You're a devil in disguise,
Still you're the only one
Who makes me feel alive.
You take me to a different world.
Where, life isn't as difficult as it seems.
Where... even the constant cacophony
Sounds like a melody.
Yeah, You're a devil
Because you make me believe
That, I'm worth saving.
She was aesthetic... not because of the way she laughed or the way her eyes sparkled whenever she talked about something she loved and not because of the way she used to bite her lower lip whenever she was lost deep in her thoughts.
But, simply because of the way she perceived the world. She was full of positivity and her aura spoke volumes about all the captivating mysteries that made her who she was.
All lonesome you remain,
Within these four walls of pain,
Going on with your lies and manipulative ways,
As if, it's a child's play.
Saying things you don't want to say,
Hiding things behind your fake facade.
Asking everyone to leave you alone,
But that's not what you really want.
Needing a shoulder to cry upon,
But too bad that you've pushed everyone away.
Taking advantage of their kindness,
And throwing it back on their face.
In the end, nothing matters ,
Because after all your life was a disaster,
Though, it was a disaster you made,
Still... it's better that you ended the never ending pain.
She had learned to spread her wings all by herself.
She was born from the ashes of her broken soul.
She was all alone, left out to fend off on her own.
But she survived, because the fire inside, burned brighter than the fire outside.
The rising phoenix
You promised me paradise,
And gifted me hell .
I thought you were an angel..
But you proved to be the devil himself.
You poisoned my mind,
You cursed me with words,
Which used to cut like knife.
You abused me night after night,
You left me broken and tattered,
Begging and praying for someone to save my life.
You thought that these wounds won't heal?
You thought that this pain was enough to ****?
Well you were wrong.
You broke my heart.
You crushed my pride.
But look at me, I continue to survive,
You hurt my body,
You destroyed my life.
But I still stand on my feet,
Like a warrior about to strike.
There's a hint of devil in her innocent eyes.
There's a dangerous smirk lurking behind her cute smile.
She looks like a dark angel with tattoos all over her skin.
Casting an ominous shadow all over the beautiful things.
I was miserable when you left.
I cried for hours and days.
But now what I feel is undoubtedly the most contradictory emotion I've ever felt,
I don't think I'll ever forget you.
You were my enchanting fantasy which abruptly ended on a sad note.
You were my first mesmerizing emotion of utter utopian devotion.
You were the drop of Jupiter that dripped upon my hair and left me wild.
You were the fire of the purest passion that burned me alive.
You invoked the deepest desires from the darkest corners of my mind.
You loved me when I considered the meaning of love as a waste of time.
You left me as if I was a pariah on the pedestal of a sacred shrine.
You disappeared like Houdini as soon as the lamp lost its light.
You abandoned me and vanished like a phantom, right out of my sight.
You were the myriad of perfection that seemed so lovely to be deceptive.
But when you left, it felt like a shard of glass ripping through my heart.
It hurt, and I screamed the most melancholic sound.
My devotion turned toxic and it spilled like acid on the ground.
Smoldered the memories of the best times and charred the symphony that my soul sang out.
So what I'm trying to say is that I don't think I'll ever forget you. Neither will I ever forgive you.
I'll think about you for the rest of my life. Till the day, the sky falls down and engulfs us in its light.
Lend me your wings because I have none.
They were clipped off, feather by feather they dropped.
Those people believed that I was odd because I had the ability to rise while all they had was the power to tear apart somebody's dream to fly.
She has a baggage full of secrets,
Secrets, that she has held onto so tight.
She has her demons,
Demons, against whom she can never put up a fight.
These demons have made her a sinner,
A sinner, with a trapped soul.
Her conscience seeks to find redemption at every door.
But no redemption is delivered without a certain price..(whisper the demons inside her mind)
Her soul screams in agony,
Her heart wrenches in pain,
But those demons keep cursing her
Till she goes insane.
You fell in love with her words.
You let her walk into your life.
You thought that she is just a harmless girl with a cute smile.
If only you had paid a close attention to her,
You'd know that she has a tendency to use her words in the form of a knife.
Her silent smile, hides secrets inside.
With the demons lurking in the back of her mind.
Love is indeed the most tragic form of art.
You once asked me how deep my love is for you. I never answered.
You see.. I wasn't sure.. whether you would like what I say. I didn't want to overwhelm you with my reply.
I'm a possessive soul.
I can't share what is mine. You may call me selfish.
