We march.
Steps creating a steady rhythm.
Left. Right. Left. Right.
A rhythm which will haunt me until my deathbed.

We were promised glory.
We were promised riches.
We were promised peace.

You cannot have glory through death.
You cannot be rich, knowing the suffering of the poor…
You cannot achieve peace through bloodshed.

Look! Just see through this smoke!
Look in the mirror.
We’re not just killing each other, but ourselves too.

We are no longer human.
We are merely tools of those who have the ability to brainwash us.

Making us no longer able to differentiate between right and wrong.
Making us believe that killing is right.

That glory is achieved through bloodshed.
That riches is achieved through bloodshed.
That peace is achieved through bloodshed.

What naivety.
What childish thoughts.
What sadistic and ugly thoughts.

We are not Gods of this world.
We are not intelligent creatures.
We are not saviours.

We are demons of the earth.
We plague the land with our slaughtering and terrorising of one another.

Praying for peace, sending children to war.

God help this forsaken world.

For peace is something which we animals will never achieve.

You may shove me
But I will still stand
You may call me weak
But I will still stand
You may say I'm a little girl
But I will stand tall
You may tell me I can't
But I will

Cut me open
Rip out my heart
To you that's all love is
A sick form of art

Dancing on tears
Laughing at cruelty
All I can offer your sick mind
Is such pity.

Needlessly toying
With girl after girl
Good for you
For getting a thrill.

Congratulations on your game
I saw right goodness in those eyes
But I was just another one
You managed to play

Pain rockets through my body.
A new, unusual pain.

Not physical.
Not describable.

Not temporary.

My heart flutters for a moment, remembering...

The good.
The wonderful.
The incredible.

But then it comes rushing back and hits me, just like a train wreck.

The images flash by, one by one they race through my mind.

Allowing the visions to peace together haunted memories...

Memories of sadness.
Memories of woe.
Memories of misery.
Memories of hatred.
Memories of the ******.

The pain is a sudden rush of sadness.

It buries itself deep into my tortured soul, etching scars there forevermore.

Making me realize... Real eyes... The real lies...

Fool.

Love is nothing more then a simple illusion.

It flusters, flushes and flatters us in one simple moment, yet the next it has vanished.

Love is nothing more than a cruel beast.

It taunts and teases.

It evades the heart when us mortals need it the most, yet pounces when we need it the least.

Love is nothing more then a mocking demon.

It allows us to repeatedly circle our true eternal other, yet it pushes us in directions we never intended to go in.

For love, is nothing more, then pain.

The days are long and dark.
Nights blur into one.
I need you more than ever.
Please just come.

Dusk and dawn alike.
Skylines as grey as a dreamless sleep.
I need you more than you know.
Please just come.

The world is falling.
Fading beneath my feet.
I need you so much right now.
Please just come.

My tired eyes can barely open.
I am lost more than you could imagine.
I need you.
Please.

Please do insult me
To the best of your ability
For I can promise you that
To me your words are empty

Please do gawp
Everytime I walk past
I can assure you that
My style is one to last

Please do make an enemy
Out of me if you will
For I've been looking for
Someone to give me a thrill.

You seemed
So close
By my side
Then
But of course
You told
A lie
Falling through webs
Away
From the truth
You
Went to a place
Where
I couldn't reach
Or stay
True

Demons.

They plague the inside of your soul.

Dancing in your blood.

They haunt your tortured mind.

Daring you to join them.

They confront you.

You see them in your eyes.

No escape.
No escape.
No escape.

Taking you by the choke-hold, they shake you, whispering in your ears.

You're right.
You're bad.
You're brilliant.
You should do this.

As darkness spreads throughout your haunted mind, you feel your humanity slipping away.

Whispers of morality sift through your grasp.

As you realize, the only way, in this world.

Is the darkness.

I'm not okay.
I'm not going to recover.
I know you expect me to just snap out of it.
But I'm only human.

I'm okay not being okay.
I'm okay being sad.
Yes I'm fine with shedding tears.
I need to get this out.

It's not okay to hide it.
It's not okay to let it go.
It's not okay to bottle it up.
It's not okay to keep pushing me when I say no.
It's not okay to demand things of me. When I have so little energy.

I beg of you please, listen to me. I'm going to be okay, I know.

How I wish
My eyes were wrong
And I didn't see
You sin

How I wish
My ears were gone
And I didn't hear
You with him

How I wish
My hands wouldn't shake
And I didn't feel
You betray me

How I wish
My words would come
And I didn't silently wish
You to disappear

Who knew how much
The heart would ache
For every day
That you are away

God only knows
The mess I've become
Without you
How can I carry on

Things are harder
Without your wisdom or guidance
And I feel so blind
Lost in hateful darkness

Please leave me be
For I know that I'll never be enough
For what you seek

Don't use those shining eyes
To look at me or lure me in
For I can see straight through those lies

You burned me once
And I know that's once enough
I do not want your touch

I know love is not
What you want from me
So stop sinking your teeth

Please leave me be
For I can do better
Than a beast

Send me to sleep please
I can't bear this constant grief
Send me to the world
Of a dreamless dream
Where nothing is real
And I'm floating on nothing

Do not let me go through
Another waking day
Because I can't bear this
I can't bear the constant pain

Can I live in my memories
Where your smile will stay with me
And I'll never have to face another day
Alone

Thank you for showing me
How to finally be free
For I know now
We were never a forever

Thank you for the lies
And for cutting ties
For I now know
How little I meant

Thank you for running far
You didn't deserve my heart
For I now know
I deserve better

You held me tight
When it was twilight
Kissed away the tears and pain
To let the misery float away

Beneath the stars
You said to me
That our love
Could never be

Hands entwined
Not enough time
And then you left
For the repear knows theft

May your soul travel
Through the night and day
And know that in my heart
You will always stay

I wish I could be
The best thing for us
But you and I know
I'm just a curse

When love touches me
It turns to dust
And hatred burns
With every touch

Tears turn to ash
Whilst pain fights inside
The soul strives to escape
And you sink in lies

Sorrow burrows itself
Into my smiles
Spreading its wings
Ready to devour

Thank you for burning me
With your senseless thoughts
For now I know
My own worth

Watch the blood
Pour down wrists
Turn and laugh
Because I know
I'm worthless

Steal my joy
Make misery
Seep and pour
Because I know
That's all I'm
Good for

Hold me down
Miss my cries
Put words to me
Because I know
I'm not worth
Anyone's time

There is a weight on your soul
Only just held up by your tired bones

Your sagging shoulders falling with pain
Whilst your eyes are lost in a world away

Struggling to hold the world with your feet
There is no rest for those who can't let it be

It's not fair.

You were the best thing.
That ever happened to me.

You believed in me.
Like nobody else.
You supported me.
Like nobody else.
You loved me.
Like nobody else.

You were the best person I knew.
That I'll never get to see again.

It's not fair.