch another day fade
I think not

I can't help but fill my spare time
With the verses that wrangle inside
This caged lion

Spliting hearts for a living
is hard work I tell ya?!

Her mouth
Enveloped me
Saturated this intimate glow
Inside of me
Touched every corner
Traced the lines
That I let no one see

Her mouth kissed
The bruised
Bandaged the wires
Defused the misfired

Her lips
I stare
For hours

She was the missing piece

Your tongue licks
Against my vertabre
We reconcile violent colors
Underneath these sheets

Here comes the breaking of day
Letting our shadows be undressed
In the lightest orange and rouge
Let's stay in and play
Let it not spoil our progressive
Repossesions of One another

I've waited too long
To sink my teeth into you

I can't even pinpoint
When it begins
All I realize
Is that I'm somewhere else
Far away from here
Inside of loves layer
Built in my core

I'm lost in you

My mind spaces
What I was doing
Is now done
And I can't remember
Any of it
Cause I was there not here

Ahhhhhhhh

I don't even ask
For a ride
On loves wheels

It's like an alien invasion
Ur ****** up from the planet
Exsist in an open galaxy
Made of intoxicating inhales
And even better exhales
There is no other place
I'd think to be!

Carnival
Cotton candy
Pink illusions

Stark night
Trees moonlight
***** knees will do

Jokes and laughter
*** happened after
Don't freeze
Run run

Sobs hysterical
Turns angry at touches
Deepens wounds
Needs therapy

Behind closed doors
Confidence grows
Sharing secrets with
An honest soul

Growth
Enlightenment
Letting go

Feeling that everything is alright
And you know it
Describes your soul

Her legs went up
Behind her
Her mouth gapping
In delightful excitement

***** you disgust me
I say to her
What round eyes
You have

Now I take a second
Look at the veins
In her neck
Bulging hot red

In an instant
I grab her
Biting till I choke her

She cringes
She screams
She starts tapping
On the bed

Let me in
I whispered deeply
While feeling
The coarsness of her
Warm succulent beauty
Between my nostrils
And lips

She claws at my mouth
Opening her viscious
World to me

That's more like it
I yell in delightful beauty
Uh oh too late shes dead

And I drop her
On the floor
And go hunt
The grounds
For more

Yummmmm

Once you found Rome you don't leave!

We connected...
I trusted her to see me today
It felt like I gave a piece
of my soul away
She's friendly and kind
I really like her style
I think she'll do just fine
I will work on trusting me
More now

Her soul grabbed the moon
As she tucked it inside her heart
She said from this day on
We will never part

That moon has been with her
Since birth
She doesn't remember
It holds no ones name

She called it faith
She said that moon
You refer too is not
The same one I use

Mine is of gravitational flights
High in The air
Of sleeping off daylight
Just to capture The night air

Of addicts pour and
Brokens sad state

I say The moon
Is ours
I just saved your soul

You never leave
I have you by the ear tip
Waiting
Lingering
Like a child's favorite story
Like its never gonna end

I can feel the feverish rush
Of your spins
And the calculous miracles
That we'd let in

You're never gonna leave me
Because you're forever emblazed
In my head

Because anytime your available
A thought of your body touches
My nerve endings
And I don't know whether
To answer or to dance

Because let's face it
You've got me
With tongues tips
Tasting forever happiness
And multiple desires
Ride off of expectations
Onto a cloud like Nine

Don't worry
We'll make it
Out alive
Or will we

Drowned in each
Others potions
Until our tongues
Melt together
And we become one

One touch
One word
Away from eternity

"So I steal your shadow from the sheets
And it lays breathless beneath the
Stars with me."

The spell
The spell
The spell

Lashes
Unbound

BROKE IT!

Freedom ring
Lazyboy time
No more fears

The END...
or is it

Is it wrong
To want to be alone
In your own solitude
Doing whatever
Soothes your soul?

i can't think of her
when you enter
the sentence
i quickly end hers with a period
and enter yours with a grin
and an exclamation point
enough said

Spending time
Erasing plans
Trying to draw
Up new ones
In my head

Time spent
Procrastinating again
When will it
Ever end

Dun-dun-duuuuun %+p

UNASHAMED. UNAFRAID.
GO FOR IT!!

Horse
Magic
Skilled rabbit
Pocus
Pizzazz
Lipstick
Bra
Forgetfulness
Habbits
Rambunctious
Pandamon­ious
For skin
Labels
Misguided heart
Wrong turn taken
Abandoned
Abused
Looked after
Stolen
Virginity
To heaven
Extreme
Behavior swings
Cool
Dude
Out
Can camaflouge
All his feelings
Just so
They don't
Get stolen

Lost words

In her eyes
I was light
Filtered through brokenness

I was the calibrated afterthought
Calculated each night above the heavens
Peacefully laid to rest
By the Stars

I was the monster
That tore her clothes off
Her bleeding heart
On floor

She missed me
And I did not care
She wanted more
And still
I did not care

She pretended to
Love
She pretended to
Live
She was her eyes
You see