If being selfish means having you all to myself.. then yes I'm the most selfish person on this planet.
As for my answer, my love for you cannot be measured. It's unfathomable, boundless and unrestricted. There is no depth to my love for you. There is no end to it. Nothing will ever be able to suffice how much I adore you...
Everyone pretends to be a saint in the daylight.
But, when the lights go off and the darkness overtakes,
Their hidden demons crawl out and play.
She was a complicated
combination of tears and scars,
He was a melancholy musician
with a dark past.
His music, turned her tears into
roses and her scars into stars,
And in return, she became the
journal to his dark past.
Then, he started to compose
music by strumming the strings
of her heart.
He painted her beautifully in different hues.
The blank canvas was now full of iridescent strokes of art.
But her soul was *colorless.
Smoke and musk and a bit of spice
That was the fragrance of the cologne
He was wearing that night.
Black background and shiny lights..
That's what I saw in his endlessly
Dark charcoal coloured eyes.
Smouldering fire and goosebumps in sight
That's what his hands
On my back felt like.
Electricity shooting up my spine
And rendering me paralysed
That's what I felt when his lips brushed mine.
"Do you remember the time when we first met? I was wearing a guns and roses t-shirt and you were playing basketball with your friends? Remember how I was walking past the court and got hit by the ball, and you came running towards me, asking me if I was okay? Do you remember how shy you were when our hands touched for the first time? Your cheeks turned into the color of beetroot.
Do you remember how we became friends? I was new to the society in which you were the head? How scared I was when I had to sing for the audition round and you decided to sing along to my favorite song?
Remember how you asked me out? Took me by my hand and intensely gazed into my eyes, as Eric Clapton sang 'wonderful tonight' in the background? Remember how I started laughing and asked you to stop joking around. And then you just kissed me, to stop me from blabbering. I was stunned and shell shocked.
Remember when we got drunk after our first big fight? We said mean words and slept in separate rooms that night. Remember how I later knocked on your door to apologise? We drank the entire bottle of Jim Beam and got sloshed as we listened to Bob Dylan till the wee hours of the morning light.
Remember how it all began?"
I see no recognition in your eyes. I guess the amnesia didn't just take away your memories but it also took away everything that was mine.
The feeling of loneliness that resides.
The heartache that makes you cry.
The guilt that kills you from the inside.
The gut wrenching screams that shook you awake at night.
A momentary lapse of your moral rectitude destroyed your once happy life.
One mistake is all it took to fragmentize your soul.
Just some words.
Just some words spoken under the influence of anger that clouded your mind,
Were enough to shatter the world you worked so hard to build.
The regret suffocates you.
The flashbacks haunt you.
No medication seems to work.
No place to go.
The memories run like a broken record in your mind.
There is no path that seems to be right.
Except for an endlessly dark abyss leading to self destruction.
Never fall for a damaged person because they'll lure you in. They'll captivate you with their mysterious past.
They'll tell you that they're broken beyond repair and then you'll make every possible effort to prove them wrong.
They'll scream, they'll yell, they'll howl, they'll yelp. . but somehow you'll become the cure for their pain.
You'll fix them up and believe that it's a permanent change. But their demons cannot be suppressed for long.
Their aura will always allure you and you'll end up being the victim.
Intentionally or unintentionally you'll fall in love with someone who feels nothing but numb.
And this vicious cycle will continue.. because now you'll become the broken person and someone else will fall in love with you.
Don't overlook my complexity.
Chaos is what makes me unique.
In this disguise of a beauty.
I hide a maniac within me.
Try not to steal my heart.
For its not up for sale.
Try not to free my soul.
Before its too late.
You'll run in circles of mayhem.
If you figure out who I am.
I'm not someone you're likely to meet.
Because I'm just a spectre in your dreams.
I'm the indecipherable sphinx.
That has no clues or hints.
Something that is physically there
But doesn't really exist.
Once you meet me..
You won't be able to forget.
For I am that mysterious stranger,
Whom you can never get out of your head.
The fallen decided to join the ****** and commit sins.
The angel became a devil because someone decided to clip off her wings.
You left me burning in the agony of our love.
But I collected those ashes and preserved them shut.
Buried the bottle of our memories under the willow tree.
And watched in awe as a small sapling broke free.
He had been in love with her all his life,
But she had a heart as cold as ice.
He wished to melt down the frozen barrier,
And burn her alive with his endless desire.
