You swam through my dreams like a dolphin
Then stomped on my hopes like a stallion
You answered my prayers like an angel
But you turned out to be just a devil
So why do I miss you?
Please tell me why
How hard can it be
To let bygones go by?
If you’re really the devil
That answered my prayers
And haunted my dreams
Then where are you now?
I should not allow
Your memory to linger
But my hopes are like dust
Just slipping through my fingers
I’d like to let go
And drift through the air
But I don’t have a prayer
When you’re always right there
The rain can stop falling
On this hallowed ground
Any day now
I’m bound to escape
But your binding reach
Inside my mind
Won’t let me go easy
The way that I’d like
There’s no turning back
Or turning around
So you’re welcome to temp me
Through the distance we’ve found
You escaped our paradise to risk your own happiness,
I stood on that third floor, numbing my heart,
Covering her eyes to shield from your betrayal.
She felt your touch linger as your fingers slipped through,
I froze all the tears that persisted to fall from my eyes,
Disguising my ice rivers as the spring breeze.
Our Kingdom fell apart as you slammed the door,
Her love strong enough for walls not to collapse,
We stood there in silence as you desert true love.
Unplug yourself and in that stark still shade linger eyes-wide under His gentle gaze and let Him examine and explore your innermost longings and there you can share in the glory of His imaginings. And as you linger, stay still longer, allow Him to thread through the laughter of the warm flickering shadows of hearth and home, let Him give voice and shape and colour to every faint ember and let your spirit soar with His through every new door that He has in store for you and yours.
The confusion collapses around me
A torrent of emotion barreling though members of the crowd
But it only takes a second
Now everything is clear
All I ever wanted was to be cut free
Is that as shallow as it seems?
In my heart
No one will mourn
For what could of been
You'll never know it
But i fought for you
I worked this breif day away
I sutured the pain
I sewed my mouth
And threw my soul
All of this
To gain or regain
Now no one knows
And yet they care
Or i know they would've
Had they seen me
As this here, or, my world
Is pulled undone and beams of light
Pierce the darkness and my eyes
I've yet so much to do
Yeah, we still talk every so often, but, it's like, hard for both of us, I guess -
At first, after she said she didn't want a
relationship, she was like - "Kev, I still want to be your friend."
Of course, I didn't argue with that, I wanted every bit of you I could hold on to-
But, now, I feel like you regret saying that- Anyway, why would you want to be friends with me when you know I still want to be more than friends? I wouldn't want that...
So, now, 8 years later, you're still the only one I truly ever wanted-
I text you, every-so-often, because, I want you to have me as the friend you wanted - You hardly reply...
One time, I went a year, or even more, without reaching out, and, I got nothing from you, then, one year, on your birthday, I finally broke down and texted you, you seemed so happy to hear from me; you were excited even, you said: "I really missed you." I was ready to feel that excitement, it was taken from me when you said you were celebrating with your new boyfriend, what a blow, but yeah, good, you're happy
This whole fucking thing has been, me, straining to grasp a lingering Heat, can it, might it, Vent?
Now, again, you say you want to be friends, do things, but, when you can, like, see Conor Oberst, Prospect Park, because your better boyfriend doesn't like him - well, you have the convenience of me to go with, but I'm not, quite, good enough, not like those goofy fucks who are better for you-
I still try, and I feel like an annoyance if it's not when, how, you want it, so, why do I still love you? why do I still love you? I'll probably disappear again, soon, but you? no, I can't see that...
with each gust of gloom
transparent emotions flow
a whistling tender breeze
lingering a lonely rhythm
realigning clouds of smog
hovering tattering trees
leaving behind a silhouette
absorbing shadows of sorrow
all alone a locked heart
searching for unknown hope
humming the bitter dreams
of a darkened and lost soul