you turn to me but i'm not there i'm drowning i told you but you couldn't listen the thoughts won't make sense none are clear they're surrounding encompassing and unnerving if i take one last breath would you notice the body folded neatly lying under the baggage you placed on my back i can no longer support myself but you won't take the load stuck inside your head and i'm stuck with you if i stop speaking i'll stop breathing so i'll carry on until my fingers are shaking too much from lack of oxygen or sometimes too much i can hear my breathing speeding up faster ready to take off and fly away with what's left of my soul and spirit that you didn't crush still going as i recognise the dizzy daze i'm falling into waiting to collapse in on myself for maybe the last time for a while at least we both know it won't happen because of you i couldn't however much you argue and scream and shout or maybe it's because of her calming my mind ok i have to stop now i told you it would get too much once again i say i'm sorry remember me or the old me if you can it wasn't your fault
No matter who you are or what you have been doing at some stage an obstacle appears without choosing. It may be a person, a thing or one of nature's forces that can just set you back on your forward courses. It could also be a sheer lack of available knowledge called ignorance, about what to do next or to manage that activity or certain thing you've been involved in where any progress forward seems unlikely and thin.
sleepless nights coffee driven no motivation just movies and shows dark circles fills my eyes tears loaded realizing the wasted space no work done just sleepless nights with no motivation just netflix at night and dark circles becoming my eyes
To have too many emotions. To be too transparent. To feel too much. To be too open. To be, too much. And will it ever be possible? To get them to understand. That they’re too less. That they’re terribly afraid of us showing them something they cannot ever reach. That they have a lack. That we don’t have anything in abundance. And that we are not, too much.