Oh darling, I told you not to set
Our demons free,
We might be together,
But, we can't let our demons be.
For if, our demons decided to play,
Mine will consume yours in every way.
And the clouds echoed his name
As they came pouring down in the form of rain.
They dripped down upon her face
And kissed her tears away.
She caught her breath and released a woeful sigh.
As she began to realise..
That even in death, he refuses to let her suffer
And end her life.
Let me get devoured by the yin
Give me the power to commit a sin.
I'll swim in the ocean of greed
For I'm not someone who follows any creed.
I'll indulge in the poison of pride
Since I don't have any intention to get off this deadly ride.
I'll play the role of the sloth
Who killed the goodness that was hiding under the cloth.
I'll drown in the pleasures of lust
Because love isn't meant for those who can't give their trust.
I'll burn with unrestrained envy
As you flirt with her coyly.
I'll let her suffer with gluttony
It's a small price to pay to continue with the journey.
I'll unleash my reign of terror and wrath
And walk down the ****** road that'll lead me to my aftermath.
Forgive me father for I've committed these sins...
I wish I could genuinely apologise but now I can no longer hide my grin.
Run away with me, to a place faraway,
A place unknown to others,
A place that makes us wanna stay.
A strange land where we can build a house of our own,
A foreign land where our past is not known.
A beautiful place where you and I are free,
Where there are no ties that bind us to the rules of the society,
A magical place where love is as boundless as the sea.
She is just going.. going places.
She is leaving without any traces.
She is aimlessly travelling in search for something.
Like a vagabond, she is just wandering.
Try not to stop her, because she is actually falling.
Falling in love.
you were just a
delicate droplet of water
While he was someone
lusting to drown in the sea.
He didn't know that you
were the beginning of the
He craved the danger
and assumed that you
just provided serenity,
He wished to conquer
the ocean and
witness the end.
But he failed to understand
that your existence is
something no man can transcend.
He wasn't a loner.
He was just a wanderer in search for a place where he could find peace.
His imagination was too vivid and wild. His mind was like a sphinx, impossible to decode.
His thoughts were a tangled mess of knots.
He was a mystery.
He was never able to seek peace but he found something intriguing. He met her.
Just like him - Wandering like a gypsy, with chaos occupying her mind.
She was like the missing piece from his jigsaw puzzle of a life.
Together they dreamt about all the magical infinities they longed for all their lives.
Your heart isn't a home for every person who seeks shelter.
Your heart isn't a piece of paper where people can sign off without saying goodbye.
Your heart isn't supposed to heal their wounds every time.
Your heart isn't a beautiful painting where people can trace it's different strokes
Please remember that your heart isn't a home for every person that knocks at your door.
Don't let them tamper with the love that you harbor.
Your heart is not made of gold. But it is full of kindness.
Your heart is not a home with a welcome mat spread right outside.
Your heart isn't a yard sale where people can trade emotions whenever they feel like.
Your heart is naive like a kid and it does not realize what is wrong and what is right.
Your heart is not a home for the person who leaves their footprints on the ground and vanishes right out of sight.
She claimed to have a black heart which was devoid of any emotions. But she still had a heart even though it was dark.
Then you came along with your set of crayons. Tried to colour her in your favourite shade.
But since her heart was black there wasn't much that you could do. Still you were persistent and continued to colour her in a different hue.
As you scraped the crayon across her heart, you realised that some blood had started seeping through.
But you were so blinded by the joy of knowing that the inky colour could be removed that you stabbed her heart and left her body to turn blue.
I relate us, to the sun and the moon
See.. how the distance between them is-
So close and yet so far
Just like you and I,
We are close enough that
I can touch your hand but not your heart.
The greatest grief for a writer is to lose the connection with the pen and the paper.
The soul of a writer is as tormented as the clash of tides in the sea.
There is an ongoing battle between what is right and what is wrong.
The writer's mind experiences an unexplainable turmoil of raging emotions.
There is no escape from the cages that surround the heart except for writing... writing till the words bleed with truth.
Till the colour of the ink becomes the colour of their soul.
After all that she had done to him.
He continued to love her.
Because, he believed that beneath all the vanity, lies and manipulation; She was beautiful.
There is something beautiful about darkness.
It intrigues even the most colorful minds...
Maybe it's because of the mysteries it hides in it's blackness.
Or, because it is simply the color that attracts our souls.
Falling in love with me is like, playing with fire.
You're bound to get burned.
I won't compare you with the moon,
Because for me you're like the sun,
My whole world revolves around you.
This is written for someone who means the world to me.. my mom.
I was a well written novel and you were a curious reader. You wanted to know what my words had to say. So you read my words silently, in the dark night as moon hid behind the clouds. You traced my passages from page to page, you didn't leave an inch untouched. You learnt my secrets and read your favourite parts over and over again. You scrutinized every tiny little detail, as if I was the most beautiful work of art and you were about to go blind. So you memorised my entire story and narrated it's tale, because you were too afraid to forget my name.
Be the contagious smile,
That spreads on my lips,
When I see your happy face.
Be the star,
That shines bright.
The one star,
I wish upon every night.
Be the perfect destination
To my never ending wanderlust.
The one place I keep returning,
To quench my thirst.
Be the wine,
That intoxicates my soul.
The special wine,
That keeps me wanting more,
Be the love,
That resides in my heart.
The unconditional kind of love..
That no force of nature can tear apart.
Nothing in this world
hurts more than
being bound to someone
who wants to remain boundless.
No fancy cars or restaurants can lead to the gates of my heart.
But a simple honest gesture in the form of words can make my soul dance with joy and wonderment.
So tell me.. am I worth the effort?
No grand proposal or a luxurious dinner date can make me love you.
But a night spent gazing at the stars with nothing but silence surrounding us can make me fall for you.
Will you lay down in silence and think about those celestial bodies?
I don't ask for much you see... I just want your company. Don't mistake me for a low maintenance person. Because I'm not. But I'm not a high maintenance either. I'll demand your attention. I'll crave for your affection.
You may shower me with those exquisite presents but don't.. not even for a second think that they'll have any affect on my feelings towards you.
I'm a woman of my free will. Neither your wealth nor your expensive price tagged gifts can make me fall in love with you. Give me your love. Devote your time. I'll return it with an abundant love and grant you with the opportunity to be the love of your life.
Words come quite easily to me. But whenever I'm trying to write about you... I feel inadequate.
I take pride in being a writer, the notorious person who makes magic with the pen and the paper.
But you render me helpless.. With no words to rhyme.
Do you see, The kind of effect you have over me?
You are turning a poet's life into a poetry.
But now that you've left me all alone in this madness of love,
I surrender myself to dwell in the pain of lost hope.
I see no beauty in this cruelty that you inflicted upon me..
I no longer wish upon the shooting stars,
Yet, I refuse to give up on those feelings that you had stirred in my heart.
My empty soul cries a woeful song for you to return..
Even though what you did was worse than a treason.
Your betrayal turned my most epic poetry into a tragedy.
If only you let me share your burden,
I swear I'll shun all your demons away.
If only you let me close to your heart,
I promise to kiss away your pain.
If only you let me see your naked soul,
I swear to be the devotee of your name.
You are my unfinished poetry.
The only poetry that I refuse to complete.
It's when the lyrics started to make sense that I realised; poetry resides in your eyes.
A dedication for someone special.
His mellifluous voice ignited a spark in my soul.
His face looked so calm as he strummed the strings..
But, the guitar strings were not the only strings getting plucked.
The strings of my heart were getting hammered with emotions,
As he started to play the kind of music that took me away to a state of trance.
All I could hear was his voice reverberating in the hall.
And all I could feel was Euphoria.
You're special. All my life I considered myself to be a multicolored iridescent stroke of art in this world of pastels shades and fine lines. I knew right from the start that I wasn't a masterpiece presented by Picasso or Kahlo. I was a pretty splotch of sunny hues and velvety blues cleverly spilled over the black canvas.
To find me beautiful, it required a keen eye that was ready to overlook the dainty presentation of the works of Van Gogh. There exists a story of pain and insanity behind each work of his creativity. I am and will always be the scribbled I ink across the sheet. There is a piece of poetry within me, for the person who is patient enough to look through my messy facade. And to pick up the pen and write a sonnet across my heart.
Even with the multicolored spots I bleed the words of love and loss. The two most basic emotions that are often left unexplored.
My soul hummed the old school love songs that no one could ever recognize. Until the day I met you. Even in a room full of exquisite wonders you chose me. You whispered the lyrics to my favorite song and left me spellbound. With a lopsided smile you held out your hand and asked me for a dance, without any conscious effort I floated and there I was; held securely in the arms of the man who owns my heart.